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im so emotional, baby!

Friday, May 17, 2013

I have a bunch of random stuff in my head so here it goes. Sit down, its going to be a bumpy ride.

I have lost 6 pounds in less than 2 weeks. I feel great! Somehow all the things I was struggling with are just gone right now. No severe sugar cravings, I'm sleeping better, my GI tract is functioning better, I just FEEL better.

I have been on a medication called Gabapentin (Nuerontin) for several years. It helps with nerve pain from bulged discs. It is also supposed to help with menopause symptoms. The other day, I ran out. I went 2 days without it, noticed I was not in any more pain then usual, filled my prescription and then as an experiment, decided to not take it. Its been about 6 days and I feel so much better. I think it was actually making everything worse! I was on it when I first lost weight 3 years ago. But I think because of my hormones, things have changed.
My plan is to stay off of it! Yea me!

When I read your comments, even if I don't have time to answer, I just feel so blessed. I do not use that word lightly. So many of you have been with me since day 1, some came on board later but you all ,mean so much to me. I truly know I have a place where I can always come no matter what's going on. It means so much to me, please know that.

There are many things I am looking forward to like, losing weight, inches and gaining health. I'm looking forward to my daughters wedding one year from today!

I really feel a shift and an appreciation for life, love, friendships, health and family that has been missing for a while. I think I was sliding back into that darker, isolated place where I used to live and I'm glad to be fighting my way back.

You're all a big reason for that. So Thank you.

This weekend my plans include the movies STAR TREK, going to a race (No NACHO'S) and planning so that I can be prepared and stay on track. It worked last weekend I should be able to manage it this weekend too. IT is NOT A LICENSE TO EAT LIKE A WOLF!

Have a great weekend everyone!!

  
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VLINDER2013 5/21/2013 8:23PM

    I am pretty new here , I can appreciate your feelings and how our Spark Friends can help us so much.

Great job on the weight loss , and your renewed Appreciation. Way to go on the med thing.. I hope I will be able to lose some of mine soon.

How exciting your DD getting married.. Congrats..

Dawn

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DUXGRL1 5/18/2013 7:38AM

    I read your last weekend blog and you inspired me to actually PLAN this weekend.....that is such a DUH thing, but I DO tend to be more lax on weekends, so I thought of you and decided to plan it.

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ILIKETOZUMBA 5/18/2013 6:52AM

    Ooooh yay that sounds great! I'm so glad that you figured out something that could help - who knew medication could mess with you like that? I hope you continue to not need it and continue to prosper without it! Have fun this weekend - I totally want to see Star Trek too! But first on the agenda is Iron Man. Then we'll see Star Trek at some point. :) I am looking forward to it, mostly because I'm a dork and I like everything Star Trek anyways, but also because Chris Pine is some mighty tasty eye candy. :)


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FANGFACEKITTY 5/18/2013 1:43AM

    emoticon congrats on the weight loss and even better about eliminating a medication! My movie plan is to see the new Iron Man, I will get around to Star Trek in a few weeks. Let us know if it is worth going to the theater to see.

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GRACEISENUF 5/17/2013 8:43PM

    Sounds like you are doing great Jan and that makes me happy. Way to go on the six pounds down! Glad you are off that med, sometimes I think the darn medications have more side effects than they are worth.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/17/2013 8:31PM

    YAY!!!! That's awesome! emoticon

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GUATEMAMAX2 5/17/2013 7:32PM

    congrats on the 6 pounds! I enjoy reading this, I can feel your positive attitude!

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LAWANDMUSIC 5/17/2013 7:17PM

    WOW. I am glad that you had a chance to observe your body's reactions to the drug and make a thoughtful choice. Kudos!

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CELLISTA1 5/17/2013 7:10PM

    All this appreciation for love and life --- also possibly a result of getting off the meds????!!!! You are a naturally ebullient person; maybe that stuff was chemically keeping you down. Congrats on the 6 pounds and here's to more love, more life, and all great stuff with family, friends, and health!

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2 is my favorite number!

Thursday, May 16, 2013

I lost 2 MORE pounds since Monday even while having a dinner party last night. My SIL was here from out of town so there were 10 of us to go to dinner. I told them I will cook, come to my house.

Menu;

TRITIP
POTATO salad my sister made
Fresh corn on the cob
Desert: angel food cubed, fresh strawberries, fat free cool whip.

I also made some appetizers with those little phyllo cups? Caramelized onions and bell pepper with balsamic and a bit of Havarti cheese and also some tomato bacon bits with parmesan. They were delicious and very light. Two of the shells are only 25 calories! And I kept the fillings light.

Everyone had plenty to eat and of course talk turned to weight. My SIL told me she was going to do lap band and I asked why. She said its just too hard. I said really? Because this whole dinner was 600 calories!!!
She didn't believe me so I showed her my tracker.

Even looking at it in black and white, she doubted that and I could tell she thought she couldn't do it. We have dieted through the years together. She has seen me in the last 3 years lose 70 pounds and gain back 20 but I have not quit and I won't quit.

Some people want the magic. There isn't any and they dont want to know that. It is hard and they don't want to know either.

I am no different than her. I am no stronger than her. I am no more special than her. But I decided to fight and I still do, most days. Sure there are days or weeks or months that I do not want to eat right or move my body, but it is part of me now. Even when I fail, I am not a failure because I wont quit.

You don't need lap band. You need to not give up. There is the magic.

  
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MAIA2011 5/19/2013 10:05AM

    You are the Queen of Awesome! I have lost 50 from my high and I want to lose 60 more and hell if I am going to do surgery.

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LZY0108 5/17/2013 2:15PM

    First off that meal sounds amazing!!!! Also, I can relate a bit to what you are saying. Whenever I say anything about my weightloss certain friends ask me what I'm doing. When I tell them about tracking, eating my fruits and veggies, and working out I see a kind of glazed over look go over there eyes. I want to tell them Im sorry its not magical, its work. It's hard, but, once you start and keep it up it becomes just another part of your life...
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CAALAN23 5/17/2013 1:39PM

    There is a lot of inspiration in here. A lot of people want the magic way out but don't realize that the magic is finding the power inside of themselves to do it.

Not to mention, that the appetizers sound divine. I have no idea what Havarti cheese is but I bet I could eat it. LOL!

Have a great weekend!
Tina

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TEENY_BIKINI 5/17/2013 1:24PM

    You go girl!!

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LESLIES537 5/17/2013 1:24PM

    You're a fighter! One of the many things I love about you! Keep on fighting the good fight! #Winning!!! emoticon

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CANNIE50 5/17/2013 10:32AM

    And with every blog I read, my dear Jan, I love you that much more. You are a wise woman and I am so glad to know you. I am SO happy you are back in the groove, groovy girl emoticon

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HGSGUY 5/17/2013 8:58AM

    Well said! I believe with the band you have to be careful to eat enough of the right things so you get the nutrition you need! I have also heard that you can get to the point that you can pack on the pounds again. Nothing is free!

Hope you were able to open her eyes to a better way to get there, 2 pounds at a time!

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GRACEISENUF 5/16/2013 1:46PM

    Oh my your dinner sounds to die for and the appetizers sound AMAZING!


Heck ya it's hard work, no magic, no fast fixes included.




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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/16/2013 1:43PM

    I've read about gastric, The stuff they have to do to keep the weight off is WAY harder than what we do daily. LOW calories, supplements, and there's some stuff they can never eat agin. A good friend decided that after losing 150, she was going to do what she wanted and gained more than 100 back. So sad. I'd do it this way EVERY time!

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FUZZIEBEAR3 5/16/2013 12:51PM

    I hope you can be a role model to her, and show her and help her to do it without the surgery.

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BARBANNA 5/16/2013 12:27PM

    It's great you have lost weight and still eating like a queen. I have never really felt deprived since I started Spark People. Once you make the correct food choices you can eat a lot more. Sunday on Mother's Day I splurged and ate 3 yummy dinner rolls at 450 calories that took away other food that I would normally eat later. I got to experience how critical it is to stay away from foods that pushs us over the limit. I did not go over because I sacrificed. A wiser option would have been 1 roll not 3 but....

Thanks for sharing and good luck with your journey! emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHYME229 5/16/2013 12:14PM

    Congrats on 2 more pounds! Your dinner sounded yummy!

My best friend had gastric bypass a few years ago. I think she did it for the same reason - that she thought it would be too hard to lose the weight. I look at the way she has to live now - the diet restrictions, the challenges if she doesn't drink enough fluids, the complications she has had and it doesn't look easier to me. Sure she lost lots of weight quickly, but she still struggles with the emotional eating challenges that caused her to be overweight in the first place. She didn't have to work through those issues to lose weight. The struggle I am going through - the ups and downs, the good choices and the not-so-good ones - all of it is teaching me how to manage for the rest of my life without the complications she is having to manage.

I, like you, am determined not to give up!

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well, THAT was a surprise!

Monday, May 13, 2013

OMG! I lost 2 pounds OVER THE WEEKEND! Since last Thursday, I lost 2 more pounds!

How the heck did THAT happen?

Well if you read my previous blog, it was because I PLANNED. I am stunned with the loss however. I thought I would be down another pound by next Thursday but I weighed in today for the 2 week spark solution deal and I was pretty shocked.

I am hoping to build on this momentum, stay at my 1300-1500 calorie range, step up my exercise a bit and see if I can lose the 30 pounds I gained back in the last 2 years and FINALLY get below my husbands weight, which was my original goal and as of today he weighs 214. I STILL have my sites set for ONEDERLAND and beyond.

I bragged on Facebook last week that I lost 2.6 pounds and it was the first time in a long time that I lost weight. Someone asked me how I did it.

My Reply?

I DECIDED.

Is it really that simple? Pretty much.

DECIDE
PLAN
ACT
ACHIEVE

  
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THREEE 5/19/2013 2:40AM

    you know, part of the reason success breeds more success is that when we are successful losing, we RELAX, and let it happen...and stress is the biggest reason our bodies fight to protect our organs by adding layers of, pardon the expression, FAT...
I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE BACK ON THE PATH...me too emoticon

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WIO_ALISA 5/16/2013 1:18PM

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HEALTHYME229 5/16/2013 12:18PM

    What a cool way to put it! The biggest hurdle is DECIDING to do something different. I have been struggling with this issue right now. You have definitely given me something to challenge me to make better decisions.
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TRENTDREAMER 5/15/2013 9:48PM

    Congratulations!

Continued success to you.

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ILIKETOZUMBA 5/15/2013 12:47AM

    YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! I knew you could do it, but damn! Way to go!


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COLUMBINE2 5/13/2013 11:16PM

    Wow...again! Congrats & thanks for the tip: DECIDE and DO it. emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 5/13/2013 11:01PM

    You are amazing, keep up the OUTSTANDING WORK!!! emoticon

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HGSGUY 5/13/2013 10:28PM

    Great job! You decided right! Keep it up, we are all rooting for you!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 5/13/2013 8:36PM

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TERRYT55 5/13/2013 7:25PM

    Good for you, Jan. Keep up the good work!

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JITZUROE 5/13/2013 5:19PM

    GOOD FOR YOUUUUUUUU!!!
Wow, dang it, WOOHOO,
I'm so jazzed for yo.
You did it!
Bren

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GRACEISENUF 5/13/2013 4:42PM

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/13/2013 12:28PM

    emoticon That's awesome! Keep it up!

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LKEITHO 5/13/2013 12:22PM

    Great job!

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CANNIE50 5/13/2013 12:15PM

    "I decided". I love this, Jan. I am SO happy you are seeing (and hopefully feeling) progress.

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STEVIEBEE569 5/13/2013 12:10PM

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DEEDEE1102 5/13/2013 11:51AM

    I love it!
I'm going to use:
DECIDE
PLAN
ACT
ACHIEVE

Thanks for the inspiration and motivation!

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ASTRA58 5/13/2013 11:16AM

    I'm going to have to remember that. Great blog!

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SANDICANE 5/13/2013 11:14AM

    An excellent testiment to the fact that "if it is to be, it is up to me"!
Great going! Onward we go....

Sandi

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its the weekend and you know what that means!

Friday, May 10, 2013

Its a free for all, license to eat and reward myself from all my hard work last week which landed me over 2 lbs down! Yes!

NO!

Its just another day, no reason to eat like a wild animal or go over my calories because its the weekend!

So what's my plan?

Tonight, we usually go to a little Mexican place for dinner where I get my customized chicken salad (basically, lettuce, salsa, chicken) and I will count out 15 chips, yes 15! And I will eat only that many.

We will either go to the movies or come home and watch movies so there won't be any more food to deal with. If I'm home, I might have a sugar free pudding. That's an option

Tomorrow is Saturday so we will eat breakfast and lunch at home (toast and peanut butter for me and for lunch, I'm thinking tuna sandwiches on light wheat bread).

Dinner will be tritip on the grill, fresh corn on the cob and vegetarian baked beans.

Sunday is mothers day and I have no idea what is planned but I'm going to follow my path, and do my best to eat reasonably.

I am not going to undo my HARD work this week, I am going to BUILD on it.

I am back to my Thursday weigh in and I plan to be down at least another pound by next week.

I am done with the upwards trend. DONE!


I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and do your best. REALLY do your best, don't just half a$$ it!

Enjoy your weekend and be proud of yourself when it is over!

  
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CANNIE50 5/11/2013 1:18AM

    "eating like a wild animal" - how sad that I relate to this oh so well emoticon I am off on a road trip tomorrow but that is no license to "eat like an idiot" (my other over eating mode). You sound great, doll. It makes me happy to hear you so strong and self assured because I know you feel better when you feel this way. Happy, happy Mother's Day. Payton gave me the most adorable hand-made gifts, the kind that only 9 year olds can make - that boy melts my heart like "buttah" emoticon

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ILIKETOZUMBA 5/11/2013 12:07AM

    That sounds like a great plan! You can do it! :)


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DUXGRL1 5/10/2013 10:29PM

    Great plan!

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CAALAN23 5/10/2013 11:09AM

    Ooo, I like that! Not gonna half-A$$ it! LOL! Love the idea of building on success. My son's coaches uses that phrase SO much.

Go for it and Happy Mother's Day!
Tina

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JITZUROE 5/10/2013 11:00AM

    I LOVE THIS! And I needed to hear it too. Yes, I worked daaaaang hard this week with my food and trying to stay consistent with my little mat workouts. I should be excited about the weekend because of what I can make it, NOT what I can eat wildly within it.
I don't want to undo my work, I want to be like you and build on it too!
Great job on planning out your meals so far, so you can look forward to them and savor them.
I'm gonna start planning out my weekend meals now!
Happy Friday!
Bren

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TINYDANCER 5/10/2013 10:49AM

    Yay for you (and such control) I need to borrow some of that. Happy Mother's Day. emoticon

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If you wanna follow someone with incredible recipes

Thursday, May 09, 2013

Then follow this guy... He's also on Instagram at geo_fit.com

http://geo-fit.blogspot.com/?m=1

He makes incredible deserts and food with lots of protein...

  
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CANNIE50 5/10/2013 12:55AM

    Thanks, Mamagirl! Now, if only he would come and prepare them for me, and serve them to me, and then clean up after the meals. Hey, a girl can dream emoticon

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MERRYMARY42 5/9/2013 8:50PM

    I WILL CHECK IT OUT, THANKS

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1CRAZYDOG 5/9/2013 8:27PM

  Thanks!

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COLUMBINE2 5/9/2013 7:14PM

    Thanks for the tip!

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