Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Literally. I baked some cookies today (yea, frank has to go see his grandma and that means, me making cookies for her) and of course, I ate some. I have had a terrible taste in my mouth since then. It lasted through dinner even.
How crazy is that??? I used to love sugar and until just this minute I thought I still did but now? I am not too sure. I dont like that aftertaste thing going on.
Next subject: I am on day 3 of the 28 day challenge. It is going good but alot of the excercises involve knee stuff that I cannot do so I find myself making things up but it works I guess. Then I have been walking. Since Saturday though, my right knee is killing me! I can barely get through a mile, a slow mile! I came home tonight and put this electronic stimulus thing on it and am hoping it feels better tomorrow. I am also going to go see my orthopedic dr. I would normally let it play out but it is really upsetting me. I almost cried today when I realized how this is slowing me down. I usually walk 2 or more miles a night and now every step is killing me. And I am not a whimp so... yea.
Next, next subject: you are gonna see some blogs about this so let me lay it out. My father in law was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma. It is a blood cancer that makes holes in your bones. No bone is unaffected. He is 77 years old and one tough man. Let me spare the details but he has a very painful future ahead of him. It is going to be horrible. There is no cure. All we will be able to do is try to make a few memories before he is paralyzed and bedridden. Totally heartbreaking. He is not an easy man, not someone you would tell sweet things too. But before he goes, I will tell him that he gave me the greatest gift in my life, my wonderful husband and I will always love him and be grateful for that. I am sure he would rather die than have me tell him that but I am going to do it anyway.
So, that is what is happening in my world today.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Jan:Thanks for being here today. I know you are busy and I appreciate you taking the time out for this interview.
Jan: Well, thanks for having me. I am only too happy to be here, talking about myself. It is an important message and I am sure your readers are very excited about it too.
Jan: Now, you have lost over 60 pounds in a bit over a year. Can we talk about that?
Jan: Of course! I am an open book.
Jan: Well, let's get right to it
Q. Are you done losing weight?
A.Uh, no. I am barely over half way.
Q.Are you just gonna stay here and maintain within these same 5 pounds?
A. Uh, no. I am not. MY immediate goal is to lose 2 pounds by sunday based on a challenge from a new friend.
Q. It looks like you are happy where you are. What are you going to DO about it?
A. I am going to track my food like I always do, I will keep walking like I always do but I am going to go a little farther and/or a little faster to keep moving forward.
I am going to add some strength training because I have been lazy about that.
Q. Are you happy with your progress?
A. Yes I am happy with how much I have lost but I am not happy with the slow down. I know I have to kick it up because the things I have been doing for the last 13 months are not enough anymore.
Q. But didn't you know this day would come?
A. Yes I did. But I didnt want to accept that it was here already. I was comfortable, it was fairly effortless and now I have to work harder. I may even have to *gasp* make some sacrifices.
Q. What do you eat?
A. Well, my tracker is open so anyone can go see what I eat on a daily basis. I think I mix it up pretty good but I need to try to hit the lower end of my range a few days a week instead of the higher or middle range so consistantly.
Q. What is your biggest concern right now?
A. The condition of my body. I am flabby and I deserve to look better than that. Summer is coming and while I look alot better than last year, I do not want to be confused with the star of the "Water for Elephant's" movie with my saggy, baggy elephant skin.
Q. Anything else that is giving you a problem?
A. Besides my constant hunger, the inner brat that wants what she wants and the lack of weight loss progress? Besides the fact that I KNOW I cannot bake delicious things (like cookies!)....Other than that, no. I think Im good.
Q. Since you are a "Spark People Motivator", do you have any words of advice for your friends or others who may have stumbled onto this scintillating blog?
A. Yes. Yes, I do.
Face the challenges head on
Don't pretend you don't know what you are doing (when we all know you do)
Don't whine (worth mentioning twice). **Whining does not mean expressing things are hard or trying to work through feelings. Whining is just complaining without resolution so someone will feel sorry for you, so they will do the heavy lifting you should be doing. Nobody has it easy so just get on with it.**
Success comes from consistancy
Don't beat yourself up if you choose to eat something off your plan. Geez, you are human, right?
Sometimes it will be easier than others. For Everyone!
Dont over think it.
Move more than you did yesterday
Dont make it harder than it is or that it has to be.
Ask for help
Write it out
Whatever level of excercise you can do, just do it. It doesn't have to be your preferred method of excercise. Take a walk, dance for 5 minutes, lift you dog over your head, just do something more than you did yesterday.
Plan your meal so you dont get in that trap of just eating whatever is handy. I am making Parmesan Basa fish filets tonight. Pretty excited about that.
Do your best today. Just for today. Tomorrow will take care of itself. Just for today, make good choices, eat within range, get a little excercise, help someone else, write a blog, Like someone else's blog, take your measurements or weigh in, encourage each other.
Jan: Well, thank you for your honesty and for your time today.
Jan: Oh you are so welcome. I enjoyed being here although I do think you were kinda grilling me.
Jan: Just doing my job.
Jan: Don't be pouty. Do you have any final thoughts for our readers?
Jan: Yes I would like to challenge them to find something good today and tell me about it.
Jan: Ok well you heard it here first, folks. Mamadwarf would like you to tell her something good today. Ready? GO!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
For the last few days, my old habits are starting to sneak back into my life. Craving sweets, especially after eating a meal, deep down hunger even after eating a reasonable amount, being tired, not feeling like walking.
I think it started whenI had to bake cookies for my hubbys grandma and of course, had to taste a few. Then I have eaten a few each day for the past few days. Finally, they are gone. But I have had options and I have chosen to eat badly instead.
I have fruit salad which I LOVE, sugar free puddings (love), Fiber Plus bars (love). But chose cookies.>
Today I made a sandwhich for lunch. I had reduced calorie wheat (love) but still ate the Potato bread (double calories) anyway. I could have walked to the store but I drove. If Frank hadn't made the dog make me feel bad yesterday, I wouldn't have gone walking either but he made Stitch get all excited and looked at me sad so I went.
I have lost no weight since March. Well, I have lost a few pounds but gained it back. I am not where I want to be. Not by a long shot.
I think my rebelliousness is in full effect.
I WANT WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT AND YOU CANT TELL ME NO!
What a brat!
I am only half way to my goal. I still want it. So what the heck is my problem? I told myself the other day I would not eat any added sugar and I went ahead and ate cookies and jelly belly's. I tracked them, too. I am not lying to myself or my tracker. I am not feeling overcome and cant control myself. I just want what I want. Period.
I still drink all my water. I still track my food and my excercise. I still have my next mini goal in mind. I still am on spark several times a day. What the heck am I doing? And why?
I guess that is my job to figure it out, huh? Brats dont like having to think that hard! (stomps foot!) and adding (pouty face!)
Thursday, April 21, 2011
This is a link to my friend's page. Please go read this blog and make comments, suggestions, encouragement or butt kicking (that was my preferred method of drive by cheerleading today). This girl is incredible and doesn't know it. Come on, sparkers. It's your turn to ramp up the juice, the insight, the advice and the love. Thank you.
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