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I dreamed.....

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Last night I dreamed I was walking. I was all alone and walking down a windy, country road that went downhill. It was a nice sunny day and I felt good. I started to jog. Then I realized that it felt good and I wondered how long I could do it. I was aware that my body felt good, nothing hurt and it was easy for me to run. I went all the way down to the bottom of the hill and I was so excited about running!

Please keep in mind I have made many, many comments about not being interested in running. At all. Ever. Dont want to, is not a goal, have no desire, am happy with the walking I am doing.

But in the dream, I felt wonderful, and I totally get what you guys say when you are in the "zone" or when you run and you feel so great.

I dont think of this as a premonition but I do think a seed has been planted. We shall see where that takes me, I suppose. Please do not encourage me to run at this point. I have soooooo much work to do before I consider that, but it was a powerful feeling and right now, I just want to marinate on that.

The rest of the dream morphed into a violent relationship with Charlie Sheen including a shower scene where I was in the shower, vulnerable and he was kicking the door in. It went into a physical fight in the kitchen where we lived together and I realized he was truly crazy and I could not win, even though I got my hits in.

I wonder if that was leftover images from my last marriage? Was it important that the fight was in the kitchen? And the shower scene was important I think, because when are we more vulnerable than naked, wet and unarmed in the shower? It was very strange and left me feeling unsettled this morning.

Add to that, we found my daughter's cat, MOMO, dead yesterday on the side of the house. He didnt look attacked, poisoned or anything. He was just laying there.He was a silly, big, siamese cat and we will miss him. Kelly is inconsolable. Her cats are her babies and it was tragic seeing her cry like that. We all went together and buried him under a tree by a nearby river. It was very strange and sad.


Oh yea, add to that a 4 pound weight gain this week. WTF? I have never gained that much weight in one week in a year. I had a few bad food days but that is ridiculous. A pound or two, I would expect. But 4 pounds? I know it will suddenly fall off but still, that is just crummy.

Good news is Kady is doing great, really great!

That is what is going on with me, what is happening with you?

  
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SHERLYN-WILL 3/28/2011 7:52PM

    So glad you weren't dreaming of running naked after that shower... sounds like the running was a GREAT PART... and you even got to feel what it was like to be in the 'zone'!

I am laughing about the C S part of the dream.. just because.. the NEW OVERDOES all of his life.. too much "ENOUGH ALREADY!"

I am sorry about your Daughter's cat! BLESS her heart!

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 3/27/2011 10:31PM

    Glad to hear Kady is doing great. Keep fighting, those 4 lbs, and then some will come off

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CHELEMIA 3/27/2011 6:44PM

    Hi, Dreams haave the power to really make us question our psyche's. I am so sorry for your loss. Keep the feeling of the power of running and succeeding especially this week!!!
Please check out my FB for updates on my life. I kidnapped Hubby last weekend and barely made it up to Reno. MicheleCynthiaMcQueen

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JRZG8R 3/27/2011 3:44PM

    hate those magic gain pounds..love the magic loss ones

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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/26/2011 8:53PM

    Sorry about the cat! It's so painful, I know. When I worked at the children's home we had Larry, a female cat. One day she just walked off and died. I was told that is what cats do...still hurts to lose a loved one.

Your running dream sounds awesome! I think the zone is merely the oxygen getting to our brain...LOL. As far as vulnerabilities go, I agree with what you said. I'm told that the bathroom and kitchen are the worse places to be trapped in. I think being trapped is horrible, no matter what...

The scale hates me and I'm ok with that...so, a 4 pound gain...well, you know it goes away just as quick.

All the best!

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STARPLANET2000 3/26/2011 11:06AM

    I've always felt the same way about runnig that you do. Just didn't see it in my future. I've always said if you see me running, call the cops because someone is chasing me. BUT, I have starting running little (and I mean very little) intervals when walking. So who knows what a year of more weight loss and fitness could bring?

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/24/2011 6:31PM

    I am sorry about your sweet kitty. That is very sad. Keep thinking about the dream. I think they are very powerful and maybe you are not literally looking to run but metaphorically. Ready to break free from your struggling and get back on track fast. Hugs

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BIGMAMAT 3/24/2011 6:22PM

    Awwww. sorry to hear about MOMO Jan. Death is so hard. As for Charlie sheen, I am SURE you could take him! DON'T MESS WITH MAMA! Love you! emoticon

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THREEE 3/24/2011 1:56PM

    i have so many dreams(not often) that have affected the whole next day...they just strike a nerve...
first, so sorry kelly's cat died...you know her crying was a release for all the stress of having an ill sister has been building in her...yes, i am sure she loved her cat, but she had a good excuse to relieve her system of all of the emotions she has been suppressing...i'm glad you all could have a proper send off for the 4-legged friend...
Next...so glad Kady is doing better...she has a strong mama, and i'm sure she gets some of that strength to continue being hopeful...
Lastly, i would never encourage someone to run...but i want to tell you about the Irish diet i just heard about...well, it was an Irishman who was told by his doctor what to do...for 2 days he could eat anything he wanted, but the third day he had to skip, then the 4th and 5th day anything he wanted and so on...after 2 weeks, he reported back into the doctor and he had lost 15 pounds!!! the doctor asked how he felt about the diet...the Irishman said, day 1 and 2 were great, but the skipping nearly killed him!!! i told it poorly, hopefully you got it, but when i heard this joke it reminded me how much i LOVED skipping...as high or as far as i could...THAT is what i want to be able to do again...skip...i've even had dreams where i skip higher and higher and i can actually skip to an upper floor almost like i'm on a trampoline...ANYWAY...i just know how much fun actual skipping is...i want to do it again...MAYBE there is something that 'running' is a disguise for ... something that you will just delight in...it's coming because you KNOW you are getting closer and closer...and, UNFORTUNATELY, i believe the closer we get to what we truly want, we'll find more and more blocks in our way to try to trip us...but you have the right attitude...you KNOW you'll have a flux DOWN on your weight after this silly little flux UP...it is THE right attitude...thanks for spreading it...your attitude IS contagious emoticon

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COOKWITHME65 3/24/2011 1:34PM

    So sorry to hear about your daughter's cat. She must be heartbroken.

You are so right about your dream. We are most vulnerable when we are in the shower.

So glad to hear that your daughter Kady is recovering well. You two have a great relationship. I know how worried you were for her.

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GRACEISENUF 3/24/2011 12:36PM

    So sad to hear about Kelly's cat.

About the running I will not encourage you to do it. I gave it the ole "college" try for a period of time and for me personally walking (speed walking) is the best. At 52 my back and knees did not like the jarring of the pavement and once again for me personally I feel walking is a better choice for my own body in the long run. I do not want to have to see doctors and specialists to exercise PERIOD.

Hey the weight gain is prolly primarily water. Bet if you stay on track two to three days it will be history.

Have a good day Jan and it's great to hear Kady is doing well.

Love Ya!

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KAMAPERRY 3/24/2011 12:10PM

    What an awesome dream!! So happy Kady is doing well!

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BRIAEL 3/24/2011 11:59AM

    So sorry to hear about your cat. Glad that Kady is doing well, that girl really has some courage and some spunk. :)

Running eh? The secret runner within will eventually come out, you can't repress her forever *evil grin* and don't worry about the weight. If you had bad food days, it's probably bloating from higher sodium levels and water retention. Just make sure you keep drink drink drinking and it'll smooth out. :)

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Sunday night

Monday, March 21, 2011

This was a weekend of food...Too much food. I feel like crap. Back at being healthier tomorrow. Looking forward to it, too.

  
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THREEE 3/21/2011 5:51PM

    but isn't it cool that your body is not happy with the 'crap' that you ate? AND that you recognize it...you've come a long way, baby!!! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 3/21/2011 1:49PM

    I can relate..back at it myself!
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MARIO432 3/21/2011 1:11PM

    Yes thank goodness for Mondays. There are more of us there that feel like crap, your not alone.

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RIGBY31 3/21/2011 12:29PM

    That's the great part about mondays... restart your engine!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/21/2011 11:08AM

    Aren't you glad yesterday is over :)

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MOONBIRD 3/21/2011 10:44AM

    You'll do great!! emoticon

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 3/21/2011 9:43AM

    Yup, I hear ya. Best foot forward today and tomorrow and the next day and the next!

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EVRLNGFOO 3/21/2011 8:02AM

    you can do it!

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DAISY443 3/21/2011 6:20AM

    Me, too! emoticon

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Meeting Maia

Saturday, March 19, 2011

The first thing you need to know is her name is pronounced:
MAH-EE-UH, not MY-UH.

Second, she will tell you she is crazy, several times. LOL.

Frank and I went to Monterey early, had sandwiches for lunch at the beach and since it was raining, decided to go for a drink at El Torito. As we were pulling into the parking lot, Maia called and I told her where we were. She told me she was on her way and I told her we would be in the bar. Here she came and we got to see each other face to face!!

So, she ordered some tea and discussed many things in a very short amount of time including what to wear to the party. Then we split up and went to the restaurant where we were going to meet up with some other friends and her family.

Maia hosted a bar and nacho's and here was a variety of drinks that were brought to the table. Let me tell you something about this girl. She doesnt eat or drink more than a sip or a bite of anything!!! And pictures lie because she doesnt even drink alcohol, at least more than a sip of champagne!











Here is a picture of the table of friends and family.....


And a picture of Maia and her husband Marvin.


and a farewell picture of me and Maia



It was really fun meeting her and we will get together another time and talk some more. She has had a interesting life and I am looking forward to hearing more and becoming better friends. It was a fun day and I wish a few more of you could have been with us....

  
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MICKEYMAX 3/25/2011 8:31AM

    Looks like you had a great time!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 3/23/2011 9:47PM

    So fun! Awe! Dang Mama if I was there we would be having Irish Car bombs LOL!
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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 3/22/2011 6:41PM

    How amazing was that for you guys! You look fantastic Jan :)

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BIGMAMAT 3/22/2011 6:06PM

    Glad you'all got to meet! Looks like you had a great time! emoticon

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MAIA2011 3/22/2011 1:22PM

    I thought our boobs were supposed to be touching in that last one!


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ATREAT4ME 3/20/2011 9:41AM

    Awesome! It is just wonderful. I am so happy for both of you. It looks like you had a fantastic time. I bet you just giggled and giggled and giggled. Woohoooo!

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 3/20/2011 3:32AM

    Oh how great was this?! You actually got to meet. It really means something doesn't it? You both look like you were having the time of your life and no doubt will be friends for a long time to come. I wish you both a long and lasting friendship.

Take care,

Kristin

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DAISY443 3/19/2011 3:56PM

    Been looking forward to this! Thanks for sharing so wonderfully!

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KAMAPERRY 3/19/2011 3:33PM

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CORDIA72 3/19/2011 3:08PM

    In a way we were there with you just by you sharing this post with us. Thanks for sharing!

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GRACEISENUF 3/19/2011 2:53PM

    Looks like a great time to me!



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RIGBY31 3/19/2011 1:35PM

    Just when I thought SP was perhaps a production of imagination, you prove that two Sparkers can get out of the virtual and into the real world together! Looks like a fun time, you two are beautiful!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/19/2011 1:14PM

    Yeah! I am so happy you guys got to have such a great time! You both look adorable! How fun.

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Shift in the Universe

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I just need to warn you that, Tomorrow, March 18th at approx. 5:00 p, Pacific Standard time in California, there may be a serious shift in the Universe.

Please do not be alarmed but be aware that two forces of nature are due to come together in the same place, at the same time.


This event may manifest in a variety of ways, including, but not limited to: bouts of hysterical laughter, witty and cutting remarks, consumption of mass quantities of cheese and a few glasses of wine perhaps.

These effects may be felt all the way to the East Coast, so please be on guard. We would hate for anyone to be hurt although Jealousy can make one feel upset. These feelings will pass once pictures have been posted so you can share in the historic event.

  
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BTINTERNET 3/19/2011 9:58AM

    Have fun!!

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ONESTRONGSIREN 3/19/2011 7:50AM

    Adorable post! Hope you had a fantastic time! =)

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CALIKIKI 3/18/2011 11:59PM

    There was a definite bubble when I was shopping at target around 5 tonight....And the skies opened up and poured on me!

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BIGMAMAT 3/18/2011 10:25PM

    Hope you had fun! emoticon

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MAIA2011 3/18/2011 3:01PM

    Wine is for losers. I'll be having Earl Grey Tea, champers, and Guinness.

Carry on!






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COOKWITHME65 3/18/2011 10:46AM

    How cute. Enjoy yourself.

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/18/2011 7:45AM

    Ha - ENJOY!!

- Michelle

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ATREAT4ME 3/18/2011 6:33AM

    It is good, and right, and fitting that this shift of the universe would occur on what would've been my Mother's birthday (No way am I divulging how old she woulda been!). She was one heck of a Force of Nature and she woulda loved the two of you! Wish I could be there with you!

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GRACEISENUF 3/17/2011 7:54PM

    ENJOY!!!

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RACHGLAZE 3/17/2011 5:56PM

    Sounds like fun!

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STARPLANET2000 3/17/2011 5:36PM

    Sounds like a roaring good time!

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Just contributing a little something for your party! Cheerz!

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RIGBY31 3/17/2011 3:17PM

    Order a round of cheese and wine... put it on my (virtual) tab! You two nuts have a terrific time!

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KAMAPERRY 3/17/2011 3:03PM

    OMG!!!! Enjoy!

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DIANA_IS_BACK 3/17/2011 3:03PM

    Oh, have a great time!

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DAISY443 3/17/2011 2:54PM

    Beware the ides of Mamadwarf and Maia! Enjoy! And inquiring minds want to hear all about it from both sides!

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SLFRISBEY 3/17/2011 2:53PM

    Have FUN!!!! Can't wait to hear about how you ladies paint the town red!

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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/17/2011 2:52PM

    Have a great time!

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VAMANOS 3/17/2011 2:42PM

    Sounds like fun! Quaff a glass of merlot for me, and throw in a bite of dark chocolate.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/17/2011 2:37PM

    Hate you both for doing this without me. Especially the cheese part. Just sayin

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SKINNYPOWELL1 3/17/2011 2:34PM

    Sounds like a great time is in store. Enjoy.

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I haven't changed. Much (pictures)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

I was looking through my computer today and I found a picture of me, doing Karaoke at Christmas time a few years ago. I took a picture of me today. 64 pounds difference. Holy Cow! (Yes I chose those words carefully! LOL).

It is fun to see the comparison and see progress!!! Here ya go!



And today:

  
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MICKEYMAX 3/25/2011 8:32AM

    Woo hoo!

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SHERLYN-WILL 3/23/2011 11:15PM

    WOW now this really tells a story! 64 is so much to lose... I am proud of you! YOU look gorgeous!

You look like you grew a foot too! LOL

Tall and thinner! YAY!

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SLIMGOODY160 3/20/2011 8:40AM

    Atta girl!! You look marvelous!

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MAIA2011 3/18/2011 3:03PM

    If I'd been drinking out of the toilet, I might have been killed.



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CELLISTA1 3/18/2011 2:34AM

    Jan, what I love about you is that you are cool and fun at any size.

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GRACEISENUF 3/17/2011 2:04PM

    AWESOME!

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KAMAPERRY 3/16/2011 11:20PM

    Wow, awesome!

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THREEE 3/16/2011 8:53PM

    you just lOOk much more comfortable in your skin...your 'after' microphone, tho, leaves something to be desired...

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MELYMEL22 3/16/2011 1:37PM

    look at your neck and face! wow, beautiful job. keep it up!

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XIMERAGREY 3/16/2011 12:50PM

    You're looking great!

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SARAH_HOPE 3/16/2011 11:57AM

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Progress pictures are so exciting! You are looking great!

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LESLIES537 3/16/2011 11:37AM

    Holy transformation Batman!! All of your hard work is paying off and it definitely shows! Nice work!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KERSTIN814 3/16/2011 11:21AM

    Wow, keep up the good work. You are an inspiration to all of us!

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KARENZIO 3/16/2011 11:04AM

    Great job! emoticon emoticon

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BJW-FARMGIRL 3/16/2011 10:26AM

    Woo hoo, Mama! Terrrific!

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FITMOMTO4 3/16/2011 10:11AM

    Looking Good! Way to Go!

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DEEDEE1102 3/16/2011 10:03AM

    Wow! You are doing great! emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 3/16/2011 9:44AM

    Oh, yes! Definitely awesome! Look at you all hot and gorgeous! And look! You can't even take a photo without your hydrating water close by!

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STEPHANIE0982 3/16/2011 9:14AM

    Awesome!!

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SCROSS6 3/16/2011 8:45AM

    Looking good!

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DIANNADZ 3/16/2011 7:50AM

    Way to go!

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/16/2011 7:18AM

    Lookin' good mama!!! :) GREAT JOB!

- Michelle

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/16/2011 6:45AM

    Jan you look amazing! So much younger!!!!! Congrats girl. You earned it and I am so proud of you.

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BTINTERNET 3/16/2011 6:41AM

    Oh babe! You look awesome! What a difference!!! emoticon

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HEALTHIERTINA 3/15/2011 10:15PM

  You look amazing. emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 3/15/2011 9:03PM

    Wow Mama! WAY to Go! You keep going and you are gonna catch me for sure!!! emoticon

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SLFRISBEY 3/15/2011 7:44PM

    Daaaaaang hot mamma! Keep up the good work! :)

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NTSOHLTHNT 3/15/2011 6:47PM

    Holy s.... what an awesome difference!!!! :-)
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what a difference!!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/15/2011 5:40PM

    You look AMAZING!!!! I love looking at old photos now (if I can find any) to see how far I've come. Keep rockin' it!

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KIBAISREADY 3/15/2011 5:36PM

    Well Done Ma'am!.. Wishing you continue success... emoticon

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 3/15/2011 5:04PM

    hot mama!

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KIYOSHI04 3/15/2011 4:54PM

    amazing!! you look absolutely fantastic.

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CYBERQT 3/15/2011 4:52PM

    WTG!

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BARCLE 3/15/2011 4:48PM

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/15/2011 4:44PM

    I never realized how beautiful you are. Seriously. WTG, doll!!!

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RIGBY31 3/15/2011 4:41PM

    Oh yeah, you're totally getting your groove on! What a difference!!
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ATREAT4ME 3/15/2011 4:37PM

    I'm officially in awe of you. Wowsers!


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MRSSCHENCK 3/15/2011 4:35PM

    Wow! You look amazing! emoticon

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DAISY443 3/15/2011 4:35PM

    Here's the really great thing, you are fun loving and inspirational. The weight loss is great, too!

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COLONELSGODDESS 3/15/2011 4:35PM

    emoticon You look really great! Way to go & thanks for sharing your progress!

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