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Bratty McBrattison

Saturday, April 23, 2011

For the last few days, my old habits are starting to sneak back into my life. Craving sweets, especially after eating a meal, deep down hunger even after eating a reasonable amount, being tired, not feeling like walking.

I think it started whenI had to bake cookies for my hubbys grandma and of course, had to taste a few. Then I have eaten a few each day for the past few days. Finally, they are gone. But I have had options and I have chosen to eat badly instead.

I have fruit salad which I LOVE, sugar free puddings (love), Fiber Plus bars (love). But chose cookies.> emoticon

Today I made a sandwhich for lunch. I had reduced calorie wheat (love) but still ate the Potato bread (double calories) anyway. I could have walked to the store but I drove. If Frank hadn't made the dog make me feel bad yesterday, I wouldn't have gone walking either but he made Stitch get all excited and looked at me sad so I went. emoticon

I have lost no weight since March. Well, I have lost a few pounds but gained it back. I am not where I want to be. Not by a long shot.

I think my rebelliousness is in full effect.
I WANT WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT AND YOU CANT TELL ME NO!

What a brat!

I am only half way to my goal. I still want it. So what the heck is my problem? I told myself the other day I would not eat any added sugar and I went ahead and ate cookies and jelly belly's. I tracked them, too. I am not lying to myself or my tracker. I am not feeling overcome and cant control myself. I just want what I want. Period.


I still drink all my water. I still track my food and my excercise. I still have my next mini goal in mind. I still am on spark several times a day. What the heck am I doing? And why?

I guess that is my job to figure it out, huh? Brats dont like having to think that hard! (stomps foot!) and adding (pouty face!) emoticon

  
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MOMMYNURSE 4/28/2011 11:08PM

    Wow Jan... you are right to tell me to read this blog! My brat has been in full force too. Eating bad things when I have good things sitting right here I can eat that honestly probably taste BETTER (ie fresh pineapple instead of overly sweet cookies)
Time to tell our brats NO so we can be hot mamas!!!! PS subscribing to your blog!

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BECOMING_HOLLY 4/26/2011 10:25AM

    I totally hear you! I have turned a new leaf and I have kicked it up!

Someone once told me that artificial sweeteners make people CRAVE sweets... there is apparently some chemical something in there that makes you want it BADLY. Could that be it?

When I avoid all artificial sweeteners, I am gold. Once I make friends with my Smart Ones desserts, I crave MORE and WORSE!

Good luck battling the pounds! I reached a plateau and got lazy mid-February (it all started with a battle with pneumonia) and I finally started kicking it up a notch and lost 11 pounds in one week!

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BADASSBLONDIE 4/25/2011 12:11PM

    Man I feel ya. I've gotten into the habit of not tracking on weekends! What? Awful decision! I need to stop doing that...

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KAMAPERRY 4/24/2011 11:07PM

    1 cookie= 2, = 4, = whole batch= binge for me, I agree it is sugar addiction! emoticon

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SARAWALKS 4/24/2011 10:57AM

    Thing is, it's such FUN to be a brat! emoticon
Being good all the time gets to be SUCH a STRAIN. emoticon
I find that eventually I just get sick of my bratty self but sometimes it takes a while and in the meantime, I have to just attempt to control the damage.
New definition of maintenance = control the damage? emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ATREAT4ME 4/24/2011 10:17AM

    Going through something similar, m'self and I'll be working through it today (I hope). In the meantime, brat or no brat, I know that you're going to pull yourself out of this because of who you are and how you've behaved for months now. So, for whatever reason, you're here right now. You'll figure it out and then we'll all be back to marveling at your amazing attitude and determination to succeed. I KNOW it!

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HEALTHIERTINA 4/24/2011 9:49AM

  I am right there with you. And now I have filled my house with Easter Junk food in the name of my daughter, knowing I will probably eat a lot of it too. I can't seem to say no to junk right now, even when I have other options too. Remind your self it is progress not perfection. We will both pull out of this bratty rut we stuck ourselves in. emoticon

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/23/2011 11:24PM

    OMG! I love you, even when you are having a bad...um week?, I love you. You make me laugh and you make me smile, even when you eat cookies.

Walk, no driving, Hey dog needs a walk!

You can do this, next time make a fruit salad instead of cookies!

Still smiling, so thanks for that.

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ANEWTATIANA 4/23/2011 9:34PM

    Firstly, thank-you for adding me as a friend. I need all the support I can get! and I hope to return the favour!

I can really relate to what you're saying. Been there and done that all too many times. But my grandfather always said that if you fall off a horse, you have to get right back on. I went out for Chinese dinner yesterday. I love this food but I eat it so rarely that I really overdid it and ended up waddled home feeling very guilty. Allow yourself your tantrum, then give yourself a swift kick where it counts and get back on your horse. How about joining me for a ride to lose 2 pounds by next Sunday?

D.

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VEEJAY3 4/23/2011 8:40PM

    I know, I know. Inside me, there's a bratty two-year-old fighting to get out, too.

We'll eventually treat the inner brat with tough love.

We will, won't we?


Won't we?
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LESLIES537 4/23/2011 8:12PM

    Darn cookies!! At least they're gone now! Time to get your butt in gear and turn that pouty face into a emoticon You can do this!!! DUH!! emoticon emoticon

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RIGBY31 4/23/2011 7:14PM

    Goodness! I thought I was the only brat out here, throwing a feeding tantrum! Walking, what's that? But I KNOW... just like you KNOW... the only option is to be the best person you can be to yourself. I totally get choosing other stuff over the good for you stuff. So let's just knock it off. I'm giving myself one more day of so-so. Then I'm going to swift kick myself into high gear. I can come over and swift kick you too, my dear, if you'd like! Because our nonsense has to stop. Our live's depend on it. Let's look forward.
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CELLISTA1 4/23/2011 5:38PM

    Yikes - I'm a brat too. We brats are our own worst enemy. There's good stuff about being a brat, like we're strong, we're feisty, and we are smart asses in a good way. So what we have to do is be bratty about our health. If I said, "Jan, sorry, but you've been a brat so you can't have any fruit salad, and what's more, if Stitchy does a dance, you still can't take him out. Stay on the sofa til I say you can get up!" You'd pretty much smack me, right?


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GRACEISENUF 4/23/2011 4:47PM

    I've been there, believe me. I am reading a new book that really explains sugar and it's addiciton....some liken it to crack!

The book is called Sugar Shock and I got it cheap on amazon.

Love the ending to your blog...maybe you need a little "time out" huh? :)

Happy Easter to you and your family Jan!
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JIBBIE49 4/23/2011 4:44PM

    emoticonNo Fat Chick for us DONE GIRLS since we ROCK. Happy Easter emoticonWe are EGG-citing. emoticon

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Someone needs you. Serious DBC needed.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4181072


This is a link to my friend's page. Please go read this blog and make comments, suggestions, encouragement or butt kicking (that was my preferred method of drive by cheerleading today). This girl is incredible and doesn't know it. Come on, sparkers. It's your turn to ramp up the juice, the insight, the advice and the love. Thank you.

  
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JIBBIE49 4/23/2011 4:44PM

    DONE

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THREEE 4/23/2011 1:37PM

    per your instructions, done...

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/21/2011 10:10PM

    Done. You're an awesome friend!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/21/2011 9:09PM

    Done!

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ATREAT4ME 4/21/2011 8:36PM

    I love you! And I love the idea of drive-by-cheerleading. It is around me more than I thought. I was walking behind a runner, who was wearing a US Army t-shirt. Another man was running toward us and he was wearing a US Navy t-shirt. The man who was coming toward us, never broke stride, didn't smile, wave or anything else. He simply made very quick eye contact and said: "Go Army." Of course I couldn't see the face of the man the running in the same direction I was walking, but I did hear him respond, "Go Navy." Funny thing, as I kept walking behind him, it seemed to me his pace picked up a wee bit and his stride seemed longer, more gazelle like. Drive-by or run-by, it seems life is better when there are folks cheering you on. Thank you, Jan, for providing us all with this opportunity!

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KAMAPERRY 4/21/2011 8:01PM

    You got it!

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WATCHMEGO2 4/21/2011 7:30PM

    done

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/21/2011 6:45PM

    I will...

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/21/2011 6:28PM

    right there

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COOKWITHME65 4/21/2011 6:06PM

    Will do! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/21/2011 6:01PM

    DONE

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 4/21/2011 5:55PM

    I saw, I read, I commented.

Now I will pray.

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THISYEARSMODEL 4/21/2011 5:42PM

    Thanks for posting!!!

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RUNNER12COM 4/21/2011 5:39PM

    I'm on it.

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LESLIES537 4/21/2011 5:38PM

    You're such a great Spark friend!!! Thanks for the heads up! emoticon

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KASSIANDORA 4/21/2011 4:37PM

    Just read her blog. Looks like she is having a slump. Hope she bounces back soon.

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Drive by Cheerleading

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I was driving to do some errands today and I noticed a gal running along the street. I have seen her a few times. Anyway, I was thinking, "I should roll down my window and yell at her and tell her good job!" and then I thought, "She will think you are crazy. You dont know her. She probably wouldnt even be able to hear you with her headphones on...." Anyway, I didnt do it.

So I went and got my hair cut, went to the bank and went to the grocery store and I decided to make spagetti and turkey meatballs for dinner (I know, I said Pasta wasnt worth the calories, blah, blah but I really want it so bleehhhhhh!), so I go in the pasta aisle and there she is. She is standing right in front of the pasta and I am like, "are you kidding me??? Now you HAVE to talk to her! I mean, what are the odds???" So I approached her and told her I saw her running today and I wanted to tell her good job.

She got a huge grin on her face and thanked me and told me she runs 6 miles a day, that she used to weigh 300 pounds (she is probably 170 now, im guessing)! So I tell, her me too! That I started walking a year ago and while I do not see running in my future, I get why she does and that I was proud of her cause I know what it takes to have that level of commitment. She told me she used to think that but when she started, she ran 2 stop lights at a time, then two more etc. etc.

Anyway, we had a nice little chat and I told her when she sees a hand waving from a big red truck around town, that will be me, cheering her on!

I, of course, (cause this is what I do now!) started thinking about how on SPARK, we do "drive by cheerleading" all the time and dont think a thing about stopping by someones page and telling them good job or offering our advice, wisdom, prayers, recipes,comfort or butt kicking. We may have not ever even heard of this person before or maybe it is a friend of a friend but we all do it all the time. I mean, that is how I met ALL of you!

But in the "real" world, it is harder to offer that support. It is awkward sometimes but let me tell you, I was MEANT to talk to her today for some reason and I am glad I did not let the opportunity pass me by.

How much would it make your day if a stranger had the nerve to notice and tell you how great you are looking or that they notice how dedicated you are at the gym, etc? Exactly. Spread the spark, people. Spread the spark.

  
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JRIMM4 4/21/2011 6:27PM

    Super cool! Pretty damn amazing to have run into her at the store - definitley meant to be! Proud of you too for stepping up and being the real life cheerleader!!!

JR

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BRAINYBLONDE5 4/21/2011 5:23PM

    amazing blog! &&& you are an amazing person!

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SARAWALKS 4/21/2011 10:22AM

    YES YES YES! emoticon Jan! We ARE all meant to notice and encourage each other. and it is so FUN when we do! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RIGBY31 4/20/2011 6:37PM

    Making her day, made your day, which made my day! I know how it feels on both the giving and receiving end. Giving makes me feel gooey. Receiving always makes me want to cry happy. It's all good! Spark on!

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BAYBELIEVER 4/20/2011 4:33PM

    You are right! A couple of strangers did that to me one day and it has meant everything to me when the going is tough! Awesome blog! We need to be reminded we can cheer each other on face to face too!

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KAMAPERRY 4/20/2011 1:45PM

    Awesome idea!!! I will try this!

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OHSOCOOLLISA 4/20/2011 12:13PM

    I agree....you did good and she was blessed by you. Yay for drive-by cheerleading!

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CELLISTA1 4/20/2011 12:13PM

    I love the concept -- and Jan, you are just the right person for it -- but I'm not sure L.A. is ready for it -- or you!
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JSPIN74 4/20/2011 11:41AM

    awesome! look at you spreading the spark energy :)

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NIKKIG125 4/20/2011 11:04AM

    Awesome!!


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VAMANOS 4/20/2011 10:40AM

    Love it! I'm sure you absolutely made her day--and why can't we all get over ourselves and do that? Yesterday a woman at Curves told me she was impressed by how hard I work and that I was an inspiration. That totally made my day, and I'm determined to pay it forward--your blog just made me realize that I'm OBLIGATED to do that. emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 4/20/2011 10:32AM

    I absolutely LOVE this blog! What are the chances that you would see her again, and get the chance to talk to her??? emoticon

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LESLIES537 4/20/2011 10:09AM

    I bet that made her day!! How cool of you to compliment her like that!! I always want to yell out the window and do fist pumps at the runners too! It's the lookin' crazy thing that stops me though! emoticon LOL

Great blog!! I agree, we all need to do more drive by's! emoticon

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KJDOESLIFE 4/20/2011 8:57AM

    Very cool! Way to go!

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LILLYPILLY24 4/20/2011 1:14AM

    Yay for you talking to her. And, thank you for sharing. Yes, a resounding 'yes' - spread the spark. Make someone's day. And thus be encouraged ourselves.

GREAT BLOG!

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ATREAT4ME 4/19/2011 11:19PM

    I love your perspective and feel so blessed that you share it here and I get to read it! Thank you, Jan. This is a great idea. I always give little kids on their bicycles praise, usually by tellin them what a cool bike they have. You should see their grins. Grown ups might be a bit more tricky -- I'm usually so lost in my own thoughts that it'd take a second or two for me to realize it. But what a reward!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 4/19/2011 10:30PM

    Support is such a spirit boost to let you know the fruit of your labor is not going unnoticed. You're an awesome cheerleader! emoticon

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BETHIE_BOO 4/19/2011 9:20PM

    I totally want to honk at people I see running and walking on my running route, when I'm driving home from work, but I don't because if somebody honked at ME, I'd think they were honking cuz I'm a fat lady waddling down the sidewalk. That's my own paranoia, though, and I think it was great that you had the guts to speak to her! :)

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DONNACFIT 4/19/2011 8:24PM

    Great blog :) Way to go!!! emoticon

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/19/2011 7:49PM

    So awesome!!!!!!!! Wow!! It was in the cards today! it was probably something she really needed! Go you!!!!! emoticon

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MELLYBEANS0919 4/19/2011 6:22PM

    That made me smile. That is great!

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GRACEISENUF 4/19/2011 6:08PM

    emoticonSpreading the spark loud and clear!

Loved this blog!

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MAGGIE805 4/19/2011 5:50PM

    Love this! I love it when I get "running past" cheerleading from other runners I encounter during my runs in the morning. I make sure I give it right back and it just makes everybody's day a little happier. Kudos rock!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/19/2011 5:47PM

    I had a guy at my gym come up to me and tell me he was proud of me for being so dedicated and he could see I was making progress everyday. I have never forgotten his words and it meant so much to me. Good for you for talking to her today!

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MACEWOMAN 4/19/2011 5:25PM

    I've been really lucky recently and had quite a few people at the gym and at work mention the changes they've noticed. The ones at the gym have even mentioned how much I've improved my endurance and speed and how they can't believe I've started running some.
It was a great feeling the first time someone came up and waited on me to take off my headphones so they could compliment me.

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THE_NEW_MELISSA 4/19/2011 5:22PM

    Fantastic! I always cheer-lead from the car when I see a fellow runner, or any kind of exerciser for that matter! When I run and I see people looking at me, I just know they are cheering me on too!

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BECOMING_HOLLY 4/19/2011 5:13PM

    AWESOME BLOG!! I really think it would be great for someone to notice my dedication. I am at the gym every morning with the same group of ladies... most of them skinny minis (vs my 318 pound self) and no one ever talks to each other. I would be aweome for someone to say something! I get the glares, but that's about it.

I think what you did was AWESOME! This is why I love SP, unlimited encouragement and people to encourage too!

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/19/2011 5:06PM

    YES.. YES.. GREAT BLOG... I was thinking you might take up running in the future... HUMMMMM (wink)...... are you SURE you won't!!! Health reasons maybe.... or just hard to imagine you running??

I was thinking you had a dream about running.........

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PJH2028 4/19/2011 4:52PM

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Love you Jan! Great blog! ;^)

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CALLIKIA 4/19/2011 4:46PM

    Kismet! emoticon emoticon It usually takes me a while to get my courage up to say something to someone, but when opportunities like this come up, how can you help it?!

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THISYEARSMODEL 4/19/2011 4:42PM

    I love this!!! [Insert "Twilight Zone" music here].There are no accidents. emoticon

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ANAJAK 4/19/2011 4:36PM

    Good on ya!! I agree to bump into her you were def meant to talk today! Haha I love "drive-by cheerleading" - I have my own version "crazy walking lady who talks to strangers exercising" - I often find myself telling kids especially what a good job they have done walking up a hill. I don't care how it looks to others anymore, the huge smiles on their faces is enough reward for me!!

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KIYOSHI04 4/19/2011 4:36PM

    oh man. i love this blog. i am so glad that you got to talk to her.

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BRITCHES82 4/19/2011 4:31PM

    Isn't serendipity awesome!!! This was a delightful blog to read!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 4/19/2011 4:26PM

    GREAT blog, and SO TRUE. That was wonderful that you talked to that running lady when you ran into her in the grocery store, and just look at all you had in common! It is harder in the "real" world, but don't we all LOVE to hear those words of praise? That's probably why I come here so much, not only to offer praise to others (like you), but to write a blog occasionally and wrap myself in the warmth of the wonderful comments I receive. I honestly don't think I could have achieved this weight loss without the help of Spark! You and everybody else here are my secret to weight loss. I always say there is no secret--it's just hard work, but I need to acknowledge all the help I have gotten from everyone here. I will spread the Spark from now on!

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Yea, but.....

Friday, April 15, 2011

Today I was doing my hair after my shower and I saw my arms in the mirror. I saw my saggy under arm skin. I thought, "Awww, man, I hate that flappy skin! It looks horrible!"
But then the magic happened. I thought, "Yea but look how good your biceps look!"

That got me thinking....In my past, how many times have I done that but in the negative?

THEN:
"You look cute in that" (Yea but my shirt is too tight and my belly is hanging over)
"You should go for a walk" (Yea but my knee/back hurts so I cant)
"You need to lose weight" (Yea but it is sooo hard or I have tried before and I cant and my lifestyle makes it too hard etc.)
"You need to get healthy' (Yea but my numbers are all good and I am only PRE-diabetic so I have time"
"Honey, maybe if you lost some a little weight you would feel better" (Yea but you love me anyway so why bother)

NOW:
"You are losing weight soo slow!" (Yea but I am still losing!)
"It is gonna take FOREVER to get to your goal!" (Yea but I AM gonna get there)
"Your saggy baggy elephant skin belly is sooo gross!" (Yea but I look better than last year!)
"You still have over 50 pounds too lose!" (Yea but I have already lost 65!)
"All you do is walk for excercise" (Yea but I couldnt do that before and I go farther or faster all the time!)
"You can't eat a Bacon Cheeseburger and fries" (Yea but I can have a Hamburger with ketchup and veggies and a salad and steal a couple of fries from Franks plate)
"You can't do this. It is too hard, you always fail, you have too much to lose. 111 pounds? Wayy too big of a goal!" (Yea but I am doing it so STFU!)

So between NOW and THEN, I will take NOW! And whatever your "Yea, but...." is that is keeping you down, tell it to stuff it and TURN IT AROUND. It is all in how you look at it.
Eventually the" Yea, buts" will be "YEAH BUTT's!"

  
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THREEE 4/23/2011 1:30PM

    i can only vote once to say 'i like your blog' but know i will pimp you out as best i can...

and i've decided that if my arms won't tighten as i lose weight, i will refer to that extra skin as my 'wings' that i've gotten a little early while i am still here on earth emoticon emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/18/2011 7:02PM

    I do the same durn thing.....but then I come to my senses and remind myself of how far I have come.

Still think my arms suck though! :) If they were truly bat wings I could fly to India!
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BRITCHES82 4/16/2011 2:23PM

    I loved this!! Great blog!

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VEEJAY3 4/16/2011 1:08PM

    Does this excuse make my but look big?
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LESLIES537 4/16/2011 11:43AM

    YAY for your inner voice of reason!!! NOW is WINNING!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JBARSTOW 4/15/2011 10:23PM

    I'm in 100% agreement with the folks who said.......You Rock!!!

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ATREAT4ME 4/15/2011 7:48PM

    Love your attitude. I hope it rubs off on me!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/15/2011 3:42PM

    LOVE IT!!!! SO true, every word of it. I'm sure every one of us could have put ourselves in those shoes.. yea, but...

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 3:08PM

    I needed to read this, thank you!

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MELLYBEANS0919 4/15/2011 2:06PM

    That made me smile. That is great!! I am starting to do positive self-talk more and it helps so much! Keep doing what you are doing, those are great things!

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LISSIEONE 4/15/2011 1:41PM

    Heck yeah!!! Rock on girl!!! I was thinking that the other day on the scale, I got on and was like "Whoo hoo you've lost 62 lbs!!!" and then negative me was all "Yeah but...you've still got a long way to go" so the positive me kicked her in the behind and said "Yeah BUT you're already down 62, so you've PROVEN you can do it!" And every time I think something like that, I know I've made another huge change.

Yeah but, we can do it!

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RIGBY31 4/15/2011 1:21PM

    Yes... be in the NOW! I'm tired of the big "butts", too.

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SARAWALKS 4/15/2011 1:18PM

    emoticon NOW ROCKS! emoticon

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SHRUTI_SARAOGI1 4/15/2011 1:14PM

    Love this blog post! you go girl!! emoticon

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COOKWITHME65 4/15/2011 1:02PM

    Good advice. thanks!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/15/2011 12:55PM

    emoticon Awesome! Love the "now" list!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/15/2011 12:55PM

    I am proud of you

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/15/2011 12:49PM

    That's good stuff!! GO YOU!!

And from now on, I'm going to try to remember to turn those "but's" around myself! It's such a better way of thinking...LOL.

- Michelle

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ONYXOFDARKLITE 4/15/2011 12:48PM

    I enjoyed reading this. I think I'm still in the past frame of mind. I will sit down with myself and try to come up with some present frame of mind stuff to talk about with myself.



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Now that I have had a minute...

Thursday, April 14, 2011

I wanted to add a few things to my last blog about the TV thing today. As I was watching the whole thing on DVR, I realized something: There was nothing I was embarrased about. My house looked good, my daughters are pretty with good sense of humor, my pets were fun, I was a good sport. I mean, alot of things happened that did not make that short clip including the interviewer totally calling me out and making me wrestle with her to try to make the bird scream! I did it.
Sing live on TV? sure why not!
Go on TV without a shower and last nights bed head? OF course!
I wasnt nervous, I just had fun. It actually takes a lot to embarrass me.

I also realized that 65 pounds ago I would NEVER have allowed myself to be video'ed or put on tv. I never allowed pictures of any kind, at least not often. I have always been confidant in front of crowds (Yes, I am a ham) but I would have been very embarrased by my weight. I would have watched that tape back today and been so embarrased by my lumps and rolls and fat and all the things I would have noticed.
Instead, I was not horrified and there is a hell of a lot of satisfaction in that. I think I looked pretty good actually and that makes me really happy. Im glad I made the change. I really am.





  
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JIBBIE49 4/23/2011 4:47PM

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HEALTHIERTINA 4/15/2011 9:48PM

  You were all amazing and you looked wonderful, even without the shower. Way to go.

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KAMAPERRY 4/15/2011 3:00PM

    I thought you looked great!

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OVERBURDEND 4/15/2011 8:38AM

    You look great, the whole family does. I'm so happy for you.
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JBARSTOW 4/15/2011 8:05AM

    Cool - congrats on the progress and confidence! By the way, I really enjoyed the clip, too.

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    You looked awesome!!! I love witty people! Your family are stars!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/15/2011 7:40AM

    You looked great and your girls are beautiful. And I gotta tell ya, there's nothing better than laughter and confidence!! :)

- Michelle

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/15/2011 7:33AM

    I am so happy you feel so good about yourself. You deserve it!

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ATREAT4ME 4/14/2011 11:50PM

    Well, you added this before I could comment on your earlier post so ...

This is so beautiful and I think you and your daughters are stunning, Jan!

I love what you wrote and can identify with it so vividly! I just had to do a video for a conference at work and went through exactly the same thing, even though I didn't get to sing with a dog or wrestle -- both of which are very good things! Yes, this is why we're here and I think it is the struggling that we're doing that teaches us to be comfortable with who we are, where we are, and when we're there.

I am so happy for you that you are able to so thoroughly enjoy yourself. that is a big payoff! Woohooo!

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GRACEISENUF 4/14/2011 11:46PM

    You REALLY did look great Jan and I sure couldn't tell anything was up with your hair. It was also pretty cool to hear your voice for the first time.

You've come a LONG way baby!

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