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Yea, but.....

Friday, April 15, 2011

Today I was doing my hair after my shower and I saw my arms in the mirror. I saw my saggy under arm skin. I thought, "Awww, man, I hate that flappy skin! It looks horrible!"
But then the magic happened. I thought, "Yea but look how good your biceps look!"

That got me thinking....In my past, how many times have I done that but in the negative?

"You look cute in that" (Yea but my shirt is too tight and my belly is hanging over)
"You should go for a walk" (Yea but my knee/back hurts so I cant)
"You need to lose weight" (Yea but it is sooo hard or I have tried before and I cant and my lifestyle makes it too hard etc.)
"You need to get healthy' (Yea but my numbers are all good and I am only PRE-diabetic so I have time"
"Honey, maybe if you lost some a little weight you would feel better" (Yea but you love me anyway so why bother)

"You are losing weight soo slow!" (Yea but I am still losing!)
"It is gonna take FOREVER to get to your goal!" (Yea but I AM gonna get there)
"Your saggy baggy elephant skin belly is sooo gross!" (Yea but I look better than last year!)
"You still have over 50 pounds too lose!" (Yea but I have already lost 65!)
"All you do is walk for excercise" (Yea but I couldnt do that before and I go farther or faster all the time!)
"You can't eat a Bacon Cheeseburger and fries" (Yea but I can have a Hamburger with ketchup and veggies and a salad and steal a couple of fries from Franks plate)
"You can't do this. It is too hard, you always fail, you have too much to lose. 111 pounds? Wayy too big of a goal!" (Yea but I am doing it so STFU!)

So between NOW and THEN, I will take NOW! And whatever your "Yea, but...." is that is keeping you down, tell it to stuff it and TURN IT AROUND. It is all in how you look at it.
Eventually the" Yea, buts" will be "YEAH BUTT's!"

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THREEE 4/23/2011 1:30PM

    i can only vote once to say 'i like your blog' but know i will pimp you out as best i can...

and i've decided that if my arms won't tighten as i lose weight, i will refer to that extra skin as my 'wings' that i've gotten a little early while i am still here on earth emoticon emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/18/2011 7:02PM

    I do the same durn thing.....but then I come to my senses and remind myself of how far I have come.

Still think my arms suck though! :) If they were truly bat wings I could fly to India!

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BRITCHES82 4/16/2011 2:23PM

    I loved this!! Great blog!

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VEEJAY3 4/16/2011 1:08PM

    Does this excuse make my but look big?

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LESLIES537 4/16/2011 11:43AM

    YAY for your inner voice of reason!!! NOW is WINNING!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JBARSTOW 4/15/2011 10:23PM

    I'm in 100% agreement with the folks who said.......You Rock!!!

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ATREAT4ME 4/15/2011 7:48PM

    Love your attitude. I hope it rubs off on me!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/15/2011 3:42PM

    LOVE IT!!!! SO true, every word of it. I'm sure every one of us could have put ourselves in those shoes.. yea, but...

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 3:08PM

    I needed to read this, thank you!

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MELLYBEANS0919 4/15/2011 2:06PM

    That made me smile. That is great!! I am starting to do positive self-talk more and it helps so much! Keep doing what you are doing, those are great things!

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LISSIEONE 4/15/2011 1:41PM

    Heck yeah!!! Rock on girl!!! I was thinking that the other day on the scale, I got on and was like "Whoo hoo you've lost 62 lbs!!!" and then negative me was all "Yeah've still got a long way to go" so the positive me kicked her in the behind and said "Yeah BUT you're already down 62, so you've PROVEN you can do it!" And every time I think something like that, I know I've made another huge change.

Yeah but, we can do it!

:) emoticon

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RIGBY31 4/15/2011 1:21PM

    Yes... be in the NOW! I'm tired of the big "butts", too.

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SARAWALKS 4/15/2011 1:18PM

    emoticon NOW ROCKS! emoticon

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SHRUTI_SARAOGI1 4/15/2011 1:14PM

    Love this blog post! you go girl!! emoticon

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COOKWITHME65 4/15/2011 1:02PM

    Good advice. thanks!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/15/2011 12:55PM

    emoticon Awesome! Love the "now" list!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/15/2011 12:55PM

    I am proud of you

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/15/2011 12:49PM

    That's good stuff!! GO YOU!!

And from now on, I'm going to try to remember to turn those "but's" around myself! It's such a better way of thinking...LOL.

- Michelle

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ONYXOFDARKLITE 4/15/2011 12:48PM

    I enjoyed reading this. I think I'm still in the past frame of mind. I will sit down with myself and try to come up with some present frame of mind stuff to talk about with myself.

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Now that I have had a minute...

Thursday, April 14, 2011

I wanted to add a few things to my last blog about the TV thing today. As I was watching the whole thing on DVR, I realized something: There was nothing I was embarrased about. My house looked good, my daughters are pretty with good sense of humor, my pets were fun, I was a good sport. I mean, alot of things happened that did not make that short clip including the interviewer totally calling me out and making me wrestle with her to try to make the bird scream! I did it.
Sing live on TV? sure why not!
Go on TV without a shower and last nights bed head? OF course!
I wasnt nervous, I just had fun. It actually takes a lot to embarrass me.

I also realized that 65 pounds ago I would NEVER have allowed myself to be video'ed or put on tv. I never allowed pictures of any kind, at least not often. I have always been confidant in front of crowds (Yes, I am a ham) but I would have been very embarrased by my weight. I would have watched that tape back today and been so embarrased by my lumps and rolls and fat and all the things I would have noticed.
Instead, I was not horrified and there is a hell of a lot of satisfaction in that. I think I looked pretty good actually and that makes me really happy. Im glad I made the change. I really am.

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JIBBIE49 4/23/2011 4:47PM


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HEALTHIERTINA 4/15/2011 9:48PM

  You were all amazing and you looked wonderful, even without the shower. Way to go.

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 3:00PM

    I thought you looked great!

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OVERBURDEND 4/15/2011 8:38AM

    You look great, the whole family does. I'm so happy for you.

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MESEATURTLE 4/15/2011 8:31AM

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JBARSTOW 4/15/2011 8:05AM

    Cool - congrats on the progress and confidence! By the way, I really enjoyed the clip, too.


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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/15/2011 7:57AM

    You looked awesome!!! I love witty people! Your family are stars!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    You looked great and your girls are beautiful. And I gotta tell ya, there's nothing better than laughter and confidence!! :)

- Michelle

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/15/2011 7:33AM

    I am so happy you feel so good about yourself. You deserve it!

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ATREAT4ME 4/14/2011 11:50PM

    Well, you added this before I could comment on your earlier post so ...

This is so beautiful and I think you and your daughters are stunning, Jan!

I love what you wrote and can identify with it so vividly! I just had to do a video for a conference at work and went through exactly the same thing, even though I didn't get to sing with a dog or wrestle -- both of which are very good things! Yes, this is why we're here and I think it is the struggling that we're doing that teaches us to be comfortable with who we are, where we are, and when we're there.

I am so happy for you that you are able to so thoroughly enjoy yourself. that is a big payoff! Woohooo!

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GRACEISENUF 4/14/2011 11:46PM

    You REALLY did look great Jan and I sure couldn't tell anything was up with your hair. It was also pretty cool to hear your voice for the first time.

You've come a LONG way baby!


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TV debut

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Well guys as promised, here is a link to the TV interview today. First of all, they got to my house at 6 AM instead of 7 so the shower went out the window. Then my parrot would only talk when they turned the camera on. The star of the show of course, was Stitchy! She sang lots of times and was adorable as well as Mix the cat who ran into the room whenever they were filming and Kady brought her rat into the mix too just so the world is convinced we are completly crazy! I have better video that I will put up when the girls compile it..... Hope you enjoy
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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/15/2011 3:46PM

    So cute! You and your daughters look great!

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 2:57PM

    Hahahahaha!! Love this, how awesome!

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RIGBY31 4/15/2011 1:30PM

    What a wonderful circus! Your girls are sooo cute. And you, darling, look fantabulous! The whole gang ... celebrities!

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MOMMYTO1IN2012 4/15/2011 12:08PM

    What a great family! Animals and humans! And you looked FANTASTIC!!!!

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COOKWITHME65 4/15/2011 11:14AM

    So cute. Thanks for sharing. You look fantastic my the way!

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TERRYT55 4/15/2011 10:39AM

    I loved watching this and smiled all the way through! Beautiful daughters, beautiful pets! Happy to see you have a rat......don't they make great pets.

You look terrific, Jan.

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SLFRISBEY 4/15/2011 10:37AM

    LOL! You have such a fun house!!!! I love the animals and how they all have wonderful personalities!!! :)

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    LOL - Loved it!!!!! :)

- Michelle

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    This is SO great, thanks for sharing!!!

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/14/2011 10:19PM


YOU looked wonderful and your daughters did too!

Stitchy cracked me up.. she was licking the rat's butt like dogs like their babies! (I raise English Bulldog puppies so have seen that so much LOL)

Mix was just a perfect example of cats... love her arrogance!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/14/2011 10:14PM

    OMG Stitchy is adorable and Jan you look awesome! So skinny! I love it.

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MSKITYOCAT 4/14/2011 9:13PM

  Blessings on your day

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WATCHMEGO2 4/14/2011 9:11PM

    What fun Jan and you looked great!

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GRACEISENUF 4/14/2011 9:09PM

    Jan...I thoroughly enjoyed every second of your "Circus" as the reporters called it. Stitchy is quite the "show stealer!"

I used to have a pet rat that looks just like yours many years ago.

THANKS for sharing this...I loved it. By the way YOU looked GREAT Jan and your daughters are precious.

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Stuff I thought about today

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I love the face of old dogs. I love how their muzzles are grey and their eyes are a little cloudy but they always seem happy. Just happy to be.

Baby horses are being born right now in Northern California. I cant tell you how happy that makes me when I see a little guy, just learning how to walk and frolic.

My cats are crazy.

Thursday AM a local TV station is coming to my house to see my parrot and to see Stitchy sing. I will get a link and post it so you guys can see it. It should be hilarious.

Dinner was soo good tonight. I pounded chicken breasts thin, rolled up a slice of canadian bacon and reduced fat provolone cheese and breaded it with panko and parmesan and baked it. It. was. amazing. Pair that with broccoli and a baked pototo and french bread....I am a wonderful cook!

I just feel good today. I ate perfectly within my range and I am getting ready to go for a walk.

Why is my kitchen floor ALWAYS in need of sweeping?

The fruit salad I made today is fabulous.

I like white yogurt raisins as well as the dark chocolate ones and they are both the same calories!

I hope my daughters marry their Art's. Soon. lol.

I feel like the Universe is lining up for good things. For me. For all of us. Man, I hope I am right.

Today was a good day. I am happy. I hope you are, too.

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OHSOCOOLLISA 4/14/2011 9:37AM

    I hope you can repeat this kind of happy...EVERY SINGLE DAY :)

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CELLISTA1 4/13/2011 8:15PM

    Girlfriend, your happiness is CATCHING!

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KAMAPERRY 4/13/2011 2:11PM

    Happy thoughts!

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LESLIES537 4/13/2011 12:16PM

    Cute blog! That baked chicken sounds a.w.e.s.o.m.e!! I had to google what panko was, lol. I'm trying to turn from a terrible cook to a wonderful one--like you! emoticon

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ATREAT4ME 4/13/2011 11:09AM

    I see you're at it again! Counting your blessings, on a good and hopeful day. That is wonderful!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 4/12/2011 11:17PM

    "Why is my kitchen floor ALWAYS in need of sweeping?" You too?!! Thank goodness it's not just me!

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RIGBY31 4/12/2011 11:15PM

    I love your random, day dreamy thoughts. Life's good.

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DEBBIE19580 4/12/2011 11:08PM

    what a great blog!!!! im so happy that you had a awesome day!!! we all sure could use those days more often!! great to hear!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 4/12/2011 9:32PM

    Love happy days. Good for you! emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/12/2011 9:29PM

    I can't wait to see stitchy sing!!!

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    Sounds like a wonderful day! Foot pain aside, I too had a great day.

Diner tonight is salmon, parmesan zucchini with wild rice.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/12/2011 9:17PM

    I just love your blogs!

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SPARROW59 4/12/2011 9:06PM

    I loved your blog. Gave me peace and also a smile. I work at a kennel and one of the first things I saw this morning at 6:00 a.m. was exactly the look of an old dog you described. Aren't they so wonderful?

Thanks for the refreshing thoughts. I needed them this evening. You made me think of the things I thought of today.

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GRACEISENUF 4/12/2011 9:05PM

    Your dinner sounds really good Jan. I oven fried chicken and steamed fresh brussels sprouts and a few potatoes...omg it was sure good. We had a huge garden salad for lunch that was awesome too. I like how you stated you are a good cook. Heck take credit where credit is due. I think I'm a pretty darn good cook too. I made chicken noodle soup from scratch today and taco soup and froze about 10 containers.

Today was a good day for me as well. I love your blogs!

Enjoy your evening spark buddy,

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Continuing....Things I dont care about

Thursday, April 07, 2011

I dont care about WHY you dont feel like it.
I dont care about your rationalizations
I dont care about your excuses.
I dont care why you think you can be crappy to people
I dont care if it's hard for you. Its hard for all of us
I dont care if you had cake last night. Today is a new day.
I dont care if you are weak, tired, bored, angry or hurt. That is not an excuse to punish yourself with food.
I dont care if you can't run. You can walk, right?Cant walk? Can you lift some light weight? Can you read an article? Can you make a food plan?
I dont care if you arent gonna make that goal you set for yourself. What are you gonna do? QUIT?? Hell, no. Move the line and keep going.
I dont care if I havent talked to you for awhile. I still care about you and you mean alot to me.
I dont care how far away you are. I am still just right here.
I dont care if we have never met face to face. You are my friend and I love you.
I dont care if I gained a few pounds last week. I had fun, it was worth it and I am going to continue living my life and losing weight.
I dont care if you think I look good. I care if I FEEL good.
I dont care what we have for dinner if you are cooking. I will make it work.
I dont care where we go, as long as we go.
I dont care about low carb/weight watchers/ jenny craig etc. I care about eating real food that tastes good.
I dont care how much you have to lose, how long it takes you, how far you have to go.

I care about US, that WE are doing this for ourselves, that WE will keep going every day and that WE will get there. Because WE set out to do something good for us and WE will get there. One step, every day. Thats it.

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RONOSOF 4/13/2011 10:16AM

    LOVELOVELOVE emoticon emoticon YOU ARE ON FIRE!

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/13/2011 7:51AM


I am cheerin' you on!!!! GO JAN!!

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BAYBELIEVER 4/9/2011 8:47PM

    BRAVO!!! This is awesome. Thanks.

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SARAWALKS 4/8/2011 3:32PM

    emoticon Me neither! Or is that Me too? Whatever! emoticon emoticon

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CELLISTA1 4/8/2011 1:17PM

    OMG - Were you always this incredible or did this come along with your Spark experience? It's like - you let us have it, but you did it with love. I need this printed on my hands so I can see it every day! Fabulous!

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SPRINGHAZE 4/8/2011 10:07AM

    THIS was awesome and just what I needed to hear today! emoticon

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LILLYPILLY24 4/8/2011 1:41AM

    Great. Yes. You do realise that a lot of your don't cares are actually real caring in disguise, don't you? Love it!

We're going to reach our goals ... I'm loving watching us get closer.

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/8/2011 12:06AM

    i dont care about my lumpy a$$ in spandex either! emoticon emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/7/2011 11:43PM

    You are my friend and I love you too.


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CSERF09 4/7/2011 10:53PM

    I need to copy some of these things on post them to look at when I'm not feeling into it. Thanks!

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VAMANOS 4/7/2011 9:12PM

    Hear, hear!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 4/7/2011 9:07PM

    First blog I've read in a long time... well worth the wait emoticon

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RIGBY31 4/7/2011 9:04PM

    Oh honey, thanks for keeping it real. I need a good talking to with a firm voice!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/7/2011 5:34PM

    I got chills! Well said Jan, WE are going to make it because WE don't care that others say it can't be done! YOU ROCK!!!

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    So true! Great post!

I am so glad you have my back, know that I have yours too!

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ATREAT4ME 4/7/2011 4:53PM

    Well said!

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THREEE 4/7/2011 4:32PM

    what a charmer...are you sure you're not a southerner?
a blog worth reading, really reading...
thank you, once again

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KAMAPERRY 4/7/2011 4:21PM

    WOWZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This rocks! I needed this today! emoticon

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SLFRISBEY 4/7/2011 4:21PM

    Thanks, I needed a kick in the pants today to get me moving again! :) And to add on, I don't care if I am tired, I will do it anyways! Love it!

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