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How does it feel?

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Just wrote a whole blog and deleted it. I dont know what I want to say and I dont know what I want to hear. I am confused and my go to coping mechanisms are not what I am turning to (ya hear that, cookies? Aint gonna happen!) so I feel raw, numb and off balance. Not a good combination for this Libra.

I guess I will process it all the best I can, day by day. I am going to plan a romantic night for me and hubby tomorrow tho. Girls will be gone for a few days and we could both use some loving comfort.

I would love to drop to my mini goal, that would make me really happy but I feel like I am in survival/ maintenance mode right now and eating less is not going to be an option. I am staying within my guidelines, hitting my protein and fiber levels I set for myself recently and am stil walking. I know I need to probably step up the excercice and eat at my lower range but I feel like I am doing all I can right now so be it. One day at a time, right?

Thanks for reading my pretty much pointless blog. I appreciate you guys so much. You have no idea.

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NEDERLUNG 2/5/2011 1:02PM

    I understand - I have written several blogs and then just deleted them before posting. Sometimes it helps to just get it out without getting it out there.

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ATREAT4ME 1/27/2011 10:20PM

    What??? You mean there's a point to all of this?

And all this time I just though I had joined SparkPeople, where folks go to enLIGHTEN each other just because that's what they wanted to do.

What's next? ROTFLMAO isn't an exercise? You mean to tell me that when I read that from other people they are not on the floor, rolling around, working off their behinds????

Seriously, I think you said the most important thing -- one day at time. For me, right now, it is one choice at a time.

Take care, my Friend. You will make great choices for yourself and your family. And go get some of that loving comfort that is good for the soul, the mind, and the body! That sounds SMART!

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 1/27/2011 12:37AM

    Sounds like you are having a mind plateau as well as a weight plateau:)

Oh yes - when the Blah's come to visit they do tend to over stay their welcome don't they?

Decided I needed to mix things up a bit this morning so instead of my usual Sultana Bran with sultanas and muesli mixed in that I leave to soak for an hour (love that gooey goodness) I whipped up a simple shake - 200 ml low fat milk, a weet bix (not sure what it is called there - Shredded Wheat?), some 0% fat strawberry yogjhurt and a 1/2 cup of frozen mixed berries - blend - mmmmmm.

It's surprisingly filling and tastes like a sinful smoothie but is far from it.

And why I chose to share this with you - no idea LOL

Keep at it - you can do this.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 1/26/2011 10:52PM

    let it out sister....let it out... it's good for you...heck, it's good for ME


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MAIA2011 1/26/2011 8:52PM

    This will cheer you right up...

Wait for it...

According to the new astrology calculations...


That's right. Necessary and sufficient conditions to prove we are ONE!

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BAYBELIEVER 1/26/2011 5:49PM

    Hang in there. And you should be turning here, not pointless at all! I mean, without cookies, what do you have but blogging!?!?!? I think it is a great idea to plan a romantic evening with your hubby. Maybe you need some time to re-connect and feel special! You should feel that way all the time, but I know sometimes we just forget to look in that side of the mirror! Sending hugs your way, my friend.
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BADASSBLONDIE 1/26/2011 5:39PM

    Stay in survival/maintenance mode. *hugs* You can do this, babe.

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BRIAEL 1/26/2011 5:28PM

    You're overthinking the blog issue. Let it go and move on. If your thoughts on an issue are important, they'll come back so you can sort them out.

Thinking of ya! :)

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ROBINSNEWNEST 1/26/2011 5:24PM

    I understand, Jan.
Ditto to every word Ramona wrote earlier. Amen.
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RIGBY31 1/26/2011 5:11PM

    Don't worry, no point taken. My point, however, is to say... do what you can each day. You'll know when it's time to kick it up a notch. (btw, you're right, cookies don't have a point, either).

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_RAMONA 1/26/2011 4:48PM

    I'm with the rest... blogging is never pointless... and regardless of how prepared you were for some of the realities of your life recently, you can't help but have a lot of misplaced, amorphous feeling floating around. I think your 'cure' is just the ticket... and don't feel you have to be strong every minute.

"A strong woman is a woman who loves
strongly and weeps strongly and is strongly
terrified and has strong needs. A strong woman is strong in words, in action, in connection, in feeling. What comforts her is others loving her equally for the strength and for the weakness from which it issues...
Strong is what we make each other."

May you find peace within and all around you. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

May today and every day bring to you a ridiculous abundance of whatever you need. May all your concerns, struggles, anxieties and fears fall like ashes as you rise on eagle's wings, SOARING above all that would hinder you along this tremendous adventure of being and becoming all you are created to be. May the grace of God simply "overtake" you moment by moment. May you always be overwhelmed by the grace of God, rather than by the cares of life! AMEN.

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}

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ANAJAK 1/26/2011 4:39PM

    I just thought that comment this morning as I drank two glasses of water and prepared a healthy brekkie :) Everyday is a new day and this is the best news ever!! I am starting anew today just like you and we'll all be here for you everyday when you wake up xxxxxxxx

ps. can you tell I'm a cancer???

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    Girl, I hear you! It is such a struggle. So one day at a time is a good thing. I turn to popcorn (100 calorie pack) when I can't seem to get it under control. Plus I treat myself with a diet drink while I eat the popcorn. It makes me feel like I had a real snack. We went away last week and lordy I was awful. As a matter of fact, I just blogged about that. Just remember that it is those little choices/decisions we make each day that make the difference over the long haul. Good luck.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/26/2011 4:30PM

    blogging is never pointless. we are all here for you. enjoy the time with the hubby. things will fall in place. emoticon

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DAISY443 1/26/2011 4:26PM

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GRACEISENUF 1/26/2011 4:26PM

    Not a pointless blog at all. I hope you and your hubby have a really wonderful time together (hope it's smokin hawt too)!


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Things I wonder about....

Monday, January 24, 2011

Why does water make your hands dry?

How can a bar of soap be dirty?

Why does a calculator have numbers 1-9 from the bottom to the top but a phone has the numbers 1-9 from the top to the bottom?

How can you cook a roast into tenderness but you can cook bread into a rock?

What happens to the socks when they go missing from the dryer?

And speaking of socks, when our cat is sad, she brings socks into the living room. But they are always socks I have never seen before. Where do they come from? (May be related to the question above).

How much cheese did Maia eat this weekend?

Just things I am thinking about this monday morning. Anything you are wondering about?

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MAIA2011 1/26/2011 8:17PM

    Socks are wild swinging sluts that live to make you buy more so that they have more and more sock encounters.

(Re: emoticon. A lot.)

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DAVIDPRESCOTT 1/26/2011 12:42AM

    These and many more :) Happy Australia Day!

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TERRYT55 1/24/2011 9:45PM

    Great blog.....I especially wonder about the numbers on calculators & phones. No wonder I so often hit the wrong digits when I'm using one or the other.

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    you kill me!! LOL and why is what you're looking for always in the last place you look?? hehe


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JO2TOM 1/24/2011 6:59PM

    You have never seen the socks before because they are hybrids. They jump out of the dryer and mate with other lost socks, then they never look quite like socks you recognize. But perhaps the cat has something to do with never know.

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MELLYBEANS0919 1/24/2011 6:53PM

    Haha nice.
The missing socks from the dryer always mystifies me too.

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ROBINSNEWNEST 1/24/2011 6:33PM

    LOL the cheese thing with Maia cracked me up!

I wonder ( not necessarily in this order):

1. Why am I the only person in the house authorized to put a new roll of toilet paper ON THE hanger?

2. Why do the Kardashians have their own reality show when we, too, have big boobs, ample rear ends and seem infinately more interesting?

3. Why does anyone leave trash on the kitchen counter less than 1 foot from the trash can?

4. Why am I the only person in the house authorized to clean the commode? (may have something to do with question one above)

5. Why can't I think of all the mulitude of things I normally wonder about?

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BADASSBLONDIE 1/24/2011 5:55PM

    I don't think it does. I thought soap made your hands dry...

The same way everything can be dirty, by having bacteria and stuff on it. But it's ok b/c it gets washed down the drain.

I don't know, but that drives me NUTS. I use my number pad a LOT and I constantly have to remember which way it is.

I'm sure there's a chemistry explanation, but I don't know it.

They go into a parallel universe.

They're from a parallel universe.

I'm sorry, I don't know the answer to this one.

:P Love this blog.

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    Too funny. :)

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/24/2011 4:53PM

    Since Maia left me a comment about her cheese consumption just this morning I am going to be a lot. Just saying

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OHSOCOOLLISA 1/24/2011 3:27PM

Be careful, you know that curiosity is not healthy for the cat and I thought everybody knew that socks can reproduce into non-matching pairs when left unattended.

I do know why cows wear bells....'cause their horns don't work! LOL ha ha ha ha...

I might need a nap. LOL


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    LOL. And I have no answers for you by the way. :)

Have a great day!!

- Michelle

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JLMMLJ1 1/24/2011 2:16PM

    perfect blog for a monday pick me up :)

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KAMAPERRY 1/24/2011 2:10PM


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MNGIRLIE 1/24/2011 1:46PM


I had a couple of part time jobs in high school where I 10-keyed for banks. I was fast! Even to this day I cannot dial a phone number properly on my first try because the numbers are backwards.

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GRACEISENUF 1/24/2011 1:02PM

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KRAWRS 1/24/2011 12:45PM

    For some reason, my dog likes to pick up my socks from the floor and carry them to the same place she keeps her bones. She doesn't eat them or lick them though... just carries them there. ?????

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NEDERLUNG 1/24/2011 12:26PM

    When you learn all these answers, you will be the all knowing wise one. Smiles

Thanks, needed these "pick-me-ups" today!

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SARAWALKS 1/24/2011 11:44AM

    I don't know how much cheese Maia ate but I ate LOTS this weekend!
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BIGMAMAT 1/24/2011 11:37AM

    Your cat is weird. Just sayin. emoticon

And NOW I am wondering how much cheese Maia ate this weekend??? hahahaha. ?????

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DAISY443 1/24/2011 11:21AM

    I wonder, wonder, wonder why frozen food packages say, Keep frozen, Cook thoroughly.

Why my doctor always says "how are you" and I always say "fine" no matter what is wrong with me.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/24/2011 11:16AM

    I've always wondered about those socks myself... we're missing a few right now, maybe your cat has them :)

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ZIPLOCK 1/24/2011 11:13AM

    Yes, how can my left hand be nice and warm, but the right hand navigating the mouse is ffffreeeeezing!!???

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MY daughter

Friday, January 21, 2011

This has nothing at all to do with me, my weight loss or health so feel free to pass on it.

My 20 year old daughter has crohn's disease as you may know. We have been going to specialists this week. They agree with our regular colon surgeon that Kady will need to have a Ileostomy. Basically, they will remove her rectum, anus and her colon and she will have a little tail (ileum) sticking out through her tummy and will use a bag for body waste. For the rest of her life. No reversal available.

We are not surprised (we were thinking that was how it was gonna be) and we have peace about it. Having the 2nd opinion actually makes us feel better that the doctors we know and respect are on the right track with her care.

I imagine within a few weeks, she will have the surgery. I will let you know when that is. I want to thank you all for your prayers and well wishes for her and for our family. I think that this may allow her to get on with her life (albeit a slightly altered life) and she is anxious to begin feeling better.

People with ostomy's go on to live full lives. She has big dreams and big plans including marriage, children, her own business and basically ruling the world. I cannot wait to see what she does her life. Whatever it is, I will be proud of her. SHe is tough, brave, strong, loving and determined. She is my hero.

Thanks for listening, guys.

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MAIA2011 1/26/2011 8:13PM

    I'm late here but I am also not surprised that such an awesome daughter results from such an awesome mom! Helloo McFly!

I love you, as you know, and am happy for your Kady that she has a direction. The being in limbo stuff is trying. You all are heroes!

(Don't let her have the cape, though. I want it!)

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 1/25/2011 6:56PM

    emoticon I'm glad to hear about the 2nd opinion. I will keep Kady in my prayers leading up to and after the surgery. What a brave, sweet girl she is!

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JLMMLJ1 1/24/2011 10:51AM

    I have been thinking of you and your daughter during this time. Crohns is such an awful disease. Its so amazing that your daughter is keeping her spirits up and not wavering on her hopes and dreams!

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NEDERLUNG 1/23/2011 12:59PM

    Thoughts and prayers continue to support you and Kady through her successful surgery and new opportunity for a healthful life.

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ROBINSNEWNEST 1/22/2011 9:38PM

    Of course she is tough, brave, loving, strong and determined. She's YOUR daughter. Please tell me how to best support you through this process... Madison and I care, and want to send that love and support in the way that best helps you all... Til then it's in the manner of prayers and positive thoughts coming your way...

with love-

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PELESJEWEL 1/22/2011 7:15PM

    Sending light & love to your daughter & you! Everything is connected, prayers have been spoken!

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KAMAPERRY 1/22/2011 6:46PM

    Hugs and prayers to you both

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BADASSBLONDIE 1/22/2011 4:03PM

    I happy that you guys have some answers now. One day at a time, sweetheart. You're in my thoughts. *hugshard* Let me know if there's ANYTHING I can do for you guys. Even if it's just bringing you some tasty food while you're sitting at the hospital. *hugs*

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BAYBELIEVER 1/22/2011 11:42AM

    Jan, while not the best outcome for you as her mom, I agree that this is great that the second opinion agrees with the first and now you can move forward without reservation. Kady will be able to heal and adapt and will move forward to rule the world, with you cheering her on every step of the way! You are right, while different she will be able to lead a full and long life! We have a friend with the same issue and he has had his bag for over 30 years and is in his late 70s now. I will continue to pray for you all.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 1/22/2011 10:17AM

    I will pray for your daughter... this will be a hard time.. one of transition.. .but she'll be able to put the pain of Crohns behind her to pursue her dreams!! Hang in there..

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ATREAT4ME 1/22/2011 9:39AM

    Thank you for sharing the outcome of the appointments with us, Jan. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as is Kady and all of your family. I'm grateful you are at peace with this turn of events. Mostly, I'm grateful that Kady already has the attitude to look at this as an opportunity to feel better, not simply what needs to be done to stop feeling bad. That reach of insight, expectation, hope -- whatever you want to call it -- will carry her through recovery and set up the amazing life you talked about. I believe she will rule her world and have an incredible, complete, happy and fulfilling file while doing so! Send you all lots of hugs!

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DAISY443 1/22/2011 3:55AM

    I am so glad you are at peace with the diagnosis. She will do well and achieve any of her dreams she works for. Prayers and hugs!

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HEALTHIERTINA 1/21/2011 10:56PM

  My niece will probably have this done at some point too, since she has spina bifida. They thought they were going to do it last fall, but put it on hold for now. She is only 7.

Your right. There is nothing your daughter can't overcome. Best wishes to you and Kady!!!! You both are amazing people.


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BBGYRL4 1/21/2011 10:56PM

    I wish you and your family the best in the next couple of weeks to come. Sounds like you have a strong daughter and she's lucky to have you. emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/21/2011 10:40PM

    Kady is an awesome woman, because of her amazing mom.
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SARAWALKS 1/21/2011 10:22PM

    Wow. emoticon to both of you. emoticon

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CINDYLUFUS 1/21/2011 10:06PM

    I have to tell you that I have had you and your daughter on my heart all day today. I went to an education session with some other nurses led by a physician who specializes in gastrointestinal issues, especially in children/young adults. All I kept thinking was about you and your amazing daughter. How much strength and courage she has had and her amazing spirit. Amazing how God plans things out before we even know it. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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GRACEISENUF 1/21/2011 9:18PM

    Kady is a remarkable young woman who is handling all these medical issues with so much grace and such a great attitude.

I will continue to lift you and Kady and your entire family up in my prayers to God to sustain you and comfort you through each and every step of this medical procedure and recovery.

I wish I could give you a great big 'ole hug right now and tell you what an awesome Mom you are....."YOU are an awesome Mom who loves her daughters unconditionally". May God grant you peace and increase your trust in him to get you through this difficult time Jan. I am here ANYTIME you need a shoulder or want to talk/vent or WHATEVER.

Love You,
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KAYE454 1/21/2011 9:17PM

  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your daughter

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JRZG8R 1/21/2011 9:15PM

    My prayers are with your family.

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RIGBY31 1/21/2011 9:15PM

    You are definately two strong women. My prayers continue for you, Kady and the family.

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JANET014 1/21/2011 9:11PM

  wishing your daughter a speedy recovery from her surgery and a full and happy life after she has it

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ANAJAK 1/21/2011 9:10PM

    You are an amazing Mum MAMA. She is able to do anything with support like yours. Much love and hugs xxxx

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/21/2011 9:06PM

    emoticon Love to you and your daughter Jan.

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The tale of the tape (I know, not like this is an original blog title).

Thursday, January 20, 2011

So it is no secret that my weight loss has been less than satisfying lately.
I know we all get freaky about not seeing that scale go down or worse, seeing those numbers go up. I read alot of blogs (cause I am a Blog Ho in case you didnt get that memo before). I see alot of NSV stories and "I may have not lost weight, but my bod had changed, I have lost inches etc". I like those stories. They give me hope. This is another one of those.

I took a short walk tonight and when I got home, I decided to take my measurements. Eureka!
Since November, I have lost over 4". I dropped between .25 and and 1" on various parts of my body. That is progress, people.

I will not bore you with a bunch of measurements and stats but suffice it to say that since I began in March of 2010, I have lost over 5" in my chest,5.5" in my waist, 5" in my hips, 3" in my thigh, 1.75" in my calf, 2" in my arm and 2.5" in my neck. ( I didnt realize my neck was soo fat). A fair portion of that was since November. When I haven't lost much weight.

So yea, let this inspire you to keep going no matter what the scale says, no matter what your brain is telling you, no matter what that crappy voice in your head is telling you. Work it and it works. Period.

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PELESJEWEL 1/22/2011 7:18PM

    NSV are awesome!! Congratulations, Jan! I didn't realize we started during the same month! Cool! You've made fantastic progress thus far, with more to come for sure!!

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BBGYRL4 1/21/2011 10:57PM

    You're so right Jan, thanks for sharing this blog!

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ANELAKANOA 1/21/2011 9:27PM

  emoticon emoticonThat is why I like the tape measure better then the scale:) Congrats!

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GIRL_WALKING 1/21/2011 8:45PM

    Thanks for posting this. Glad I'm not the only one depending on inches! Yay for your progress, keep working it! emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/21/2011 7:50PM

    Amen, sis. I just took my measurements this year. But you are right - it is not all about the scale.

Your progress is awesome and so are you!


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BAYBELIEVER 1/20/2011 11:09PM

    Out crappy voice in my head, Out! Thanks for sharing your NSVs this week! That is awesome! Work it and it works, and keep your senses aware for those non-scale victories! They are there and we just have to acknowledge them!

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MRSMLBJ 1/20/2011 7:41PM

    Tightening up and getting fit. Love it!!! I bet you are going to be needing a new wardrobe real soon.

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ATREAT4ME 1/20/2011 4:39PM

    Congratulations! You're doing great. I amdoing the happy dance for you!

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BADASSBLONDIE 1/20/2011 12:39PM

    Love. This.


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STEINERMOM 1/20/2011 12:17PM

  Good for you and your tape measure! So glad that hear about the lost inches. Keep up the great work. I am really comforted by the inches lost when the scale is slow in moving. You are doing a great job!

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KAMAPERRY 1/20/2011 12:15PM

    YEAH!! emoticon

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RIGBY31 1/20/2011 12:05PM

    The incredible shrinking woman! Good for you! I sadly rely on outside elements to define my weight loss: clothing stores, mirror glances, scales, comments. I have my *numbers* written down somewhere, but am afraid if both the scale AND the numbers havn't budged, I'll have to leave my fantasyland!

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MAIA2011 1/20/2011 11:58AM

    Blog hos unite! I've learned a lot from member blogs about taking the stats, too, and they can be comforting when the scale isn't moving but they can suck when they are going backwards, too!

You are doing great in measurements and weight loss as well as being such a friendly and funny blog ho.

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DAZZLINDANCER 1/20/2011 11:36AM

    Way to go.... Sometimes it is easy to get caught up with what the scale says or doesn't say. I do not measure my journey by the numbers on the scale- because it does not define who I am . I just recently started P90X & Brazil buttlift again ( both say to take measurements) so I did. I will take measurements on the 14th of next month ( I have a challenge with another group that ends on that day)

You are doing awesome..... Remember on this journey to better health to focus not so much on the scale but on your overall health and well being. Keep up the great work

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KARLYNCANDOIT 1/20/2011 10:21AM

    bhahaha BLOG HO!! That is great!! You are doing great!! emoticon

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NEDERLUNG 1/20/2011 9:59AM

    Smart of you to not only think of taking the measurements, but actually doing it. I (on the other hand) didn't take beginning measurements (obviously regretting it now) and so have no base line. Scrunchy face.

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TINA5318 1/20/2011 9:23AM

    That is awesome work!! Way to go!!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/20/2011 8:01AM

    That's so great Jan! I always measure when the scale isn't being so nice. It makes me feel good that something is still working!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/20/2011 7:02AM

    Nice job Jan!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/20/2011 6:47AM

    Good for you Jan! I am so proud of you. Those are amazing stats! Way to keep it in perspective.

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DAISY443 1/20/2011 3:15AM

    Wooooooo Hooooooooo!

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WOLFKITTY 1/20/2011 1:17AM

    Oh yeeeeeah. I keep meaning to take mine. I think it's been a year,a nd I know I'm bigger, but I'll need them for when I'm smaller.

Thanks for the reminder!

(I laughed at "Blog Ho", btw.)

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KRAWRS 1/20/2011 12:52AM

    I'm a total blog ho myself. GREAT NUMBERS! Good job! I bet that relights YOUR spark as well!

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 1/20/2011 12:38AM

    Great job girl! That's awesome news! Who needs that pesky scale?? emoticon

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Pieces of the puzzle

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I am having a stressy day. I didnt realize how edgy I was until Frank called and talked to me about a work thing. I blew up over a very small thing. Then I came in and was ragging at the girls and Kelly calmly informed me that I was not doing anybody any good. (I was nagging about stuff that needs to happen for Kady's medical appts this week. WE have remicade, blood work, ct scans and surgeon appts. and I am trying to be organized to maximize our trips into the city and be prepared for everything). I realized I was over reacting and worse, upsetting Kady. I am supposed to be her rock, not add to her stress. I told the girls I needed to go do some errands and I drove away. I called my sister, TEXWIFE (on spark), who gave me good, sound, practical insight and decided I would go for a walk. Then I realized I hadnt eaten so I went to the grocery, bought a salad and some yummy rice crispy chippy things. I sat in the sun (first sun we have had in weeks) and drank my water, ate my salad and talked to my favorite neice on the phone (smaymay on spark). She reminded me to take some time for myself, that it was normal to feel overwhelmed by all that is going on and that she was proud of me for taking care of myself.

I came home, checked the office and decided to not wait for Frank or take the dog. I needed to go. Now. So I walked. Up the street, over an overpass, back over the overpass and around the block. 1 and 1/4 miles. No big mileage but it felt good. While I was walking, I saw a puzzle peice. I stopped and picked it up and it got me thinking. Then I found about 4 more as I walked. I realized that those peices were worthless without the other peices. That without ALL the peices, there would never be a big picture. And because this is how I think nowadays, it all related to my weight loss and getting healthy.

Welcome to my anology.

Puzzle Peice 1. Nutrition: if you are not eating well or eating enough or you are eating too much or eating bad things, you are never gonna get to where you want to go.

Puzzle Peice 2: Excercise: You gotta do it. Period. It doesnt have to be massive, painful or expensive. Just move more than you did before.

Puzzle Peice 3: Support: You need it. Get some. From SP, your family, your friends, your pets. It is too hard to be a one person show. It really is.

Puzzle Peice 4: Commitment: You can say it all you want but unless you WANT it bad enough to get up every day and actually do this thing, you are not gonna make progress (Ok, Jan, how much longer are you gonna talk about not hitting 60 pounds and still eat a few french fries cause they were there?) Talk the talk, walk the walk and you will actually get there.

The peices of puzzle that I picked up today do not fit each other. They are separate, indivdual peices but they all belong to the same Big Picture. Without them, it is incomplete. They are part of it but not all of it. The rest of the peices are ours to figure out.

What do you need to succeed?
What do you need to get rid of?
What is going to complete your big picture?

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BJW-FARMGIRL 1/25/2011 8:08PM

    LOVED reading this, except for the part about your stresses. Good that you took some time for yourself, to destress. You are a great mom! Love the analogy. Keep fighting the battle, Mama!

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WILLIAMV3 1/25/2011 5:29PM

    Very inspiring, something that I needed to be reminded of. Thank you.


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BADASSBLONDIE 1/22/2011 12:51PM


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STEINERMOM 1/20/2011 12:22PM

  Like your analogy of the puzzle pieces. I think that we all are slowly and piece by piece finding what we need in order to take better care of our bodies, our minds and our spirits. For some, the pieces are found quickly and close to each other. For others, the piece finding is sporadic. The key to remember is that you will not ever stop searching for pieces until your puzzle is complete. No matter what detours arise or how long it has been since you have located a piece, you still need to keep your eyes open so you can find them. Trust in the perfection of your process. It is just right for you.

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WOLFKITTY 1/20/2011 1:19AM

    Very nice blog, from another (another) analogy thinker! :)

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CELLISTA1 1/20/2011 12:05AM

    You know what I think is the best part of this saga? You didn't WALLOW. You got up and out of the house.

Stress - pull - tug happening; you took yourself out of the way. You ate well so you made it better, not worse. You walked so you cleared your head. I love it, Jan. So proud of you!!!

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ARMOYBYRD 1/20/2011 12:02AM

    Thank you for this blog

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PUMPKINFAIRY 1/19/2011 6:03PM

    Thanks for sharing this.

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NEDERLUNG 1/19/2011 1:27PM

    Sweet analogy! Smart of you to pick up the first piece, because if you hadn't, would you have had this revelation?

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MS_MANDA 1/19/2011 8:58AM

    Needed to hear this today, so thanks. I know that my problem is portion control...but it still makes me angry when I eat healthy and exercise and am not losing weight. Logically I know it's cause I eat TOO much in one sitting, whether or not the food is healthy is besides the point. Too much of something is never a good thing.

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VEEJAY3 1/19/2011 2:38AM

    Ah! A fellow analogy-lover! I see analogies in absolutely EVERYthing. It's a nice way of thinking. Thinking deeply.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/19/2011 12:07AM

    love this analogy. you and kady are in my prayers. keep your head high. emoticon

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PELESJEWEL 1/18/2011 10:52PM

    Loved that you found exactly what you needed at the moment you needed it most...on your walk you found puzzle pieces and figured out your next steps!! Love it when the light bulb goes on emoticon but love it more when you share your journey! Good stuff!!

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RIGBY31 1/18/2011 9:52PM

    Wow, what wonderful words, Jan! I need to start looking around when I walk... nothing like that has EVER popped into my head and heart. How great you took yourself out for a walk to get things calm for you. Prayers for you and Kady.

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MAIA2011 1/18/2011 9:41PM

    I agree with the popular blog post award. This blog is actually on my mind, too, because I am trying to get all the pieces together at the same time. You are handling everything so well, lady! I hope all the medical appointments go as well as can be expected!


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KRAWRS 1/18/2011 9:35PM

    This deserves a popular blog award. I loved it! You're absolutely right... without ALL the pieces of the puzzle, you miss the big picture!

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BIGMAMAT 1/18/2011 9:27PM

    sending big mama size hugs to you sweetie! xoxoxo Tricia emoticon emoticon emoticon

so proud of you for doing this, emoticon. and this emoticon, and emoticon and this emoticon emoticon!!!

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ATREAT4ME 1/18/2011 8:59PM

    Congratulations on figuring out this wonderful analogy! I love it. And, the self-correction you did today was amazing. I am in awe of it. Woohoo!

I am working on recollecting my puzzle pieces too! I especially appreciate how you highlighted support. It is hard to do it all alone. I felt better after writing it, but after reading the comments back I feel phenomenal!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/18/2011 8:43PM

    Stress = suckage and I am right there with you.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/18/2011 7:15PM

    Jan, you could not have written this at a more appropriate time if I asked you too. I've had a little melt down over the last 24 hrs and I needed to do some serious re-evaluation of my journey and my goals and how I'm going to get there. This puzzle analogy is exactly what I needed. Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom!
~ Holly
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DAISY443 1/18/2011 7:10PM

    Ya know what? We are allowed to be stressed sometimes. It's human, it's normal! have shown that there is a way to come back from it and be stronger than ever. Yay, you!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/18/2011 7:06PM

    Awesome! What a wonderful insight. I know for me part of this is addressing my emotional scars and loving myself. Until I had done that the weight loss was always temporary. I am so proud of you Jan! 60 lbs is gonna be your biatch soon.

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