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Jan: 1 Scale: Suck it!

Monday, January 03, 2011

So I weighed in today after all the pigginess of christmas and vacation. I gained less than half a pound while I was away. While I am up about 4 pounds before christmas, I feel alot better about being able to get this weight off and keep going to my goals.

So I am not whining (cause we all know I hate that!) I am just being accountable here and letting you know I am here, I am continuing on and I am going to get there. So are you.

Progress, not perfection!

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BAYBELIEVER 1/4/2011 11:50AM

    Wonderful! You are so right! Had we not been conscientious, this could have/would have been so much worse! But, because we are here we can have this happen and know that we will get back on track quickly and thoroughly!

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BIGMAMAT 1/4/2011 11:43AM

    Onward and downward! Here We Go!!! come one baby! Let's do this thing!!! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 1/4/2011 11:17AM

    Great job on not gaining on vacay! I can tell by your status update you are going to ROCK January!!! Let's do it!!!!!!!!

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NEDERLUNG 1/3/2011 7:35PM

    Accountability is being honest with yourself, good for you - don't live in the world of denial.

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PAMINHALF 1/3/2011 7:21PM

  I like that - progress not perfection... you have a great attitude.

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GLOWORM1963 1/3/2011 4:42PM

    Amen ~ progress not perfection!

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TEXWIFE 1/3/2011 2:39PM

    wow Jan that is great. not that your up but by only that much.I weighed as well on my new scale, it wasn"t as bad as I thought but I am at square one from last march so Her we go again!

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DAISY443 1/3/2011 2:33PM

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    That's right - PROGRESS, not PERFECTION!! As long as wel keep trucking along, we'll all reach our goals. We need to love ourselves enough to never, ever, give up!! :)

- Michelle

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CINDYLUFUS 1/3/2011 2:26PM

    I am up 5 lbs. as well. It won't be long and we will get it down. I agree about being accountable. Always helps to have friends on this journey.

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KRAWRS 1/3/2011 2:20PM

    Yay! Half a lb while away is not bad at all! You know, I looked back... last year at this time I weight 6 lbs LESS than I do now. And last year I was TRYING, unlike my last few months hiatus. Oh how discouraging! This time is going to be different though... it has to be! Love it... progress, not perfection. About to happen RIGHT NOW!

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MISHKALA 1/3/2011 2:12PM

    Oooooh, I like that saying. Unfortunately, I wasn't as successful at keeping the weight off. But it's a new day to a New Year. Thanks for the mantra!!! I'm using it from now on instead of beating myself up. emoticon

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/3/2011 1:43PM

    progress not perfection is my mantra! haha && its from you! love it :)

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NEDERLUNG 1/3/2011 1:43PM

    A new year, a new start, woohoo!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/3/2011 1:41PM

    YAY Jan! I'm up this week :( But like you said, progress, not perfection ~ my new mantra for the year! 2011 is gonna ROCK!

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    I need to remember that! Progress not perfection.

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Heading home

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Hey guys! hope all is well. I am on my way home and will get there tomorrow. I am looking forward to being home. It has been a pretty out of control few weeks. Between the baking and eating during christmas and barely any excercise this week and not eating well and guessing instead of tracking... well. um. yeah.

SO monday, I will weigh in. If you hear a gun shot from where you live, do not be alarmed. Only one of us made it out alive, me or the scale.

Then I will post it, honestly, on my tracker and get back to eating well and walking. It wil probably take me most of January to get rid of the weight I gained but what the heck. At least I will lose it and keep going on to the rest of my goals.
Still looking for that 60 pound weight loss (and beyond) so I am ready to get back to it.

Hope you are all well and had a great New Years celebration. Now, with a new year ahead, I am looking forward to all of our time together and supporting each other through all of our triumphs and challenges. Moving on, right?

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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 11:02PM

    Amen, Jan!

DH is getting a lot of billable work right now, which is really great for our family, but it is messing with our routine. I get *A LOT* of help and support from him. I am trying to return that now, but it's taking a toll on my sleep and my food choices.

I started to catch up on your blogs feeling very unsettled -- too much Mexican food and a huge doubt that I really could get back up and try again tomorrow. But after reading these past few posts, your words are telling me one important message: I will only fail if I stop trying.

Thank you, my Friend, for not giving up. Thank you for always looking down your beautiful desert road. Thank you for helping me hit my own reset button. Deep breath in, deep breath out!

Ready? Here I go again!

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    You're gonna rock this. :D I'm happy to have you back!

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KAMAPERRY 1/2/2011 5:05PM

    Have a safe trip!

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BIGMAMAT 1/2/2011 4:32PM

    I will be glad when you are home! Safe travels beautiful!!!

P.s. It is what it is! emoticon

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MRSMLBJ 1/2/2011 1:06PM

    Oh, I know what you mean. I had a rough December with the holidays, traveling to a wedding and making bad choices. But, put the gun away and start anew. We can do it again....together.

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RIGBY31 1/2/2011 11:54AM

    I've been" home" all this time, doing so much (read: eating). All guests left yesterday, decorations come down today, kitchen to be detoxed. Managed to walk 3 times last week (once on my own... sleepyheads!). So yeah, I'm with you. I need to get "home" again!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/2/2011 8:48AM

    LOL! What a great blog for me to wake up to this morning. It sounds like you have the same feelings about Monday as I do. SOOOO not looking forward to it. But like you said, move on and make it right, that's all that we can do. It'll be a showdown for sure at the O.K. corral and like you... not sure who's gonna win this battle! 2011 is our year!

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RONNYGIRL39 1/2/2011 7:25AM

    Yup me too I went way off and gained also. We will be ok and get right back to it..Have a good one.


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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/2/2011 6:54AM

    Onward and downward!

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DAISY443 1/2/2011 4:15AM

    Welcome home!

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ZIPLOCK 1/2/2011 2:05AM

    Being accountable is the best way to reach your goal!! Don't sweat the small stuff... If you're a little off, you'll get right back on and make it an amazing year!! Welcome home!

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KRAWRS 1/2/2011 1:40AM

    Moving on! Two steps forward, one step back. AT LEAST YOU STILL END UP ONE STEP AHEAD!!! You'll get there!

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    It sounds like we had nearly identical eating and exercising experiences this holiday season. I am so close to being 80 lbs down and this is when I would quit in the past. We are going to hold each other accountable to get back on track. Thank you for being an amazing friend to me. We are going for goal this year!

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Comfort zone

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

One thing I learned this week: Sugar, fat and snacking are no longer my comfort zone. They make me feel horrible.

My new comfort zone (and yes, this was shocking) is walking, eating healthy meals, not eating just to eat but because I am hungry,and tracking my food so I know where I am at.

I cant just eat randomly anymore. I cant tell you how many times I said to myself this week "I cant beleive I always used to eat like that!"

I think I learned a valuable lesson and my scale backed it up. Its cool. I am on vacation and consider it a detox. I will be down when I get home. Absolutely. And back on track.

Then I will feel comfortable again. So today, I hit the dunes in Glamis (arizona, california border near Yuma) and will be gone till New Years day. Gonna get some sparking in but not much.

Take care and be good. 2011 is coming and it is gonna be our year! WOot!

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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:55PM

    Way to go, Jan. Recognizing the change is huge. I love your new comfort zone. Rock on!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 1/1/2011 6:31PM

    i LOVE your comfort zone!!! thats amazing! YOU ARE AMAZING && 2011 is going to be the most amazing year yet! :)

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ROBINSNEWNEST 12/29/2010 9:21PM

    agreed. thanks for sharing honestly; you helped assuage my "guilt" for treating myself like a human trash can the past week or so... enjoy your vacation!

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COMPUCATHY 12/29/2010 8:21AM

    SP is my comfort zone, too...definitely. I like being here, tracking my food, connecting, and knowing I'm doing the right thing for me and working toward my goals. That's real comfort. Thanks for the perspective! Enjoy vaca! See you on the flipside! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

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MESEATURTLE 12/29/2010 3:50AM

    Yes 2011 will be a great year!!!!!

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WILLIAMV3 12/28/2010 10:02PM

    Me too my friend. I just can't eat the junk I used to eat. It's nice that we're finally in tune with our bodies and can hear what it is telling us.

Have a great time in the 'dunes'. Have a happy and safe New Year! emoticon

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/28/2010 9:48PM

    You take care and be good too. 2011, here we come!

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BAYBELIEVER 12/28/2010 9:42PM

    So true! So true! Although I wasn't as successful as you with the holidays, I know that I made choices on what to partake of and what not to and never overindulged in any of it as I would have in the past. That being said, I overindulged a little overall and am kicking it back into gear now! I love my veggies! I love my walking and swimming! All so much more important than that plain jane spritz cookie that does nothing for me but widen my berth!

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DAISY443 12/28/2010 9:27PM

    Ditto! But you always describe it so well!

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BIGMAMAT 12/28/2010 9:09PM

    With you honey! I can't believe I use to eat like that all the time! Ate way to much fudge. ugh. back on track baby! emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 12/28/2010 8:27PM

    Your comfort zone rocks. Isn't that a cool feeling?!

Look at you go!


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KAMAPERRY 12/28/2010 1:53PM

    Amen to that. I can't eat that junk anymore. I did and I felt horrible!

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PEDAL-PUSHER 12/28/2010 1:13PM

    WTG! I cured my donught addiction simply by remembering that horrid greasy taste in my mouth......that sugar-overload aftertaste that just ssits on the tongue like a lead balloon.

LOVE the backround pic!

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RIGBY31 12/28/2010 1:11PM

    Ditto. My eating capacity used to be enormous. It's not as much "fun" as it used to be. Thank goodness!

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MAIA2011 12/28/2010 1:01PM

    I think the most fun thing on this journey is all the learning. I am a slow learner but I have already benefited from awareness about how I used to eat versus now. It's a truism that it is not just about the weight loss but I'll say it anyway. Have an awesome trip and see you next year!


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NEDERLUNG 12/28/2010 12:43PM

    Is this what they refer to as 'changing zones'?

Hope you have a great vacation - the area you describe is showing on our news as being under flood waters, I hope you are in a drier area! - Debie

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GRACEISENUF 12/28/2010 12:37PM

    VICTORY is yours!
have a great trip!

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LISA1101 12/28/2010 12:23PM

    I learned the exact same thing too!! I tried to eat like I "normally" would at the holidays- sweets like cinnamon buns - breads etc. and I had this realization that I no longer like to eat like that. I dont like what it does to my body and my mind. And I realized that IT'S OKAY TO BE NOT NORMAL anymore!! I had been eating "like Cr*p" all day. We made dinner and I actually heard the little voice inside my head say "Thank you for eating veggies and good food instead of that Cr*p you've been feeding me". And that was the moment that I realized that I am no longer the person that I never wanted to be and am finally the person that I have always wanted to be!! emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/28/2010 12:16PM

    Isn't it a weird realization when you reach that point of not wanting to eat junk anymore? I felt horrendous during the holidays and craved getting back to healthy eating. Strange isn't it! It means this is real for us now. We changed our lives and there is no going back!

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:11PM

    I learned the exact same thing! My body was still punishing me yesterday for the way I ate on Christmas, and I considered my christmas eating a partial success! I feel so much better eating well, cooking IN, and working out. There's no comparison.

Have fun and take lots of pictures!!!

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My road

Sunday, December 26, 2010

When I started here at spark, a visualization popped into my head. I consider it a gift. When I am discouraged or when I try to go to sleep, I see this in my head. It is a desert highway. There is a mountain behind me and that is where I started. In my head, it looks like this:

Then I see myself walking down the road. The mile markers are 5 pound increments. I am heading down this road and where I started is behind me. I can turn around and look at how far I have come. I can head down the road and see where I am going and how far I still have to go. This is where I am heading:

As you can see, I still have a ways to go. But I am on the road and I am moving and I am going to get there. I am gonna keep going.

I have no idea why it is a desert highway or the significance of that but it doesn't really matter. This is my path, my journey and I am gonna keep knocking out those 5 mile markers till I get to where I am going. It is nice looking back and seeing how far I have already come. I am over halfway now. Sometimes, I start back at the beginning and walk back over the miles I have already come to remind myself. I have come a long way, every step, every marker, every pound is getting me closer to where I am supposed to be.

Thanks for coming with me and No, thank you. I dont need a ride. I will walk.

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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:54PM

    What a great road and what a great mantra: "No thank you, I will walk." I love it. I wish all the clicks I did on the I like button really counted.

A beautiful, peaceful post, Jan. Thank you for sharing it with me.

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THREEE 1/6/2011 2:09PM

    emoticonyou just make me are much deeper than your wise-cracking might lead one to believe...i still say, 'what a gal' emoticon

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ZMICHE 12/28/2010 9:51PM

    emoticon visuals! emoticon for sharing! :)

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:09PM

    Woo hoo! Love this! You can do it!

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BAYBELIEVER 12/27/2010 10:25PM

    I love that you have a visual and that it is marked off in 5 mile increments! It is cool that you can "look back" and see where you were and how far you have come. Good for you!

Now, the holidays are over (almost, for me they are) and it is time to keep on walking our path!

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LUVDOGZ 12/27/2010 2:34PM

    Not only are wonderful things at the end of that road, but all along the way!

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BIGMAMAT 12/27/2010 12:51PM

    Beautiful my friend, just like you!! emoticon

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MAIA2011 12/27/2010 12:46PM

    I swear that the desert highway did NOT make me think of Hotel California.

On a serious note I think that you are onto something. Visualization is huge in success (so I've been told).

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ASHARON 12/27/2010 9:20AM

    Wow, love this blog!!!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 12/26/2010 4:16PM

    Love it! We all have different ways of dealing with journey, and yours is beautiful. Thanks for sharing!

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NEDERLUNG 12/26/2010 3:35PM

    I look forward to seeing what you find at the end of this desert road. Smiles - Debie

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KAMAPERRY 12/26/2010 3:29PM

    Love this!! keep it up!

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GRACEISENUF 12/26/2010 3:22PM

    I picture the mountains...isn't it funny how our journeys are so unique to each one of us. Glad your desert and my mountain road intersected at some point spark friend!

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AUNTIELES53 12/26/2010 12:08PM

    love your blog and you are so right the start is always behind us :) i hope you dont mind me adding you

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/26/2010 11:50AM

    I really like your thinking.... and it's interesting why you chose a desert as a setting (albeit unconsciously)... maybe you are heading towards the oasis? Who knows... but I'm glad you want to walk :)

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COOPAH 12/26/2010 11:11AM

    Awwwwh I'm a fan. The road might be in the middle of the desert but I see lots of big stuff waiting for you at the end. I mean heck you can't get to Vegas w/o going through the desert.

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My Plans....

Friday, December 24, 2010

Well I PLANNED to be at my 60 pound loss by Christmas. Not gonna happen.How do you feel about that, Jan?
Well, I feel a bit dissapointed but it really doesnt matter in the big scheme of my life. I will get there (and beyond) and it doesn't matter if it is this week or next week so I am done stressing over it.

I weighed in today and added 2 pounds to my tracker. I am nothing if not honest.
I have a few more days of christmas celebrations (through sunday) then am going to Glamis Dunes through New years. I wont really be on spark during vacation although I will be tracking through my cell phone.

I am going to do my best and I am PLANNING on being down for my next weigh in, which will be January 3rd after all the vacationing etc. That is also the day Kady has her UCSF specialist appt so I am anxious for that but putting it in the back burner of my mind for now.

I want to say how grateful I am for all of you, how grateful I am for my husband, my girls, my family, for having work, for having enough.

This has been a life changing year and I cannot wait to see what 2011 has in store for me. Whatever it is, I will make the best of it, I will rise to meet the challenges, I will succeed, I will fail, I will stumble, I will soar but through it all, I will be grateful for the days that I have, good or bad.

Thanks for coming with me.

What are your plans?

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ATREAT4ME 1/13/2011 10:52PM

    I love your plan. I haven't made one yet although I'm pretty sure I want to do the Cap 10K on my birthday. This silly hip pain is really wrecking havoc in my emotions and my eating. I want to get it under control. One day, one step at a time. Tomorrow is a new day and I'll be able to think about plans this weekend.

I am so grateful to have met you, Jan. You've touched my heart and given me some good, old-fashioned moxie when I needed it. Silly thing but since you live in CA, and you love racing, and dune buggies, I love thinking that you and my brother may have crossed paths in the racing or dune buggies hills in CA. He would love you and you him. That's how much you've touched my heart. Goofy and silly, but true and all me!

Happy 2011, my Friend!

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BADASSBLONDIE 12/28/2010 12:09PM

    It's alright to have a few hiccups, especially around the holidays. *hugs* It sounds like you've got your sh!t handled, IMO.

Kady is in my thoughts. *hugs*

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BIGMAMAT 12/25/2010 1:20PM

    I am so thankful for you Jan! I think you are awesome, amazing, wonderful, beautiful, intelligent, motivated, caring, loving,funny ....ect, ect, ect!

P.s. Just so you won't feel lonely, I will probably add a couple pounds to my ticker too!

I am going to give myself till New Years and then if my weight is still up, I will add to my ticker. I have been up a couple of pounds too. No worries though! We will kick some serious booty in 2011!!! emoticon

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NEDERLUNG 12/25/2010 11:04AM

    Oh Jan, you are so inspiring! I've been gaining too and stayed honest and marked the gains in my tracker. Not reaching my goal of losing 4 pounds this month by gaining 4 pounds can be disappointing, but you are right, we will, we are not defeated, we are only temporarily challenged. Onward to 2011! - Debie

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BRAINYBLONDE5 12/24/2010 11:13PM

    my plan is to continue to read your blogs to be inspired, motivated and keep momentum. it doesnt matter when you lose the weight because YOU WILL. and you have come so far. merry christmas :)

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JUSDUCKY 12/24/2010 9:43PM

    Life Changing Year...sounds like a success to me!
Here's to more success....always growing and learning and improving.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 12/24/2010 7:35PM

    My plan is to watch your plan unfold before my very eyes. Merry Christmas!

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BRIAEL 12/24/2010 4:50PM

    Jan, the tail end of the year is always tough! I applaud your choice to "go with the flow" and concentrate on the major inroad you've made on the journey!

Have a lovely Christmas period with your family. :) Goals for 2011 will come soon enough. :)

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KAMAPERRY 12/24/2010 3:27PM

    Merry Christmas! I am getting back on Plan on Sunday

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SARAWALKS 12/24/2010 3:07PM

    Hurrah for you, Jan, and may 2011 see lots of good things for you!

I was supposed to reach my goal of 135 by Dec. 15...nope, didn't happen, in fact now I'm back up to 140...but I will walk it off over the vacation and start fresh in 2011!

Muscles don't just fade away, thank goodness!

Have a wonderful time on your trip! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 12/24/2010 12:12PM

    Merry Christmas Jan! I also hope you enjoy your vacation time. Know my prayers for Kady will continue.

Love and peace my friend!

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