Wednesday, April 27, 2011
I normally walk during part of my lunch hour. Most sit and chat, I sit and eat and then get up with my water bottle and hit the road. Litterally. I walk for as long as I can. Sometimes it is 30 minutes and I have had quick walk of less then 20 minutes but I do this daily. It is both good for me and very relaxing. I always get stopped either on my way out or in from work and questions begin.....how far do you walk? do you do this everyday? I see you walking out there and man I really need to start.....how much weight have you lost? are you almost done? I patiently answer each question but my answers are always the same and most of the time they just say things like "Im not dertermind like you", " i don't like to walk alone", "I need someone to push me", and my favorite " what do you mean your not done? Your so skinny you don't need to exercise".
Ok, first off people you have to exercise and eat right to get it off but you have to also exercise and eat right to keep it off. Yup i'm skinny because i keep doing what i'm doing. There again, i've said this a million times, is no "magic pill", sorry it doesn't exist. what you see now took two years in the works. This was no overnight success story and still isn't. I have struggles, I don't always like to walk alone either, I don't always want to count each calorie or point as i'm used to that enters my mouth but I have and I do. I have one person telling me because of this plateau i'm on to just quit until after my daughters wedding and then worry about "dieting" again. I mean what is that about. You can't just quit a healthy lifestyle. Why can't anyone who is not on the journey not understand this isn't about dieting, it is about living. i want to live everyday not just one day.
So I continue on this journey alone except when I come to spark, Here I have friends that understand, people who know where i'm coming from, and people who push me to keep going not tell me to stop. I have never heard anyone here say " oh just quit for a while and come back when the stress is over". Really and when would be a good time to come back? When i'm back where I began, or better yet...over where I started. sounds kinda funny when you put it like that now doesn't it people? Nope I just continue on this journey the way i'm going. Living my life like i'm already there.
Monday, April 25, 2011
If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up.
Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
- Michael Jordan
I survived Easter. Oh I planned for that coconut cake I ate, I planned for the meal...which I may add was healthy because I prepared it. I planned for the whole day. It turned out wonderful. I had my cake and ate it too and woke up feeling like I had concured the world. Today is day 4 and I so hope I can report that it went according to plan also. I have a lot of left overs to eat my way through but lucky for me they are again healthy, and the coconut cake is sitting in the bottom of the trash can. I tossed that this morning. If it isn't there it isn't tempting me and calling out to me. I planned for the slice, not that whole thing.
I'm starting to see I need to work on me. I need to relax, take this one day at a time, see how far i've come and stop worrying about how far I have yet to go. These last five pounds have decided to stay for a while and even though I want them gone in another sense i'm seeing that I can do maintenance and that is ok also. I have to see my cup as half full and not empty. I have fallen into that "I need more all the time" thinking and I really don't like that in me much. So with Easter comes new beginnings and that for me is essential to keeping my head about me. I have a journey to complete. Not that it will be over, oh no, the next will just be beginning. Life is full of new beginnings it is how we handle each one the sets us apart.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
" Each journey begins but with a single step"
I have begun my journey to a new way of life. Well really I began this journey two years ago, I have gotten side tracked and fallen many times. I have straightened myself out and picked myself up many times also. This journey is all about changes, makeing better choices and just learning all about us. I would love to come here and tell ya I got it beat but to be honest i'm not there yet. This isn't about just losing weight. Shoot really anyone can do that...but can they keep it off? Now that is the question I want to be the one to answer 5, 10, or even 1 year from now. So besides losing the weight i'm trying to find out where my troubles lie, where my old habits would of taken me and where I still have to travel.
You see I have gotten so close to goal and then POOF it is gone. Like this week...I lost a good bit last week, this week I just ate and ate my way through it. It was like i couldn't get enough. Well today i'm up 3lbs by the scales....Did I eat three pounds of food no, but I am bloated, one of my rings in there for a bit because my fingers are swollen. So what have I learned from this week in foodville? I might not have made the wisest choices. After I got off the scales I had to just shake my head. Not at the number but at me. I did this to me. I have self sabataged myself so many times. Why? That is the question of the hour. So I decided yesterday I didn't like me much right now, my choices were doing nothing but hurting me and I needed better than that for myself. So i'm proud of me today. I began with a single step but I am now focused on my goals for today.
Giving in is not an option. There is a fear here and i'm going to figure out what that fear is.
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