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Sunday, February 20, 2011

Went to the baby shower and it was beautiful. Kady did so much of the decor and the cupcakes, food etc. (I made the cake balls) and I wanted to show you guys a picture. She really needs to be aparty planner. I sat near the table and listened to people talking about how amazing everything looked and who did the cupcakes etc. I was very proud of my girl.

I kept my eating under control at the shower. 1 bullet dodged!

Then I went to a crab feed (I dont eat crab but they had pasta). I ate salad (but this year they already has salad dressing on it-boo!) and french bread which I had figured into my calories for the day (but this year, they buttered and cooked it which pissed me off cause they always have cold bread with butter that you can put on yourself-boo!!) and Pasta (which is always Marinara but this year had meat sauce-BOO BOOO BOOOOOOOO!) which I ate.

SO I was over on everything I am quite sure but probably fat most of all. So bullet #2 hit me but it was just a flesh wound. AND, the good part was I won a huge raffle basket of wine, nuts, pasta and a beautiful olive oil set. So that was fun!

Today is the Daytona 500 party. I am going to try to get a walk in first and eat well before I go and be mindful of what is going in my mouth today. Then tomorrow, clear skies for the week which means walking and no bullets to dodge until Weds and Thursday! Woohoo!

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THREEE 3/11/2011 10:54PM


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MAIA2011 2/24/2011 9:19AM

    Wow that is a beautiful set-up. Your daughter has an awesome mom and super cake skillz. I myself can't plan but I can


(A flesh wound? What are you going to do--bleed on me?)


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ATREAT4ME 2/22/2011 7:04AM

    What a beautiful table! Good job scoping out your options and setting your sights. I'm so proud of you!

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ROBINSNEWNEST 2/21/2011 9:28PM

    Good job -- for Kady and Kady's mom! emoticon

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The pic is FANTASTIC! Congrats on winning the basket!

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 2/21/2011 12:29AM

    Sounds like you're Miss Social at the moment! Congrats on dodging bullet 1 and I love the comment about bullet 2 as a flesh wound- very funny:)

Hope you had a great time at Daytone!


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BIGMAMAT 2/20/2011 10:24PM

    Glad you had a good weekend. Don't sweat going over. Just be good 80% of the time and you will come out ahead! xoxoxo Tricia emoticon

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KAMAPERRY 2/20/2011 10:03PM

    Looks great!! Enjoy the party!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/20/2011 9:26PM

    Kady does have a good eye. Most people don't realize you need the 3 dimension aspect to a buffet. I am a party planner so if she wants advice on how to get into it I can send her some tips.

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RIGBY31 2/20/2011 6:14PM

    What a fun looking table! Kady does a beautiful presentation. And your cake balls... are they one bite wonders?! Yummy!

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CHELEMIA 2/20/2011 3:05PM

Your daughter takes after you in the creativity realm, doesn't she? Everything looks great!

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NEDERLUNG 2/20/2011 10:38AM

    OK, two days of good planning and healthy eating until the next hurdle, it will all balance out by weeks end. You can do this!

Enjoy the company at the Daytona party - ignore the food! Smiles

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DAISY443 2/20/2011 10:37AM

    What a talented daughter you have! Too bad the crab feed didn't take into account that some of us can't eat like serious athletes. It did all sound really good, though! You'll get back on track!

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GRACEFULCHARM 2/20/2011 10:24AM

    Awww sounds like Kady is ultra creative! Every thing in the picture looks cute and delish! The fact that you acknowledge that you went a little over and not letting it ruin your whole progress speaks volumes!

Side Note: Is that your dog in the background?! I have one that looks the same even down to the red collar (mine's probably a lot older though) sorry just had to say something, I love dogs!

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GRACEISENUF 2/20/2011 10:15AM

    Kady did do an amazing job on the decorating Jan (it looks professionally done).

Congrats on winning the raffle...I love winning stuff. Sadly that never happens, lol.

I'm off in a few minutes to go see my Katelyn with the family. I miss her so that'll be fun. We are taking her out for breakfast in her college town. I'm not a huge Oprah fan or anything but I watched her show the other day as she featured my daughter's college town as "the happiest place on earth". Kinda fun to see...although I still think Disneyland is! :)

Have fun at the Daytona 500 party emoticon.

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The rose colored glasses

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Once upon a time, there was a woman who wore rose colored glasses. They made the world a beautiful, hazy place where things were bright, happy, and wonderful. She loved those glasses and wore them every day. They took the harsh edges off the sometimes cruel world and changed the reality to something she wanted to see.

One day she forgot to put her glasses on and she went about her day. She began to see things as they really were, and not the sunny, distorted place she wanted to see. So many things began to appear before her that she found interesting and not as bad as she thought they might be. Until she found herself gazing at her image in the mirror.

There, the reality was unkind. She was not "fluffy", she was fat. She was not "Bigger" she was huge. SHe was not "sturdy", she was obese. She stared at her image and it burned into her brain.

As she went back to her castle that day, she couldn't wait to get her glasses back on. But those images of her bothered her and by the time she got back to the safety of her glasses, she knew.
She knew she had to change, to try to get that "real" image closer to the image from the rose colored glasses.

So she began. She joined Sparkpeople, tracked her food, began to excercise and gradually, her shape began to change. She met many fair maidens and noble knights who encouraged her along her way. She kept those rose colored glasses in her night stand and did not put them on.

She missed those glasses, though. Sometimes the glare of the real world was too much and she longed to put the glasses on and soften the edges. But she was different now and she was trying to learn to live without them. The journey was a hard one at times.Sometimes people didn't understand that she was sad. She clearly saw the sadness and struggles that happened to people she knew and loved.

She was a naturally optomistic lady but sometimes it was a bit too difficult to remember to enjoy the sunshine, rainbows and unicorns when the clouds and thunderstorms hit.

One day, she put the glasses on again. She was having a bad day and needed a break from the life that was now hers. As she looked at her castle, her world, her self, she realized that she wanted to see the world in a clear light, she wanted to see the real her. She realized that those glasses had not simply softened the edges, they had indeed altered the reality. There had to be a balance! Perhaps a lighter shade of pink? A less intense shade?

So she did some tinkering and came up with the right combination. It allowed her to remain optomistic, to see the world in a palatable way that she could manage, yet showed her the reality and the beauty in what actually IS.

A friend reminded her to count her blessings and she would get through the challenges ahead and now she can have her glasses and also have the real world,too. It is not as scary as she thought and she finds that she can manage just fine. Although she still has a way to go to get where she wants to be, she can smile while she gets there.
Plus, she looks fantastic with and without her glasses and so does the rest of the world.

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THREEE 3/11/2011 10:51PM

    oh man, i was sorely missing in my position as PIMP(pretty important managing person?)...if i had been more timely i could have pushed this is beautiful...
one of your biggest fans...

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BBGYRL4 2/22/2011 12:24PM

    Jan, this was an absolutely amazing blog. I LOVED it!!

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LILLYPILLY24 2/22/2011 7:45AM

    Oh, I love this - what a privilege to read it!

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ATREAT4ME 2/22/2011 7:10AM

    You're so creative, Jan. What a great post.

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BAYBELIEVER 2/20/2011 10:36PM

    This is amazing! Thanks for this. Truly.

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BMINE73 2/20/2011 10:24PM

    Amazing blog! I added you as a friend...hope ok emoticon

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BRAINYBLONDE5 2/20/2011 8:40PM

    amazing blog. brought tears to my eyes. "She was a naturally optomistic lady but sometimes it was a bit too difficult to remember to enjoy the sunshine, rainbows and unicorns when the clouds and thunderstorms hit."

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ROBINTRACKS 2/20/2011 8:16PM

    Thanks Jan! Nicely done as always!

From this Fair Maiden,

-- Robin emoticon

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SARAWALKS 2/20/2011 3:58PM

    emoticon Just exactly the right degree of rose! emoticon

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RACHGLAZE 2/20/2011 8:33AM

    I think we should all have our own brand of rose colored glasses. Seeing the world and ourselves as it really is but remaining positive and able to function is also important.

Great way to word it!

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KAMAPERRY 2/20/2011 12:02AM


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PHOENIXK26 2/19/2011 10:55PM

    What a wonderful blog! I love the way you painted such a beautiful and touching story with words. Thanks for sharing it!

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STARFISH619 2/19/2011 9:35PM

    That was a great story - and great way of wording self awareness.

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BIGMAMAT 2/19/2011 8:39PM

    I love it!! Wonderfully written. I loved it except for that dang "O" word. lol. haha xoxoxo Tricia emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 2/19/2011 8:38PM

    Beautiful Jan! You always have a way with words.
ps - thanks for the comment on my pic! I couldn't do it without the support of my sparkies!

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CELLISTA1 2/19/2011 2:04PM

    We naturally crave comfort and safety. The "real" world requires bravery. Negotiating a place for ourselves with "the right combination" of glasses on/glasses off is a very personal journey. Thank-you, Jan, for this wonderful metaphor. You bring such truth and authenticity to the table. Oops - bad metaphor!

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RIGBY31 2/19/2011 12:56PM

    And she lived happily ever after! Beautifully written.

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BUTEAFULL 2/19/2011 12:12PM

    I can't wait for a new chapter

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DAISY443 2/19/2011 10:59AM

    Can I borrow those rose colored glasses you put away, just for a day or two??
Great blog!

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GRACEISENUF 2/19/2011 10:18AM

    Okay you are a great storyteller Jan, love this.

I woke up at 5:30 to take my son to work...therefore I need these dark glasses!


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Playing Hooky, dodging minefields and hitting the 220's.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Yesterday, Frank and I were in the office and all of a sudden, this thought came into my mind. "Let's play hooky, and go to the movies!". I was in the middle of paying bills and Frank was working on an estimate so I tell him what I am thinking and he goes," Oh my god, I was JUST thinking that". (This is not the first time he has implanted ideas telepathically into my brain!) and we both started cracking up. So after lunch, we went to the movies and saw The Eagle (Roman quest movie) with that darling Channing Tatum (less clothes next time, please!). It was fun to sneak away and have some time just for us.

It is these little things that keep us sane, keep us friends and relieve some of the stress of life. Just a small thing but it was fun.

I have lost the weight I gained (except for .6 lbs) on vacation and I am determined to hit 229 before I head to the hospital on the 28th with Kady. That is my mantra: 229, 229, 229 cause I have been in the 230's FOREVER!!!

I have already started compiling some of the snacks I am going to take with me so I stay out of the vending machines during that time, like Luna bars and fiber plus bars and at least at the hospital they have salad bars and fresh fruit so I will be ok and of course, stick to my rule of one soda a day and water the rest of the time. I figure by walking around the perimeter of the hospital, that will be a mile or more and it will be a good stress reliever to, so I can do that a few times a day.. So I have a plan for that week.

This week however, I have several food related situations that will be challenging:
Saturday: Baby shower during the day (yea, I made the cake balls for it. Maybe I will post some pix for you).
Saturday: Crab feed at night (best pasta and french bread EVER! Will keep the salad in front of me!)
Sunday: Daytona 500 party. I am making sweet and sour meatballs (I can have 6) and spinach dip (I am making it fat free, they wont even notice!). Stay away from cheese (will picture MAIA for strength!)
Wednesday: All day Dr. appts to prepare for Kady's surgery. Which means lunch at a restaurant. Will try for a Chili's or Applebee's where they have great low cal options.
Thursday: 5 course Dinner Theater show in San Francisco for our wedding anniversary and to have fun before surgery. (Teatro Zanzinni) with Frank, Kelly and Kady. It is a kinda crazy play meets cirque de soleil type show and we are really looking forward to it!
Saturday: Racing meeting at a pizza parlor.

Uh, yeah. (*Headesk!* Thanks to HIS_BLONDIE for the visual). It is going to take planning, strength, and determination to dodge these mine fields. Can I do it?
Someone bet me cause that will help me stay on track and keep me focused.


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ATREAT4ME 2/22/2011 7:06AM

    You're amazing, Jan. I know you can do it.

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BADASSBLONDIE 2/20/2011 9:18PM

    YOU CAN DO IT!!! *hugs*

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GRACEISENUF 2/19/2011 10:04AM

    Absolutely you can do it! Sounds like alot of fun times coming and of course stressful as well. You have planned ahead and that makes ALL the difference.

Your anniversary celebration sounds so fun...enjoy the family!

Also congrats on getting those 2 pounds off.

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    work the plan!! sooo smart... you'll succeed...

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RIGBY31 2/18/2011 7:03PM

    Nothing like "food related situations" to test the Spark! You can do it. And if you feel yourself waivering, remember you said it outloud here first. Your plan sounds genius.

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CHELEMIA 2/18/2011 4:36PM

    "I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I .... call them friends"
~Author Unknown~
I found this on Whispering-pines spark page

It is soo true emoticon

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NEDERLUNG 2/18/2011 3:29PM

    Sounds like you are already planning to successfully survive this week of can do this! One thing if I may add, put some fruit and nuts in your bag for those times when you start to cave for a vending machine or it just gets too long between meals. And a couple cases of water in the car for emergencies to, always have one in your hand or better yet, in both hands, you can use them as weights and do work outs at the same time....ok, not even a little smile?

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EMSJOURNEY 2/18/2011 3:08PM

    sounds like you have a super fun week planned! all those restaurants would KILL me! lol... you'll do fine... plan, plan, plan ahead! have a GREAT weekend! =)

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BIGMAMAT 2/18/2011 2:52PM

    Look out 229, here she comes! emoticon

I love your thinking ahead and planning. emoticon

The thought just occurred to me that is what I need to do more of. maybe I can avoid some of the stuff that comes my way!

I am going to give you a big, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REBECCAMA 2/18/2011 1:47PM

  Good luck!! 229 229 228 228... :-)

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TREASURINGLIFE 2/18/2011 12:56PM

    I bet you can't! LOL! (Is that what you were looking for?!)

Seriously though - you do have a lot minefields ahead of you, but you also have the benefit of knowing what's in store, so you can plan, plan, plan!

You got this! And when in doubt - repeat 229 - 229 - 229!!! :)

- Michelle

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Walnuts, green banana's and thank you's.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

First of all, thank you, each one of you, for your sweet comments, support, goodies and love. I appreciate it so much and it has touched me deeply. TRULY deeply. I am gathering strength (and stoicism, robin!) from all of you. I feel bolsted up, I really do.

Now I want to talk about walnuts.

What the hell! 26 grams of fat???? In 22 walnut halves???Seriously? I dont care if it is good fat, I am never snacking on them again. No friggin wonder they taste so good! Walnuts are the devil!!! POO!! I keep thinking of the things I could have eaten with that much fat in them and walnuts do NOT make the cut, beleive DAT!

Today, I made a yummy fruit salad with fresh pineapple, strawberries, watermelon and apples. I am so excited about the upcoming fresh fruit and veggie season. It makes it easier for me to get my fruits in when it is all salad-y and cut up.

And here is something weird:
Last week when we went down south riding, I bought some green, (organic) bananas, figuring they would turn ripe within a few days, like any other ordinary banana. Apparantly, these are some sort of super strain that refuses to get ripe because it has been a WEEK and they are still GREEN! It is really weird and I spend a lot of time each day looking at them wondering when they are going to turn yellow. I will let you know when they become edible. Again, its weird.

So, I hope you are all well, eating good and doing your workouts cause we are busy people but we are putting ourselves right up there in the top 5 list of our lives and getting healthy, right? Right. Love you guys, really, really, really I do.

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THREEE 3/11/2011 10:47PM

    you know that the greener the banana, SUPPOSEDLY, they actually are even MORE healthy for us...just so you know... emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 2/20/2011 10:43PM

    I love you more! emoticon

I don't know where you all shop but I can't even find green banana's here. Mine always ripen too quickly. No advice here. lol. emoticon

P.s. When I first read your blog, I thought you said that walnuts were the devils poop! hahaha. Sounds like the just might be. hahaha.

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BAYBELIEVER 2/20/2011 10:38PM

    Ha Ha! About the bananas, that is funny. My sister had a similar circumstance this year, but I don't know if they were organic. After the first week she put them in a brown paper bag to try to help them ripen. A week later they were still green! Good luck with those!

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BADASSBLONDIE 2/17/2011 7:45PM

    Love you too :-*

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OHSOCOOLLISA 2/17/2011 7:28PM

    Me too! I am REALLY looking forward to the upcoming veggie season! Bring on the broccoli, zucchini, romain, peas, corn...etc. Whoohoo!!

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CLEVAGAL 2/17/2011 6:25PM

    Hope to speak to you soon, you seem in good spirits! Cleva xxx

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NEDERLUNG 2/17/2011 12:56PM

    I hope you reconsider and not give up walnuts completely, they would have tasted so good in your fruit salad. Just practice moderation and use them as a treat.

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KAMAPERRY 2/17/2011 12:45PM

    I love nuts, but use them very sparingly!!! I had bananas like that the never ripened!

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RIGBY31 2/17/2011 12:11PM

    Did your organic bananas have a plastic wrap at the top of the bunch? My DH suggested to remove it... voile! Started ripening within hours. Also, I too cannot justify the calories for nuts and their ever lovin' good fat. Now, a brownie loaded with walnuts, totally worth the calories!

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JOMAMA99 2/17/2011 8:55AM

    I too have suffered through the green banana that wouldn't ripen. I put mine in a paper bag and left them-took 2 weeks for them to turn and they didn't taste that great. You should probably just toss them and save yourself the misery!

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 2/17/2011 1:56AM

    Yup - made exactly the same mistake with almonds - thought I was being veggie and healthy - 3 handfuls during the day and then I checked the nutritional analysis - whoah!

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CALIKIKI 2/17/2011 12:29AM

    oh my goodness we must shop at the same store.

I bought some green bananas and they never ripened. They went straight from green to brown yucky over night with nary a yellow day. And I hate over ripe bananas so I was watching them closely.

Maybe bananas are like a watched pot that never boils, they won't turn yellow while we watch them?


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MAMADWARF 2/17/2011 12:27AM

    Just read the sticker and it says ORGANIC BANANA'S. They look like regular, green banana's as far as size goes. I dont know. Maybe they are from

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M0PPET 2/16/2011 10:47PM

    Oh maybe they are a different type of banana? When I lived in Hawaii we had "apple bananas" that were smaller then normal bananas and stayed firm even when over ripe.

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ATREAT4ME 2/16/2011 10:39PM

    If you have plantains then wait until they look really bruised to cook them. My grandfather always washed the plaintain (yes, the skin!), cut them in half, and then boiled them. He would peel the half and eat it with a fork. That and a glass of milk is the BEST sleeping tonic I've ever had. There are other ways to eat the plantains; all of them much, much, un-healthier! Oh how I love me some plantains!

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OHSOSVELTE 2/16/2011 10:13PM

    I agree with you on the walnuts ... nuts in general!!! I do, though, when I need a splurge, hit the peanut butter.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/16/2011 9:49PM

    Green plantains will ripen too. Try putting them in a brown bag with a green apple. The apple gives off a gas that speeds ripening. I also have found nuts are not so great for weight loss. Fat doesn't scare me, just too many calories. Yeah for fruit salad season!

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GRACEISENUF 2/16/2011 9:48PM

    I hear ya on the green banannas..........I had some that NEVER turned green. I think they were "siding with the walnuts"

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/16/2011 9:39PM

    Are you sure you didn't purchase plantains? I did that once, ate them, and got SUPER sick because you can't eat plantains raw. They look like bananas...

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Magazines and emotions. They have nothing to do with each other, BTW.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

When did I start buying this?

Instead of this?

Or this?

I have definatly changed but baby, I still have a way to go.

I am in a weird headspace right now. I am trying not to withdraw and just feel what I am feeling but it is a hard balance with trying to be strong for my family, trying not to stuff my feelings down with food and damn it, I miss my cookies that help me through the hard times.

I am so concerned about Kady's upcoming surgery and trying not to stress out but as a mom, it is soo difficult.

We had quite a little moment today. She has been a whirlwind of activity lately, trying to cram as much into her life as possible before her body is altered permanently. (She is having an ileostomy Feb. 28th and will have an ostomy bag for the rest of her life). Her boyfriend took her away this weekend to the Kabuki Hotel in Japan town in San Francisco. They had a beautiful upgraded room, a fabulous dinner and a wonderful time. Today, we were talking and I told her how happy I was that they were able to do that. (I know some moms would have a problem with their 20 year old daughter going to a hotel with her boyfriend but they have been together since they were 15 and I am not stupid, so yea I assume there is a sexual relationship).
I was telling her how happy I was that they could be together privately before everything changed (and I mean it!) and I got choked up thinking of how much that time must have meant to the two of them. She started to tear up and we both couldnt even look at each other as we started to cry and she forbid me to say anything emotional to her for the next 2 weeks! We both started laughing. I cannot promise I won't say anything emo to her but man, I will sure feel like it. I am doing my best to respect her wishes and be strong for her so she can be strong too.

So if I am a little quiet, that is why. I am here, logging, tracking, eating ok and excercising and reading blogs even if I dont have a lot of time to comment. I am working double time to get things in order before I am at the hospital for a week so that means paying things, ordering things, scheduling things etc. for work so I can be there for my girl.

Love you guys... Me.

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NEDERLUNG 2/17/2011 12:57PM

    The magazine metaphor was cute! Prayers for you and Kady!

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GRACEISENUF 2/16/2011 9:20PM

    I am here if you EVER need to talk, vent, yell or whatever. I get ALL of the Mom emotions. I may not have been through the exact same circumstances but having my nineteen year old daughter means the world to me so I can relate. Jan you and Kady have such a special relationship and you both will make it through this stronger and closer than ever...I BELIEVE THAT!
Love and hugs,

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BAYBELIEVER 2/16/2011 9:01PM

    Jan, my wishes and prayers for you, Kady, and your family. Yes, you need to be strong for her, but you also need to be allowed to love her! I am so glad that she is letting you! The physicality of her life may be changing, but her relationship with you will continue on as it is, a beautiful, loving, and caring one! Bless you all!

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CELLISTA1 2/16/2011 8:43PM

    Just want to add my voice to all the love and support you are getting here. You are a magnificent mother and person and go ahead, read an issue of People. It has the same number of calories as a small oatmeal cookie.

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ROBINSNEWNEST 2/16/2011 8:24PM

    Thinking about you guys... more than you know. Remember strength has nothing to do with being stoic. I think people often get them confused.

Here's something a dear soul shared with me in the midst of profound worries over Matthew... It helped then; I hope it helps you now...

"A strong woman is a woman who loves strongly and weeps strongly and is strongly terrified and has strong needs. A strong woman is strong in words, in action, in connection, in feeling. What comforts her is others loving her equally for the strength and for the weakness from which it issues...Strong is what we make each other."-- MARGE PIERCY

You make me strong, Jan. Kady makes you strong. You make Kady strong. We're all connected through love, empathy, compassion -- the best traits humanity has to offer... We love you right back.

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CLEVAGAL 2/16/2011 6:17PM

    Im here Jan......

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SARAWALKS 2/16/2011 5:11PM

    emoticon to both you and Kady. Very tough. But there are some encouraging comments here from people who have experience with this, that is heartening. But still...tough.
Hang in there... emoticon

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RIGBY31 2/16/2011 2:46PM

    The love and strength of your family has touched me deeply. My love to you, Kady and your whole family.

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BADASSBLONDIE 2/16/2011 2:43PM

    *hugshard* You two have been on my mind a lot lately and her surgery date is even on my work calendar so that I remember to check in with you guys. *hugshard* You guys will get through this together.

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SHONNAATCH 2/16/2011 11:26AM

    My mom had a continent ileostomy when she was 35 and today, 30 years later, she still has a wonderful life. I was just a kid when she had the surgery, but I remember the tears and adjustment it was for her. However, with a little adjustment to the things she can and cannot eat, educating herself and mindfulness to her condition...she has lived as full of a life as anyone else. I hope for the same for your daughter.


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COOKWITHME65 2/16/2011 11:09AM

    So nice to hear what a loving relationship you and your daughter both have for each other. Sending both of you happy and healthy vibes your way.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/16/2011 11:02AM

    You are the mom I wish all kids have. Realistic, supportive, understanding. I looked up Kady's surgery to understand what you are going through even a tiny bit and I can see why this is so hard on all of you. It looks like there are lots of avenues for living a normal healthy life and I am sure you will not stop until she finds what works for her! Hugs, you have my support through anything you need. I love you! Ash

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BBGYRL4 2/16/2011 9:53AM

    Jan, I wish the best for you and your family!! It's understandable that things will be a little crazy just know that we're all here for you. Much love. emoticon emoticon

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SLFRISBEY 2/16/2011 8:52AM

    (((hugs))) prayers for you and your daughter!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 2/16/2011 7:56AM

    While your daughter is going through all this, it's important to take care of yourself as well as her. If you're not healthy, you won't be able to support her like I know you can. A few cookies won't kill ya :) They may actually make you feel better. I know that goes against everything Spark, but we're human. Just know that we're all here for you when you need us. We'll see you on the other side of her surgery. Take care of yourself!
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RUNNINGNP2B 2/16/2011 7:48AM

    What a strong daughter you have. You take the time you need to for yourself and your family, your Spark family will be here for you.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/16/2011 7:22AM

    Cookies have been getting me through. I don't know, sometimes you need cookies.

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MAIA2011 2/16/2011 4:54AM

    Take good care, lovely. Sparkers have SparkLove for you and yours, too.



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WOLFKITTY 2/16/2011 12:35AM


Hang in there.
Lots of love,

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CHELEMIA 2/16/2011 12:30AM

    Quiet is important. Withdrawl is sometimes needed to narrow your focus in order to cope!! You are taking the right steps to keep you healthy during this time. Your daughter will be alright. My Husband knows a guy who had this surgery at nineteen. After the first year of adjusting He and his wife found that they didn't even know it was there. That was 30 years ago. We have come a lot farther since then. My prayers are with you all at this time. It is rough to get through for all of you right now.

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RUNNER12COM 2/16/2011 12:07AM

    Thinking of you and your family at this tough time. And sending you all the positive vibes I can.

Hang in there.


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BIGMAMAT 2/15/2011 11:26PM

    Bigmama tears here... emoticon

Sending you positive thoughts and strength to get you through .

sooo proud of you for logging, tracking and exercising. Go mama, Go! hugs. T

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OHSOCOOLLISA 2/15/2011 11:21PM

    Emotions can be pretty powerful. I'm sorry your family is having a tough time...I can hear the strength within your words and the ach that wants to fix and make it better. I will be praying for you...I hope that you will be able to feel ALL the virtual hugs your spark friends are sending. Sometimes a quiet moment or span of time is needed...sometimes, it is an odd-timed (to those who don't know the inside joke) giggle that we need...a good tear-jerking movie can be used too..... point, is that you will probably know what you need to stay at your best.

Please take care and know you are not alone.

~ Lisa

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