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Day 2: Fresh beginning underway

Saturday, April 23, 2011

" Each journey begins but with a single step"

I have begun my journey to a new way of life. Well really I began this journey two years ago, I have gotten side tracked and fallen many times. I have straightened myself out and picked myself up many times also. This journey is all about changes, makeing better choices and just learning all about us. I would love to come here and tell ya I got it beat but to be honest i'm not there yet. This isn't about just losing weight. Shoot really anyone can do that...but can they keep it off? Now that is the question I want to be the one to answer 5, 10, or even 1 year from now. So besides losing the weight i'm trying to find out where my troubles lie, where my old habits would of taken me and where I still have to travel.

You see I have gotten so close to goal and then POOF it is gone. Like this week...I lost a good bit last week, this week I just ate and ate my way through it. It was like i couldn't get enough. Well today i'm up 3lbs by the scales....Did I eat three pounds of food no, but I am bloated, one of my rings in there for a bit because my fingers are swollen. So what have I learned from this week in foodville? I might not have made the wisest choices. After I got off the scales I had to just shake my head. Not at the number but at me. I did this to me. I have self sabataged myself so many times. Why? That is the question of the hour. So I decided yesterday I didn't like me much right now, my choices were doing nothing but hurting me and I needed better than that for myself. So i'm proud of me today. I began with a single step but I am now focused on my goals for today.

Giving in is not an option. There is a fear here and i'm going to figure out what that fear is.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/23/2011 1:58PM

    You are not alone! You learned a lot in foodville!

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KENDRACARROLL 4/23/2011 12:43PM

    I'm proud of you today, too :) Keep up the good fight!

emoticon will beat emoticon today!

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 4/23/2011 11:15AM

    I like you everyday Michelle. As I have told you, I did the very same thing for years, I would get within 2 pounds of my goal only to sabotage myself. I think with me, I felt I was not worthy to hit goal, but you know what Michelle, I was more than worthy and so are you. Hang in there my Sweet Friend.


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NANA717 4/23/2011 8:56AM

    Great blog. If you get it figured out, share with all and you'll become a millionaire! :)

I'm enjoying your writing. I'm going to be following you, cheering you on, and hopefully we'll both have much success!!


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SAFARIBABE 4/23/2011 8:28AM

    I know part of the reason that I self sabotage is that change is scary. I know how life is the way I am now. To change is hard and I don't know how it is to live as a runner (I'm currently training for my first 5K) or how to live healthier (I'm 44 and have been eating unhealthily for many of those years). This time tho I'm looking at the changes as an adventure. Like traveling to a new place I've never been to before. I love to travel. So hopefully this mindset will work.

Good Luck to you!

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MARKDORENE 4/23/2011 7:04AM

    good luck

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Day 1...Fresh beginning

Friday, April 22, 2011

emoticonFinish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could...

- Ralph Waldo Emerson, writer

I have not finished this week off as I would like. So this morning I took it upon mysel to begin fresh. I have been so hungry this week I feel like i've gained 10 pounds. Though I know I have probably gained a bit or stayed the same. It doesn't stop the hating that goes on in my head. Oh I have beat myself up all week. But not today.Today I begin anew. That is what is wonderful about this journey we can begin anew any time we choose. So i'm choosing today. Today I have choices to make, cravings to concur, moments to outlast. Oh I know it can be done, I mean I've done it before. But for some reason the old habits come back to haunt me with a vengance.

So today I have a fresh new beginning. I will see success. I will have continued OP days. (OP is on point with WW) I will see my "magic number" on those pesky scales and I will learn to see the wonderful things I do for my body everyday that I continue on this journey. Whether it is at goal or still in the process each day I'm on the journey is a blessing to me and my body.

Michelle. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 4/22/2011 11:25AM

    I might come across as a loon... but here it goes:
Every time you're in danger of putting stuff in your mouth you didn't intend to and the snack monster is lurking yell at yourself "Suck it up!"

I've actually tried this and it works, but only if I yell it out loud (just thinking it in my head won't do the trick). Probably only a good idea when you're home alone :)

It brings me awareness as to how ludicrous my current want really is. How self-absorbed and how utterly childish.

I'm pretty sure you're not one of the ones on here who gets easily offended, so I feel safe leaving this post with you. If conventional wisdom worked, we'd be there already...

Have a successful day.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/22/2011 11:13AM

    You can do it Michelle!! Hang in there, girl, we are going to do this!!!!

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CAKAROO 4/22/2011 10:00AM

    good luck with your new start

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CHINAGAL 4/22/2011 9:54AM

    Me too! Gotta love fresh starts and SP!

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JAMARIGOLD 4/22/2011 9:04AM

    emoticon A new start is a great gift we give ourselves. It's amazing to me how rejuvenating a deep breath and a "begin again" can be.

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SMFISHER99 4/22/2011 7:28AM

    I love the quote. I have often used this philosophy with family and the teenagers I work with as it is so true. Good luck in your journey!!!


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    YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Wishing you the best today, Michelle!

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Finally a loss

Saturday, April 16, 2011

OH YES. I finally had a loss after 10 weeks at a standstill. 2.4 lbs lost this week. I didn't give up. No matter what those darn scales said I just kept going and it finally paid off. I was about to give in but nope I held strong. WOW. It feels so good to be me today. Now to move forward and not backwards. This is where I normally put it back on. I guess I just feel like i'm not worthy. But by george I am. I will see a bit of change this coming week. I have determination and if this last longggggggggggg plateau has taught me anything it is to not give up on me.


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NANA717 4/23/2011 8:58AM

    AMEN!! NEVER give up!! I'm in my 60's and still believe that I can reach my ideal weight! :)

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SLIMPAM23 4/18/2011 1:32PM

    Awesome news Michelle....Keep it up and you'll be at goal...sitting pretty at the wedding!!

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IUHRYTR 4/17/2011 11:34PM

    That's why it's important to persevere. We never know when the results of our efforts will appear. Good going! -- Lou

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/17/2011 5:56PM

    Woohoo!!! Way to go!!!! Jumping up and down for you!!!!!!!!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/16/2011 12:32PM

    You are right you are SOOOOOOO WORTHY!!! WTG!

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SLEEPTALKS 4/16/2011 10:49AM

  That's absolutely brilliant news! Have a great weekend!


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KENDRACARROLL 4/16/2011 10:23AM

    Wonderful news! Congratulations.

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ANNA907 4/16/2011 10:09AM

    Good going! You've really worked hard, stayed with it and deserve it! WooHoo!!! Keep it up emoticon

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JILLIANW77 4/16/2011 9:47AM

    Great Job!!! Of course you deserve this! emoticon

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FATSOO51 4/16/2011 9:17AM

    emoticon Never give up!!


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    emoticon on the great loss! You are definitely worthy! Keep it up, girl!!
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SULFABABY 4/16/2011 8:24AM

    Good job! Don't give up. You *are* worthy!

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QUOOTIE 4/16/2011 8:15AM

    way to go

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Saturday, April 09, 2011

emoticonToday I begin again. Seems I do that a lot lately. But alas my OP days came to a halt this week. I can't be disappointed because I did have a great run. I really made better choices for myself but I did go over what I consider a normal day a few times. Although I did have four great days. I had my weigh in this morning and it was down .2 which is what I gained last week. So again i'm back to square one, day one. I still see me as making progress though. I'm starting to see that I am my own worst enemy on this journey. I make choices that I could of changed but due to mostly laziness I choose wrong. So I have my weapon of choice, my notebook, and i'm ready to fight the next battle. I'm down but im not out just yet. I have goals to reach and yes this ten week plateau is frustrating to say the least but I'm ready for change. Now it may not come in ways I can see on the scales each week but change it is. I'm starting to see me for the person I am now. My husband told me the other day that I was no longer on a diet....I always make good choices and that has become a habit. Isn't that what this journey is all about.......learning new habits. I mean the old ones got us here, the new ones keep us here. So I start fresh today. I will have a great day. I will not go too far ahead as that always trips me up. But today I begin anew.......full of hope and ideas. I will see this journey one day at a time to goal. After all I have all the time in the world to get there. emoticon


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JUNEBUG1944 4/14/2011 12:17PM

    Good for you...yes, knowing what to choose is what this journey is all about. We don't always choose what we know we should and that is human nature. You've done well.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/10/2011 9:46PM

    Michelle, you are doing great - just keep going!

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TAZZ46 4/10/2011 8:54AM

  Michelle you stay focused on what your goals are and you will get there like you said just take it one day at a time and know that we are here for you anytime wishing you a blessed sunday Huggs Vickie

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IUHRYTR 4/9/2011 8:36PM

    Stay focused and positive and change will come. I do have to ask what OP stands for. Hang in there. -- Lou

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/9/2011 8:19AM

    Copy and paste this blog. I found it to be very inspiring!
Imma need you to ease up on yourself. You are not your enemy! You are doing FANTASTIC! Let me know what you think of the blog.
You are one of my favorite spark friends!


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Just relaxing on the porch

Sunday, April 03, 2011

emoticonThe sun is shining, the breeze is blowing and i'm sitting on my porch with my laptop and just enjoying this beautiful day i've been given. I also want to give myself a shout out..........I did the virtual 5k this morning on my treadmill, 50.05 minutes to do 3.1 miles but not bad for my first try. Spark put it out there and I jumped on it. Practice for the real thing in October. It took five weeks of training through a spark team for walk/run but it was awesome. I can't begin to describe the feeling of just finishing. emoticon

I'm still on plan and I even let me have a treat day. I had the calories and the points so today it was a moment. Not a bad moment a controled, planned moment. Wow maybe i'm finally learning a thing or two. who knows those darn scales may change numbers this week afterall. lol.

As I sit here on my porch the pool water is moving from the filter, wow what a beautiful sound. Can't wait till I can dive in that, but right now emoticonvery chilly. Believe me I checked. lol. Ok I must be moving on, I just wanted to share my moment with you all. I also like to get it on paper so to speak and that way I won't forget the wonderful day I'm having.


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IUHRYTR 4/6/2011 9:56PM

    Days like the one you had seem like treasures, don't they? Glad you enjoyed it. -- Lou

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/3/2011 11:07PM

    Glad you had a great day and congratulations on that virtual 5k! Way to go!!!
Wow! a CONTROLLED PLANNED treat! Who woulda guessed such a thing existed! See? you ARE learning to have that treat, plan for it as part of your day and move on NO GUILT!! Way to go Michelle!!

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JUNEBUG1944 4/3/2011 7:17PM

    Glad you are having a wonderful day. It was beautiful! I sat out in the sun and read for 45 minutes before I went to the Y and swam. Wow! That virtual 5K was great...3.1 miles in 50 minutes is wonderful, especially for your first try...way to go! You rock!

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