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The number on the scales doesn't always tell the whole story

Saturday, April 02, 2011

Ok, today was day 7 of being OP, (on plan)seven days of doing everything i'm suppose to work the program. So I get up and get on the scales, i've kept them in the closet so I have no idea what they are going to say........ emoticonI look down and what do my eyes see?
emoticon emoticonNope, not a loss but a gain. A gain. yet again. Not much mind you 0.2 but it is there. After all my hard work, all that exercise, all that hope, my dreams where dashed in a second. Now i'm not going to lie to you I took those emoticon and I threw them back in the closet. With tears in my eyes I finished getting ready for my workout. I mean what was I going to do but keep doing what i've been doing. So after a long emoticon and a short emoticonI decided that my only option was to continue.

Nope I will not give in. I will not let this moment define my days or my weeks. Now yes it could be that this is my time of the month. But come on now, I would of much rather stayed the same then to have that gain. But i'm over it. I've moved onwards and upwards....or downwards this next weigh in I hope. I have checked on the scales and they are doing fine. No worse for the wear. You know this week was all about choices. Mine. I was and am finally making good choices and then this. So I will keep going and no give up. I'm strong, determined and it saddens me that i've taken this long to lose my weight, but it was all for a reason. I needed to learn so much along the journey. I'm learning each day. I will not hang my head over this. I will move forward with pride that I had a great seven days and I will begin number eight with a smile.

I have options....but quitting isn't one of them.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/3/2011 11:04PM

    The scale is not the know it all it thinks it is!! You had SEVEN count 'em SEVEN good days!! Way to go! I'm so very proud of you! Yes, you are determined and no, giving up is not an option. The scales don't measure health, so just think about that. Think about the gift of health that you are giving yourself each and every time you make good choices!!! Keep it up!!

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ELSCO55 4/2/2011 9:53PM

    Thanks for the reminder. I had a morning like yours and wanted to throw the scales out the window. Today begins a new day and a new week. We can do it.

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SHYLOHGIRL 4/2/2011 7:27PM

    I know I always seem to gain a little weight at first because my muscles are growing, but I notice my clothes fitting better. I rarely weigh myself and instead focus on how my clothes are fitting. For example, there is a pair of jeans in my closet I'm using as a guide. They just barely don't fit, so I try them on & see where I'm at.
I'm glad you are sticking with it, it's very easy to give up when you don't see the results you want, I know.
Keep going, you'll get there, remember it's a lifestyle change, so the journey will take some time-enjoy it! emoticon

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FITFABME2 4/2/2011 7:25PM

    You are sooo right that the scale doesn't tell the whole story. If you keep track of inches and you are exercising and eating right I am living proof that the scale may not be going down, but the inches are melting away and you can be feeling sooo much better. I had been told again and again not to be too hung up on the scale. It took a really long time to sink in, but now I get it. Especially when you are doing strength training and your muscle percentage is going up you realize that muscle weighs more but takes up a whole lot less space.

Keep up the commitment and you will see it pay off! Keep on smilin'


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5 lbs in 5 weeks challenge: Day 5

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Wow I really was counting on just four great days this week. That was my personal goal, but here I'm sitting at day five and it feels awesome. I have finally taken control of myself. I have decided that I'm not going to reach my goals by just wishing them there, if that was true I would already be there. My walking partner and I have decided to resume our Monday night "dates" and I'm so ready. This will be an added boost to my weight loss. That is of course as long as I stay away from the chip and junk. On that note.....I got my grandson some doritos to have with his popcorn chicken the other night, at first I couldn't find the small bags so I of course grab the huge bag....knowing that if they were in the house I may eat them. Well no may about it I would of. So anyways, at the checkout I see the small I have the cashier take the big bag and I take him a small bag. Now he is happy and i'm not tempted. Example number boss in all his wisdom brings in a Caramel cake and tells us to eat it or take it home. He is watching his weight and I guess he figures if we eat it he won't have to. I passed. I gave the other girls baggies and told them to take it all with them. If it isn't in my mind it won't be in my mouth.

Choices, it is really all about choices. I'm teaching my mind and body this each day. I can choose to have the "treat" but I have to account for it. Somedays it really just isn't worth the trouble of writing it down. Funny how being lazy can aid in weight loss where this is concerned. lol. I've been at a weight loss stand still now for eight weeks. The time for change is now. So when I step on those darn scales saturday morning I hope to see change. I even hid them so I won't be tempted to "sneak a peak". I want the full glory of knowing i did a wonderful job no matter what.

So my friends when the challenge on my Alabama team came up for "5lbs in 5 weeks" this was the chance I needed to see change finally. I'm working harder, eating smarter, and just being a better person to my body.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/2/2011 12:12PM

    Decisions and choices have been my word of the week. WTG my sistah!!

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IUHRYTR 3/31/2011 4:35PM

    every aspect of our lives are formed one decision at a time. Eating and our food choices are no different. Stay determined and focused and keep making good choices. -- Lou

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Success: day 2 and heading into day 3

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

We must be the change we wish to see.
- Mohandas (Mahatma) Gandhi

For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.
- Proverbs 23:7

I've finally seen success for two whole days. I even ended with points remaining for the day yesterday. Once I got my head in the game the rest was just kinks to be worked out. Not that i'm cured by any means but I have new motivation and that is an awesome feeling. So today i'm off to begin day three. My goal is four for the week.....I'm challenging me to more of course. I would love to see six.

So never give in or up for that is not what being healthy and happy is all about. It is about moving forward no matter what and changing the plan to meet your needs on occasion.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/29/2011 8:39PM

    Congratulations Michelle! You'll see those four or SIX days - I know you can do it. We can make this week work for us, not give in and just see where it takes us. We are in control and we are the boss of our actions. Great job Michelle!!

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IUHRYTR 3/29/2011 7:45PM

    Four good days a week should be a standard. Five and six are better. You'll get there and they will become a new habit taking you to levels of success you never dared dream of. -- Lou

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CHINAGAL 3/29/2011 9:18AM

    Nothing like success to get you fired up! Here's to many more successful days to come.

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REGILIEH 3/29/2011 7:34AM

    good for you!!!!

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My life preserver

Sunday, March 27, 2011

emoticonI met a great lady on one of my teams and she has generously offered to take this journey with me. Now that is awesome. Wow, I have so many friends on spark and one special friend that I share a lot about my life, this journey and such. Now I have two. Two special people from different ends of the globe coming to help me. I'm nobody really, they have never met me in person, but does that matter? Nope. They are holding out a hand to me and like a drowning person i'm grabbing it.

This journey seems so easy for some and I read blogs where others are struggling also and then I don't feel like i'm just not getting it. I tell myself I want to work the program but really I just go through the motions most of the time. A lot of it is pure habit. My motivation has waned so that I often have thought of just calling it quits and keeping my weight what it is. I mean come on now I haven't lost in eight weeks. I've gained the same two pounds since Jan. I feel like maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Then this morning a " friend" threw out that darn life preserver and I grabbed on.

I want to succeed at this. For my mental state I must. I have quit so much in my life or really not quit but never really made my mark so to speak. I have with my weight loss. Many will not see this as significant and many will see this as their bright spot in the world. I mean I really like health. I love exercise, I eat right because I like the foods, I try new things because i'm always looking for a new "favorite". So why am I not at goal. I mean i've read all there is to read more than once where spark is concerned, I check out fitness mags often for new ideas. I change up my routine in the gym regurally because they say I should. I get my fruits and veggies in, I don't do caffeine but for my coffee in the morning. (sorry can't quit it all together), I mean shouldn't I be at goal by now. Enjoying myself in maintenance land? No, do you know why? Because I do all this with no motivation on most days, I have "munchy moments", I sabotage myself because I sometimes don't think I'm worthy of reaching this goal.

I have thought about this alot, I journal a lot, and this seems to be coming up more and more. The self sabotage. So today I took the hand of a wonderful woman walking the same walk as me (WW), She knows what i'm going through, she is leading and I will follow because at this point in the game all I have to lose is pounds. I have to shed some of this feeling like i'm not worthy, or not good enough to reach goal. That is for those who are not real losers.....I"m a real LOSER. I have lost 20 lbs and i'm on my way to 25. So watch out spark i'm back and i'm ready to play.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/27/2011 10:07PM

    I'll say again how proud I am of you, Michelle. You can do this. You ARE doing this on a daily basis. You've come a long way and you will get there. You are most definitely a bright spot in my day...a friend as well as a reminder that I can do this. You will see this through to the end and you will forgive yourself for those times in the past where you feel you left things unfinished. It's time to move on. It's time to enjoy the rest of your life without living with any of the guilt. You are worthy, you are amazing and you DESERVE to be fit, healthy and happy. Hang in there!!!

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    emoticon Michelle!!

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TEXASGIDGET 3/27/2011 5:41PM

    You will succeed and you will not just be going through the motions! I know what you are feeling and am experiencing a similar self sabotage myself. I'm fighting that battle, but the thing is that I know we both can win it. Those inner demons have nothing once they are out in the open and acknowledged. Fear can't hold us unless we allow it to. Right here with you! Together we can make this happen!

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IUHRYTR 3/27/2011 5:01PM

    As many people, my weight loss has stalled but one thing that has helped is to keep this in mind -- How would you be feeling and thinking now if you had been told in the beginning that you will lose "X"pounds in such a period of time then you will stall and maintain to give your body time to adjust before it begins losing again? That perspective helps me see the big picture. That and constantly reminding myself how far I've come as you have. This is not a defeat but a lull before the next big push. Stay positive and keep the faith that you can and will do this, maybe this month, maybe next, but you will succeed. emoticon -- Lou

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Weigh in day

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Well I had my step up on the scales. Here I'm thinking " ok must be some movement", I mean I had three whole days of good eating. Seven great days of exercise, and water? Shoot that is nothing for me. So I step up and what do my eyes see???? A slight gain. I mean what is that? Ok, so I did kick them, I did have a moment of "you've got to be kidding", but nope, the second time I stepped on was the same. So after my coffee, and after a couple of Advil, no the headache wasn't caused from the sight of a gain, I just bucked up, wrote it down, put it out there on spark, and i'm moving ahead. I had three great days but I had four not so great days. No they weren't too bad but I went over my calories for the day, didn't get all my fruits and veggies in one day, maybe I did workout each day but how hard was I working? All this adds up to disappointment on the scales. Who is to blame for this? Me. No one did this to me but me.

What do I intend to do about this stagnant state of my weight loss? I intend to move forward with as much determination as I had last week. I finally was making better choices, I was putting me first in a lot of areas, does this mean that just because I saw no progress for week eight that I was a failure? Nope. I was a winner because I continued to better myself each day even when I really wanted to just quit. I mean lets be honest after so much time of no loss and the same ups and downs for weeks you really do get upset. But it isn't you. It is the way your doing what your doing. So again i've headed to the store, i've gotten a few different foods and i'm ready to take on my body. The time for change is now.

So move out of my way i'm coming through. I have determination to meet my goals this week and I intend to see them through. No more excuses and no more kicking those pesky scales. This is my week for change.


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IUHRYTR 3/26/2011 7:24PM

    Now to get those three good days up to five or six a week, every week. emoticon -- Lou

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CAKAROO 3/26/2011 9:28AM

    Don't get discouraged - hope you have a better week and will see the scale go down

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