Thursday, October 28, 2010
I began with a Mamogram. Yep, sure did. I hope you will consider getting yours, too, ladies! They left the pix on the screen and of course, I looked through them. Not that I am a tech but I didnt see anything unusual so I assume all is well. You cannot leave me alone in a medical office. I get into all kinds of things!
While I was waiting, a lady was talking about going to a candy shop in the next town for caramel apples so I told her where to go in our town instead and we started talking. She said her and her daughter started weight watchers last week (um door opening WIDE for me to pipe in) so I told her about spark (I never did make those damn cards I talked about) and she was really intersted and excited. The apple is her treat for getting mamogram.
SO I came home and worked in office which involved a 1 hour call to quick books tech support (I realize I never would have figured it out by myself) and got the windsheild replaced in my truck. (Several items now crossed off the big to do list).
Then I went to Macys which just opened but I didnt see anything so I went to Torrid to look for Jeans (again). I didnt buy any cause they were all toooo much money and way too long. What the heck is with that? BUT (and this is a big BUT, not a big BUTT!) I did try on a size 20 and they fit although they were too long so I guess it is official now. Another size bites the dust!!!
I also did not get a pretzel or coookies or corn dogs or orange chicken. I got a water...lol. Partly because my throat is doing a weird tickle thing that is making me cough and I have to keep drinking something.
I realized something about my husband today. He does not just ask random questions. There is always something behind them.
He called to see what I was doing, was on his way home, blah blah and then he asked where the kids were so I told him they were gone here and there. I was thinking after I hung up, "Why does he care where the kids are? Thats weird". Then he calls me back and tells me he is coming home (uh, hello, you already said that!) and he goes, "especially if the kids are gone". At first I was thinking, well thats not very nice. what? you dont want to come home it the girls are here and then it hit me..... It was like he was doing the nudge nudge wink wink with his voice and I started laughing and was like "OH REALLY NOW" Oh Ok, I get it.
It has been a good day. The kind of day you could just kinda forget ever happened, an ordinary day where things just go along but you know what? I appreciate days like that. I really do. I hope you have an ordinary to extraordinary day, too.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Ok so this is what is going on. As some of you may know, my 20 year old daughter, Kady, has Crohn's disease. It is a debilitating auto immune disease that affects the intestinal tract. The symptoms are weight loss, malnutrition, severe diarrhea and other issues. She was diagnosed when she was 15 and has had a pretty severe case, although not as bad as some. Over the years, we have tried just about every option, some were pretty scary.
She is on a few medications but is doing really well on a infusion therapy called Remicade (also used to Rhuematoid arthritis). She goes into the hospital for about 5 hours every 8 weeks for treatment. She is a trooper, a warrior, unstoppable. She has turned her pain into hope. For herself and for others. She was named the Sacramento Honored Hero for her campaining and fundraising and awareness for the disease. Yes. I am proud of her.
Now, she is facing surgery. She has a stricture in her rectum that is closing. This is from the scarring from the inflammation. They are going to do a Balloon surgery (like when they do angioplasty in heart arteries). If it works, then she may have to do it again periodically which is we could live with.
There is a chance of perforation, infection or worse, it wont work. The option then? There is only 1. A permanant colostomy bag.
Because of where the stricture is located, there is no bypass available. There is no stint that can be placed. Just removal of her colon and having a bag.
Now I realize that this is not the worst thing that can happen. People live with Ostomies and do great. Hell, some people do BETTER.
But this is my baby. This is my little girl. Her biggest worry is that she will go in for the simple surgery and wake up with her life and body completly changed.
I know that no matter how this turns out, now or later, she will deal. She will find a way to make it work for her. As long as she is alive, I will be ok.
I am trying not to worry about what may or may not happen. Either on November 8th or in her future. But yea, it is there.
If anyone would like to send up a prayer or good thoughts or whatever else you use to send good postive energy into the universe, we would surely appreciate it.
Now that I have written this out, I do feel like I can breathe a bit better, so thank you for reading (and Cleva, I dont know how you knew but you did and I love you for it).
I will keep my head up, stay postive for my girl, and keep you all posted.
Here is a picture from the Crohn's walk with daughter Kelly, niece Sami, Kady and cousin,Desi.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
After carefully reviewing all of your wise words, support and comments, I have come to a realization.
I did not sleep well the night before
I have been a bit low with the protein for sveral days
I do have a situation that is weighing on my heart (another blog will be coming about that)
And I am still so out of touch with myself that I needed you guys to help me figure it out. Thank you for being there for me, as always.
Today has been better with a good night sleep and eating something (healthy) every couple of hours.
I am still gonna walk tonight and I will write a blog later about the other stuff.
Even if I dont respond personally, I read every single thing you guys write to me and I appreciate every word. Thank You. Jan
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I was starving. I mean, seriously hungry! I was eating what I usually eat but wanted to snack all day, eat a bunch of food in one sitting, cant get enuf food-hungry!
Yesterday was torture!
I drank my water, had breakfast, had a SOBE 0 calorie drink, ate an applesauce cup, distracted myself, had lunch at noon, (still hungry), had a granola bar, cooked dinner early because I was going to my nephews 9th birthday party(with PIZZA and a cake that has been torturing me for 2 days since my daughter made it). I cooked fish, broccoli, potatoes so I wouldn't be tempted.
When I got there, I was pleased to see a veggie tray and a fruit tray so I had some of that. Then there was a bean dip but I only ate a few chips with that. (still hungry). I brought a bottle of water with me and drank that. The kids were playing a dance game so I joined in where you have to freeze when the music stops (good distraction and a bit of excercise). Then the pizza.
I had a peice of cheese pizza (it was only ok but after not having it for so long, it tasted fantastic and I wanted the whole pizza to myself) and then ate half of a half of a peice of pepperoni (shared with my sister, TEXWIFE). Drank some water.
Then the pinata. Full of candy. I ate a tiny box of milk duds. And wanted the huge movie box size. Drank my water.
Then the cake. I had a small peice, about equal to a cupcake. It was only ok too, but I wanted the rest of it. Drank my water.
I dont usually get like that and if I do, I can control it by filling up with water.
I really hope today isnt like that although I just had a Luna Bar which is a staple breakfast item and I am still hungry! I do not know what is going on. It is not TOM (it friggin better not be!!) so I am just gonna grit my teeth and get through today.
I will be in the car today taking samples to my customer so will take an apple (and water) with me and will not get anything with french fries for lunch. I promise. I also promise to make a healthy dinner and walk Stitchy and Frank tonight.
I really hope this passes cause I do not have any more tricks up my sleeve. What are your tips/tricks for getting through days like this?
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