Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I am having a stressy day. I didnt realize how edgy I was until Frank called and talked to me about a work thing. I blew up over a very small thing. Then I came in and was ragging at the girls and Kelly calmly informed me that I was not doing anybody any good. (I was nagging about stuff that needs to happen for Kady's medical appts this week. WE have remicade, blood work, ct scans and surgeon appts. and I am trying to be organized to maximize our trips into the city and be prepared for everything). I realized I was over reacting and worse, upsetting Kady. I am supposed to be her rock, not add to her stress. I told the girls I needed to go do some errands and I drove away. I called my sister, TEXWIFE (on spark), who gave me good, sound, practical insight and decided I would go for a walk. Then I realized I hadnt eaten so I went to the grocery, bought a salad and some yummy rice crispy chippy things. I sat in the sun (first sun we have had in weeks) and drank my water, ate my salad and talked to my favorite neice on the phone (smaymay on spark). She reminded me to take some time for myself, that it was normal to feel overwhelmed by all that is going on and that she was proud of me for taking care of myself.
I came home, checked the office and decided to not wait for Frank or take the dog. I needed to go. Now. So I walked. Up the street, over an overpass, back over the overpass and around the block. 1 and 1/4 miles. No big mileage but it felt good. While I was walking, I saw a puzzle peice. I stopped and picked it up and it got me thinking. Then I found about 4 more as I walked. I realized that those peices were worthless without the other peices. That without ALL the peices, there would never be a big picture. And because this is how I think nowadays, it all related to my weight loss and getting healthy.
Welcome to my anology.
Puzzle Peice 1. Nutrition: if you are not eating well or eating enough or you are eating too much or eating bad things, you are never gonna get to where you want to go.
Puzzle Peice 2: Excercise: You gotta do it. Period. It doesnt have to be massive, painful or expensive. Just move more than you did before.
Puzzle Peice 3: Support: You need it. Get some. From SP, your family, your friends, your pets. It is too hard to be a one person show. It really is.
Puzzle Peice 4: Commitment: You can say it all you want but unless you WANT it bad enough to get up every day and actually do this thing, you are not gonna make progress (Ok, Jan, how much longer are you gonna talk about not hitting 60 pounds and still eat a few french fries cause they were there?) Talk the talk, walk the walk and you will actually get there.
The peices of puzzle that I picked up today do not fit each other. They are separate, indivdual peices but they all belong to the same Big Picture. Without them, it is incomplete. They are part of it but not all of it. The rest of the peices are ours to figure out.
What do you need to succeed?
What do you need to get rid of?
What is going to complete your big picture?
Sunday, January 16, 2011
I know. I'm annoying. LOL.
I woke up feeling really good this morning, I dont know why. Even tho I was awakened early by a Cable guy who was supposed to email me for an appt, not show up on a sunday morning.
I have walked a lot this week and Frank and I are consistantly pushing our steps and or mileage up. We found a few new places to walk and I will bring my camera next time. One of the places is along a canal. It is nice and even and straight on hard gravel. There is not as many bunnies or squirrels (aka: Cheeps) for the Baby to chase but it is good walking. 2000 steps = 1 mile on that path but 2500 steps - 1 mile when I walk on these city streets going up and down curbs etc. Weird.
Anyway, we had decided to hit 4000 steps consistantly then have bumped it up to 4500 steps. I remember it wasnt long ago when I walked a mile for the first time. I could NOT believe I did it! I felt like a rock star. Now I am going to be working on 2.5 then 3 miles then 5k.
In between, I am Kinect boxing or dancing or yes, even zumba so I have stepped up my fitness.
The other night when I got in bed, I was feeling my flabby tummy (looks like a deflated balloon these days) and felt a lump. It freaked me out! I was pushing on it and realized what it was. I have a sternum!!!
I literally laughed out loud so now I am road mapping my body and feeling the bones that I didnt know were there like my collar bones and my shoulder bones and ribs.If I lay on my side in just the right way, I even have hip bones under there, too! It is intoxicating!
I am STILL working towards my 60 pound loss and beleive me when I say, you will KNOW It when I get there. This has been the hardest 10 pounds I have lost so far. I feel like when I get there, I will have broken the road block and be able to keep going.
On another note,Pasta is a waste of calories. Last night I made some with bacon
(a few slices), bell peppers, onion, mushrooms and eggs (carbonara style) as a sauce. I was starving all night and I wont be making it again. I need Protein!
Speaking of which, I am having a hard time eating enough fiber and protein so I am trying really hard to get enough every day. (dinner of pasta was of no help last night).
Today's plan: Shower, walk Stitchy, go to the next town to find a recliner for me cause my couch is KILLING me, and dinner that I do not have to cook.
I hope you all have a fabulous weekend (3 days for some of you! Thanks MLK!) and that your day is full of bouncy, sunshiney, sparkly, giggles and fluffy small animals.
What can I say? I'm an optomist. (stop growling, Maia.) lol....
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Back in November, when life was good and we were feeling confidant, back before Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and vacations, back to a peaceful time, Maia and I made a little wager. Whoever could lose the most weight got to have lunch bought by the one who lost the smallest amount.
on 11-5, I weighed in at 237.2. You will have to await Maia's response to see what her weight was but I believe it was really close.
Now, over 2 months later, the day has come. The final weigh in.
So as of this morning, I weigh 233.8. That means in over 2 months, I have lost 3.6 pounds.
While yes, this progress, it is not even close to perfection. It is pretty lame actually but it's ok. I STILL get to go meet Maia! And I still am on my way to my goals so I will take it.
We should have put a clause in to count the pounds we both kept gaining and losing!
It has been fun having this challenge and I admit, at times, it kept me straight. I am not a terribly competitive person but Maia made it fun cause she would taunt me and that always made me laugh and kept me going.
So thank you, my friend. Post your final loss and we will do lunch after next week's medical extravaganza!!!
And, if you are buying, I will have the appetizer, Steak, Lobster, wine, desert. Oh. and a salad.
If I am buying, I will have water. lol.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
"If someone tells you that you can't do something, tell them "Yes, I can because I am doing it right now!"
Dinner with Schmucks
(Great movie. See it).
When they doubted I could lose any weight
When they didnt think I would stick to it
When the first 20 pounds came off, then 30,40,50....
When the 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th smaller size was worn
When I went below 290, 280,270,260,250,240 (and closing in on the 230's)
When I got my first Victoria Secret Bra
When I walked my first mile
When I crossed my legs again
When I climbed a mountain.
That is when I said, "Yes, I can. Because I am doing it right now!!"
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