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I wonder...Picture blog

Monday, October 18, 2010

Disclaimer: I have a video but am having problems loading so we are gonna go with the still shots for now and I hope to be able to load the video eventually. ***

So I am standing at the bottom of a gorge in Utah, getting ready to do some fishing. I looked up at this walking path that goes all the way to the top of the mountain. I said to myself, "Damn that is crazy! Who goes up there??" Then a few minutes later, I looked again and I said, "I wonder if I could go up there?"



So then I said, "Ok what if I just went like halfway". I told my husband and friends I was gonna do it and then I just went! Took my camera and I started up.
As I went, I took pictures of how far I had gone already so you will be looking back down the trail that I went up.

And I kept going.


And I told myself "20 more steps, just 20 more"

And I kept taking pictures of how far I was from where I started.


And I felt my legs working hard to haul my ass up those stairs and I felt my lungs puffing trying to suck in enough air at 11000 feet and I kept going. I wanted to see what was around the next corner and I wanted to see if I could keep going.

And I kept looking at how far I came and that kept pushing me to go farther.





And then, I got really close to the top and there were about 20 more steps to go. I wanted to stop, to say "That is close enough. You did great. Way more than I thought you could do!" But I kept going because I wanted to know that I could. I felt that good enough isn't good enough anymore.

And then I was there. At the top. All alone. And it felt fantastic. So I set up my camera on a rock and I set my timer and I took a picture of me wayyyy up on this mountain and I took a picture of myself. For me. For you. For all of us.


Because when you wonder if you can do it, if you can keep going, if you think you can only go halfway but then keep going past there, when you have a mountain in front of you and choose to tackle it, when you can look back at how far you have come, I want you to remember something: YOU CAN.

When you find yourself between a rock and a hard place, remember: YOU CAN!


I haven't wondered what I could do for a long, long time. I shut myself down before I even tried. I would not have even thought about trying it! But I wondered if I could and then I did it and it was WONDER-FUL! I amazed myself today. I amazed my husband and my friends. My body amazed me! I wonder what else I can do?

  
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JUSTFOXXY 10/25/2010 10:01PM

    Oh wow!!! Love this.

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MAIA2011 10/23/2010 2:38AM

    This made me cry. You are so wonderful!

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GLORIEE 10/22/2010 10:01AM

    WOW!!! I just took an emotional trip up that mountain with you... and it felt WONDER-FUL!!! emoticon I started off wondering if you could do it and thinking I wouldn't even want to try. But as you went, I followed and got more and more confident and excited for you. I'm so happy that you made it to the top emoticon but more importantly that you didn't stop. emoticon

"I WONDERED IF I COULD AND THEN I DID IT" -- they are some mighty, powerful words!!! I'm going to print them out and hang them where my family and I can see them everyday! Thank you so much for the inspiration!!!


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ROBINSNEWNEST 10/21/2010 4:32PM

    Tried to post this comment to your blog yesterday, but computer kept shutting down... Came back here specifically to let you know how great this is... I so loved your "between a rock and a hard place" statement. Thank you for taking care of yourself and being there to inspire the rest of us:)

Robin

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DUPSTER 10/20/2010 2:45PM

  WOW! Just found your blog. This post is truly an inspiration as you are. Like you say, we don't know what we can do until we try and try and keep trying and pushing ourselves when we think we need to quit. I am impressed with your climb and your words--YOU GO GIRL!!

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GOINGFOR20 10/20/2010 2:28PM

    Amazing!!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 10/20/2010 1:06PM

    i love reading your blogs. you go!!! :)

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SKINNYSOON13 10/20/2010 12:46PM

    Good for you! I love picture blogs!I used to do this hike in Agoura. It was soooooooooo hard! My first time going up, I was BAWLING about 3/4 of the way up because it was HARD and I didn't want to finish, but I SOOOOOO wanted to finish! I did it - I finished it, and I continued to finish it once or more a week for about 6 months. It was such a victory! If you go back and look at my blogs from about 2 or 3 years ago you'll see MY picture blog celebrating it too :-D Good for you, I'm so proud of you! :-D

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BTINTERNET 10/20/2010 11:59AM

    You're amazing! Thanks for 'documenting the journey' as it were! And thanks for the reminder that we can all do it!

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EMSJOURNEY 10/20/2010 11:43AM

    what an inspiration! you sound like me on the treadmill... just jog for ONE MORE MINUTE! we can do it! =)

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NEDERLUNG 10/20/2010 10:12AM

    Jan - I love that you have changed your picture to this glorous smiling woman on top of a mountain! (I loved the old dogfood pic, but we must move on). You look so happy and proud of yourself and YOU SHOULD BE! - Debie

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LUVDOGZ 10/20/2010 10:00AM

    emoticon That is so true that we never know what we can do unless we try. I need to remember that! Beautiful pictures btw!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/19/2010 10:38PM

    Damn girl, you are amazing! Really... i loved your climb! I felt like I was with you in spirit :)

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BIGMAMAT 10/19/2010 7:43PM

    OMG!!!! Jan, that is awesome! I LOVED that picture before I knew the story behind it! Congratulations on your awesome climb to the top of the world! You are incredible!!! Woohoo! emoticon

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BUCKHOLDT 10/19/2010 12:09PM

    How did you get back down?

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CLEVAGAL 10/18/2010 11:35PM

    *smiles*

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DAISY443 10/18/2010 10:10PM

    You did it and because you did, maybe we all can! Wonderful pictures and blog!

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NLMARSHALLJX 10/18/2010 10:03PM

    Awesome hike and amazing pics!

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RAVENSONG37 10/18/2010 7:57PM

    You're so awesome! Thank you for sharing and thank you for being here!!!

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ERINBEAR1876 10/18/2010 1:01PM

    Very inspirational...You are so right when you say that good enough isn't good enough anymore. You are worth it. You are deserving of doing your very best, and to keep pushing forward. Thank you for posting this. You are an amazing woman!

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WATCHMEGO2 10/18/2010 12:57PM

    WooHoo! You rock girl!

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STARPLANET2000 10/18/2010 12:56PM

    You look fantastic! Weigh to go! Thanks for the pics and the inspiration!

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ANNABANANNA3 10/18/2010 12:50PM

    Yay!!! Congrats!!!! Amazing view!!!
Heres a quote I ran across once that reminds me of your entry.. =]

''Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebbles that cause us to stumble... Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.''

=] have a good one!!!!

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GRACEISENUF 10/18/2010 12:11PM

    Thanks for sharing your rise to the top...beautiful!
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MACILINN 10/18/2010 12:06PM

    Wow your blog reminded me of my track up to crystal lake?, in Yosemite. 1/2 way to half dome! It looked identical! I swear I cried and quit 3X(complete brkdown) , I passed other women who gave up and just kept going with tears in my eyes, Hubs kept saying " You can make it, just keep moving" when I finally made it, I don't think I have ever done anything I was more proud of in my life. Great job! That was about 8 yrs ago, I was 20pds heavier than now , before I was an athlete, today I look forward to doing it again! Thanks for the memories!! ~Maci~ emoticon you have earned your hiking boots girl!

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TEXWIFE 10/18/2010 12:03PM

    Wow jan it was like you heard the sermon yesterday all the way in Tracy. the mnessage was about not giving up on your dream and taking the mountain set in front of you! Isn't God amazing! emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/18/2010 11:57AM

    That's awesome! The views look amazing!

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LIVINGONTHERED 10/18/2010 11:35AM

    That's awesome! Good job!

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BJW-FARMGIRL 10/18/2010 11:14AM

    So cool! Be proud! Neat pictures. Thanks!

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TREASURINGLIFE 10/18/2010 11:11AM

    Ha - that's AWESOME!!! :) I bet you felt so proud when you got to the top! That was on heck of a climb!! :)

- Michelle

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PRAYINGSUZIE 10/18/2010 11:06AM

    Wow! You did great! Those pictures are wonderful!

Suzie

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TANSHAN1 10/18/2010 10:55AM

    WooHoo!! Great accomplishment!

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Final days in Utah... Heading home tomorrow am (pics)

Saturday, October 16, 2010



My final two days in Utah. Heading home tomorrow am. I will blog while I am on the 14 hour drive home tomorrow because you will NOT beleive what I did!(Maybe I will do it tonight, we shall see ;) )

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PJH2028 10/18/2010 9:31AM

    Oh my! Don't you look "Fine! Fine! Fine!"
Glad you had a great trip. Looking forward to hearing more about it ;-)

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TEENY_BIKINI 10/17/2010 10:08PM

    Hey gorgeous.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 10/17/2010 9:55PM

    You look so good in this pic! I can't wait to read it and I hope you had a safe trip!

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MAIA2011 10/17/2010 11:18AM

    I have the feeling I will believe what YOU did!

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Great pic and I await the blog with bated breath.

Have a safe journey home!

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BIGMAMAT 10/17/2010 9:31AM

    Blog it woman! I am dying to know!! I love, love, love, this picture! Beautiful!!! emoticon

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WATCHMEGO2 10/17/2010 9:23AM

    Can't wait to read all about it!! Glad you had a great trip.

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/17/2010 7:00AM

    Look at you cutie! Love it!!

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DAISY443 10/17/2010 6:50AM

    Great pics! Thanks for sharing, especially the meese (uh, mooses, well, whatever)!

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more vacation pix...

Thursday, October 14, 2010

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Most beautiful places in Utah. Follow along. I am doing great and hope you are all,too. will be back in full force on monday!

  
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ELLIEFAR 10/16/2010 3:34PM

  Your pics look great, thanks for sharing them. What a lovely place, hope you had fun.

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BAYBELIEVER 10/15/2010 10:05PM

    Amazing pictures! Glad you are having a great time! It is beautiful.

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BIGMAMAT 10/15/2010 9:23AM

    OMG Jan! That one squirmy fish picture is a riot! hahahaha emoticon I have never seen a fish with that big of a mouth before! It was like he was saying "heeeelp meeeeeee!"
Tehehe! The place looks simply gorgeous! Glad you are having fun. Tricia

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HEALTHYASHLEY 10/15/2010 7:53AM

    Love it. Miss you. You look amazing!

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DAISY443 10/15/2010 4:38AM

    Great pics! Thanks for sharing. Enjoy the rest of your trip!

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vacation so far (link to pix)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Hi guys, I have been busy busy. 2 days to get here and today was the first full day we had. went on a 70 mile razor ride and the highlight was seeing 3 moose (es) in the lake.Took a bunch of pix. It was very exciting. Hope you are all doing well. I am staying on track but havent walked yet. Tomorrow is the day tho.

Click to see my pix on facebook if you are interested. Stay in touch and hope you are all well...

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BIGMAMAT 10/13/2010 7:37PM

    OMG! Looks amazing! It is soooo Beautiful there!!! emoticon

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MAIA2011 10/13/2010 6:27PM

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/13/2010 8:42AM

    I think the plural of moose is meeses - tee hee! Glad you're haveing a great time!

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BIGMAMAT 10/13/2010 12:15AM

    Glad you are having a wonderful time! Moose (es)! woohoo!
I am not sure what I am doing wrong but I am only able to see one pic. Tell monte happy birthday. emoticon

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YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA, YEA!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Ok, I know you already know what I am going to say but roll with me here....

Yep, today I FINALLY hit my 50 pound weight loss mini goal! (I get to go Kayaking on Monterey Bay!!)! Also, this was the final weigh in day for the Lose 10 by 10/10/10 team and I hit that goal too, losing 10.4 pounds since I joined the team. This is also my 7 month spark anniversary and I am leaving for a week vacation to our friends cabin in Utah (one of my 2 favorite places in the world).

So pretty much this is a great day!!

I will be checking in and tracking my food and excercise but wont be on as much as usual. I hope you guys have a great week ahead! Thanks for all your support in my journey so far!! Love, Jan

  
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MAIA2011 10/12/2010 6:18PM

    You ROCK! (Sorry this is late but I am just now catching up on blogs!)

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BECKYB73 10/11/2010 4:50PM

    CONGRATS!!!

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NETOPIASGAL 10/11/2010 9:45AM

    Congratulations! That is Awesome! Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon

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FIT-WHIT 10/11/2010 9:04AM

    YEAAAHHHH YEA YEA YEAH!! :) ROCK ON!! Way to go with all your hard work so far! It really pays off! Keep it up-- you're doing AWESOME!! Next time you see a giant bag of water softener salt, pick it up and think "I've LOST this much weight off my body, and MORE!" It's a pretty cool thing!! emoticon emoticon

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RJANE40 10/11/2010 8:21AM

    So Awesome! Way to Go!!!!!

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TREASURINGLIFE 10/11/2010 8:15AM

    Wooooo-whoooooo!!!! That is freakin' awesome! I'm so proud of you...and happy for you!!! Relish in the feelings that come with hitting that goal! :)

- Michelle

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PAMINHALF 10/11/2010 7:45AM

  Congratulations!

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BIGMAMAT 10/11/2010 12:14AM

    Woohoo! awesome! I am sooooo excited for you! woot. emoticon

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BEXNEW 10/10/2010 9:41PM

    Wooot Woooot Woooot!!! Awesome!! Well done. So many great things in one small post!!!!


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BAYBELIEVER 10/10/2010 9:38PM

    Congratulations! So many goals achieved all in one day. That is awesome! Have a great vacation too!

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KATHYJO56 10/10/2010 9:37PM

    emoticonWhat a thrill to hit those milestones. I'm so proud of you! Have a great vacation. emoticon

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HEALTHYASHLEY 10/10/2010 9:31PM

    I am so proud of you! Way to go. Have an awesome vacation.

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ROBINSNEWNEST 10/10/2010 7:48PM

    emoticon x 50 on emoticon results!!!!!

Robin

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BRIAEL 10/10/2010 5:31PM

    Congrats Jan .. 50 lbs is an awesome milestone. Have a fabulous time, remember to come back, won't you? Looking forward to updates and photos. :)

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BTINTERNET 10/10/2010 4:31PM

    Awesome! Enjoy your getaway and woohoo! Congrats!

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ANAJAK 10/10/2010 4:14PM

    You are so awesome :) Have fun on your trip away - no licking cake off heads - does that sound really wrong?

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DAISY443 10/10/2010 3:33PM

    What a great way to leave on vacation! I don't know which accomplishment to "Woo Hoo" so this emoticon is for all of them!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 10/10/2010 3:20PM

    Yay! I totally knew this was coming :)

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TIKITAMI 10/10/2010 3:17PM

    Woo hoo!!

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HOPERISING 10/10/2010 2:27PM

    How awesome is that??? You rock!!!

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ATREAT4ME 10/10/2010 1:19PM

    Awesome! Way to go.

Now enjoy that vacation!

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CYNEDRA 10/10/2010 12:10PM

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Congrats on it all!

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WATCHMEGO2 10/10/2010 10:43AM

    WoooooooooooooHoooooooooooooo!!!! Way to go girl!!!

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GRACEISENUF 10/10/2010 10:35AM

    You are a winner all the way around! Have a blast in Utah.
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NENESMOM 10/10/2010 10:21AM

    Way to go. Keep up the good work.

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