Friday, September 24, 2010
So I am at Target, getting some items. There is a guy behind me with his 5 year old daughter. She is buying Scooby snacks and asks daddy if it is there turn yet. He says, " as soon as the guy is done with this lady, it will be our turn". She turns at looks at me, looks at daddy and says in a LOUD WHISPER, that only children can do, " She's fat!".
Dad tells her, "Elizabeth, you dont say that, its not nice" . Lots of thing went through my mind but I turned to her with one of my most charming smiles and said,"You know what? I used to be fatter but I lost 50 pounds. That is more than you weigh. " Blank stare, daddy mutters something about it being awesome and I continued (with a smile) " and I am going to lose more and then I will be the one in line buying Scooby snacks".
Paid for my stuff, went to my truck and here they come, parked right in front of me. Dad gives me an embarrased smile and I smiled back and drove away.
So I feel alot of different ways about it but basically, this thought keeps running through my mind: "Well, ain't that a bitch!!"
Thursday, September 23, 2010
It occured to me today: I am really good at eating in the car. Not just eating in the car, but while driving. I have eaten the very challenging Wienerschintzel chili dogs while driving, not to mention taco bell tacos. I scoff at the ease of a burger and fries. Breakfast! Ha! I laugh at you! I barely had to be awake for that!
Today, I ate a teriyaki bowl. I mean, I have to beleive that this is a true talent! I have spent years perfecting it. Not a vacation takes place that doesnt begin at McDonalds.
While my choices have changed, the habit remains the same. Subway, ok, but I prefer Togo's or Safeway sandwiches. A chicken fajita pita or teriyaki bowl from Jack in the box (with fruit not the egg roll) instead of a Jumbo jack or fried chicken sandwich and fries, a egg mcmuffin with no cheese or meat instead of a sausage egg and cheese muffin.
You guys know what I do to french fries or hash browns so that isnt a problem. I call them French FLIES now as they sail out my window.
I have been in my office so much over the last year that I rarely am out and about at lunch time but this week, I have been in the car 3 out of 4 days. So I think I need to plan better although I have no doubt I could handle a PBJ with no problem or even a fruit salad or a cup-a-soup with ease. I mean, come on. I am a professional.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I had a conversation with my hubby last night that made me realize that he may be feeling a bit worried about the "new me" that is emerging. He is a confidant person (Leo), he is very supportive and excited about my weight loss and the things that we will be able do now, as well as the fact that I am getting healthy but I heard something last night that makes me think he has underlying concern. I dont want to give the wrong impression about him and I tried to put myself in his shoes and understand how he might be feeling since he is very male and they typically do not "share" their feelings easily, especially when it is complicated and he may not understand it himself.
I understood going into this that my weight has worked for me in life and relationships in the past.I mean if it didnt on some level, I wouldnt have stayed that way. I have looked at some things within myself on why I felt the need to cover and protect myself from certain elements such as attention from other men, as an example. My man has loved me thin(ner) and loved me fat. He loves ME which is such a blessing but he (and I ) were worried about my health which is why I started this journey.
I expected changes and upheavals. I did not expect the confidence ( I have always been very confidant), the possibilities, the dreams of future events, places and activities that suddenly become options. I am changing, in more ways than the physical. I think in very positive ways.
The main point of me getting healthy is so that I can spend a happy, active life with my husband well into our retirement years.
I am wondering: does he think I will get thin and leave him? That I will change who I am? That I have a secret internet life with sp? That I wont need him anymore? (All completely stupid but we all think stupid things sometimes and I am trying to pinpoint where he might be coming from).
So what I want to know, Men and Women, both:
Tell me your experience with your significant others regarding your weight loss.
The positives, the negatives, the trials and the triumphs. Lay it on me.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
So today, I got up, went on spark to see what was going on overnight, checked facebook and email, showered and went out to my office for a quick answering machine check then I had plans to go get some roofing samples and take them to a potential customer. I was thinking I would go to mcdonalds for breakfast and then said, NO! I figured I would grab a Luna Bar on the way out the door.
As I came in to leave, my cell rang and my niece was on the line so we started talking while I was gathering the stuff I needed for the day. Cell phone, purse, file, notes, grabbed a Vitamin water, still talking, now out the door. I talked to her for my whole 45 minute drive! I got the samples, kept thinking I was forgetting something, drove to my customers house and spent 2.5 hours with her. She is an artist and a lovely gal, had a nice chat.
Went next door to see hubby ( we are doing the neighbors job) but he had left to go to another town. I was sad. I was gonna make him take me to lunch!
So speaking of lunch, it was now 1:00 and I decided to go to Taco Bell (fresco menu rocks!!!) and I realized.... I FORGOT TO EAT BREAKFAST!!!
Who forgets to eat???? Not fat girls that is for sure. Some skinny, jogging, crazy coffee drinking person would forget to eat, right??? Um no. Contrary to my previous beliefs, apparantly, I did not think about food for approx. 4 hours or I would have realized I had not yet eaten any food!
I dont think it is a good thing to forget to eat but I do think its a good thing to not think about food every minute of every day!! I could never imagine being a person who would forget to eat! Either I am crazy or I am seriously changing this whole food thinking thing. I think its the latter.(although am not ruling out crazy!)
Monday, September 20, 2010
I learned that Marsala wine and red cooking wine are not interchangeable. I could not find Marsala wine in the store and I asked the wine stocker person. She had no idea. So I went with the red cooking wine. When I got home, I googled it and it is not the same.(note to self: check first next time, Jan!!)
If you dont use Marsala wine, It is not chicken marsala, it is chicken with red wine sauce. It didnt taste good so I added a package of dry turkey gravy, reduced it with mushrooms and then it didnt taste bad. My husband loved it which is funny cause he never really comments on the dinners I make unless they are really good. The rest of it he just puts up with..lol.
I also made red potatoes boiled with garlic cloves and then mashed with low fat milk. That was pretty tasty. I made broccoli and these little sourdough rolls that are frozen and you bake them. Um, my total favorite part of the meal!!!
So we will be taking the Baby (Stitchy) for a walk tonight and she already knows cause she is staring at me, staring at my walking shoes, me, shoes, me, shoes, me....ok you get the drift. I am pretending I dont notice and I keep getting up and walking around the house just to throw her off the track until it's time to go.
Hope you all had a great day and go read Ashley1977's blog and watch the video. Get inspired!!!
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