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Sunday and getting back to "normal"

Sunday, March 06, 2011

We got home yesterday and it feels great to be back. Kady is doing ok though she has a LOT of healing to do. She is gonna do great.

My ankle is healing and I am doing ok with my brace.

I am getting back to less medical and more weight related blogging. It was very helpful to have you all here for me during last week. Thank you.

I did read some of your blogs and I am back now so let me know what's going on with you guys.
Oh yea, I weighed today and am exactly where I was when I left for Hospital on Monday. I am very happy with that.

  
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BIGMAMAT 3/8/2011 8:04AM

    So proud of you for maintaining! Since Robin sent hugs from NC, I'll send love from WV. emoticon

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MAIA2011 3/8/2011 3:46AM

    LOL @HIS_BLONDIE.

Jan, I just wonder if you ever get tired of being AWESOME!

(I'm also glad all you guys are doing better. I just drove past your town and thought of you.)

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ATREAT4ME 3/7/2011 11:52PM

    Wowsers, Jan! WTG! What an awesome thing to be able to report.

I'm glad Kady is doing ok. She sounds amazing, just like her Mom.

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/7/2011 11:13PM

    holy f*ck wtg on maintaining!!!!!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 3/7/2011 7:05PM

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Take care and be well.

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SARAWALKS 3/7/2011 4:46PM

    Great news! emoticon both of you! emoticon

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LESLIES537 3/7/2011 10:07AM

    Yay for maintaining! Have a great week! emoticon back!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 3/7/2011 7:32AM

    Maintenance in a stressful week is phenomenal. Happy things are looking back up Jan.

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/7/2011 7:29AM

    I'm very happy you're back and all is getting back to normal! I'll continue to pray for healing...for both of you! (((HUGS)))

- Michelle

PS - Weighing in the same as a week ago is a HUGE victory - be sure to celebrate it! :)

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 3/6/2011 11:15PM

    Godspeed to you and your family!

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ROBINSNEWNEST 3/6/2011 7:24PM

    So glad to hear Kady is home and recovering (you, too). Sorry I was not here last week at all... will blog about it later... in midst of health crisis with Bill's mom in NC and this new job... but you guys were in my thoughts and prayers EVERY day even if I did not show it at the time... Please give Kady a hug from her fans along the Carolina coast and let her hug her Mama back for us:) Onward with the makings of your wonderful lives...

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/6/2011 5:47PM

    So glad you're back and Kady is doing well. Happy that you're on the mend too! Take some time for yourself and Kady, you both have some healing left to do. HUGS for you both!

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DAISY443 3/6/2011 5:05PM

    So glad all is going well with Kady andthat you are taking care of yourself! Hugs!

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KAMAPERRY 3/6/2011 4:56PM

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/6/2011 4:51PM

    I am so happy you are back and Kady is recovering so well! I missed you bunches. I'm Ashley news a woman called me insane on my blog about honesty. It's actually kind of funny to me now but at the time I wanted to tear into her like a crazy person. I am proud of myself that I didn't! I would love to send Kady a get well card if you are comfortable giving me your address. Hugs.

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Thursday update: 6 minutes at a time

Thursday, March 03, 2011

We have been living 6 minutes at a time. That is how often Kady can hit her pain medication button. Yesterday was HORRIBLE, you guys. I wanted to crawl into a dark hole with my laptop and cry to you guys.

The meds make her sooo high and she was so crazy and OCD yesterday. I actually spent 2 hours arranging pillows for her the way she wanted them and she could not get comfortable, she would not rest, she burst into tears several times and I was just exhausted. Finally at 8, I left to go to my cousins house (who will forever have SAINT before their names!!) to a glass of wine, some homemade soup, a comforting ear, a fluffy bed and prayers to God to "Please let tomorrow be a better day".

And you know what? Today is better. I mean SOOO much better!! She got up, had her epidural out, her catheter out, has been able to eat a bit, has a clearer head and is cooperative and being my Kady. I cannot tell you how relieved I am. I am sure I would have managed but really? I cannot imagine another day like that.

We are making progress, she is starting to heal. I have learned how a ileostomy bag works, I have seen her naked for the first time in probably 5 years, her Boyfriend also earned the Saint status as well. I am healing with the ankle, the cold is going away, I am eating ok and drinking lots of water. That is what I can do and so that is what I am doing. Progress not perfection. Man, that is really my life mantra not just my sparkpeople mantra.

We are gonna make it and I can see the light. Sigh. Miss you guys alot. I really do. Thanks for all the prayers and comments.

  
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BADASSBLONDIE 3/7/2011 11:12PM

    Wow. This was really hard to read (mainly b/c all I can think about is Boy having the same procedure). I'm glad she is doing better today. *hugs*

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/7/2011 11:05PM

    Wow. This was really hard to read (mainly b/c all I can think about is Boy having the same procedure). I'm glad she is doing better today.

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ROBINSNEWNEST 3/6/2011 7:25PM

    Yes; you're gonna make it ...

with love -
Robin

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BAYBELIEVER 3/5/2011 12:14AM

    Jan, you continue to be amazing! Of course, most moms are, but when it is your daughter and there is so much to handle, your truth strength comes shining through! I am glad things are getting markedly better. Kady will be home soon and that will make her feel all the better too!
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ATREAT4ME 3/3/2011 10:19PM

    You are doing great, Jan. You are loving her and her choices, and giving her room to find her way in a new and unique world. You are a real blessing to her, just as she is to you. You have a beautiful family and I'm glad you're all pulling together. I'm hoping she heals fast now that the pain is more manageable. You're all in my prayers!
Cheryl

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HEALING_LORI 3/3/2011 4:49PM

    So happy your blog had good news! I was in tears just with the first few lines! Glad things are looking up for you guys!

Sending BUG HUGS your way!


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BRIAEL 3/3/2011 4:04PM

    Day by Day, small steps to full health and a much happier Kady and Mama! :)

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SHERLYN-WILL 3/3/2011 3:29PM

    Thank God for the scripture 'this too shall pass"! Bless her heart! ! BLESS all of you!!

Take care of you too...

Progress not perfection.. is right!

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/3/2011 3:05PM

    Well thank God today's better!! I'll continue praying and you all continue just taking it minute by minute. (((hugs))) Stay strong.

- Michelle

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Thursday update: 6 minutes at a time

Thursday, March 03, 2011

We have been living 6 minutes at a time. That is how often Kady can hit her pain medication button. Yesterday was HORRIBLE, you guys. I wanted to crawl into a dark hole with my laptop and cry to you guys.

The meds make her sooo high and she was so crazy and OCD yesterday. I actually spent 2 hours arranging pillows for her the way she wanted them and she could not get comfortable, she would not rest, she burst into tears several times and I was just exhausted. Finally at 8, I left to go to my cousins house (who will forever have SAINT before their names!!) to a glass of wine, some homemade soup, a comforting ear, a fluffy bed and prayers to God to "Please let tomorrow be a better day".

And you know what? Today is better. I mean SOOO much better!! She got up, had her epidural out, her catheter out, has been able to eat a bit, has a clearer head and is cooperative and being my Kady. I cannot tell you how relieved I am. I am sure I would have managed but really? I cannot imagine another day like that.

We are making progress, she is starting to heal. I have learned how a ileostomy bag works, I have seen her naked for the first time in probably 5 years, her Boyfriend also earned the Saint status as well. I am healing with the ankle, the cold is going away, I am eating ok and drinking lots of water. That is what I can do and so that is what I am doing. Progress not perfection. Man, that is really my life mantra not just my sparkpeople mantra.

We are gonna make it and I can see the light. Sigh. Miss you guys alot. I really do. Thanks for all the prayers and comments.

  
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DONNACFIT 3/6/2011 12:00AM

    Prayers and hugs..hang in there emoticon

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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/3/2011 10:24PM

    Oh, yay that it is getting better! I have been praying for you and your family! So glad to hear it is improving all around!

All the best!

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KAMAPERRY 3/3/2011 9:25PM

    Glad things are looking better! emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 3/3/2011 6:25PM

    Brighter days ahead my beautiful friend. Glad today was better! emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 3/3/2011 5:33PM

    I'm so glad things are getting better for you both.
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TORKA1 3/3/2011 4:58PM

    So glad to hear things are improving! It won't necessarily be good every day, but the good days will soon begin outnumbering the bad again as everyone adjusts to the "new normal."


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HEALING_LORI 3/3/2011 4:51PM

    So glad you had good news in your blog! I was in tears just reading the title! Happy things are looking up for you guys! Yaayy for Kady!
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SLFRISBEY 3/3/2011 3:25PM

    Sorry she had such a rough day! You're a wonderful mom for being there for her and loving her so much. Makes me tear up a bit wishing I still had my mom for the hard times. Thoughts and prayers for continued success for all of you guys! And so glad today was better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! (((hugs)))

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GRACEISENUF 3/3/2011 3:04PM

    So glad to hear today is a better day. God answered your prayers Jan .... woo hoo!

The after surgery drugs make people "loopy" and I'm glad you have your precious Kady back.

Know I'm here, I care and I will continue to pray.





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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/3/2011 3:02PM

    I am glad you made it through such a tough day. You are a warrior for holding this all together so well! I am so proud of you and glad that she is starting to feel better! Miss you too. Hugs

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Changing of the guard

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

So last night, after Kadys surgery, we came to her room. She was in a lot of pain, even with the epidural and the diluadid. It was horrible. Kady had told her Boyfriend Artie, that she wanted him to stay. (Not me). So Frank, Kelly and I left.
It was very hard to do that but I realize that this is her choice and that this is her life and I need to respect that.

He stayed with her all night and wrote me the sweetest note to me about her. So that was a new one on me. This morning we came back to hospital and they had their own routine going and my help to her was "annoying" so Art went to go sleep at his Uncles house and I will do day shift with Kelly and Artie will do night shift. That way I will get sleep and she will get what she wants too.

My ankle is black and blue but I am able to walk without crutches and using my leg brace. Now I am getting a cold which totally pisses me off.

Anyway, we are hanging in and doing the best we can. Thank you so much for support and prayers. I will write when I can.

  
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GRACEISENUF 3/3/2011 2:48PM

    I got back last night and just got caught up on your blogs. You have all been in my prayers and I am so sorry to hear you are coming down with a cold on top of everything else. I got the flu yesterday...(I feel like crap).

Kady is so loved and that will aid in her recovery. Let her know we are all praying for her here.

xoxoxoxoxo

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HEALING_LORI 3/2/2011 4:07PM

    You are an amazing mom! Stay stong and take things day by day! Sounds like Kady has a great support system around her! Keep your chin up & things WILL get better! Take care of that cold! Praying for you all!
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OHSOCOOLLISA 3/2/2011 1:02PM

    I'm glad your ankle is better...sorry about the cold :(

I can remember how ticked off I felt in the hospital...I don't think her feelings were meant to hurt or stress you...it's just so hard for all of you!

All the best!

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ATREAT4ME 3/2/2011 6:30AM

    You've been in my prayers all day. I am sorry about the pain. I hope they get her on something to stay ahead of the pain. You are so brave and so strong to let others have a special place in your baby's life. I am in awe of you! Be sweet to that ankle and don't walk too much. As for the cold --- deep breaths will make it harder for it to move into your lungs. May not prevent it, but deep breaths never hurt anyone and you can do them sitting down.

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ARMOYBYRD 3/1/2011 11:56PM

    you are a strong lady! I don't know how you find or make the time for sparking with all that is in your circle right now. I hope your ankle and your daughter continue to heal. I never had kids for many reasons all by choise but on e of them is I was just chicken. I would not have let htem grow up and let go well, I know it. You are doing a wonderful job.

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SHERLYN-WILL 3/1/2011 11:16PM

    So glad to hear she is ok... from the surgery! So that was a jewel to get a sweet note about her from her BF... (hope you like him... )

He sounds like a good guy really though... sticking by her side!

I am sorry you are getting a cold... you have immunities down.. probably since you have been dealing with a lot of STRESS!!

PRaying for your family!

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BAYBELIEVER 3/1/2011 11:01PM

    Glad to hear Kady came out of surgery well. I am sure I know how you feel with the boyfriend being asked to take over, but it will work out well that each of you can be there for her. She can have someone with her all the time and you both can get the rest you need to support Kady! And you got a nice note too!
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TREASURINGLIFE 3/1/2011 9:02PM

    Thanks for the update. I'll continue praying. Take care of yourself. YOU ROCK!

- Michelle

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SARAWALKS 3/1/2011 8:17PM

    Sounds like a good plan and I'm glad it's working out that you can get some rest!
Letting go is hard but generally a good thing - hurrah for you for being flexible!
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PJH2028 3/1/2011 7:41PM

    I'm glad that you are healing. And glad to glean that Kady is "feeling her cheerios" in some ways even as the pain and recovery is steep. How lovely that your daughter is so surrounded by love. You are an awesome mama, Jan. Sending you all healing energy and love.

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CHELEMIA 3/1/2011 7:07PM

    For some reason pain meds TOTALLY make people grouchy and irratable(irritating-nonono NOT THAT!)
I can never do anything right that first day.
So I take a book and do nothing but sit. I don't talk just am there for gopher (drink and bathroom) help.
IT is NOT PERSONNal!!!!

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BIGMAMAT 3/1/2011 5:59PM

    Sending love and strength across the miles mama! hugs. emoticon

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/1/2011 5:10PM

    Thanks for keeping us posted. *hugs* I'm sorry to hear she's still feeling pain. As hard as it is to let Art take a direct role in this, I'm proud of you for letting him. That takes a lot of strength and I can't even imagine how hard that is. *hugs*

You two have been on my mind a lot lately. Ashley's right - please make sure to take care of yourself as well. *hugs*

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KAMAPERRY 3/1/2011 3:55PM

    Hugs, I know it must be very hard. Praying for you all.

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COOKWITHME65 3/1/2011 2:35PM

    It must be hard to stand by as her Mom and have another by her beside comforting her but she is older now and has different needs. You raised a wonderful strong young woman. I think the changing of the guards is a good idea. You can both help meet her needs and at the same time get the rest you need to take care of yourself and regroup for the next day. Sending healthy healing vibes to Kady and yourself.

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DAISY443 3/1/2011 2:33PM

    Jan, take care of you. Try to elevate that ankle as much as you can during the day and see if the nurses can direct you to some ice. I think you have a great attitude about the boy friend and it will make your bond with Kady even stronger. The pain should get better day by day, but it is so hard to get through. Prayers and hugs!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/1/2011 2:26PM

    You know the first time my ex husband picked me when he was sick over his mom she told me privately that it hard really stung but that she knew it was the right decision for him in his life. It meant a lot to me that she had understood and let me do that with him. I am proud of you Jan. You are a truly amazing woman. I hope you are taking good care of you too. Hugs. Much love.

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she is out, she is safe and pain free

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

The dr. said it all went well but they ended up giving her an epidural so she will be pain free for a few days. I like that. she had so much disease, and it was surely the best decision. I feel ok about that. I am exhausted but happy!! thanks guys, I love you!!

  
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GRACEISENUF 3/3/2011 2:48PM

    Love you too Jan.
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    Love you more. emoticon

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BADASSBLONDIE 3/1/2011 5:03PM

    I'm so glad to hear she's safe and especially that she's pain free. *hugs*

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KAMAPERRY 3/1/2011 1:58PM

    Yay!!!!!!!!! Thank God!

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BTINTERNET 3/1/2011 8:51AM

    Excellent news!! Glad to hear things went as smoothly as they could!

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BRIAEL 3/1/2011 8:46AM

    So glad to hear that Kady is safely out of surgery and ready to recover from the op. Make sure you take care of yourself too, Jan, so you can be strong for her. :)

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HEALING_LORI 3/1/2011 8:32AM

    What a releif! I'm glad she's doing well and the pain is under control! Praying for a speedy recovery! Sending Hugs your way!!!
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EMMANYC 3/1/2011 8:00AM

    I'm glad things went well, and I hope your ankle is feeling better, too.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/1/2011 6:37AM

    That I awesome! I am so glad she is getting good pain management. Get some sleep too! Hugs.

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STARPLANET2000 3/1/2011 5:45AM

    Great news!

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DAISY443 3/1/2011 4:42AM

    So glad to hear the great news! How wonderful that she can now go on with the rest of her life and be healthy! Hugs! Take care of yourself, too!

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CHELEMIA 3/1/2011 2:26AM

    If the epidural causes pins and needles in her legs or back tomorrow, ask the doctor for benadryl. Some times the epidural puts the nerves to sleep for a bit longer than it should. Benedryl is a miracle cure for that.

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 3/1/2011 1:16AM

    I'm so glad everything went well and I hope things go just as smoothly for all the days to come!

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