Monday, October 18, 2010
Disclaimer: I have a video but am having problems loading so we are gonna go with the still shots for now and I hope to be able to load the video eventually. ***
So I am standing at the bottom of a gorge in Utah, getting ready to do some fishing. I looked up at this walking path that goes all the way to the top of the mountain. I said to myself, "Damn that is crazy! Who goes up there??" Then a few minutes later, I looked again and I said, "I wonder if I could go up there?"
So then I said, "Ok what if I just went like halfway". I told my husband and friends I was gonna do it and then I just went! Took my camera and I started up.
As I went, I took pictures of how far I had gone already so you will be looking back down the trail that I went up.
And I kept going.
And I told myself "20 more steps, just 20 more"
And I kept taking pictures of how far I was from where I started.
And I felt my legs working hard to haul my ass up those stairs and I felt my lungs puffing trying to suck in enough air at 11000 feet and I kept going. I wanted to see what was around the next corner and I wanted to see if I could keep going.
And I kept looking at how far I came and that kept pushing me to go farther.
And then, I got really close to the top and there were about 20 more steps to go. I wanted to stop, to say "That is close enough. You did great. Way more than I thought you could do!" But I kept going because I wanted to know that I could. I felt that good enough isn't good enough anymore.
And then I was there. At the top. All alone. And it felt fantastic. So I set up my camera on a rock and I set my timer and I took a picture of me wayyyy up on this mountain and I took a picture of myself. For me. For you. For all of us.
Because when you wonder if you can do it, if you can keep going, if you think you can only go halfway but then keep going past there, when you have a mountain in front of you and choose to tackle it, when you can look back at how far you have come, I want you to remember something: YOU CAN.
When you find yourself between a rock and a hard place, remember: YOU CAN!
I haven't wondered what I could do for a long, long time. I shut myself down before I even tried. I would not have even thought about trying it! But I wondered if I could and then I did it and it was WONDER-FUL! I amazed myself today. I amazed my husband and my friends. My body amazed me! I wonder what else I can do?