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Getting back to me

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

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Daily Inspiration - Daily Quote ... Jonathan Lockwood Huie

May 11, 2011

Insights for living with joy and purpose

Dear Michelle

Every wall is a door.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Life may not be the party we hoped for
but while we are here we might as well dance.
- Anonymous

You must do the things you think you cannot do.
Ok, wedding is over and now it is time to get back to me. I had a bit of a sidestep but i'm back at it. I love how I feel when i'm on target. when i'm off my body just feels horrible. there is something to be said for eating right and exercising. I'm still trying to catch up with my sleep but so far that is falling short. I kept my grandson last night and he seems to have this problem with falling asleep at a reasonable hour. I think I was asleep before him. he is happy to watch spongebob but "nene" is not. Lol.

All is going well and eventhough a wall was in my way for a few days the door is opened wide to me now and i'm back to taking care of me. The wedding was beautiful but if asked if I would want to do that again the answer would be no. My nerves can't take the pressure. some just seem to go with the flow, I sink.

Have a blessed day all and let today be your new, fresh day also.

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JUNEBUG1944 5/11/2011 6:56PM

    Yup, time to get serious again...weddings are great, but it's always good to have them over and done with! You go, girl!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/11/2011 5:14PM

    Enjoy your new start Michelle, you can do it!!!!

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KENDRACARROLL 5/11/2011 10:55AM

    Here's to a new day. Make it a good one.

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IUHRYTR 5/11/2011 9:47AM

    Always remember that what happens in other areas of our lives should not be allowed to affect our weight loss. Keep plugging along. -- Lou

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    I love the last line "have a blessed day all and let today be your new, fresh day also"...I needed that. Thank you,

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Thank you spark friends

Saturday, May 07, 2011

I don't have to tell ya how nice or what a warm feeling you get when you open your email, log in to spark, and find so many well wishers, so many pick me ups, so many hugs. Thank you spark for giving me a hug when I needed it. You see my daughter gets married TODAY. I have been off kilter all week with company, running so many last minute errands, and just not eating on plan. Today I opened my spark page to put in the much needed info and get caught up and there was so many hugs, notes, and pushes. How can we go wrong with a site like this.

I have come to realize I need a push every now and again. I can't do this alone. I have come to see so many areas I thought were in control aren't. so I will get through today and move forward. I can't only go ahead from here and work my plan, work on me, and get myself back on track. A friend told me to relax and worry about this all monday. She may be right. In the back of my mind right now i'm always thinking about my "diet". This was suppose to be a lifestyle change. Somewhere along the way I got that confused. I need to focus on me again, and fixing what is off kilter. a work in progress is what this is all about.

so today as my beautiful daughter walks into the arms of a wonderful man i will take a deep breath and let it be. Life is too short to live with any regrets. In the end all this worry and stress and gains and off kilter feelings were worth it for her day.


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SLIMPAM23 5/9/2011 9:36PM

    I'm willing to bet money that you are already back on track with your eye securely on your target weight!! Congrats...I know you all had a wonderful weekend!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/8/2011 11:17PM

    I was thinking about you yesterday as I was getting ready for my neice's wedding! I know your daughter's wedding was beautiful! We can't change the past, we can't control everything that happens in our lives, but we can control how we respond to it, and what we choose to learn from it. The wedding is behind you now, you can get back to a "normal" schedule and will find that you feel better again. Enjoy each moment, even the ones that set us "off kilter" and look forward to making each day the best it can be.

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IUHRYTR 5/8/2011 10:22PM

    And life is too short to allow one area to overshadow all other areas. Keep the weight loss separate from everything else -- stress, work, etc. -- and you will continue to make positive progress toward your ultimate goal. -- Lou

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JUNEBUG1944 5/7/2011 7:50PM

    I'm sure the wedding was wonderful and now you can concentrate on Michelle! No more guilt trips, my friend!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/7/2011 4:21PM

    Congrats on making it to the wedding day!!!! I am sure smiles will be everywhere and I have a smile on my face towards you!!!!! You are so on point! XOXOXO

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MONIKA1948 5/7/2011 12:08PM

    Congratulations on your daughters wedding. I hope the day will extra special for you all. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 5/7/2011 10:12AM

    I don't think things are really ever under control unless we keep working on them. True, we can gain control, and keeping control over time does get easier, but the minute we let up I'm thinking the level of control automatically drops.

Enjoy your daughter's special day. It's your special day too; you're the mother of the bride. What are you wearing? Pictures?

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CAKAROO 5/7/2011 10:09AM

    Congrats to your daughter - may GOD bless you all

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JILLIANW77 5/7/2011 10:07AM

    Congrat's on your daughters wedding! I'm sure it will be beautiful! And of course don't worry about food at all today, just enjoy every moment of such a special and wonderful day! emoticon

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MRSSCHENCK 5/7/2011 8:22AM

    Michelle, your friend is right. Don't worry about anything else today but your daughter and her happiness.

Enjoy the day. Start anew on Monday. We'll all still be here! emoticon

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I've fallen and hit my face!!!!

Thursday, May 05, 2011

emoticonI have fallen down the last couple of days and my face is flat on the floor. I can't seem to get back up and I feel like emoticon emoticonYou ever feel like that? I mean I was so on track. I had a loss, my mojo was back and I was moving along wonderfully. Then it happened, company, wedding finishes, stress, boredom ( how I could be bored with so much going on I know), the foods in the house that normally aren't there. I have eaten my way to miserable status. I went to bed last night feeling horrible, woke up feeling worse. Not so much yucky as worse about my failure to put me first. I have seemed to be grabbing anything to fill the moment. No planning, no thought, and no effort. If it is there i'm eating it. My arch enemy chips are back in the house. My sister, bless her, felt the need to bring three bags in. Oh the doritos, the cheese puffs, the plain chips. I've had them all. I had a cookies, pizza, hamburgers, chicken patties on buns, french fries, and Like the person that orders the big mac meal and the diet coke i've had a salad to even it all out. I mean like that is going to help here. Nope the damage is done.

I have two days before weigh in. can I do it? Oh I don't see how. But I can work on me again. I can put me first. I can make better choices. I must for my sanity. The guilt is more than I can stand. It leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth. why is it we can lose ourselves in a moment and all the hard work we have done just washes away like nothing? I have put all my priorities to the back burner. I mean ENOUGH, I can't go on like this. I need control, order, I need veggies, water, healthy choices. It is up to me to make those choices. So this is my day to be strong for me. I want to go to bed tonight with a feeling of control over my day and my choices. NO is such a easy word and I need to use it. I have choices and I need to voice them. the old Michelle is here and letting others make her decisions and taking the easy way out. Not today.


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ROCKPORT9 5/7/2011 1:19PM

    You will get back on track after the wedding and you can cleanse your home and your body. I just finished a few months of planning and two days of a line dance party and cookies were everywhere. The first day - I ate the cookies. The second day - I brought fruit and I ate the fruit AND the cookies. Now after this big event, I am working on my daughter' s wedding in two weeks. I will do what I can when I can but I know this is an unusual time. You will do great! You have come so far! emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/6/2011 11:03PM

    You will get back on can do it! With so much going on it's hard, I know, but hang in there it will get better!

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IUHRYTR 5/6/2011 7:30PM

    Food will be around us all the time. It is our decision whether or not to eat it. Hope you get back on track. -- Lou

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JUNEBUG1944 5/6/2011 2:23PM

    Right now, your priority is the wedding! When that is over, your priority will be back with Michelle! Give yourself a break! You've done great and will be back to doing great...cut yourself some slack!

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SLIMPAM23 5/5/2011 11:46AM

    Hang in there Michelle--
This too, shall pass. You are not alone - Mo's graduation is over and I am still struggling. But why don't you try to take it easy on yourself until Monday. Then no excuses....though I'm not going to lie. I gave myself permission to "go off plan" and now I am fighting to get back on.
But we can do this...I know we can!!

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KENDRACARROLL 5/5/2011 10:53AM

    "Sometimes it's important to work for that pot of gold. But other times it's essential to take time off and to make sure that your most important decision in the day simply consists of choosing which color to slide down on the rainbow." ~Douglas Pagels

emoticon my friend.
Don't let guilt and stress steal this special time with your family.

Like you said, today is a new day and a new opportunity to start fresh.
Step away from the chips!!!

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MONIKA1948 5/5/2011 10:41AM

    Just regroup and get right back on track. We all have set backs and learn from our mistakes. emoticon emoticon

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SUNSHINE0008 5/5/2011 8:01AM

    Hang in there. I fell off for two months, and have just found my way back. That's the important thing - that we find our way back to take care of ourselves. Good for you for figuring that out so quickly! Keep the momentum and give yourself credit for picking your rebellion-self up off the floor (not an easy thing to do). emoticon

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CRROCKERGIRL 5/5/2011 7:53AM

    Good luck with getting back on track! It's something I need to do right now, as well. You have the right attitude- you can do it!

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12: The struggles to overcome with company

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

emoticonAs many may know my daughter is getting married this saturday. I have family here now and more coming tomorrow and the next day. Oh the struggle to stay on track when the eating is tossed out the window. I"m getting most of my exercise, I say most because it is hard to work out when what I really want is to visit with my sister whom I don't see but every few years or more, but somehow I've been doing about 30 minutes daily. Eating is something else. There is chips in the house, for me that is a no-no because I do love to eat them. But I got some for me and so far i'm holding my own. My weight will probably not see much change this week but i'm ok with that. My main goal is to hold my own and then next week I will be back at it. Once all this worry is over with I just hope to relax and let my journey take it's course.

It is funny how easy it is to live on plan while following daily routines, but let company come, or go off the beaten path and we are thrown for a loop. Here I thought I had this under control. For the most part I do. I make good choices from the ones i'm given and so far my WW pointPlus haven't suffered too much. Thank goodness for the free points each week. Water is essential for me and i'm getting that. I just need to plan more and visit more eat less. Yeah ok, we all know visiting and eating go hand in hand. But i'm not upset with myself. Quite the contrary i'm proud of the choices i'm making. I could of thrown up my hands and said "i'll get back to this next week", but I didn't. I have my journal, bootcamp, and home gym. I have all the tools, now I just need to keep using them.


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KENDRACARROLL 5/3/2011 10:37AM

    Visit with your sister while taking a walk :)
But mostly, enjoy your company, making memories is one thing that's good about life.
Use what you've learned about healthy eating and don't stress too much.
This is a time to enjoy life.

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MADAMES 5/3/2011 8:35AM

    I know that I struggle to stay OP when I am with friends or family. It sounds as if you are doing a great job! Best wishes for a beautiful wedding.

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    I do much better when I'm in a routine too. You're going to come through this successful! Best wishes to your daughter!

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9: Getting the best compliment of all

Sunday, May 01, 2011

emoticonOne of the ladies that works at walmart stopped me today on my way out to let me know she had been meaning to speak with me. She has seen me walking everyday and wanted to let me know how good I looked. Not just looked good but how toned and healthy I was looking. I told her thank you and that that that was where I wanted to be...toned and healthy not just thin. I may have hit my mark guys. She said some lose the weight but I looked so trim and fit that she was amazed and had been meaning to let me know. I smiled all the way out the door.

I have stayed pretty much the same all month or for two months I should say. I was beginning to worry that I was done. But that nice lady let me know I was doing what I could for me and it was working. My goal was never to be "skinny" it was to be healthy. I have been trying to reach a healthy BMI and I"m a sliver away from that. My goal is based on that. I had a girl yesterday tell me she wanted to be like she was in school. She is the mother of two children. Those days may be gone but the new her is waiting to come forth. We sometimes have to give up on the idea of being "the old us" and try for a new one. I mean lets face it guys the us we are today isn't working for us but we can be anything we want to be as of right now.

I have had nine great days and i'm on day 10. I have a daughter getting married this next saturday, an ex I have to have to my house for a rehearsal dinner, family visiting, and the stress goes on and on. Am I giving up on me for this week? NEVER. They all know i'm on weight watchers, heck they can see i'm on it by the weight i've lost, and i'm just going to have to be strong for me this week. I will take time to relax and just be.


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    What a nice compliment! You are so right...why would we want to be the OLD US when we can move on to better things??!! You are doing great! Just breathe, relax, it will all get done, you'll get through the awkward parts and you will enjoy this wedding!!

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KENDRACARROLL 5/1/2011 11:35AM

    You're doing awesome!
I think hanging on to old visions of ourselves is the downfall of many.
Gotta work with what we have and boy, it sure ain't a high school body any more...
Hey, let's just blame it on the kids - why not?!?
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Congratulations on going strong for 10 days! You're doing marvelous.

I actually work very well under stress, it's the times when things are slow and I get bored that are the hardest for me to stick to my plan.

Keep up the good work!!!

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CAKAROO 5/1/2011 9:00AM

    Good job!

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    Michelle, you're doing great and your attitude is just right! We shouldn't try to be the girls we were years ago but strive to be healthy, strong women today!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/1/2011 6:34AM

    YES YES YES!!! We cannot be what we were before because it is over. It's a new day and people have to strive to be the best they can at this point in life. I love the confidence that is coming across the page!! DO IT GIRL! emoticon

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