Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Today is my birthday and I am pretty happy about it. Yes, I am 49 today and closing the gap on 50 and I dont think I can remember a time when I have felt so good, so healthy and yes, even happy.
Losing weight and getting healthy has changed the way I think about things, made me more positive and energetic, less cranky and more confidant in my abilities. That is my gift this year.
Plans today include a movie with my girls, sister, and neice then dinner later.
I really wanted todays blog to be annoucing that I had lost 50 lbs but alas, I am a pound away so perhaps on Thursday which is my official weigh in day (sunday is my team weigh in day). I plan on staying on track today because I really, really want to hit that big number. It has been looming on the horizon since the start. That is my biggest mini goal and when I started, it was so far down the road, I couldnt even imagine it. Now? It is only a few meals away and I am thrilled with the progress I have made.
I thank you all for your support, your well wishes, your friendship and sharing the journey with me. Life is good and I am grateful.
Shoutout to Graceisenuf7 as we share the same birthday today! Libra's rullllllleeeee! lol.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Ok who else has problems uploading photo's into blogs? I will select a picture then click upload and nothing happens, then the screen goes back to where you say upload and it wont do it....Sometimes I can get 1 or 2 pics up but then it wont load anymore... sooooo annoying!!!!!! Help? Ideas?
Monday, September 27, 2010
Today my husband told me he was taking me to Pacific Grove for lunch for an early birthday present. It on the monterey bay and where my family is from. Also,One of my favorite places in the world. So we went and had lunch (Halibut and Prawns, super yummy!), stayed on track nutritionally and even went to a chocolate store where I bought one (yes, 1) chocolate. We walked down to the beach where I got a flyer and some information about Kayaking (which will be my reward for losing 50 pounds) and we will go back and do it in a few weeks. Then we went to another beach and sat and people watched. It was nice day and a sweet surprise from my Honey. Hope you guys had a great weekend, I did!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Ok, well, this has been on my mind for a while now. Alot of people I read say that Positive blogs make them feel less able to relate to the writer. That they want to read what is REAL and the struggles people I have. I can understand that because things are not always sunshine, rainbows and unicorns. People want to know that when they are struggling, someone GETS that.
I tend to blog fairly positive things. That is just me. I have been trying to think of a struggle or something to write about but you know what? Right now, at this point of my life, I am feeling quite fantastic! I have physical energy, my crankiness is gone, I am doing well losing weight, I have embraced my new lifestyle, I like to motivate and inspire and uplift people so I love SparkPeople because I get to do that.
But I want you all to know: When you are struggling, sad, depressed, kicking your own ass, tired, petulant or hurt, I am here. I GET you. I do. I have been all of those things. Because I am not that TODAY does not mean I havent been where you are or that I wont be where you are again.
Here is my life in a quick, no- nonsense list of the struggles I have been through in my almost 49 years:
I met my current husband when I was 14. I lost him many times until we finally stuck.
I married my first husband when I was 18. By 19, I was widowed. He drowned in my parents pool, swimming by himself.
My brother in law passed away 5 years after my first husband. By drowning. Leaving my sister and 2 little girls alone.
I married an abuser as a rebound for the pain of my loss after being addicted to drugs and alcohol and ended up in jail for drunk driving.
I fled my 2nd husband with my 6 month daughter because I could not bear the thought of that kind of life for her. She saved me.
I married Frank, he adopted Kelly, and then we had Kady.
We have our own business(es) which is a challenge because we work together and in this economy, it has been a true struggle off and on over the years.
My oldest daughter battled depression a teenager.
My Mom passed away.
My Father passed away.
MY 20 year old daughter was diagnosed with Crohns disease when she was 15. She almost died and I have watched her battle this insidious disease with dignity, grace and strength. It is incurable but we have not given up the fight.
Many brother in laws have come and gone, my favorite neice has spent the last year going through an extremly painful divorce and yes, my favorite dog died.
All those things have changed me, shaped me, made me empathetic to people's pain and made me want to be able to tell those who suffer that they can overcome, there is light at the end of the tunnel, that life can be good if you choose to make it that way. That life is precious, short and worth every tear, every drop of sweat, every burst of laughter and every memory that we can make. So yea, I get you and Im here.
Friday, September 24, 2010
So I am at Target, getting some items. There is a guy behind me with his 5 year old daughter. She is buying Scooby snacks and asks daddy if it is there turn yet. He says, " as soon as the guy is done with this lady, it will be our turn". She turns at looks at me, looks at daddy and says in a LOUD WHISPER, that only children can do, " She's fat!".
Dad tells her, "Elizabeth, you dont say that, its not nice" . Lots of thing went through my mind but I turned to her with one of my most charming smiles and said,"You know what? I used to be fatter but I lost 50 pounds. That is more than you weigh. " Blank stare, daddy mutters something about it being awesome and I continued (with a smile) " and I am going to lose more and then I will be the one in line buying Scooby snacks".
Paid for my stuff, went to my truck and here they come, parked right in front of me. Dad gives me an embarrased smile and I smiled back and drove away.
So I feel alot of different ways about it but basically, this thought keeps running through my mind: "Well, ain't that a bitch!!"
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