Monday, November 21, 2011
In an attempt to measure how far I've come so far in 2011, I took a walk down memory lane through my blogs. What I was looking for was my starting WIN but what I found was more inspiration.
I can still recall the feelings I had while typing that blog. Right now, while I'm returning to running after being away due to an injury, my feelings and confidence are all over the map. I use to run 8 miles 3 times a week as my normal training. Now I'm running 4 miles and watching my times. Today I was very pleased with the first 2 miles, running at a 4.88 average mph pace including my warm up walk but by the end of my four miles, my average time had dropped. Grrr! My goal is to run at a pace of 5mph. While my speed has improved, my endurance has dropped. I think God must have realized where my head was at. Bringing me back to that blog, and I have NEVER returned to a previous blog before, was exactly what I needed to remind me that the impossible IS possible. If this week is a repeat of last week, my Wednesday run will be slower, much slower, with much more walking. Last week that really deflated me. This week, after reading my blog, I know it's just a stepping stone back to where I want to be. It doesn't define my capabilities. It simply shows me where I am TODAY. While I know the fact that I'm working on speed for the first time ever, has alot to do with my stamina, I was still grumbling to myself about what I felt was an inferior performance. Now I am looking at this with clearer vision. After all I'm starting with 4 milers, half of what I had worked my way up to as a regular run before my injury. Sometimes looking back is a GREAT way to look forward.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Today's WIN 178.8 +/- 0
CALORIES - Daily Goal: 1,200 - 1,550 Actual:2,174 624
CARBS- Daily Goal: 135 - 252 Actual:273 21
FAT- Daily Goal: 27 - 60 Actual: 62 2
PROTEIN- Daily Goal: 60 - 136 Actual:69
Calories Burned: Daily Goal: 431 Actual: 0
NOTE: Anniversary celebration dinner. Surprized DH with his favorite - lasagna, which I ate and STILL didn't post a gain!
ETA: Truth time - I knew my numbers were bad today and I really didn't want to log BUT pretending it didn't happen doesn't make it so and this is a lifetime journey, not a diet! My numbers aren't ALWAYS going to be good. The fact that everything shown above SHOULD have = a gain, but didn't shows that a lifetime jouney can allow for the occassional indulgence, esp when I have something worth celebrating. A diet, I can't continue indefinitely. A lifetime journey, I can, esp. when it allows me to enjoy and indulge on occassion, without guilt
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Through the years we have seen it all. From size 4 jeans after 3 pregnancies to nearly hitting the 200 pound mark after 5. From perky "girls" to cowabonga "mamas". From amazing flexibility to barely being able to get up from a chair. We've been there and back again more than once. Here we are, still working together, still providing for each other, still letting each other down, still amazing each other with our ability. Truth be told, you can only give me what I give you and right now, I've let you down yet again. I've allowed life, schedules, stresses, children, marriage, work and just plain laziness to sabotage our efforts. Yet still you stand by me, ready, willing and able to tackle the damage yet again. Others aren't so lucky. They blindly do the damage and end up paying the ultimate price. I owe you both a huge apology and a huge thank you. I apologize for building you up, only to let you now again, ..... and again, and again, and again. I thank you for not letting me down regardless. Writing you this letter has made me realize I can't keep treating you like this and expect you to keep bouncing back. So, my faithful friend, starting today I promise to give you what you deserve. Healthy nutrition, a good dose of sensible exercise, time to recover and most of all, peace. The peace to appreciate that while you are not perfect, neither am I, but you still stand by me and give me everything you've got and more! Together we'll run the miles, climb the hills, lift the weights, glide across the rivers and maybe even try something new once in awhile. I'll learn to appreciate all you have to offer, even if the packaging isn't quite what it use to be. You've stood faithfully by me for 50 years and if I play my cards right, hopefully we'll share - and enjoy - 50 more. So.... regardless of all our yesterdays, we'll begin a new journey together, supporting each other to the best of our abilities, starting today. Sure we'll encounter speed bumps, rough patches and road blocks along the way, but together, we'll overcome them all, because that's who we are. We're a team, through thick and thin. From this day forward, you have my word that I will do my best to remember that together we can accomplish anything. I will do my very best to give you what you need, knowing that in turn, you won't let me down if I put forth the effort. As the old saying goes, "There's no I in team." You can't do it without me and I, most certainly, can't do it without you. So, what do you say? Are you in? Who am I kidding? Look who I'm talking to! Of course you're in!
In sincere appreciation for always being there, even when I let you down,
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