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Friday, June 03, 2011

Achievement seems to be connected with action.
Successful men and women keep moving.
They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
- Conrad Hilton

I haven't seen many new acheivements lately. I've been working on my mindset and it seems the scales are still playing with my mind. i can't seem to get a grip on my actions and that is very frustrating to say the least. Mostly it is a kick in my self esteem. I mean if I can't get to my next level what is next? Back where I began? Oh I sure hope not. But then again hope won't help me reach my goals. hard work is what is needed here. determination to stay away from the foods that got me here....pure laziness isn't going to help me win this battle.

i find i'm getting lazier and lazier as the days roll on. It is from seeing the scales not move in any particular direction but up. Oh yeah I had a slight loss, but each time I step on the scales lately I see the number go up. I'm eating in my range and i'm exercising, i' ve even changed up a few things...or so I thought. Then I notice the numbers on the weekly calorie burn on my fitness page...not up enough. I was kidding myself. I was just going through the motions and not really doing the work. Well we all know that isn't going to do the trick. so I have yet again set the plan. I have my guidelines posted for WW and I will do my best to see these through. I have been playing at losing this weight and now it is time to fess up and get the action in gear.

I won't quit, I will see my acheivements bring me happiness and not this feeling of losing control. Lately that is what i'm feeling. Like i'm slipping into the old me and I hated that person. so no more. Today is my day to begin. So what it is Friday and I weigh in the morning. I will take that number with stride. After all I have to see it to move on to the next....right?


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 6/4/2011 10:51PM

    Michelle, you have MANY achievements to your credit. No, the scale might not be your friend right now...and yes, maybe you have been going through the motions without the excitement you once had...BUT you are still going, which means all this is a temporary setback. I know you will never go back to the woman you once were, because the woman you ARE knows she is too important to give up on. You can do this. heck, you are doing this. I think it's a good idea to go back, take stock of your calories going on as well as the calories you are burning. Shake some things up, try something new. You'll get there! I'm in the same boat with seeing the scale creep up each week instead of down. I'm going to take stock this weekend and decide just what it is I'm doing and why..and what I can do do differently (a lot!) It's a new week, a new day, it's early in the month...YOU CAN DO IT!!

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IUHRYTR 6/4/2011 5:21AM

    You have done the wise thing which is to re-evaluate your eating and exercise. Now it's time to focus on improving what needs to be improved, in this case exercise. You might also try changing your calorie intake to shake up the metabolism -- a few days at the high end of your range then a few days at the low end -- while adding in extra exercise. Wishing you the best of success. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 6/3/2011 10:29AM

    Stay positive, my friend.

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    You can't see any achievements?????? Your mindset, your eating only 1/2 cup ice cream instead of a half gallon. And, you can't see any achievement??? Girlfriend don't make me come and hunt you down. emoticon


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RSWIFE 6/3/2011 7:59AM

    You can do this Michelle! We are here to help!!

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Reaching our tomorrows

Thursday, June 02, 2011

“Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.” ~ Doug Firebaugh

This quote was gotten off of my WW team page. Notice it says "inch you closer". there is nothing that says we have to race to the finish line. We take it one step at a time and one pound at a time. Slow and steady they say wins the race. I guess I need to slow it down, do what i can, and let the rest be. I will strive for better each day than the day before because with each day i'm growing stronger. Just like with each exercise our muscles gain strength so is it true about our minds. Each thing we learn is making us stronger for our tomorrows.


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SLIMPAM23 6/2/2011 4:40PM

    Great quote Michelle! - thanks for sharing it. Unfortunately I'm inching in the wrong direction. Thankfully I'm only INCHING in the wrong direction also - Not running over that finish line either!! But praying for better days and trying to figure out how to fix the problems that are causing this setback!!
You are doing great and you WILL hit your mark in due time. Just keep moving forward at any speed....and you will eventually reach the finish line!!!

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IUHRYTR 6/2/2011 2:55PM

    Progress, no matter how slow or small, is still progress. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 6/2/2011 10:57AM

    I have a new strategy. Since the last 10 seem to be impossible to get rid of by "normal" weight loss standards, I decided to ease up. I don't mean ease up and start pigging out, but ease up and let my mind get off this rollercoaster.

Took the advise of a SparkFriend and am resetting my SparkGoals on a monthly basis, aiming for a loss of one pound per month. This gives me a much higher calorie range, something I can really live with.

I started this in May and was down one pound in May. Now I'm going for another pound in June. We're so close, we can afford to go really slow. I figure instead of going up and down and up and down the same 5 lbs over the next 10 months and getting frustrated in the process and spinning my wheels, I'd rather enjoy life, eat more every day and drop slowly.

Will it work? Well, as everything before, it's an experiment, a work in progress.
Have an awesome day!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 6/2/2011 10:00AM

    Michelle this is soooo true. I am learning to lean back and enjoy each moment of the journey because there is something that I have to learn and I dont want to miss it. Have a lovely day my friend and thanks for checkin in on me!!!

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Beginning is up to me!!!

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, Begin it.
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it, Begin it now.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I set my plan and then I begin. And begin, and begin again. You get the picture. I seem to always be beginning this journey. I guess you could say i'm a much better beginner than a finisher. I have told myself a million times this time is going to be the one to bring me to the finish line. The thing is the line keeps moving. I get close and then it is pulled back. Or I think it is anyways. I can see it through the mist but it just is always out of reach. My days begin in earnest and end up in dispair. I write, I blog, I journal, I count, I weigh, I set the plan. Yet at the end of the day i'm still a step away from reaching any of the goals I set for my day.

Tired? Hungry? Bored? Sad? These are all feelings i'm well aware of. I get home from work and without a plan I eat till bed. I'm tired and I eat instead of heading to bed. I'm bored on the weekends so I eat to fill it. Why not head out for a walk? I'm tired and that would take too much energy. Sad? Oh I have been battling depression for years now, I'm on meds which i've checked...don't harbor my weight. In fact I was doing great on them. So why now? Why the struggle to reach this end of the journey and move forward? Boredom with the plan? If so whos fault is that? What can I do to make this the best time of my life instead of seeming like so so much work?

These questions are all about my journey right now. I 'm the one with the answers, i'm the one that holds the key to my own success. I have to begin but I have to see it through till the end. This journey is full of stops and starts. It is when I decide to just stop the trouble will begin. For now it is a time of discovery. Some things I like about myself and others i'm not so sure of. On the outside looking in is where I feel like i'm at right now, but could I really be inside looking out and missing something else? Life is full of questions. I just have to keep searching for my answers...after all mine are not yours, my troubles aren't yours, and I need a hand to hold during this journey, not one to hold me up one to help pull myself up with. I can stand on my own two legs for this, every now and again I just need someone to walk along with me.

So, today I head out on my journey with many hands to hold. Spark has given me that. I have a great friend to walk this journey with and she is feeling just about like me right now and that means i'm not alone. with spark we can never be alone. Makes the journey so much more worth while to have someone to share it with. People who understand and can lend support when needed, push you when they see your sliding, or give you a pat for a job well done. I'm so thankful that while I learn all about me I have somewhere to come and let it go and people will understand without wondering why I can't just be happy like I am.


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JUSTCHELLE75 6/1/2011 10:44AM

    You are never alone and the great thing is that you do have the answers so now you just have to figure it out. It's in you.

Depression is tough. I know. My mom is Bi-polar and it is just something that can take your breathe away at time.

But you CAN do this and you are worth it

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A new month begins

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Whatever you do, you need courage.
Whatever course you decide upon,
there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong.
There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

A new month for me means new goals to set, new plans, new energy. This is no different. I'm ready today to take on the next steps in my journey. I have been playing around with the last five pounds forever it seems and I do believe it is time to get this party started. No matter what anyone says i'm not at goal yet. I can't let the ones telling me I don't need to lose anymore deter me. I have heard it all, I almost think I may be believing it. I have to STOP, I need to go with my gut, with my doctor, and with my own peace of mind. I have a friend that we started this journey with some almost three years ago. She quit, came back, and quit again. She is not on spark right now but trying to do right. She told me yesterday for the first time how much she hated the way she looked and felt. That was the first time she has ever said that to me. I always just thought she was ok with herself and who am I to judge, push, or prod anyone. I have my own struggles i'm working to overcome, mindless eating is a big one, and feelings. So I guess when we see things from the outside looking in we don't always see the same things as they see looking out.

I have reset my own goals for the month of June. I know now i'm not alone outside of spark. We are all going through things. Life isn't easy for any of us right now. I need to work on my feelings of never measureing up. People don't understand this but for me no matter how hard I work I never seem to come out on top. Others do and I have to watch from the sidelines. I will think today i'm on top of the world and WHAM I get knocked back and made to take another look at myself. I think I know the lord does this so I don't get on my high horse and I know that envy is a bad green monster.....i'm working on being happy with me but it is tough. I have always been the black sheep in my family. I never seemed to do what others felt I should and for that I will always be on the sidelines. Is this a abad place to be? Depends I guess. Sometimes I see that i'm not like the rest and that is a good way to be, but other times it does get lonely. Always looking in and never feeling a part of anything. So these feelings i'm working on each day. I am strong, I am set in my ways yes, but not in such a way that I can't bend. But sometimes I don't want to be the only one that bends.

So new month, new goals, and new stratagies. I will do this. I will continue to work on making me the best I can be. Not what others think I should be. After all I have to be happy with me at night when I lay down my head to sleep.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 6/1/2011 12:16AM

    You can do this my friend!! We are in this together and I will be here for you every step of the way!! You do what is right and best for you and don't worry about the rest. It's time that you take care of you without the guilt!!

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IUHRYTR 5/31/2011 7:34PM

    Every month I reset my weight loss to be what I hope to be at the end of the month. That resets my calorie and other ranges. Seems to help keep me on track. -- Lou

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LIONESS627 5/31/2011 3:18PM

    Good for you for adjusting your goals and trying to refocus. emoticon

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JUSTCHELLE75 5/31/2011 2:38PM

    You will and you can and new goals are always a good thing

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/31/2011 2:07PM

    emoticon Onward and downwards!!! emoticon

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Hey they moved!!!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

emoticonWell it finally happened. The scales moved in the right direction. Almost a pound. My goal was one pound but I will count this as a success. 0.6 is close. Now to move forward to the next level. I'm taking this one pound at a time and this loss will push me forward this week. I actually got on twice. Not to be greedy but with gains the last few weeks and no movement for some time before that I just had to check. lol.

So onwards and downwards!!!

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CLOWN54 5/30/2011 12:38AM

    love it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KARENE10 5/29/2011 8:23AM

    Congrats on the loss! I have been losing only POINT this and POINT that for weeks,but it really does add up! As long as we are going in the right direction:) emoticon

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KROLES55 5/29/2011 6:44AM

    Congratulations that the scale is moving downward. I've been tempted to buy a new one. Mine has just been stuck and not moving at all.

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ELSCO55 5/28/2011 10:09PM

    Congrats. Can I borrow your scale. Mine seems to be stuck in the wrong direction. Hope your journey continues positively. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 5/28/2011 12:16PM

    Yes, a loss is a loss. emoticon Many times after such a loss, the next week for me shows more than a pound, sometimes more than two so hang in there and keep up a good effort. -- Lou

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SWEETNSKINNY 5/28/2011 11:46AM

    Fantastic job on the loss!!!! So excited for you! Keep it up.

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KENDRACARROLL 5/28/2011 10:07AM

    Awesome! Congratulations!
Wishing you a great weekend and another super week!

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CAKAROO 5/28/2011 9:48AM

    Congrats on the loss!! Hope you have mnay more to reach you goal!

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 5/28/2011 9:07AM

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I am so proud of you!!!!

Much Love,

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/28/2011 8:53AM

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STILLWATERS811 5/28/2011 7:48AM

  How grand that you celebrate small steps! I am just learning the importance of doing the very same.

Thanks for the reminder that every single improvement counts.


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1HELPLESSMOM 5/28/2011 7:24AM

    Great Job! Take successes anyway you can get them. I will be surprised how much this can be a motivator. Keep up the great work and enjoy your weekend. emoticon emoticon

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