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You are my favorite

Friday, February 04, 2011

I thought I should tell you that you are my favorite person.

You make me laugh, you make me strong, you make me think, you inspire and motivate. I am so happy I got to you know you. You are hilarious! I love your honesty. I love the way your mind works. I love the way you challenge MY mind to work. I love how you work so hard to figure stuff out then share it with all of us. I love how you are sooo down one day and the next day, you are like "screw that! today is a new day!" I love how far you have come. I love how much farther you have to go but you are gonna get there.

You are so happy for me when I am happy and so sad for me when I am not. You give me the exact amount of support I need under each circumstance. You are far away but you feel like you are next door. We are no longer strangers. We have grown together. You get me. I get you. Your antics are legendary. Your excercise routine is astonishing. You set the most impossible goals and go for them anyway.You do good things for people. You stand up for what is right. You always have a suggestion for a problem I have. You have never even spoken to me yet we are still part of this journey. We talk every day. I think about you and how you would handle a situation. You ask my opinion and are happy to get it. We agree on a lot of things. You have hard things happen but you let me in and you keep going anyway.

You are my favorite person. Here is a hint. There is more than one of you. And I love each one of you best.

  
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PATTI_LARSON 2/13/2011 11:32PM

  Awwww... thanks a million for loving me the most!! I needed that right now! Thank you! You rock even when you don't think you do! xoxo
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GRACEISENUF 2/10/2011 10:02PM

    Right back atcha beautiful lady!
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CLEVAGAL 2/9/2011 8:44PM

    love you Jan!

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HEALING_LORI 2/9/2011 11:46AM

    What an amazing blog! I love it!
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BAYBELIEVER 2/5/2011 3:02PM

    This is the best blog of the week! Thanks! And right back at you!

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NEDERLUNG 2/5/2011 1:09PM

    We love you too!

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BIGMAMAT 2/5/2011 9:07AM

    Well said!!! Right back at ya beautiful!!! emoticon

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DBFBILLY 2/5/2011 8:53AM

    Awesome blog...you are making me cry, because this is SOOO TRUE!!!!!!! I love my Sparkfriends...and they are etched in my mind when making decisions throughout the day..

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ROBINSNEWNEST 2/4/2011 5:50PM

    Ditto! Right back at ya! Couldn't have said it better myself! That's what I was thinking! That's how I was feeling!

Thanks for loving me best! emoticon (See, Maia, she loves me best! LOL) I love you... MORE!



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SARAWALKS 2/4/2011 4:38PM

    Awwwww and here's back at you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SLFRISBEY 2/4/2011 1:46PM

    Nothing like hearing that from a Mama! ;) Thanks for the peptalk!

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KAMAPERRY 2/4/2011 12:34PM

    Awesome!!! Love you too!

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BRIAEL 2/4/2011 11:37AM

    Well said, Jan. I agree wholeheartedly. Never come across a Sparker I couldn't like, and there are now a whole heap of people I wouldn't want to live without. :)

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CHELEMIA 2/4/2011 11:25AM

    It is amazing. You Have an awesome gift of gab!! Luv ya! emoticon

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KRAWRS 2/4/2011 11:03AM

    SUPER BIG HUGS TO THE SUPER AWESOMEST SPARKER!!!

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KARLYNCANDOIT 2/4/2011 10:48AM

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BRAINYBLONDE5 2/4/2011 10:46AM

    awwww I love this blog!!! you are my favorite too!! haha :)

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RIGBY31 2/4/2011 10:18AM

    Awww shucks, and I thought I was just a face in the crowd! Thanks for making me feel special. You're pretty special yourself, you know!

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WILLIAMV3 2/4/2011 9:55AM

    Love ya girlie! emoticon

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ATREAT4ME 2/4/2011 9:41AM

    LOL! You're my favorite, too, Jan! I'm so grateful we get each other.

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    What a loving blog entry. Love you to! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TINA5318 2/4/2011 8:29AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon You're awesome...love you too!!!

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ANGELOO29 2/4/2011 8:00AM

    You are awesome as well!!!

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WATCHMEGO2 2/4/2011 7:54AM

    Oh Jan, that was so nice. I love you too!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 2/4/2011 7:49AM

    emoticon you're awesome!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/4/2011 7:28AM

    Just like a Mama... can't play favorites, because you love everyone equally :) Love you too!

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SASSYSUNFLOWER 2/4/2011 7:24AM

    you aretotally!! emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/4/2011 7:01AM

    I love you too. You mean I am not really your only favorite????? I know I am you just can't tell everyone because it would hurt their feelings ;)

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DAISY443 2/4/2011 3:30AM

    Well spoken! How do you do that? You say what I feel and have trouble articulating! Thanks!

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MAIA2011 2/4/2011 12:48AM

    I already know that I am your favorite and you confirmed that by saying there are many of us and we are all your favorite.

GUILTY!

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Hallelujah!!!!

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I finally, finally, finally hit the 60 pound mini goal weight loss! I have been waiting a long time for that one my friends. It has been the hardest 10 pounds I have lost so far. I feel like I can now keep moving forward and get busy with losing the rest of the weight. I am officially over 1/2 way (I set out to lose 111 pounds). So hear it is, 1 week shy of 11 months and I made it.

About the 7 month mark, I realized I was not going to lose all the weight in a year like I thought so I adjusted my tracker, my reality and attitude and here I am. Still here, still losing, still trying, still starting over every day (Thanks BAYBELIEVER for that blog....so true!)

So today is a big, healthy WOOOHOOOO from me! Progress, not perfection! (Now I am less than 2 pounds away from getting into my 220's~!!! Gotta have a goal, ya know!)

Thanks for being with me every step of the way. I cannot tell you what that has meant to me. You are all my favorite people. Each one of you... (Hey I feel a blog coming on.). Jan

  
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GRACEISENUF 2/10/2011 10:03PM

    So proud of all you have accomplished...YOU RAWK!

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HEALING_LORI 2/9/2011 11:51AM

    WhoooHoooo for YOU!!! Way to go!
I'm sure you have worked very hard for every lb of it,
and I bet it was sooo worth it!
Thanks for sharing!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
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BADASSBLONDIE 2/8/2011 4:48PM

    WOOO HOOOOO!!!!!!

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NEDERLUNG 2/5/2011 1:08PM

    Congratulations!

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JRZG8R 2/4/2011 8:04PM

    how wonderful! I am happy for you.

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ATREAT4ME 2/3/2011 9:46PM

    Hooray! Way to go Jan! I'm doing a Happy Dance just for your. Woooohooo!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/3/2011 8:43PM

    Finally!! Congrats to you :) I knew you were a rebel!

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CHELEMIA 2/3/2011 8:16PM

    I knew you could do it!!! Woohooo!! Awesome job for an awesome LADY!! emoticon

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 2/3/2011 7:24PM

    emoticon FABULOUS!! congratulations on hitting this milestone!!
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BIGMAMAT 2/3/2011 6:31PM

    I AM SOOOO PROUD OF YOU MAMA!!! emoticon

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WILLIAMV3 2/3/2011 5:35PM

    A big healthy WOOHOOOOO from me too! Great job!

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    Awwwwwesommmmmme!!! emoticon emoticon

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 2/3/2011 3:38PM

    Way to go girl! I am so proud of you!

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RUNNER12COM 2/3/2011 3:03PM

    You are a rockstar!

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MELLYBEANS0919 2/3/2011 11:11AM

  Fantastic!!! Congrats!

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KRAWRS 2/3/2011 10:41AM

    HEY! Congrats! I am SO proud of you! As I have a similar goal, in a similar timespan, you are a personal inspiration to me! Congratulations on making it halfway! The best part about that is, you already KNOW you can do it... you just have to put in the time! You'll reach your goal, I know you will! Congrats again!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/3/2011 10:01AM

    I KNEW YOU WOULD DO IT!! You rock sexy biatch. I am so proud of you for sticking through this. Halfway there!

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WATCHMEGO2 2/3/2011 9:44AM

    WooooooooooHooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SEESTARS 2/3/2011 9:35AM

    Allll riiiight!!!!!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 2/3/2011 9:09AM

    i can feel the excitement leaping off this blog! I am so incedibly happy for you! these next few months are gonna be tough BUT YOU CAN DO THIS! you look amazing now & i cant wait to see pictures of you at your goal :) emoticon

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RIGBY31 2/3/2011 9:05AM

    I can feel your grin! Good for you!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 2/3/2011 9:04AM

    OMG Jan, I'm dancing for you right now, can you see it :) In 12 months or 24, you're going to finish this, 'cause you're awesome!
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SARAWALKS 2/3/2011 9:02AM

    emoticon That's wonderful! Wow, more than halfway!
and you are so right to take it one step at a time...bet you will hit that next goal pretty soon 'cause MAMA ROCKS!
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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 2/3/2011 8:59AM

    CONGRATS!!!

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BAYBELIEVER 2/3/2011 8:58AM

    Awesome! Way to go Jan!! I am liking this idea of mini-goals! More chances to celebrate how fabulous you (we) are! More than halfway! Awesome!
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KARLYNCANDOIT 2/3/2011 8:53AM

    MINI goal?? That is huge!! emoticon You have done great!!

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Rebellion and History

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

I have been thinking alot about rebellion lately. Especially how that affects us and our goals to get healthy. I am a bit of rebel. I know, shocking, right? I have never liked being told what to do and in fact, that would usually make me fly off and do the exact opposite. If you told me I CAN'T do something, well, just consider it done.
If you tell me I SHOULD do something, then pretty much it ain't gonna happen.

I dont know why I am like that but as I have grown older, I have backed off a bit. I began to understand that some things needed to be done whether I liked it or not. That the world was not about me. I found that out when I was 19 years old and my first husband died. It was a shock that such a thing could happen to ME! I mean, these things happen to OTHER people, not me.
But it did happen and I proceeded to live a very wild and careless life, a reckless life that considered nobody but me. I mean, I was in PAIN. I deserved to find relief anywhere I could, right? I did not consider the affects of that wild life, the pain I caused my parents and others who cared about me. It was destructive and selfish.

Then, at 23, my next choice (to punish myself over guilt over not being a very good wife to my first husband, I came to realize later), I married someone who ended up abusing me. My rebellion was gone. I had no fight left. I SUBMITTED becuase that was what a wife was supposed to. Or so I thought. He almost had me. He really did. I was down as far as I could possibly go. No self esteem left, no fight, fat and unhappy. Stuck. Then I had my daughter Kelly.
Talk about a spark. The MINUTE I had her, that little spark of fire lit up like the 4th of July and I started planning our escape. There was no way in hell I was going to let her live like that, to have a mom so weak and so crushed. I started coming back and that was when my rebellion saved me. It propelled me out and away and I never looked back.

Frank was my first love, we were always in touch and he was the ONE I always compared every man to. He was my dream man: strong, funny, tough, devoted, hard working, sexy. There was always a gravitational pull with us, an electricity that nobody could deny when we were together (he was my brother in law's best friend so we were always around each other and I had known him since I was 14). By the time Kelly was 8 months old, we were together and he is the only father she has ever known. He adopted her, we got married, had Kady and the rest is history. I am where I belong.

Although this is not the blog I intended to write, I am letting it flow. I think Rebellion (when it is for selfish purposes) is so destructive. It leads us into areas where we make horrible choices just to do what we want to do, no matter how it hurts other people. Or ourselves. That is not ok. Eating a bag of cookies because we WANT it, is not ok. Getting fatter and fatter, worrying our families becuase we dont want anyone to tell us different, is destructive and worse, it is selfish. It is the little kid in us, digging in our heels. It is childish, immature and silly. It HURTS us. There is no benefit. Time to put the big girl and boy panties on and suck it up, Sally.

Being rebellious when someone tells us we can't lose weight or run or get healthy, well now, THAT is when we can USE it to our advantage. That dig-in-your-heels-I-wil-show-you-Buddy mentality, that is when we want to be that rebel. That is when we want to fly and when we are sailing past, we want to wave and smile and say Thank you for the motivation. Becuase NOBODY is going to keep us down, It is facing adversity with defiance and saying "oh Hell, no. That is NOT how it is going to be" and best of all, being able to bring that little kid out and firmly state "You are not the boss of me!" Because you are the boss of you. And dont you forget it.

Balance, people. Balance.

  
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BADASSBLONDIE 2/8/2011 4:47PM

    woah. Thank you so much for sharing this! And good on you for getting out and getting where you belong. *hugs*

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ARMOYBYRD 2/5/2011 10:26AM

    Love this blog made me think! made a blog of my own over it ! LOL

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DBFBILLY 2/5/2011 9:01AM

    Another great blog...i;ve been dealing with a lot of the issues you talked about..and i'm sooo happy you met a good man and it worked out for you... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JLMMLJ1 2/4/2011 3:15PM

    thank you for this blog. I have many times realized that my journey has not ended.. im still looking for that balance.

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KAMAPERRY 2/3/2011 2:09PM

    Amazing. You give me hope.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/3/2011 8:30AM

    Funny you write this. On a recent leadership test, I tested as a rebel. Big suprise, right?

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ATREAT4ME 2/3/2011 8:24AM

    GASP! Stay out of my secrets, Jan! They're mine and you cannot divulge them. You are not the boss of me.

"Hush, Sweetie! Sit down and be quiet for a moment."

Hi Jan,
Well, as you can see, I am still struggling with that little girl. Thank you for such a well-thought out discussion of using our natural talent, ..

"Put that tongue back in your mouth, young lady! Do not blow razzberries at me!"

As I was saying, that was a great discussion of using our gifts in ways that better ourselves. You are so right about rebellion and I'm grateful to hear it. I'm scheduled to meet with a personal trainer tomorrow, who has already told me that my goals are too ambitious, unhealthy, and... excuse me, a moment...

"What do you mean by, 'We'll show her?' Just what are you going to show and to whom? It The only thing we need to show is to show ourselves that we're doing here is making ourselves -- you and me, Kiddo -- stronger, healthier, happier. It's not a competition. If we show anybody, anything, it'll be that we love ourselves. That we are wonderful, brilliant people just as we are. Remember that."

As I was saying, Jan, thank you for this wonderful topic. It really helps a lot to read your words.

Cheryl the grown up and Cheryl the witchy, little brat!

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RIGBY31 2/2/2011 11:39PM

    OK, I cannot go on and on in a comment blog. Suffice to say you reeeeallly had me thinking of my journey. And I love that now I can say to _______ (fill in the blank food item) "you're not the boss of me"! Love it!

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PELESJEWEL 2/2/2011 10:51PM

    The little kid runs amuck in so many of us! I think I told Mezzoangel that I had a loving talk with my "kid" and told her that I was here to take the reigns now and she didn't have to fight like an adult, she was the kid & I would take care of her. I set her free to run, laugh & be a child again. I have been so much more balanced since then. You really are breaking through and putting your truth out there. It's good to see!

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TINA5318 2/2/2011 8:45PM

    emoticon emoticon I love it! "you are not the boss of me" emoticon

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BIGMAMAT 2/2/2011 8:27PM

    Wow mama! You are the bomb! Woot!!! emoticon

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MAIA2011 2/2/2011 8:23PM

    Overly developed opposition reflex girls of the world unite!

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ROBINTRACKS 2/2/2011 8:05PM

    Love the blog Jan -- loved hearing about Frank even more. THAT guy is a keeper!

Wishing you lots of Joy ....heck, wishing us ALL lots of Joy,

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ANAJAK 2/2/2011 7:44PM

    Aw MAMA you are the shizzle - all the way baby, all the way xxxxx

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STARFISH619 2/2/2011 7:15PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your back story and wow- you should be proud of how far you've come ... and how much further I know you will go.
Those rebel years happen, but it also made you the strong woman you are today and very appreciative of the wonderful things and people you have in your life. You are a success story, if anything for that... now to continue the journey...

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CHELEMIA 2/2/2011 6:32PM

    Thank you for sharing. I am in that rebellion place too and I'm rebelling against me!!! I will stop and remember you and Balance! Soon you will be at 60lbs lost! How cool is that!! I am awed and impressed at the amount of balance and will power that you have shown to get there! I'm running into issues after 6lbs. LOL Just like Karylyn said, "You have come a long way," Baby. Now just push through and show me That I can do it too!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/2/2011 6:17PM

    You made a great point. It is selfish to treat ourselves and the people who love us with total disregard. This ties right into my blog about lying. You are amazing and I am so lucky to have you as a friend.

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    emoticon Glad you got your rebel self back!

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DAISY443 2/2/2011 6:03PM

    You are so strong and have come through more than I could have imagined! Thank you for sharing your story. You are an inspiration. How brave to live through all that and still be so able to enjoy the present! And besides that, you have a beautiful dog!

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Bad pictures and Regis Philbin

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

I dont think much about Regis. I mean, I like the guy but I dont spend much time thinking about him. Last night I had a dream. I was on a sofa bed, under the blankets, eating Nacho's. With Regis. I mean, what the heck is that about??

Next on my random agenda, I wrote in my last blog how cute I looked at the banquet on Saturday. Um, apparantly not. My friend posted pictures and I was just going to make you take my word for it but yea. Here ya go.



And no, it wasn't just a bad angle because here:



So really, I just looked lumpy and fat and it pissed me off cause that is not how I FEEL and it wasnt how I felt that night. I also had a long grey sweater over that that I wore (till I was dancing) and maybe it hid things better.

SO, I do appreciate truth and I do appreciate reality but damn. Why does it have to smack you right upside the head? I may have come a long, baby, but I still have a long way to go. I know I look alot better than I used to and I feel alot better than I used to but looking back at that picture, I see every cookie I have eaten in the last 20 years. Boooo. Big Bummer.

Yes, I will keep going. Yes I have accomplished so much. Yes It will all pay off. Blah Blah Blah.

  
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BADASSBLONDIE 2/8/2011 4:43PM

    Man I've been there. When I first moved here, we went out with some grad students. I was nervous and finicky but I felt like I had picked a good outfit and worked it out. Then I saw the pictures. *headdesk* It's always so disappointing!!! *hugs*

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FIT2SWING 2/2/2011 3:13PM

    Actually, you're leaning over in both photos so you're not straight- that's when we look our best in photographs. Plus NO ONE looks great sitting.

I love the top, the outfits cute! If it bugs you, keep working your plan. At next years you'll wear a little black dress and kill everyone with the smashing looks you have that you've refined over the past year. A girls best secret weapon is a little black dress. emoticon

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MAIA2011 2/2/2011 1:32PM

    I thought I read earlier that you didn't want remarks about how good you look! Too bad. If I were in the habit of doing what others want then I would have friends.

You look hot (you have photographic evidence that the guys think so, too) and you felt hot.

Also, dreaming of Regis is not a problem; admitting it is.

Similarly, eating nachos; admitting.

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CELLISTA1 2/2/2011 12:27PM

    Yeah, the smack in the head thing. In future, wear sign around neck at all times: ATTENTION PAPARAZZI: NO PHOTOS!

Have your stylist with you at all times, your graphic artist (the one who photoshops out all lumps), and your hair & makeup guy Pierre, so if the paparazzi do manage a quick shot, you look exactly like Gwyneth Paltrow, bones and all.
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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 2/2/2011 6:51AM

    I've been there, I've done that. I have nothing to say because you have to feel whatever you have to feel about it. However, how you look to yourself and how you look to others are two different things. I think you are BEAUTIFUL.

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CALLIKIA 2/2/2011 6:15AM

    I think you DO look great...do you have pics to compare now/then, because I'm sure you'll see the improvements of the hard work you put in? That being said...more fuel for the fire, right? Don't like it? Let's change it! Isn't it great that we have that power? ;) And don't discredit that FEELING of looking good either. That's your self-confidence talking, and it deserves some attention too! :)

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JO2TOM 2/1/2011 11:59PM

    I think you look really wonderful. i love that top you have. It is gorgeous... Anyway...don't listen to the camera. I think it might know the scale. How you feel is the most important of all. I gave up on the scale for awhile, and I am thinking about giving up on the camera too. No...not forever, but...

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PELESJEWEL 2/1/2011 9:48PM

    emoticon I agree, I think that whole table of men are looking over saying "dayum, she's HOT!" You've come a long way, you feel great about yourself, you have the tools and you are going after your goals. You will get there and post a who slew of pictures to prove it!

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OHSOCOOLLISA 2/1/2011 8:41PM

    Whoo hoo!
You look awesome from the inside out! That shirt is really neat. I do understand how the camera or eyes cannot see or feel what is going on inside. If you think about it, you are a step ahead of those who have not yet discovered these truths.

You rock!

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BAYBELIEVER 2/1/2011 8:07PM

    After the couple of weeks I have had, I love the "blah, blah, blah" at the end. Yes, it is all the same stuff. You aren't going to give in but you feel so much better inside that why can't it all show that great on the outside? I am with you there girlfriend! But, truthfully, I think you look great in the pictures. Yeah, you know you still have some work to do, but can't you see that you have done some? I can!! Awesome.

As for Regis and the nachos on a sofabed? It obviously can't be a fantasy! Must be adding nachos to the things you don't spend a lot of time thinking about, along with Regis and a sofabed, right?

Have a great February, Jan!

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46SHADOW 2/1/2011 7:45PM

    I bet people around you saw how great you felt...that always shines through.

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SARAWALKS 2/1/2011 7:06PM

    Aw don't be so hard on yourself! The camera angles are yucky but your outfit is great and your happiness is the most important thing! It will come, it will come. I know you'll stick with it.
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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/1/2011 5:46PM

    I have had those moments too. I feel so hot but the photo evidence is to the contrary. You do look great and use these pics as motivation to keep doing what you have been doing. It is obvious how vibrant and happy you are!

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ROBINTRACKS 2/1/2011 5:36PM

    You know what I see Jan? I see 5 guys sitting at that table giving you the eye and thinking how GREAT you look! 5 guys (3 of them drooling, by the way) smiling while oogling YOU! I could tell you in more detail what they were actually THINKING, but alas, not printable here.

THAT'S what I see Jan! So there....

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RIGBY31 2/1/2011 5:25PM

    I never "got" Elvis until I had a dream... but anywaysss, Regis? (mmm, not so much).
And you look cute! At least you know that when you see next year's banquet pictures, you won't be thinking: "dang, I wish I looked that good again". The progress pics will be awesome!
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SHERLYN-WILL 2/1/2011 5:22PM

    I hate that when that happens... when you FEEL SO GOOD and JUST KNOW YOU LOOK GOOD and kind of strut your stuff.. THEN you see a picture!

I had that happen recently too.... I was feeling pretty good about myself then someone showed me a picture.. and I LOOKED FAT!

I say BOTH OF US take the pictures and use it to fuel the fire under our butts!

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TEENY_BIKINI 2/1/2011 5:22PM

    Well, Regis is retiring so he have plenty of time to chill with you, hot stuff.

Sounds like you don't want a pep talk. I dig it. You got this. Coolness!

I love it when a woman is confident like that - it suits you.

Cheers.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 2/1/2011 4:59PM

    i LOVEEE that shirt. and excuse me, i think you look pretty d@mn sexy! so stop beating yourself, before I do for being mean to yourself! emoticon

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CHELEMIA 2/1/2011 4:57PM

    Karly's right!!! I just double checked. You have at least 3 of those guys checking you out!!!
Your lumps are in the right spots though. Just need a bit of fine tuning!! Apparently your tush is quite tuned in!! lol. I learned a longggggggg time ago. The physical body is what it is. The mental outlook is what is percieved by others. You seeing yourself as hot and awesome made you act hot and awesome made others see you as hot and awesome. Don't worry about lumps they melt!! And hate to say it those cookies are loooong gone....the deep fried foods now..... emoticon

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BRIAEL 2/1/2011 4:54PM

    Like almost every other woman I know, you see only the bad. Look at those lovely, shapely legs. Don't forget that you are bending forwards, which changes the shape of your body. See if anyone has a photo of you standing upright and you'll see what I mean.

Sure, you're not perfect ... but you're putting one step closer to it every day. :)

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 2/1/2011 4:53PM

    ROFL... I could have sooooo written this blog... blah blah blah.. we can SO do this.. it's not about where we are today.. it's about what we DO today so that a year from now we're not staring at another picture at another event looking all lumpy.. seize the day.. seize the feeling.. harness its power and let it propel you further.. you.me.we.can.do.this.
Annie


edited to say I could have written this blog.. uhhh except for the part about Regis.. WTF??? ROFLMAO

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 2/1/2011 4:52PM

    hahaha I love Daisy's comment!! So true though! I love your outfit from that night, I'm sorry if the pictures aren't that flattering. I know the feeling. But everyone is right, remember how you felt before compared to now. Sure you still haven't reached the end but who cares? All that matters is HOW YOU FEEL! Forget what pictures look like, I swear they add 10 or 20 pounds emoticon

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STARFISH619 2/1/2011 4:43PM

    Damn ghosts of cookies past. They are the worst - as are pictures that reflect an image different than how we feel.
I think you have the right attitude - you have come a long way - and you will continue to keep up the great work and improve while on your journey (you know, the journey that never ends- because even once we get there we have to keep up the good work to stay there).
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DAISY443 2/1/2011 4:43PM

    Lay off the nachos, stay off Regis, remember how you looked 60 pounds ago. You are amazing. Forget the pictures, we all look worse in pics (at least that's what I tell me!) Do you feel better, are you healthier, have I said enough?

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GRACEISENUF 2/1/2011 4:42PM

    Your Regis dream cracked me up! You are a hawt young Momma compared to 'ole Reege. He needs to retire and take a break, lol. No disrespect intended and just my opinion but he can take Kelly Rippa with him. :)

Oh pictures...I can't even go there, I HATE MINE. My family always says, "Mom or honey (insert whichever one) you look fine". NO I DON'T AND DON'T TELL ME I DO! ha ha.

I go somewhere thinking I'm all that and a bag of chips and then I see the pic and it's just the chips and not "all that"! it stinks...but in the end I know it will get better.

One spark day at a time.

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KARLYNCANDOIT 2/1/2011 4:33PM

    You look great, you see all those guys checking you out? Funny dream~~

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BIGMAMAT 2/1/2011 4:32PM

    I think you are beautiful! end of story.. Big mama says. emoticon

we are always too critcal of ourselves.

P.s... stay out of bed with that dang Regis Philbin. He is bad news. emoticon

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It's a new week and (almost) a new month!

Monday, January 31, 2011

I am excited about fresh starts and new opportunities.It always makes me feel like anything is possible.

I got on the scale this morning because I am an idiot and was up over 3 lbs for the weekend. lol. I am not upset. I know I will lose it but it bugs me because it wasn't even worth it. I mean, if I was going to gain that much, there should have been cake involved. Just saying.

This month includes Superbowl,a 5 day vacation down in the southern california dunes with our Utah friends,valentine's day, our wedding anniversary and of course, Kady's surgery on the 28th. I have a feeling my family is going to be packing alot into this month. Kady especially. Her life is going to be forever changed.

I am looking at February as a time to hit some goals I have been aiming for a long time, a time to relish each and every day, a month of love and acceptance of my family, friends and myself.

I am going to laugh, motivate, excercise, eat well, be thoughtful, lose weight, be consistant, be prepared but most of all, I am going to be "present" in every day. I am not going to waste any time or opportunities if I can help it.

In the words of BIGMAMAT, let's do this thing!!!

  
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BADASSBLONDIE 2/8/2011 4:40PM

    That sounds like a pretty intense month. *hugs*

Kady's going to push through it. It will change her, but when she looks back on this it will be one more mountain that she has climbed and conquered. I know you're worried, and you have every reason to be. But remember that Kady is strong, just like her mother, and you all will get through this together. *hugs*

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MAIA2011 2/2/2011 2:45PM

    I think my SparkHeroes shed so much weight because they are always doing things! I'm thinking hard about trying that.

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BAYBELIEVER 2/1/2011 11:00AM

    Bring on February! Let's do this all together now! Be present! Make the best choices we can! Know that we are strong!

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PELESJEWEL 1/31/2011 11:16PM

    Live each moment your way, don't be afraid to OWN it! Woo Hoo, I came up with that one!! Haha! emoticon

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ATREAT4ME 1/31/2011 5:47PM

    Your post reminds me of the big thing in little packages quip. February, such a short month, is going to bring a lot to your doorstep. I'm grateful you have such a fantastic attitude. How we choose to receive life's events is the most significant choice we make in a day. (Oh yes, I'm saying this as a reminder to myself as well!)

I love how you're going to face February and I will lock my arm through yours to enjoy the now as well!

And Feh to the 3 lbs. You got that just by traveling. You'll drop it (and more) just by staying home for a bit. No doubts and no worries!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 1/31/2011 2:46PM

    yes yes.. live in the moment.. recognize the power of those moments strung together..
Annie

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KARLYNCANDOIT 1/31/2011 2:30PM

    Sounds like you have a busy month!! emoticon

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/31/2011 12:43PM

    february is going to be an amazing month for you! :) enjoy it! emoticon

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RIGBY31 1/31/2011 12:30PM

    Ditto, paragraph 5. Such a short month, have to pack a lot into the days available.
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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/31/2011 12:16PM

    You can do it rockstar

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GRACEISENUF 1/31/2011 12:08PM

    I agree, let's make February the best we can in EVERY way.

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KAMAPERRY 1/31/2011 11:53AM

    Let's rock it this month! emoticon

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