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My addiction: a new reality

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

emoticonI had the oh my lord moment when I had my hand in a bag of chips that were new and I was going to "try" them. Yup you guessed it I can't try anything that has the word chip or cracker in it. I know this, I felt like I could handle the moment, I mean after all i'm succeeding on a day to day basis now, shoot I can handle anything that comes my way.........right? Wrong, I had the moment when my stomach just dropped and I started to cry....I had my hand in the bag and I realized what I was doing. I was going to eat my way through that bag and when it was gone I would hate myself. Clarity for the first time in a very long time. I removed my hand, closed that bag, and put it back in the cupboard. I know I should of thrown it out but I wasn't that good. My new reality is I watch all kinds of addiction shows, my son has his addictions and I have mine. Maybe ours aren't of the same realm but they have the same effects on our minds....that need for something we don't need. Or really like me want. I saw them in the store, I was hungry and I had to try them. I should of known then it was a cause to leave them there. That need.....But nope I thought I was strong. Thing is i'm not. I'm weak when i'm around crunchy, salty, crispy chips or crackers. All my goals and ideas go right out the window.

So my new reality is no chips in the house. Sorry can't have them, can't risk it, and won't do that to me. So I'm detoxing myself as of last night. I'm going to work on a new "favorite", carrots are crunchy....Hey I can add salt if I desire. lol. But really this is not a joke to me. It is a reality few understand but many here will. I want to reach goal, I've got to start focusing on that. I am learning on this journey like so many others and I finally had a breakthrough what A wonderful feeling.

Michelle.

  
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JUNEBUG1944 4/2/2011 9:44PM

    Been there, done that! We know what we have to do, but it is so hard to do it. Good for you for knowing you cannot have chips in the house...I cannot have cookies!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/27/2011 9:59PM

    I'm a bit behind on my reading here...Just wanted to say I'm proud of you. Sometimes we have to take that step back at just that right moment and see what we are really doing. There are all kinds of addictions and I think we can all be addicted for different reasons. If you know you can't have them in the house, then good for you for getting them out of there. I need to do the same..get whatever is tempting me out of the house. It's time we both reached for what we want stop denying ourselves our goals!!

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WOODY1964 3/25/2011 10:38PM

    I have an addiction to soda drinks and chips. I feel like I need to attend AA meetings. At one time if I had a craving. I would get in the car an drive 10 miles to the store. You can't eat just one unless they really taste bad. I have found like you they can not be in the house or I will eat the whole bag. I need to find a healthy substitute. Thanks for writing this blog. I will try to be stronger.

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IUHRYTR 3/23/2011 4:46PM

    Nothing wrong with an occasional treat but the question we ask ourselves is, "Which do I want more, chips (or whatever) or to lose weight?" If we're not dedicated to our weight loss, we'll give in. If we are and allow ourselves a treat once in a while, we won't feel deprived. -- Lou

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MELISSA8376 3/23/2011 2:00PM

    I like the quaker rice chips, I think they're better than chips. But I'm not a big chip person. I'm a Peanut butter person. Peanut butter cookies, peanut butter candy, peanut butter on a spoon, peanut butter ice cream, and pancakes with peanut butter & syrup. I probably could live on peanut butter. So i have captain crunch peanut butter cereal and I try to satisfy my cravings with that. And I have No sugar added ice cream with peanut butter.
You will prevail, it may take some practicing but you will prevail!!
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SLIMPAM23 3/23/2011 12:50PM

    I know how you feel Michelle....But I just have to know - since I have been trying new healthier chips....which ones did you buy this time? And you are right----NONE of them are good if you eat the whole bag. At least you are in good company on this one!!
Pam

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DARLENEK04 3/23/2011 11:41AM

  Michelle,

I am right there with you. I realized this morning I am as
addicted to food as some people are addicted to drugs and
alcohol.

Darlene

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 3/23/2011 8:46AM

    I understand. I walk that same walk. I know what my triggers are and when I "forget" and bring them back, they quickly remind me. We're getting there ... one day at a time. (You know I never really forget, right?)

Hey, you know those little bitty pickling cucumbers? They have a nice crunch and you can salt those too! I'm loving those things!!! emoticon Bring on the power food substitutes!!!

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Shortcuts

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

There are no shortcuts to any place worth going.

- Unknown

I began my day yesterday with a clean slate. I had a wonderful day. Oh I had to plan and think about it all the way but in the end I had succeeded in all areas of the process. Why do I not do this daily? It would be work. I mean lets face it sometimes it easier to not do the work. I have to tell ya though this morning i'm feeling very incontrol for the first time in a very long time. As I set here and look at my calendar of "smiley faces" i'm not seeing progress i'm seeing laziness along the way. Out of 21 days so far i've had seven good days. that is the equivalent of one week. One good week out of three does not a good month make.

I"m ready to work this program and give it my all. I'm ready to exercise and do what I need to do not just to see progress on the scales but progress in myself. I have moments that I need to work on and come up with a plan. I have been saying I was going to do that all along but I haven't yet. so i'm doing that day by day.

I'm off now to begin day two and see how that goes. I have faith I can succeed, I just need to believe in myself. That can be the hardest part sometimes.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 3/22/2011 11:09PM

    Try for five good days a week and don't go hog wild with calories the other two and you will be proud to have a positive week. If you have six or seven good days with eating and doing some exercise, those are bonuses. And if you do have an off day or two, you still have been successful. Remember, we don't need every day to be perfect just as we didn't have to score 100% to get an A in school. emoticon -- Lou

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Accountability

Monday, March 21, 2011

emoticonOOps I forgot i'm suppose to be starting fresh and having an on point day, week, month. I have been slipping lately. So today A friend and I decided this was it. A new beginning and a new mindset. I"m so blessed to have a "buddy" on this journey. I so wish we lived closer to one another to really push each other but it helps to know I can talk to her about most anything and that she understands when I have a "off" day. which I may add has been a lot of the days lately. I just can't get my mind into this. I have set a time span of my daughters wedding which is May seventh to reach my goals. but I seem to have forgotten that part. This weekend I did so bad that I didn't sleep well last night. Not from guilt from overdoing it with junk. So today my friends is a new day. I have the tools at my finger tips, I must now use them. No more playing I need to see a change on the scales this week.

Yeah I know the scales don't determine my success but after seven weeks of no change..........well you can see where that would mean a bunch and maybe get me back in the game. I seem to have lost the drive to succeed. I guess when you have do many telling you that you don't need to lose anymore, your small enough, and the one I hate " how much more do you need to lose? ". You hear this enough and then you begin to think, maybe i'm ok, maybe i'm small enough. I don't want "enough" I want the prize at the end of the rainbow. So today my spark friends I vow to work this program, I won't just earn points I will do the work that is needed. Yup this isn't easy but hey I've made it this far and I know the challenges involved.

Accountability? Yup I've got that.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 3/21/2011 9:38PM

    Don't listen to others tell you how you should be unless they are in perfect shape and health themselves and even then ignore them and aim for how YOU want you to look. -- Lou

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/21/2011 11:06AM

    You and only you know when you have arrived where you want to be. Erase all the comments from your mind, take them with a grain of salt, a shrug and a smile and keep moving.
We are in this together and we can do this. We are at different points, but definitely having similar struggles. Well I say NO MORE! No more guilt, no more worry, no more stressing about the program. We overthink we overanalyze and we get frustrated. Keep it simple, hold your head high and smile.
emoticonKristi

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What's done is done: new week

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Don't Wait! Start on your dreams, your impulses,
your longings, your special occasions today.
Because this is your moment.
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, Begin it.
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it, Begin it now.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
- Anonymous

Make today matter.

Ok, so I had my moment on the scales. I have to say I wasn't surprised. I'd be lying if I said I was. What with company, eating out (a alot), and just not getting my exercise in like I normally do it wasn't a good week to say the least. So as I stepped on those darn scales for my weekly weigh in I really wasn't expecting much. And that is what I got, I'm back up to what I was the week before last. Which in english means i've stayed the same again. This is week seven and no change really to speak of. Which is ok, that means i'm doing something right to maintain. Though that isn't what I want right now. So i'm once again beginning a new week, full of hope, plans, and ideas. Now I would love to come back here next week and share my wonderful news of losing at least a pound but that is yet to be seen. I start off great and lose my momentum by the weeks end. My weekly goal is to weigh and measure this week. I'm still following my plan with the water, fruits and veggies, exercise, writing it down, and journaling. I think I need to watch my portions and i'm giving that a go this week. You know sometimes your eyes are bigger then our stomach.

So I begin this new week, spring is in the air, i'm feeling strong and i'm motivated to get this done. I have seven weeks to reach my goal and show it off at my daughters wedding. 129 here I come.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/21/2011 12:21AM

    I'm rooting for you, Michelle! You can do this. We are going to push, pull, drag eachother to the finish line! You are close and you can do it!! You are going to beam with pride at your daughter's wedding...of course for being the thrilled mother AND for seeing your goal met. I'm here with you...
Kristi

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IUHRYTR 3/19/2011 10:11PM

    One healthy meal, one exercise, one positive day and one pound at a time. emoticon Stay as determined as you are and vow to never give up. emoticon -- Lou

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WOODY1964 3/19/2011 9:06PM

    I'm hoping your daughter will see you at 129 or lower. Wishing you a good week ahead.

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TAZZ46 3/19/2011 8:18AM

  just stopped in to say hello and wishing you a blessed saturday huggs vickie

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The plan: Six weeks to reach goal

Thursday, March 17, 2011

emoticonI can do this and I will do this. I have six weeks till my daughters wedding and i'm giving myself that to reach my goal. I have a plan and it is written and where I will see it daily. It is simple and it is a sure way to reach my goal. I just have to stick with it.

The plan:
1. Get my exercise daily
2. Drink my water
3. Get my five fruits and veggies daily
4. Write it down (log all foods eaten)
5. Limit my pointsplus to 29-32 daily (WW)
6. Journal

All of this is simple in itself, but a plan to follow is better than no plan at all. I know these are the basics but that seems to be where i'm having trouble right now is with the basics. I need to get on track and stay there till to end. So today is day one and what will be will be on the scales this week. I can't go back but I sure can move forward and I intend to do just that. I've been at a plateau and for any who have been there you know how this can be....depressing. So today I vow to break that plateau. I know i've said this to myself a million times but this is one million and one. I haven't gone back to where I began so that is in my favor, i've learned a bit along the way.

So i'm off to get my exercise minutes in this morning. This for me is the easy part...it is the snacking i have so much trouble with. For me it is all or nothing and that mentality has to stop here and now.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/17/2011 11:38PM

    I'm with you, Michelle! I know you can do it!!

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IUHRYTR 3/17/2011 10:15PM

    If snacking is a problem area there are a couple of things that may help. One is to eat smaller meals throughout the day to allow calories for snacks later. Another, if snacks are sweets, is to eat more fruit and low-fat yogurt such as Yoplait. It has some sugar but also so many different flavors in only 100 calories. Work on that area and results should follow since you're okay with exercising and other areas. Best of success to you. -- Lou

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KRICKET4 3/17/2011 10:23AM

    Here is to new beginnings and a brand new day!

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CHINAGAL 3/17/2011 10:16AM

    Yes you can!
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Edna

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