Thursday, March 03, 2011
We have been living 6 minutes at a time. That is how often Kady can hit her pain medication button. Yesterday was HORRIBLE, you guys. I wanted to crawl into a dark hole with my laptop and cry to you guys.
The meds make her sooo high and she was so crazy and OCD yesterday. I actually spent 2 hours arranging pillows for her the way she wanted them and she could not get comfortable, she would not rest, she burst into tears several times and I was just exhausted. Finally at 8, I left to go to my cousins house (who will forever have SAINT before their names!!) to a glass of wine, some homemade soup, a comforting ear, a fluffy bed and prayers to God to "Please let tomorrow be a better day".
And you know what? Today is better. I mean SOOO much better!! She got up, had her epidural out, her catheter out, has been able to eat a bit, has a clearer head and is cooperative and being my Kady. I cannot tell you how relieved I am. I am sure I would have managed but really? I cannot imagine another day like that.
We are making progress, she is starting to heal. I have learned how a ileostomy bag works, I have seen her naked for the first time in probably 5 years, her Boyfriend also earned the Saint status as well. I am healing with the ankle, the cold is going away, I am eating ok and drinking lots of water. That is what I can do and so that is what I am doing. Progress not perfection. Man, that is really my life mantra not just my sparkpeople mantra.
We are gonna make it and I can see the light. Sigh. Miss you guys alot. I really do. Thanks for all the prayers and comments.