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Comfort zone

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

One thing I learned this week: Sugar, fat and snacking are no longer my comfort zone. They make me feel horrible.

My new comfort zone (and yes, this was shocking) is walking, eating healthy meals, not eating just to eat but because I am hungry,and tracking my food so I know where I am at.

I cant just eat randomly anymore. I cant tell you how many times I said to myself this week "I cant beleive I always used to eat like that!"

I think I learned a valuable lesson and my scale backed it up. Its cool. I am on vacation and consider it a detox. I will be down when I get home. Absolutely. And back on track.

Then I will feel comfortable again. So today, I hit the dunes in Glamis (arizona, california border near Yuma) and will be gone till New Years day. Gonna get some sparking in but not much.

Take care and be good. 2011 is coming and it is gonna be our year! WOot!

  
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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:55PM

    Way to go, Jan. Recognizing the change is huge. I love your new comfort zone. Rock on!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/1/2011 6:31PM

  i LOVE your comfort zone!!! thats amazing! YOU ARE AMAZING && 2011 is going to be the most amazing year yet! :)

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ROBINSNEWNEST 12/29/2010 9:21PM

    agreed. thanks for sharing honestly; you helped assuage my "guilt" for treating myself like a human trash can the past week or so... enjoy your vacation!

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COMPUCATHY 12/29/2010 8:21AM

    SP is my comfort zone, too...definitely. I like being here, tracking my food, connecting, and knowing I'm doing the right thing for me and working toward my goals. That's real comfort. Thanks for the perspective! Enjoy vaca! See you on the flipside! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

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MESEATURTLE 12/29/2010 3:50AM

    Yes 2011 will be a great year!!!!!

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WILLIAMV3 12/28/2010 10:02PM

    Me too my friend. I just can't eat the junk I used to eat. It's nice that we're finally in tune with our bodies and can hear what it is telling us.

Have a great time in the 'dunes'. Have a happy and safe New Year! emoticon

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/28/2010 9:48PM

    You take care and be good too. 2011, here we come!

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BAYBELIEVER 12/28/2010 9:42PM

    So true! So true! Although I wasn't as successful as you with the holidays, I know that I made choices on what to partake of and what not to and never overindulged in any of it as I would have in the past. That being said, I overindulged a little overall and am kicking it back into gear now! I love my veggies! I love my walking and swimming! All so much more important than that plain jane spritz cookie that does nothing for me but widen my berth!

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DAISY443 12/28/2010 9:27PM

    Ditto! But you always describe it so well!

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BIGMAMAT 12/28/2010 9:09PM

    With you honey! I can't believe I use to eat like that all the time! Ate way to much fudge. ugh. back on track baby! emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 12/28/2010 8:27PM

    Your comfort zone rocks. Isn't that a cool feeling?!

Look at you go!

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KAMAPERRY 12/28/2010 1:53PM

    Amen to that. I can't eat that junk anymore. I did and I felt horrible!

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PEDAL-PUSHER 12/28/2010 1:13PM

    WTG! I cured my donught addiction simply by remembering that horrid greasy taste in my mouth......that sugar-overload aftertaste that just ssits on the tongue like a lead balloon.

LOVE the backround pic!

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RIGBY31 12/28/2010 1:11PM

    Ditto. My eating capacity used to be enormous. It's not as much "fun" as it used to be. Thank goodness!

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MAIA2011 12/28/2010 1:01PM

    I think the most fun thing on this journey is all the learning. I am a slow learner but I have already benefited from awareness about how I used to eat versus now. It's a truism that it is not just about the weight loss but I'll say it anyway. Have an awesome trip and see you next year!

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NEDERLUNG 12/28/2010 12:43PM

    Is this what they refer to as 'changing zones'?

Hope you have a great vacation - the area you describe is showing on our news as being under flood waters, I hope you are in a drier area! - Debie

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GRACEISENUF 12/28/2010 12:37PM

    VICTORY is yours!
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have a great trip!

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LISA1101 12/28/2010 12:23PM

    I learned the exact same thing too!! I tried to eat like I "normally" would at the holidays- sweets like cinnamon buns - breads etc. and I had this realization that I no longer like to eat like that. I dont like what it does to my body and my mind. And I realized that IT'S OKAY TO BE NOT NORMAL anymore!! I had been eating "like Cr*p" all day. We made dinner and I actually heard the little voice inside my head say "Thank you for eating veggies and good food instead of that Cr*p you've been feeding me". And that was the moment that I realized that I am no longer the person that I never wanted to be and am finally the person that I have always wanted to be!! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/28/2010 12:16PM

    Isn't it a weird realization when you reach that point of not wanting to eat junk anymore? I felt horrendous during the holidays and craved getting back to healthy eating. Strange isn't it! It means this is real for us now. We changed our lives and there is no going back!

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:11PM

    I learned the exact same thing! My body was still punishing me yesterday for the way I ate on Christmas, and I considered my christmas eating a partial success! I feel so much better eating well, cooking IN, and working out. There's no comparison.

Have fun and take lots of pictures!!!

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My road

Sunday, December 26, 2010

When I started here at spark, a visualization popped into my head. I consider it a gift. When I am discouraged or when I try to go to sleep, I see this in my head. It is a desert highway. There is a mountain behind me and that is where I started. In my head, it looks like this:


Then I see myself walking down the road. The mile markers are 5 pound increments. I am heading down this road and where I started is behind me. I can turn around and look at how far I have come. I can head down the road and see where I am going and how far I still have to go. This is where I am heading:


As you can see, I still have a ways to go. But I am on the road and I am moving and I am going to get there. I am gonna keep going.


I have no idea why it is a desert highway or the significance of that but it doesn't really matter. This is my path, my journey and I am gonna keep knocking out those 5 mile markers till I get to where I am going. It is nice looking back and seeing how far I have already come. I am over halfway now. Sometimes, I start back at the beginning and walk back over the miles I have already come to remind myself. I have come a long way, every step, every marker, every pound is getting me closer to where I am supposed to be.

Thanks for coming with me and No, thank you. I dont need a ride. I will walk.

  
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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:54PM

    What a great road and what a great mantra: "No thank you, I will walk." I love it. I wish all the clicks I did on the I like button really counted.

A beautiful, peaceful post, Jan. Thank you for sharing it with me.

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THREEE 1/6/2011 2:09PM

    emoticonyou just make me smile...you are much deeper than your wise-cracking might lead one to believe...i still say, 'what a gal' emoticon

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ZMICHE 12/28/2010 9:51PM

    emoticon visuals! emoticon for sharing! :)

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:09PM

    Woo hoo! Love this! You can do it!

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BAYBELIEVER 12/27/2010 10:25PM

    I love that you have a visual and that it is marked off in 5 mile increments! It is cool that you can "look back" and see where you were and how far you have come. Good for you!

Now, the holidays are over (almost, for me they are) and it is time to keep on walking our path!

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LUVDOGZ 12/27/2010 2:34PM

    Not only are wonderful things at the end of that road, but all along the way!

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BIGMAMAT 12/27/2010 12:51PM

    Beautiful my friend, just like you!! emoticon

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MAIA2011 12/27/2010 12:46PM

    I swear that the desert highway did NOT make me think of Hotel California.

On a serious note I think that you are onto something. Visualization is huge in success (so I've been told).

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ASHARON 12/27/2010 9:20AM

    Wow, love this blog!!!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 12/26/2010 4:16PM

    Love it! We all have different ways of dealing with journey, and yours is beautiful. Thanks for sharing!

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NEDERLUNG 12/26/2010 3:35PM

    I look forward to seeing what you find at the end of this desert road. Smiles - Debie

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KAMAPERRY 12/26/2010 3:29PM

    Love this!! keep it up!

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GRACEISENUF 12/26/2010 3:22PM

    I picture the mountains...isn't it funny how our journeys are so unique to each one of us. Glad your desert and my mountain road intersected at some point spark friend!
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AUNTIELES53 12/26/2010 12:08PM

    love your blog and you are so right the start is always behind us :) i hope you dont mind me adding you

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/26/2010 11:50AM

    I really like your thinking.... and it's interesting why you chose a desert as a setting (albeit unconsciously)... maybe you are heading towards the oasis? Who knows... but I'm glad you want to walk :)

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COOPAH 12/26/2010 11:11AM

    Awwwwh I'm a fan. The road might be in the middle of the desert but I see lots of big stuff waiting for you at the end. I mean heck you can't get to Vegas w/o going through the desert.

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My Plans....

Friday, December 24, 2010

Well I PLANNED to be at my 60 pound loss by Christmas. Not gonna happen.How do you feel about that, Jan?
Well, I feel a bit dissapointed but it really doesnt matter in the big scheme of my life. I will get there (and beyond) and it doesn't matter if it is this week or next week so I am done stressing over it.

I weighed in today and added 2 pounds to my tracker. I am nothing if not honest.
I have a few more days of christmas celebrations (through sunday) then am going to Glamis Dunes through New years. I wont really be on spark during vacation although I will be tracking through my cell phone.

I am going to do my best and I am PLANNING on being down for my next weigh in, which will be January 3rd after all the vacationing etc. That is also the day Kady has her UCSF specialist appt so I am anxious for that but putting it in the back burner of my mind for now.

I want to say how grateful I am for all of you, how grateful I am for my husband, my girls, my family, for having work, for having enough.

This has been a life changing year and I cannot wait to see what 2011 has in store for me. Whatever it is, I will make the best of it, I will rise to meet the challenges, I will succeed, I will fail, I will stumble, I will soar but through it all, I will be grateful for the days that I have, good or bad.

Thanks for coming with me.

What are your plans?

  
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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:52PM

    I love your plan. I haven't made one yet although I'm pretty sure I want to do the Cap 10K on my birthday. This silly hip pain is really wrecking havoc in my emotions and my eating. I want to get it under control. One day, one step at a time. Tomorrow is a new day and I'll be able to think about plans this weekend.

I am so grateful to have met you, Jan. You've touched my heart and given me some good, old-fashioned moxie when I needed it. Silly thing but since you live in CA, and you love racing, and dune buggies, I love thinking that you and my brother may have crossed paths in the racing or dune buggies hills in CA. He would love you and you him. That's how much you've touched my heart. Goofy and silly, but true and all me!

Happy 2011, my Friend!

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:09PM

    It's alright to have a few hiccups, especially around the holidays. *hugs* It sounds like you've got your sh!t handled, IMO.

Kady is in my thoughts. *hugs*

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BIGMAMAT 12/25/2010 1:20PM

    I am so thankful for you Jan! I think you are awesome, amazing, wonderful, beautiful, intelligent, motivated, caring, loving,funny ....ect, ect, ect!

P.s. Just so you won't feel lonely, I will probably add a couple pounds to my ticker too!
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I am going to give myself till New Years and then if my weight is still up, I will add to my ticker. I have been up a couple of pounds too. No worries though! We will kick some serious booty in 2011!!! emoticon

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NEDERLUNG 12/25/2010 11:04AM

    Oh Jan, you are so inspiring! I've been gaining too and stayed honest and marked the gains in my tracker. Not reaching my goal of losing 4 pounds this month by gaining 4 pounds can be disappointing, but you are right, we will, we are not defeated, we are only temporarily challenged. Onward to 2011! - Debie

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BRAINYBLONDE5 12/24/2010 11:13PM

  my plan is to continue to read your blogs to be inspired, motivated and keep momentum. it doesnt matter when you lose the weight because YOU WILL. and you have come so far. merry christmas :)

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JUSDUCKY 12/24/2010 9:43PM

    Life Changing Year...sounds like a success to me!
Here's to more success....always growing and learning and improving.


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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/24/2010 7:35PM

    My plan is to watch your plan unfold before my very eyes. Merry Christmas!

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BRIAEL 12/24/2010 4:50PM

    Jan, the tail end of the year is always tough! I applaud your choice to "go with the flow" and concentrate on the major inroad you've made on the journey!

Have a lovely Christmas period with your family. :) Goals for 2011 will come soon enough. :)

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KAMAPERRY 12/24/2010 3:27PM

    Merry Christmas! I am getting back on Plan on Sunday

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SARAWALKS 12/24/2010 3:07PM

    Hurrah for you, Jan, and may 2011 see lots of good things for you!

I was supposed to reach my goal of 135 by Dec. 15...nope, didn't happen, in fact now I'm back up to 140...but I will walk it off over the vacation and start fresh in 2011!

Muscles don't just fade away, thank goodness!

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GRACEISENUF 12/24/2010 12:12PM

    Merry Christmas Jan! I also hope you enjoy your vacation time. Know my prayers for Kady will continue.

Love and peace my friend!
xoxoxo
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Cookies. Are. Winning. Help!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Ok guys, I am struggling today. Big time. The cookies wont shut up! The toffee wont stop calling my name! The cake balls... well they just snicker and whisper so I have to get closer to hear what they are saying. They are the sneakiest of all!

I am struggling today with the "I-dont-care's". I just want to eat it all. I started off strong but then delivered the baskets so we were alone in the car together. Bad move. So I stopped for a somewhat healthy lunch and came home.They were all waiting for me. They ganged up on me. I am just too weak today to fight. I dont even feel like it either.

You know the difference between mouth hunger and stomach hunger, right? How the mouth craves stuff but the stomach hunger is worse cause that means you are really hungry? The mouth hunger is winning and talking the stomach into joining forces.

I have drank the water, chewed the gum, went for the walk... all the stuff I would advise anyone else. Not working.

It is taking all I have not to just go get a dinner plate and load it up with everything in there even tho I have already had a couple of sugar cookies, a cake ball, a peice of toffee. I have had enough, more than enough and I still want it. I want more. I want it all. I want to eat myself into a sugar stupor.

Then tomorrow I will cry when I get on the scale and feel crappy about being so weak. If I stop right now, right this minute, I can probably save this day. How come I am thinking about shoving my face with all that stuff even though I know, I know, I know that its the worse choice I can make for myself?

I really should not have taken the challenge of the baking. I got too cocky. I wasnt ready. Its wearing me down. Sigh. Someone get the silver bullet would ya? (and put some chocolate on it?)

  
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DBFBILLY 12/25/2010 11:40AM

    Me too, I've had a few setbacks these past two weeks, and not eating the best, and am looking foward to getting back on track, eating healthy again!!
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CALLIKIA 12/23/2010 1:50PM

    "I really should not have taken the challenge of the baking. I got too cocky. I wasnt ready."

Been there, done that...just a couple days ago. I gave in. Mouth won. I was sad. Kicked my own arse in the gym and I'm now no worse for the wear. Cookies can suck it! If I don't have the calories for you, you ain't even worth my time (in the gym, busting my butt and feeling OH SO SORE!).

Remind me of this when I bake sugar cookies with the boys. I've been avoiding this one...it's the one I want most, have wanted for weeks! So I've been avoiding. Hoping if I make them tomorrow for Saturday's party, they won't be able to talk me into them because there just won't be time. Hoping.

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GO-LOEW 12/23/2010 12:13PM

    Are you still fighting the cookies? Hope you are winning. At least winning the war, if not all the little battles.

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CELLISTA1 12/22/2010 1:31AM

    So, Trader Joe's had this christmas cookie set with cookie mix and frosting and sprinkles and even the cookie cutters. My 5 yr old grand-daughter is here visiting so we made them. Of course I let her decorate any way she wanted to, so they are VERY heavy on the sprinkles. She was so proud of them!

In actuality they were yucky - I had to pretend to love them - and I ate two - but I think it was the best thing that could have happened. If they were good, I never could have stopped at two!!!

You have all my sympathy, but besides that, you have the sense of humor that saves you every time. You will be fine.

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PAMINHALF 12/21/2010 9:53PM

  Hang in there! Hope you found some inner strength.

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BIGMAMAT 12/21/2010 9:47PM

    I understand competely!!! (now your cookie comment on my status makes perfect sense!!! ) I thought you were telling me that cookie eating was not a sport and it wouldn't count for my daily activity!!! haha emoticon


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LCHADBOURNE 12/21/2010 1:33PM

    It is so hard, I hear you! I've been letting myself have just one or a half if it is a larger sized treat. That way I don't feel totally deprived. Stay strong! The season for celebration with food is almost over! You can do it! You will win it!

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RIGBY31 12/21/2010 11:53AM

    Honey, don't look to me for answers... I'm making tamales today (ouch!)

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KAMAPERRY 12/21/2010 11:25AM

    emoticon I feel your pain. It will be over soon, lets not beat ourselves up, just go on.

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MAIA2011 12/21/2010 11:10AM

    There is solid good advice here so I am just going to say to leave them out for Santa so he can bring them to the dwarves of the north--elves. Also, I love you!

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SHEILAD1963 12/21/2010 8:02AM

    Geez, I can't help. I just ate some M&M cookies!! Bad cookies, evil cookies, mmmmm good cookies!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

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EAGLE101 12/21/2010 6:26AM

    A day of indulgance doesn't have to ruin all your efforts but may even help.

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DAISY443 12/21/2010 5:16AM

    This will all get better. You'll think back on it in January and wish you had given in and had a cookie or two! You can do it, hang in there!

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NEDERLUNG 12/21/2010 3:09AM

    Jan - I don't envy you. I made them and got them out of the house ASAP. You mentioned making some CB just for yourself with sugar free, etc. I purchased some sugar free white chocolate coating somewhere at one time to make almond bark. I couldn't tell the diff, and I still over ate it. I think I ordered it online, but you might check Amazon or a diabetic store. - Debie

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GO-LOEW 12/21/2010 12:03AM

    I love all the helpful suggestions for overcoming some of the temptations that present themselves at this time of the year. I think ASHLEY1977T has the best solution. Make healthy items to give away so you are not faced with all that temptation. Another suggestion for when you receive a gift of goodies is to quickly re-gift it to someone who you think might like it.

Now I am going to say something unheard of. If you can't leave the goodies alone, mash them in with the trash (so you don't retrieve them) and remove the temptation. I know. I know. As if!
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BRAINYBLONDE5 12/20/2010 10:51PM

  pppsssssst. over here. its me, the cookie. i know you want to pop me in your mouth like a tic-tac. you want to nibble at my friends until none of us are left. go for it. allow us to sit in your body and make you feel guilty tomorrow. we want to win. its out job. we want to test you. can you handle just one? i bet you cant. you cant satisfy your taste buds with just one. it takes a whole plate! and by then we fill your tummy til you cant breathe and you sit there thinking "why did i do that?" thats our favorite part. we scream "its the holidays!" "just give in, you know you want to!" " do it! do it! do it!" just waiting. we go to cookie heaven when you eat us and cookie hell if you dont. so c'mon, give in already!

please try to imagine that in an evil cookie voice! haha DONT LET THEM WIN. if you cant stop at one, DONT GIVE IN. if you can, treat yourself! TELL THEM TO GO TO COOKIE HELL :P

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TIKITAMI 12/20/2010 10:47PM

   
Nothing tastes as good as the first bite. Choose your favourite 5 cookies, take a bite. Savour it and toss the rest of the cookie out. Drink some water, when the feeling comes up again have a bite of another cookie. At the end of the "binge" you'll have eaten maybe two cookies, savoured the taste and not feel deprived.

We all think at some point we have this completely under control and that temptation won't get us. Then we find out the truth. Christmas baking will come every year. BBQs will appear in the summer. You likely aren't going to spend the rest of your life without a cookie, enjoy it without guilt. You have done awesome so far and will make it through this.



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GRACEISENUF 12/20/2010 10:33PM

    The cookie and candy platter a friend of mine brought over have me held hostage so I am no help.


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Tomorrow will be a better day for both of us.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/20/2010 10:29PM

    I seriously ate about 15 cookies today. I am not going to berate myself. It happens and I already decided that next year I am making healthy gift baskets so this doesn't happen again. The holidays are almost over!

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BRIAEL 12/20/2010 10:26PM

    Heh, that's the problem with having a lot of treats at hand. One bite reminds you what you're missing and then the temptation starts.

What about trying something that makes all the sugar unappealing? Like, say, a piece of bread and peanut butter with some cayenne pepper and garlic salt on top. That way, you fill the need to eat ... but put spices that negate your ability to taste sugar anyway ... so it'd be easier to tell yourself those candies are wasted when you couldn't enjoy the flavours. :)

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ATREAT4ME 12/20/2010 10:22PM

    You can do whatever you decide to do. I know it. So if you decide to stop eating the cookies, you'll stop. I know it. If you decide to indulge more, that's what you'll do. I know it. And even if you decide not to make a decision (deny and not think about it), well... you'll do that too. I know it. But if you decide to cut yourself some slack and enjoy your baking, you can do that too! I know it. What do you know?

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_RAMONA 12/20/2010 10:11PM

    I'm kinda somewhere between 'just get it over with' and 'resist'...

I have a question though... why did you decide to post this before you made your choice? Did you want us to give you permission to throw resolve to the winds, or did you want us to give you a pep talk? A way to answer the question for yourself would be to flip a coin... heads you have at the baking, tails you stick to your resolve. Whatever comes up, if you are disappointed, you know what the answer really is... this really does work.

And here's what I do... as counter-intuitive as it sounds, if I want to eat, I eat.... but I wouldn't eat the baking, I'd make every bite a good one. I start with clean protein, and I continue with clean fibre and add in some good fat... and I make it food that really requires me to chew (satisfies mouth hunger). I also consider the textures of what I think I want and make the healthy food similar. A favourite combo is vanilla yogurt with fresh berries and chopped nuts. Another for me is an avocado and tomatoes chopped into a bowl with lemon juice, salt and pepper, or hummus and all the celery I can eat. If it's sweet I want, a banana spread with peanut butter. It works every time... I fill up (satisfy the stomach hunger), and even though ideally I'd prefer to resist, I don't really overdo the calories.

...And if it's the baking you really, truly want... then have it and don't beat yourself up over it. Have one of everything and celebrate each bite. And if somewhere in the middle you decide you don't really want more, stop. The real issue here is to avoid identifying yourself as a victim to any part of the dynamic.

It's one night and one holiday... it's not the end of the world. Life, learning, evolving is a process, and you are still on the journey regardless.

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}}
Ramona

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DONNACFIT 12/20/2010 9:50PM

    I know just how you feel..my baking has been calling my name too. We've had Christmas already and after 3 days of being over my calorie count I've gained 2 pounds..not too bad I can easily get back on track..nothing to beat myself up over !! Good luck on fighting off your cookies...most of the rest of yours are leaving soon gift wrapped for others :)

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INTUITIVE_EATER 12/20/2010 9:47PM

    I am going to agree with mezzo on this one. Just let yourself enjoy what you made for cryin' out loud! And don't be so damn hard on yourself girl! Give yourself permission to eat the toffee and cookies and you will soon find that you do not crave them nearly as much. I know that sounds scary, but it works. It's the whole "you want what you can't have" senario.

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SARAWALKS 12/20/2010 9:45PM

    I'm no help either, I give in and get it over with too.
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But Paula's right, it will be OK either way.
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CAROJONES 12/20/2010 9:45PM

    Motivational nutrition speaker Zonya Foco says eat a fruit and/or a vegetable for each snack you let yourself eat.

If you eat a serving of carrots & celery sticks, or zucchini and squash sticks, a spinach salad (which I eat fresh spinach right out of the bag!)

Or an apple or grapes or cantaloupe or whatever and then eat the cookies -- and spread it out - every 2 - 3 hours it will at least slow you down!!

Good Luck! -- January awaits!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/20/2010 9:36PM

    Well, lesson learned for the future right? No baking. When those moments hit me, I usually give in and get them over with. Sometimes it's what I need. Sometimes not. It's going to be ok either way!

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What I baked....

Sunday, December 19, 2010

To not cause undo suffering, I decided to put this on facebook and provide a link to those who are interested. Beyond those photo's, Kady also made 4 different kinds of cookies that I did not photograph. (I mean, we all know what cookies look like).
I weighed this morning and did not gain any weight but am still "this close" to the 60 pound mark so that is my goal this week. I will do it by christmas and my goal after that is to maintain it the week between christmas and new years. We are going riding down to Glamis dunes near the Arizona/Mexico border with our Utah buddies. Then it will feel good to get back to business and keep going since I still have 51 pounds to go after that. (Hey I just realized I have lost more than I still need to lose! That is a first!!)

I hope you all had great weekends and are going to enjoy this next week.

It is the "first christmas" for some people and the "last christmas" for others. It is a holiday in which we measure what has happened and what is going to happen in our lives. This will be the "last christmas" that I am over 200 pounds and it is the "first christmas" that I will have the energy, stamina and enthusiasm to really enjoy it and my family in a very long time.

What is your first and last for christmas this year? www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=20875
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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:43PM

    This was my first Christmas during which I didn't try to do everything and it was the last Christmas I worried about not getting enough done. It was my first time to cut myself some slack and to realize that I can continue after the holidays.

I am so proud of you, Jan. You've done great and I know 2011 is going to be fantastic for you!

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GRACEISENUF 12/20/2010 7:14PM

    First Christmas with a child living away from home/at college...she is home for the holidays though.

Last Christmas in the two hundreds as well.

MERRY CHRISTMAS JAN...to you and your hubby and girls!
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BRAINYBLONDE5 12/20/2010 9:16AM

  amazing blog! this is the last christmas i will be unhappy in my own skin! I AM SO HAPPY&PROUD OF YOU. you continue to inspire me!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 12/20/2010 9:09AM

    Love the thought of the last and first Christmas...

I know you'll hit your 60lb goal by Christmas!! woot wooot Hey? what kind of "riding" are you doing?? horseback, bicycle? motorcycle?

Annie

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 12/20/2010 8:14AM

    Congratulations Jan! Less than halfway to goal, is something awesome to celebrate this year! This is my last Christmas being obese and my first Christmas with my new lifestyle! Happy Holidays!

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MRSSIBRAT 12/20/2010 7:03AM

    this is my first Chirstmas as a married woman!!My first Christmas in my new life and I am loving it!!

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DAISY443 12/20/2010 3:54AM

    Now you've done it! I'm hungry!

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_RAMONA 12/20/2010 12:46AM

    It's the last Christmas I am over 200 lbs. and the first Christmas I don't apolgise for who I am.

{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}
Ramona

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/19/2010 10:51PM

    First Christmas I am under 300 lb and last Christmas I will ever be obese! You are awesome Jan. Way to already be more than halfway! I can't wait to be there. 13 more lbs to go!

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KRAWRS 12/19/2010 10:46PM

    That all looks absolutely amazing! I just might have to try making some of those next year!

And what a good way to look at it... having already lost more than you have left to lose! Because if you made it this far, you can make it that far too! Congrats!

I am going to make this the last Christmas that I am over 200 lbs as well. I'm determined! This is the first Christmas in years I haven't had to worry about working, so I plan to enjoy every second of it with my family!

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CJJANISS 12/19/2010 10:42PM

    My last Christmas I'll be overweight...halfway to goal...should be at goal before next Christmas! First Christmas I won't overeat and gain weight through the Christmas holidays. I fully intend to weigh less on Jan 1 than I do today! emoticon Merry Christmas! emoticon

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