Saturday, April 23, 2011
" Each journey begins but with a single step"
I have begun my journey to a new way of life. Well really I began this journey two years ago, I have gotten side tracked and fallen many times. I have straightened myself out and picked myself up many times also. This journey is all about changes, makeing better choices and just learning all about us. I would love to come here and tell ya I got it beat but to be honest i'm not there yet. This isn't about just losing weight. Shoot really anyone can do that...but can they keep it off? Now that is the question I want to be the one to answer 5, 10, or even 1 year from now. So besides losing the weight i'm trying to find out where my troubles lie, where my old habits would of taken me and where I still have to travel.
You see I have gotten so close to goal and then POOF it is gone. Like this week...I lost a good bit last week, this week I just ate and ate my way through it. It was like i couldn't get enough. Well today i'm up 3lbs by the scales....Did I eat three pounds of food no, but I am bloated, one of my rings in there for a bit because my fingers are swollen. So what have I learned from this week in foodville? I might not have made the wisest choices. After I got off the scales I had to just shake my head. Not at the number but at me. I did this to me. I have self sabataged myself so many times. Why? That is the question of the hour. So I decided yesterday I didn't like me much right now, my choices were doing nothing but hurting me and I needed better than that for myself. So i'm proud of me today. I began with a single step but I am now focused on my goals for today.
Giving in is not an option. There is a fear here and i'm going to figure out what that fear is.