Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Who knew I could still surprise myself???
If you had told me on January 3, 2011 as I struggled to run a full 60 seconds at a time, that I would run a half marathon a mere nine weeks later, I would have laughed in your face while I wet my pants! (If youíre in your late 40s or older, especially if you given birth naturally, youíll understand the reality of that statement) A month before that I would have told you you were crazy because I was THE Anti-Runner!
You see, I hated running with a passion. This wasnít just an unfounded, emotional hatred. I had plenty to back it up! It hurt my feet. It hurt my ankles. It hurt my knees. My thighs rubbed so much I ended up chafed and raw. I was knee-knocking awkward. I had two left feet. I could go on and on but you get the picture. Who in their right mind would EVER call that enjoyable? Certainly not ME! I had tried to run more than once. This was the voice of experience talking. It never took me long to see the error of my ways. . I have no idea why I would ever have attempted such a foolish measure, JUST to lose weight! Usually the raw, inner thighs, burning balls of my feet and bloody toes brought back my sanity in a flash Ö or 10 of pain!
So, after all that, why on earth did I attempt the insanity ďjust one more timeĒ. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. That was me, to a T! That being said, whatever made me think to try it just one more time is beyond me, but Iím SO glad I did!
Yes, you heard me right. Iím SO glad I did!
At some point in the past nine weeks, I went from total klutz and self inflicting masochist to Ö are you ready for this? ADDICTED!!!! I kept setting the bar higher and higher. I kept reaching my goals and setting new ones. At some point in this frenzy I had a lucid moment where I realized I had actually registered AND PAID for a half marathon! OMGosh, what was I thinking? I had only attempted double digits 3 times and none of them were pretty. My first attempt was a 10.6 mile run in which I did intervals for the first eight miles, at which time if you held a gun to my head and a pint of Ben and Jerryís in front of my nose, I could not and would not bring myself to run one more step. I could barely put one foot in front of the other, let alone try to boost my body into a run again. By the time I got home, every inch of my body ached and I was totally exhausted. The second time was more of the same. The third time wasnít quite as pitiful but it was far from pretty. In all three of those attempts I had never exceeded 11 miles and here I had gone and signed up to run 13.1!
Once that sunk in, I started wondering if I could really do it. I didnít want to be the one who caught a ride back from the local police, or worse yet, the ambulance! I didnít want to walk across the finish line after everyone else had gone home, or worse yet, as they were packing up to go home! If that happened, they'd actually SEE my pitiful effort! Last week I started thinking maybe I should have a trial run just to see how far off I was from actually completing it. I still had several weeks to train so I figured I should know where I stood now so I could develop a plan of attack that would help me reach my goal of actually crossing the finish line.
Well yesterday, after several days of deliberation, I decided to give it a shot. Much to my surprise, I didnít SUCK! In fact, I FINISHED in under 3 Ĺ hours, which was my goal.
But I did more than finish. I ran the first 7.5 miles nonstop. After a 2/10 mile walk, I went on to run 3 more miles while only breaking to walk 1-2/10 mile after each of the miles run. That brought me to the final 2 miles of which I ran 7/10 and walked 3/10 of both. All in all I had run over 11 Ĺ of the 13.1 miles! Not only did I complete the 13.1 miles, but I did it in 3.16:45. Well under my goal of 3 Ĺ hours!! Now I can confidently say, Goal met!!! I can go forward to my Half Marathon in 6 weeks with the confidence of knowing I can do it and the goal to better my time. I still canít believe it! And whatís even more remarkable is I can still walk today! Do you suppose that means Iím actually a (gasp!) runner? For real????
If all goes as planned, in 6 weeks Iíll have a medal to confirm that, yes I am, indeed, a RUNNER! FOR REAL!!
Friday, March 04, 2011
Iíve noticed something strange, odd and different about my mindset lately. Iím beginning to think like a thin person. In fact Iím even visualizing myself as a thin person. For the first time since I started my Spark journey a few years ago, Iím feeling like I can and will succeed at this ÖÖ and SOON! Funny thing is Iíve only lost a touch over 25 pounds. I began my journey at 197 pounds, so I still have over 30 pounds to go to reach my goal of 138. Iím not even at my halfway point yet but it feels like itís just around the corner. Iím looking at cute running clothes, bike tops and summer outfits and Iím picturing myself being able to wear themÖ.. NOW!
I did mention I still have over 30 pounds to lose, didnít I?
At one point in my adult life I actually weighed 124, but that was before my 4th pregnancy at 33yo and my 5th at 35. The two pregnancies left me weighing 150, and I felt fat then! A few years later I suffered a serious injury that laid me up for nearly 6 months and had me on pain killers for 4 months. That put me over the top. I hit 181 but for some reason I still didnít realize I was in trouble. It wasnít until that 181 slowly made itís way to 197 that I really started to see what I had become. Obese! I finally realized I HAD to do something and I had to do it fast.
In the first few months after joining Spark, I dropped 10 pounds. Then I coastedÖ. For over a year. Finally I realized I had to buckle down again. What had worked to begin with, wasnít cutting it anymore. So last August, I got serious again and lost again. Then I coasted again. I was taking baby steps and I was dealing with a big girl problem Ė quite literally. So again I buckled down. I made a New Yearís resolution to lose and another resolution to keep the first one. Then I got busy. Iíve declared 2011 as my year of completion and I think Iím just beginning to realize that I believe it.
Iíve set goals. Lofty goals. After only logging about 6000 fitness minutes last year, I decided to set my goal at 18000 FM for 2011. Thatís 1500 monthly and so far Iím ahead of schedule. I also took up running. That was huge for me because I have always hated running. Believe it or not, I also hated sweating. Not very conducive to success. Not only have I logged over 3400 FM so far, Iíve also logged almost 200 miles with my running plan. I started with the C25K program and could barely run the 60 second intervals to begin with. I pushed myself like my life depended on it. I am now averaging 20-24 miles weekly AND Iíve signed up for a half marathon in April!
Like I said, Iíve lost 25 pounds, 11 so far this year. Which makes me feel awesome but, thin? If you recall, I said I felt fat at 150 before. It makes no sense but I really am seeing myself as a thin person at 171.
All I can say is I think Iíve reached a turning point. Itís as if Iím saying, ďIíve come a long way and I look great NOW!Ē I LOVE hearing myself talk to ME like that! Thatís SO new for me!
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
My goals for February were as folllows:
100 miles on foot monthly - I hit 89.65 in January.
7 hours sleep nightly
64 oz water daily
stay within my calorie range 6 days a week
Get out of the 170s
As life would have it, after I set those goals, a few things happened that would force me to change a few of them. I signed up for a Half Marathon. Yes, you read that right. I am planning on running the Lake George, NY Half Marathon in April. With that decision came the realization I would have to change my approach to my running. I did a little research and found a program I could load on my iPhone. The first thing I noticed about the program was how many less miles I would be running than I had worked up to. For instance, I was running 24-26 miles weekly by the end of January. My new training program would only have me running 7 miles in the first week. That's 1 mile less than I was running in a DAY! But, being new to this whole running thing, I decided I'd trust the program and give it a shot - for the remainder of the month.
My disappointment was my weight loss dropped to almost nothing. I went from losing 10.2 in 6 weeks to losing less than 1 in two weeks. My realization was I was no longer feeling the burn. I stuck it out and gave it my best shot. I even upped the mileage a bit without overdoing it to the point that it was my old program, rather than my new one. My conclusion is I'm going back to my old program. I ran my 8 miler yesterday and it felt AMAZING! I dropped 8 minutes from 2 weeks ago. I dropped 4 minutes from my 5K time alone! I can see many things about the training program that I will incorporate into my training but I need and crave the mileage I have worked up to. Rather than 3 days of 8 miles, I will vary my mileage over the three days. On my shorter runs, I'll do more intervals and speed work. And, if all goes well, by early April, I'll be able to dig my bike out again and add in cross training on my off days.
So to recap my goals:
1500FM monthly 1555
100 miles on foot monthly - I hit 89.65 in January. Considering the running plan I started mid month, I'm shocked I came this close. 89.70 in Feb
7 hours sleep nightly with the exception of a few nights
64 oz water daily but I need to remember to track it as well
Stay within my calorie range 6 days a week
Track daily - Definitely need to work on this one
Get out of the 170s - Didn't quite make it but I'll be there soon. 171.8
My goals for March are:
Run at least one 13.1 training run
7 hours sleep nightly
64oz water daily
Stay within calorie range 6 days a week.
Exercise 6 days a week.
Incorporate healthier nutrition into my eating plan.
Keep my motivation and momentum high all month.
My goals are getting loftier as my body is getting healthier. This is my year of completion and I fully intend to cross my personal finish line. I'm only 33.2 pounds from goal and I can see the finish line.
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