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last chance day....again

Thursday, March 12, 2009

well here we are again at thursday. dang this comes so fast. last day to workout, save calories,and stay with the program before weigh in day. i don't know why i hang so much on this one day. i can't fix the last six days in one. but somehow i work harder, eat less, and just plain do exactly what i'm suppose to. i do fine the other days as i try to look at this as a lifestyle not a d i e t. spelled because it is a dirty word. diet means going hungry and feeling like i'm missing out on something. lifestyle means i can have exactly what i want or need at the time and work it in to my calorie counts for the day. therefore i'm not feeling deprived. sometimes i wish i made better choices but all will come in time. i'm sure a lot better now than i have been. i weigh, measure my food. plan meals and snacks. and if i need chocolate i have a bite. the bite of most anything i feel i need seems to work. so to weigh in day i say bring it on. the new me can take what comes and work from there. till next time keep sparking.

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

i really had no intention of blogging today as i had nothing to talk about. then i was getting ready for work and as i was getting in the shower the worst urge to weigh myself (four days too early) came over me. i fought it and i won. the scales are still in the closet. i have to hide them from myself. pretty sad actually to not have that kind of self control. anyways as i was showering i had to laugh outloud..i did it, i didn't get on the scales. seems when i do this early i just make myself worry for nothing and panic. just not worth the effort it takes to not wait a few more days. and i have to tell myself as long as i'm doing what it is i'm suppose to do all is fine. at least that is what i want to think, till the day of truth arrives. so till next time keep sparking.

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TERESA6262 3/10/2009 9:22PM

    Hi Malexander!
I was weighing every day. I weighed yesterday and am not going to weigh again until next Monday. This will be the first week I've done that. I don't have a scale at home but have weighed at work M-F.

:0) Teresa emoticon

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BAMACHICK39 3/10/2009 10:56AM

    Thas good. I wish that I could hide the scales but they lay in my bathroom and everytime I go in the bathroom I weigh myself. Wish I had your strengh not to weigh myself all the time

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Monday, March 09, 2009

well here is monday again. what has happened over the weekend is now over and done with and it is a new week with new plans and hopes. my weekend was good. i really didn't overdo to awful much. i find with boredom comes snacking. i worked had this weekend getting our garden in and getting my front flowerbeds in. still have a bunch i would like to do but all in time. this next weekend i will continue to clean up an old flower bed and move the plants to my new one. we have so many plans for the back yard and i really want to had some curb appeal to the front. so much work and so little time. i do find now i do have the energy and i get out and do, but it is the time i'm finding hard to get to. with work and just life it seems that time just passes by in the blink of an eye. i'm at a point now where i want to grab each moment and hold on. i'm learning a lot about myself through this journey and i'm not ready to quit yet. i find i have strength where i thought i had none, and i start and finish now where before i would start and then speed finish if you know what i mean. my projects for spring are also my projects for me. nothing wrong with making my world a better place and i have to say with this site i have found that my world is wonderful. even the low spots aren't as low as i once thought. so till next time keep sparking.


todays spark quote

Sunday, March 08, 2009

SparkPeople Quote Of The Day; think highly of yoursel f because the world takes you at your own estimate...

when i read the spark quote of the day i had to post here. so many times i read others blogs and they think so little of themselves. we have to believe and think highly of ourselves for others to see us the same way. i myself am just learning this in my own life so i won't say i knew this all along or else i wouldn't be here. i'm now walking with my head held high, wearing my clothes i haven't put on in a long time, and putting on makeup. you know what i look damn good. no more sweats, loose clothes, or big t*shirs for me.(at least on the days i'm not veging)i like the new me and i can't wait for the end result to see how all these pieces fit together. changes in our lifestyle is like putting together a big jigsaw puzzle. one piece at atime, and when all is finished it is beautiful. so till tomorrow keep sparking.

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TERESA6262 3/9/2009 8:17PM

    Where you do find the Spark quote of the day? Or did you coin that phrase?


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ANGLEDGE 3/8/2009 7:42PM

    Malexander4, I liked your comment on my blog, I like the quote in your blog, so thanksx2!

Just curious, how did you find my blog entry? I'm sort-of new here at SP, & I don't see an obvious connection.

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TERESA6262 3/8/2009 9:21AM

    HI Malexander!

What IS the quote for the day? I enjoyed your blog again! You have such a great attitude!


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saturday march 7

Saturday, March 07, 2009

i'm off to the grocery store(woohoo),today is the day to restock for the coming week. i will do my best to stay away from the foods i don't need, aka combos, chips, chocolate. i have reached the next milestone on my journey and i really don't want to go back just forward. so with that i must step back and take stock of myself and my goals and begin again. i have the next five to lose and then the next and i can't give up. each day feels like a new moment for me and sometimes an old one. old habits sure do die hard and i'm giving my all for the next and better ones. i'm at a weight i haven't seen in some time and i worry daily if i will stay here, deserve to be here, and sometimes i'm just shocked that i'm actually here. yesterday coming in from my walk at work i just happen to catch my reflection in the glass of the doors ( i don't have a full length mirror at home) and i had to stop for a minute and just gaze at my reflection looking back at me. that was me and i could hardly believe it. i had to smile. me, looking that good, damn i've come so far and yet i still worry about tomorrow. when do these feelings and thoughts go away? do i really want them to? if they do i may get too set in my ways and just let all this go and i don't want that. oh well i sat down just to jot a minutes and it has turned into a lot more than that. thanks for always listening to me. and till tomorrow keep sparking.

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TERESA6262 3/7/2009 9:28AM

    Hi Malexander,
Thanks for the comment on my blog. I know exactly what you mean as far as worrying about whether the changes will stick. Right now I feel like I can conquer the world and my health and fitness issues! (LOL! Like I'm a pro! I've only been at it for about 3 weeks). I started out at a whopping 245 lbs. Behind my current feeling of empowerment there is a hazy little cloud of doubts and I think, "Sure, Teresa! You're talking that way now.... but it didn't last a year and a half ago when you lost that 30 pounds which you've gained back w/ 10 pounds more. What if you have to "eat" your words/blogs when you fail (again) in a few short weeks?" I do feel a bit foolish to be so psyched (and SHOUTING it) when a lifestyle change has never lasted w/ me before. It's kind of embarrassing and vulnerable to actually say it, because if I DO fail...everyone will KNOW that my health talk was vain and empty. But seeing your blog helps me realize (and face head on) that fact that there IS an underlying fear of failure depsite the fact I I feel GREAT and EMPOWERED now! I just know that for RIGHT NOW... SP has me pumped for success! "Doubt Cloud... BE GONE!!!!" Anyway... have fun grocery shopping and thanks for sharing your thoughts! It really got me thinking.


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