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What does it take?

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

It takes me every morning getting up and choosing a decent meal (unlike the 800 calorie buffet breakfast while I was away last weekend). Then a decent lunch. Then a decent, reasonable dinner.

It takes me going for a walk 5 days a week with my hubby and my dog.

It takes me making a fresh fruit salad every 3 or 4 days so I will eat fruit instead of cookies.

It takes the support of friends and family. By that I mean, people checking in on me with love and afffection, concern and caring and NOT judgement, doubt or sabotage.

It takes me wanting it. Every single day. Every minute, every meal, every snack, every night.

It has taken a year to get down 65 pounds. It will take another year (or 2) to lose the rest.
It takes knowing I will never be done and that this is my life now. I like it.

It takes acceptance that this is my life and that there is room for cake (and breakfast buffets!) sometimes but not all the time.

It takes a positive attitude and an open mind.

It takes understanding that this is FOR ME, not a punishment, not a sacrifice. It is the best thing I could ever do for myself and the people I love.

It takes alot but in return, I GET alot.

I get to live a longer and fuller life.
I get positive attention instead of stares becuase I am huge.
I get quality time with my hubby and dog that I never would have had before. I treasure that.
I get adventure.
I get delicious healthy food
I get happier alot more often
I get new friends. As many as I could possibly want or need.
I get an outlet for my feelings, emotions, tantrums and creativity.
I get a good night sleep because I am taking care of my body.
I get to really live instead of just exist.
I get a happy heart.
I get to help people, encourage people and spread the spark.

A. Take
B. Get
C. Give
D. All of the above.

The answer is D. You win.

  
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BIGMAMAT 4/9/2011 10:05AM

    No not oprah, she is saving her interview privileges for the today show with Matt and AL! emoticon

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CELLISTA1 4/8/2011 1:14PM

    Jan, you have been writing some profound blogs lately! Did you hit the profundity button? Next thing you know, you'll have a self-help book out and be doing interviews on Oprah.
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GRACEISENUF 4/7/2011 11:42PM

    good stuff!
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PHOENIXK26 4/6/2011 11:09PM

    You've said so much in such a wonderful way! Thank you!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 4/6/2011 9:51PM

    Brava

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STARPLANET2000 4/6/2011 6:11PM

    Loved your blog! Especially loved that there is room for breakfast buffets! ( I had one this weekend too! )

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GETFIT2LIVE 4/6/2011 1:02PM

    Well said!

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KAMAPERRY 4/6/2011 11:25AM

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/6/2011 10:13AM

    Yay, so true! You've done so great and this IS your life now. It's OUR lives, and we get to live it better than before!

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OHSOCOOLLISA 4/6/2011 9:50AM

    Oh yeah!!! You got this :)
It won't always be easy, but it is always worth it. Ok, it does get easier when we see it as a journey.
(((((HUG)))))
Can you feel the the love? You ARE rocking this :)

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RIGBY31 4/6/2011 8:39AM

    You said it! It's good to take stock in the why's and how's of this journey. We are so worth it!

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HEALING_LORI 4/6/2011 8:27AM

    Thanks for the reminders Jan! Great Blog! Sometimes I need a good kick in the a$$....and sometimes I get one too! :)

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/6/2011 8:14AM

    Great blog!! So true...so very, very true. We eat better, move more and take care of ourselves by sacrificing here and there - but not as a means of punishment, but as a means of BLESSING! Blessing our lives and our families and our friends...and perfect strangers. We do it because we're worth it. We do it because it's a means to an end...and the end is an amazing place, as is the road that takes us there!! Despite the sacrifices. They're worth it. Period.

Have a GREAT day! (((HUGS)))

- Michelle

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DEEDEE1102 4/6/2011 6:39AM

    Great blog! Well said. emoticon

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TINYDANCER 4/6/2011 6:34AM

    Excellent blog. Thanks for a good way to start my day@


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SASSYSUNFLOWER 4/6/2011 6:31AM

    Awesome, gives me a positive outlook on how I should feel about my lifestyle. Thank you!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/6/2011 6:11AM

    All of this is so true! hugs.

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LILLYPILLY24 4/6/2011 1:52AM

    Great, great blog. Yes, that's what it takes ... but look what we get! Thanks so much for the reminders.

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VEEJAY3 4/6/2011 12:45AM

    Well played, Mama!!!
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ATREAT4ME 4/5/2011 11:48PM

    I could not say it better. Wow. I am going to re-read this often, especially the parts:

* It takes me wanting it. Every single day. Every minute, every meal, every snack, every night.
* It takes knowing I will never be done and that this is my life now. I like it.
* It takes acceptance that this is my life and that there is room for cake (and breakfast buffets!) sometimes but not all the time.

I struggle, struggle, struggle with these. You are a terrific example, Jan. I so appreciate your positive outlook and can-do attitude. I am blessed to be here with you!

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KRAWRS 4/5/2011 11:41PM

    Just so you know... I. LOVED. THIS. BLOG.

You're awesome.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/5/2011 11:17PM

    Awesome blog!! I agree, healthy food tastes so good! I just made my own chick peas today, and they were so delicious!

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I came home!

Monday, April 04, 2011

I have been gone for the last 5 days down to Pahrump Nevada for 3 days of racing. WE had a good time but the food situation was pretty gnarly. I did walk alot and drink my water, I also tracked my food so I will be back to normal starting tomorrow which I am looking forward to.
I got SOOO much attention and compliments, it was almost embarrasing. ( I hadnt seen most of the people since October).



We worked hard at the races, partied a bit and went to go dance in the lounge but 2 minutes after we got there, the band stopped. We bribed them to play a few more songs so I only got to dance for about 10 minutes but it was still fun.

The great part about sparkpeople is that the program fits into normal life and you can still succeed. I LOVE that. I LIVE that. I BELIEVE that.

I love that at least 5 people told me I inspired them to lose weight. Even if they go a different way than spark (altho I dont know why they would!!), more people are getting healthier because I decided to do something about my weight and that helps keep me going. IM sure that is happening in your world too.... MIssed you guys and will try to catch up!

Here is a link to my album from the weekend if anyone is interested....
www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=21008
43&id=1008501124&l=75a3739be0


  
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MOMMYTO1IN2012 4/15/2011 12:28PM

    I've been to Pahrump Nevada. My company owns a large water and wastewater system out there. I think the most ironic and funny thing about Pahrump is when you come in on the road from Vegas, there's a brothel on one side of the street and a daycare on the other!

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GRACEISENUF 4/7/2011 11:41PM

    Looking good Jan! I just got home today from a trip to SOCAL. I ate way to much and drank a few brewskies too....the scale "freaked me out" today but hey tomorrow is a NEW DAY!

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ATREAT4ME 4/5/2011 11:43PM

    You look beautiful! No doubt you got a lot of comments!

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HEALTHIERTINA 4/5/2011 8:56PM

  Amazing. You are very inspiring, and not just cause of your weight loss. You are funny, and friendly, and a huge family person. Traits I always admire. Glad you had fun this weekend. emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 4/5/2011 7:24PM

    So proud of you friend! You look wonderful!!!! emoticon

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RAVENSONG37 4/5/2011 1:24PM

    Isn't it wonderful that people notice what we are doing just for us and are inspired by it! It's such a gift!! Keep on doing what you are doing woman!

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MESEATURTLE 4/5/2011 3:51AM

    great pics!!!!u r looking fabulous!!!I had no clue such a big thermometer excisted..thanx for sharing!!!

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KAMAPERRY 4/5/2011 12:40AM

    Welcome home!

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ROBINSNEWNEST 4/4/2011 8:16PM

    Welcome back ( I mean welcome back to your real, emoticon self)

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/4/2011 6:50PM

    Glad you're back and that you had a great time! Woo-whoo!

And you look so happy...that's good stuff!!

- Michelle

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/4/2011 6:23PM

    Glad you are back! Missed you and you look freakin fabulous skinny lady!

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RIGBY31 4/4/2011 6:17PM

    When I get home Apr 11, I will have been gone 21 days. Yikes! At least you were on track and I admire you so much for that. I'm disappointed that I haven't been staying mega strong. But enough debbie downer from me.... sounds like you had a terrific vacation! Weight loss compliments are such a euphoric feeling. Soak it in! You deserve it.

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/4/2011 5:16PM

    Going to go look at your FB pics.. thanks for sharing!

I love you hair by the way!



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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/4/2011 2:20PM

    Welcome home! Glad you had a good time!

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OHSOCOOLLISA 4/4/2011 9:58AM

    Welcome home!
The pictures are cool, as it looks like you had a blast.

I agree that when people SEE others care for themselves in real-world settings, it becomes inspiring. Who doesn't want to feel better?...to BE better. As humans, we compare and that is, often, how we define what is better.

So, YAY YOU, for setting the bar a little higher (and even more attainable) and giving/sharing how Spark makes us sparkle :)

You rock! Spark on!

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WATCHMEGO2 4/4/2011 7:57AM

    Looks like you had a great trip! Welcome back!

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COOKWITHME65 4/4/2011 6:18AM

    Sound like you had a great time. Thanks for sharing your pictures and spreading the spark.

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THREEE 4/4/2011 2:22AM

    didn't you just have SO MUCH more energy than previous adventures like this? i bet you were a lot less limited in what you could do...i am so proud of you...keep at it and keep on sparking those who see your success...
and you are totally right...why go somewhere else?


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AKGAL09 4/4/2011 12:50AM

    Way to go! It sounds like you had a wonderful time and it was great that folks noticed that you had lost weight! It makes the difficult times through the process worth it and gives you motivation to keep on. Too bad you didn't get to dance longer though ~ love to dance as well and if I were there, would've been out there boogy-ing with you! emoticon

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Things I love (pictures)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Stitchy, my grand-dog. Especially when she sings to me (one of these days, I will put up a video. You will die of hysterical laughter!)

My family

When the scales is being my friend
Fresh Fruit
Getting together with our friends
Going the the Movies on Friday's for date night
(which leads to the opposite on my hate blog of being able to eat popcorn cause I have enough room in my calories for the day)
Saturday's with no plans
An hour to myself in the morning before anyone else gets up
When someone else makes dinner AND cleans up, too!
Clean sheets
New socks
When the first thing you try on fits and that means you are done shopping!
My Spark friends
My old friends
Meeting new friends
The sounds of the credit card machine as it says, "Approved" because it means money is going to be in my bank account
Getting a job that we bid (see above reason)
The SUN!
Walking with Frank and Stitch in the evenings
Being 4 sizes smaller
Knowing I am going to be 4 sizes smaller still
When my sister comes over and cleans my house
When I am right
Reading comments on my page and blogs emoticon
Smelling something that reminds me of something great
Cookies (Damnit!!!)
A good book
Someone to talk about a good book with
Good music (including but not limited to The Eagles and Creedence Clearwater Revival)
When my girls make me laugh

When Frank does the dishes

Having something to look forward to
Having memories to look back on
Finding something I forgot I lost
When a stranger holds the door open for me, double love if they are under 25 years old
Compliments
Challenges
Overcoming something
Good News
Comedy/Funny People
When something happens because it is the right thing
As my dad would say "It is as it should be"
Justice
Honesty

Thanks for reading....what do you LOVE?

  
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CELLISTA1 4/5/2011 9:45PM

    What a coincidence! I like being right too!

I also like:
going to concerts
playing my cello halfway decently
hanging out with my girlfriends and laughing
when my Pilates trainer calls me "ballerina"
snuggles with my shaggy doggie Cassie
looks of pure joy from my little grand-daughters
and lots more

Thanks for reminding us about the good stuff, Jan. You are fabulous in every way!

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BIGMAMAT 4/4/2011 9:42PM

    What do I love??? YOU!!! emoticon

P.s. Thanks for sharing the pictures! That I love, love, love!!!! emoticon

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ROBINSNEWNEST 4/4/2011 8:12PM

    great, jan... We love many of the same things, soul sister. No shock there, huh?

emoticon to you for helping me keep perspective in loving this amazing life...

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MESEATURTLE 4/2/2011 11:44PM

    I love
Watching my son sleep
Beach
Watching sunset
Trees
Photographs
M
eeting people
Stationary
Clean house
Lights
Firecrackers

Sparkpeople
When my son snuggles with me
Being by myself
Sisters

Thanx ... It felt good!!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 4/2/2011 8:14PM

    Spring
Flowers
Freedom
Lau
ghter
Lazy days
Cool breezes
Music
Watch my cats sleep
Coffee
Days off
Not worrying
Sales
Target
New beginnings
Good friends
This place
Home

In no particular order and I am sure I forgot lots of things.

You are just awesome. You know?... Hugs.

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STARPLANET2000 4/1/2011 11:23AM

    Enjoyed learning a little more about you and your family! Have a great weekend!

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MACEWOMAN 3/31/2011 11:10AM

    Great blog and off to make my own list. What a great way to look at the positives in your life.

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SLFRISBEY 3/31/2011 10:09AM

    You have a beautiful family! and what a fun blog!!! :)

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HEALING_LORI 3/30/2011 10:43PM

    I love your love list! I think I'll do the same! What a great way to count your blessings! Looks like you have a great family and a super "grand-dog"! I'd LOVE to see a video! lol

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THREEE 3/30/2011 2:52PM

    MAMADWARF'S thought-provoking, usually upbeat blogs... emoticon
(please note: i am STILL pimping you out)

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ATREAT4ME 3/29/2011 9:35PM

    I love ...
Counting my blessings -DH, DD, DS
Family Fun Rides/Walks
Saturday AM Smoothies
A clean house
Finishing the laundry
My routine
Friends who count their blessings
Seeing someone smile
Doing a happy dance for friends
Working out
Being the first one up
A strong cup of coffee in a quiet house
A strong cup of coffee in a loud house
Texas heat
Being so tired that I cannot keep my eyes open
Riding my bicycle as fast as I can
Running (ok, fine, jogging) and feeling like I could do this forever
Lifting weights at the gym, early in the morning, when hardly anyone else is there
Debugging a piece of code with my co-worker
Laughing with my boss
YOU!

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RIGBY31 3/29/2011 5:54PM

    Love all your lovin'! It made me smile... you and your family look like happy people (and with a dog like stitchy, why not!)

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/29/2011 2:50PM

    I love my daughter's huge, obnoxious, belly laugh, my son's 8 yr old sense of humor, freshly washed sheets, when my husband washes said sheets (teehee), coffee in the morning - ALONE, a good book , a funny movie, and when my dog curls up with me on the couch at the end of the night. Oh, and I love you Jan, for being who you are!

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TSKAGGS96 3/29/2011 2:43PM

    I Love your blog! I am new to spark people and just reading this gave me more inspiration that I can meet my goals! emoticon

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MOODY9 3/29/2011 2:15PM

    This was a great post! Thanks for sharing!!



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OJIBWEEQUAY 3/29/2011 2:06PM

    Awe Frank!!! Awe girls!!!! Sweet! I love tight butts, especially when its mine! emoticon emoticon

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APMAC_D 3/29/2011 2:04PM

    I absolutely love this blog- what a cute idea. I guess some things I love are
-an unexpected loss of weight
-surprise parties in my honour
-bon fires in the summer time
-waking up early feeling alert and ready to go instead of drowsy and reaching for the snooze button
-surprising myself in my workouts
-the smell and look of my car right after it's cleaned
-picking out a great outfit on the first try
-compliments, gotta love the compliments!

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AARONSGIRL420 3/29/2011 2:04PM

    This is beautiful!

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GRACEISENUF 3/29/2011 2:01PM

    So loved this one Jan and your family pic is the "bestest"! Do you live in a log home? love the pics! and YOU too.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 3/29/2011 2:01PM

    I love your blog! I also was smiling while reading your blog.

I love to smile and have it returned, great feeling. I love that my dogs trust me.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/29/2011 1:59PM

    I love you!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/29/2011 1:59PM

    I love you!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/29/2011 1:57PM

    I love you!

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KAMAPERRY 3/29/2011 1:45PM

    I think this list is much longer!! I was smiling the whole time I was reading!

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LISSIEONE 3/29/2011 1:41PM

    I love way too many things to list in your comment box!!!! Lol, but I love reading happy blogs from my sparkfriends because it means we are all on the right track. I love being able to share this journey with so many women (and men) I would have never met had it not been for this wonderful site. Thanks for sharing!

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Things I hate

Monday, March 28, 2011

When People I love are sad or hurting
When I eat too many cookies at lunch and now dinner is going to suck
When things interfere with walking Stitchy in the evenings
Places that take too long to get to but are worth it cause it is fun so you go anyway
Bad Movies
When my sparkfriends dissapear
When the scale tells the truth and I have to accept it
When I worry about stuff I have no control over
When I have to pee in the middle of the night
When my favorite shows are re-runs
When people try to talk to me first thing in the morning
My belly roll that is taking forever to go away
None of my shorts fit and it is going to be 90 degrees this week where I am going
Suddenly jumping into Summer when we havent even had spring yet
Not being in control of my food choices when I go away.
Going away without my Stitchy
When my hands are cold
When my feet are cold
When my butt is cold
When I am cold
When people dont do what they say they are going to do
Double hate when I then have to do the thing they were going to do
When my hairstylist doesnt cut my hair the way I want
When I cant find my pedicure tub and I dont trust anyone else to do it for me
When I drop the last bite of something delicious
When I cant eat popcorn at the movies cause I dont have enough calories left in my day
When people suddenly drop out of your life like you meant nothing to them
When I am misunderstood

Through all these things I hate, I love alot more things. So I am lucky.

  
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THREEE 3/30/2011 2:59PM

    that's exactly the MAMADWARF i have come to know and love...despite the need to vent, you still end on an upbeat...you CAN'T just complain without acknowledging that there are MORE good things that happen to you...you can see why i would encourage people to come 'listen' to you...i'm still the one...it IS good that you can't hear me continue to sing that song... emoticon..i am still the one who 'sings' your praises...PIMP ON!!! MADAM THREEE

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 3/29/2011 2:06PM

    I too hate dropping the last bite of something delicious, and several others.

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MIQUEY73 3/29/2011 1:00PM

    I was just talking to a coworker about how angry I was yesterday about being cold! The entire day at work I was freezing. It's the same thing today. I am so totally ready for the cold and snow to go away!

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LILLYPILLY24 3/29/2011 8:10AM

    I like your list - looking forward to your 'things I love' list.



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BIGMAMAT 3/29/2011 6:57AM

    I hate it that you live on the other side of the country!

I think I know what trigered the hate list... OH NO! KRYPTONITE!! hahaha emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 3/29/2011 1:22AM

    We have alot of common hates...don't know if that is a good thing or not, LOL!


Seriously......YOU CRACK ME UP AND I LOVE YOUR PERSONALITY!!!!!!

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RIGBY31 3/28/2011 9:11PM

    Love the hate list!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/28/2011 9:04PM

    A lot of those things are on my list too! Especially disappearing sparkfriends. I've had 3 in the last month remove their page completely. What's up with that?

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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/28/2011 9:04PM

    Hmmm ...a hate list...like when you get into a walking routine and then trip in a hole (or a back porch) and then the ankle swells up like a balloon...hurts like a bleep...and you can only think of things you could be doing if it weren't for the injured ankle??? Yeah, I understand a need for a list...

...cause it helps us remember so many of our blessings :)

You still rock!

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CSERF09 3/28/2011 8:46PM

    Great list! I can relate to a log of these as well. I also dislike to be spoken to in the morning - or rather I dislike it when someone tries to wake me up when I'm not responding to my alarm. Here in Arkansas we often jump from winter to summer. We'll have a few weeks of spring. Then it will get cold again. Then summer hits.

Have fun on your trip this weekend!

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JOMAMA99 3/28/2011 7:55PM

    Yes, I think you nailed it! emoticon

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SHERLYN-WILL 3/28/2011 7:48PM

    Love this list...I can relate to almost all of them!

I hate being talked to in the morning and to make it worse my 10 yr old SON LOVES to talk LOL

I am screaming inside SHUT UP!!!!

But I don't say it.. I just let him talk and tune him out!

My butt is ALWAYS cold.. ????

Actually since I lost weight I am cold all the time now.

Funny?? lost my human coat I guess.....LOL



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TERRYT55 3/28/2011 7:07PM

    My favorites from your list.........

Being cold
Having to pee in the middle of the night
Dropping the last bite of something delicious!

Thanks for making me smile!


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TIKITAMI 3/28/2011 6:42PM

   
Thanks for posting, I think we can all relate.

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/28/2011 6:42PM

    "When I worry about stuff I have no control over" this is a big one for me

Who's Stitchy?

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/28/2011 6:02PM

    I think all of those apply to me except substitute stitchy for Loki lol.

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KAMAPERRY 3/28/2011 5:51PM

    emoticon I am smiling though, 'cause I soooooo relate!

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I dreamed.....

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Last night I dreamed I was walking. I was all alone and walking down a windy, country road that went downhill. It was a nice sunny day and I felt good. I started to jog. Then I realized that it felt good and I wondered how long I could do it. I was aware that my body felt good, nothing hurt and it was easy for me to run. I went all the way down to the bottom of the hill and I was so excited about running!

Please keep in mind I have made many, many comments about not being interested in running. At all. Ever. Dont want to, is not a goal, have no desire, am happy with the walking I am doing.

But in the dream, I felt wonderful, and I totally get what you guys say when you are in the "zone" or when you run and you feel so great.

I dont think of this as a premonition but I do think a seed has been planted. We shall see where that takes me, I suppose. Please do not encourage me to run at this point. I have soooooo much work to do before I consider that, but it was a powerful feeling and right now, I just want to marinate on that.

The rest of the dream morphed into a violent relationship with Charlie Sheen including a shower scene where I was in the shower, vulnerable and he was kicking the door in. It went into a physical fight in the kitchen where we lived together and I realized he was truly crazy and I could not win, even though I got my hits in.

I wonder if that was leftover images from my last marriage? Was it important that the fight was in the kitchen? And the shower scene was important I think, because when are we more vulnerable than naked, wet and unarmed in the shower? It was very strange and left me feeling unsettled this morning.

Add to that, we found my daughter's cat, MOMO, dead yesterday on the side of the house. He didnt look attacked, poisoned or anything. He was just laying there.He was a silly, big, siamese cat and we will miss him. Kelly is inconsolable. Her cats are her babies and it was tragic seeing her cry like that. We all went together and buried him under a tree by a nearby river. It was very strange and sad.


Oh yea, add to that a 4 pound weight gain this week. WTF? I have never gained that much weight in one week in a year. I had a few bad food days but that is ridiculous. A pound or two, I would expect. But 4 pounds? I know it will suddenly fall off but still, that is just crummy.

Good news is Kady is doing great, really great!

That is what is going on with me, what is happening with you?

  
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SHERLYN-WILL 3/28/2011 7:52PM

    So glad you weren't dreaming of running naked after that shower... sounds like the running was a GREAT PART... and you even got to feel what it was like to be in the 'zone'!

I am laughing about the C S part of the dream.. just because.. the NEW OVERDOES all of his life.. too much "ENOUGH ALREADY!"

I am sorry about your Daughter's cat! BLESS her heart!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 3/27/2011 10:31PM

    Glad to hear Kady is doing great. Keep fighting, those 4 lbs, and then some will come off

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CHELEMIA 3/27/2011 6:44PM

    Hi, Dreams haave the power to really make us question our psyche's. I am so sorry for your loss. Keep the feeling of the power of running and succeeding especially this week!!!
Please check out my FB for updates on my life. I kidnapped Hubby last weekend and barely made it up to Reno. MicheleCynthiaMcQueen

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JRZG8R 3/27/2011 3:44PM

    hate those magic gain pounds..love the magic loss ones

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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/26/2011 8:53PM

    Sorry about the cat! It's so painful, I know. When I worked at the children's home we had Larry, a female cat. One day she just walked off and died. I was told that is what cats do...still hurts to lose a loved one.

Your running dream sounds awesome! I think the zone is merely the oxygen getting to our brain...LOL. As far as vulnerabilities go, I agree with what you said. I'm told that the bathroom and kitchen are the worse places to be trapped in. I think being trapped is horrible, no matter what...

The scale hates me and I'm ok with that...so, a 4 pound gain...well, you know it goes away just as quick.

All the best!

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STARPLANET2000 3/26/2011 11:06AM

    I've always felt the same way about runnig that you do. Just didn't see it in my future. I've always said if you see me running, call the cops because someone is chasing me. BUT, I have starting running little (and I mean very little) intervals when walking. So who knows what a year of more weight loss and fitness could bring?

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/24/2011 6:31PM

    I am sorry about your sweet kitty. That is very sad. Keep thinking about the dream. I think they are very powerful and maybe you are not literally looking to run but metaphorically. Ready to break free from your struggling and get back on track fast. Hugs

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BIGMAMAT 3/24/2011 6:22PM

    Awwww. sorry to hear about MOMO Jan. Death is so hard. As for Charlie sheen, I am SURE you could take him! DON'T MESS WITH MAMA! Love you! emoticon

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THREEE 3/24/2011 1:56PM

    i have so many dreams(not often) that have affected the whole next day...they just strike a nerve...
first, so sorry kelly's cat died...you know her crying was a release for all the stress of having an ill sister has been building in her...yes, i am sure she loved her cat, but she had a good excuse to relieve her system of all of the emotions she has been suppressing...i'm glad you all could have a proper send off for the 4-legged friend...
Next...so glad Kady is doing better...she has a strong mama, and i'm sure she gets some of that strength to continue being hopeful...
Lastly, i would never encourage someone to run...but i want to tell you about the Irish diet i just heard about...well, it was an Irishman who was told by his doctor what to do...for 2 days he could eat anything he wanted, but the third day he had to skip, then the 4th and 5th day anything he wanted and so on...after 2 weeks, he reported back into the doctor and he had lost 15 pounds!!! the doctor asked how he felt about the diet...the Irishman said, day 1 and 2 were great, but the skipping nearly killed him!!! i told it poorly, hopefully you got it, but when i heard this joke it reminded me how much i LOVED skipping...as high or as far as i could...THAT is what i want to be able to do again...skip...i've even had dreams where i skip higher and higher and i can actually skip to an upper floor almost like i'm on a trampoline...ANYWAY...i just know how much fun actual skipping is...i want to do it again...MAYBE there is something that 'running' is a disguise for ... something that you will just delight in...it's coming because you KNOW you are getting closer and closer...and, UNFORTUNATELY, i believe the closer we get to what we truly want, we'll find more and more blocks in our way to try to trip us...but you have the right attitude...you KNOW you'll have a flux DOWN on your weight after this silly little flux UP...it is THE right attitude...thanks for spreading it...your attitude IS contagious emoticon

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COOKWITHME65 3/24/2011 1:34PM

    So sorry to hear about your daughter's cat. She must be heartbroken.

You are so right about your dream. We are most vulnerable when we are in the shower.

So glad to hear that your daughter Kady is recovering well. You two have a great relationship. I know how worried you were for her.

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GRACEISENUF 3/24/2011 12:36PM

    So sad to hear about Kelly's cat.

About the running I will not encourage you to do it. I gave it the ole "college" try for a period of time and for me personally walking (speed walking) is the best. At 52 my back and knees did not like the jarring of the pavement and once again for me personally I feel walking is a better choice for my own body in the long run. I do not want to have to see doctors and specialists to exercise PERIOD.

Hey the weight gain is prolly primarily water. Bet if you stay on track two to three days it will be history.

Have a good day Jan and it's great to hear Kady is doing well.

Love Ya!

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KAMAPERRY 3/24/2011 12:10PM

    What an awesome dream!! So happy Kady is doing well!

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BRIAEL 3/24/2011 11:59AM

    So sorry to hear about your cat. Glad that Kady is doing well, that girl really has some courage and some spunk. :)

Running eh? The secret runner within will eventually come out, you can't repress her forever *evil grin* and don't worry about the weight. If you had bad food days, it's probably bloating from higher sodium levels and water retention. Just make sure you keep drink drink drinking and it'll smooth out. :)

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