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Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.

- Goethe

I have decided I need to have accountability over me. I know i've talked about this before and I have surpassed my goals in a lot of things but i'm still working on the mindlessness of some of my snacking. I mean what is my problem? I need to quit with this. I know I sound like a broken record over this and many think I should just relax, but this is the one area in all of this I have yet to get a handle on. I don't really think i've given it much thought. I know i've not given it much of a push in the right direction. But like the quote says "boldness has genius and power magic" so today I take power over my actions. I decide where I go from here. I decide how it is to play out.

I purchased my items for the week, no chips, no cookies, no crackers. All my problem foods i've left out of the house. I got fruit, yogurt, granola bars, and veggies. I mean I got bags of oranges, fridge pack of yogurt. I have no excuse not to eat healthy. I have no excuse for eating junk at night. I have no excuse for not getting my dairy, I have the foods now I need to plan them into my days. Where there is plan there is no mistakes. So my day was planned around the healthy guidelines of ww. I have my milk, fruit and veggies, protiens, oils, and i'm ready to face the day.

I'm off now to get in the one item I seem to have no trouble with, thank god its my saving grace, exercise. Without which I would of probably gained back most of my loss a long time ago. lol. It keeps me on the level and in the zone.

So today i'm accountable to me. I'm the one that matters, i'm the one that has control, and i'm the one standing in my way at the finish line. today I begin my life fresh, my journey is new and full of promise. How about you?


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 2/10/2011 10:08PM

    You can do it. I know you will find that happy medium where you are able to have the occasional treat and still live the healhty lifestyle..WITHOUT going overboard and WITHOUT the guilt. You'll figure it out and you will be fine!

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IUHRYTR 2/9/2011 10:23PM

    When tempted, it helps to constantly picture how we will look when we reach our weight loss goal and then ask ourselves if the cookie, etc., is worth it. Stay focused and positive. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 2/9/2011 7:48PM

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SLIMPAM23 2/9/2011 1:54PM

I am having the same issues. But I think I have worked myself right into self-sabotage. I was buying things that weren't good for me AND my husband doesn't eat on a regular basis. Why would I keep things in the house that would only cause my grief? So - I am taking a chapter from your book and getting rid of all the chips and crap in my house that don't need to be there....
Maybe I haven't LOST my control over these things....maybe I was setting myself up for certain disaster!!
We'll get through this I am sure. You are a very determined woman as am I - and we aren't going down without a fight!!

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KENDRACARROLL 2/9/2011 10:03AM

    I read this yesterday:

"If you truly made the choice to reach this goal, then you have to act on it whenever it's appropriate. You have to be both systematic and flexible. The flexible part happens when you have to skip a workout or indulge in a "cheat" meal to accommodate the other choices you've made - to be in a relationship, to keep a job, to raise children, to remember the taste of chocolate cake.
But it's the systematic part that defines the choice you've made. You might stumble, you might veer, you might even hit a brick wall at some point. but in the end, if the goal you've articulated is truly a choice and not a daydream or fantasy, then you'll figure out the right system. It's fine to get advice. It's okay to make adjustments and accommodations. It's even all right to change your goal, if you decide your target is too modest or ambitious.
The choice is yours.

~ From the book "The New Rules of Lifting for Women" by Lou Schuler

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JUNEBUG1944 2/9/2011 10:01AM

    Well, Michelle, you have all the good things in the house. But, are you depriving yourself? You have to have a goodie once in awhile. The key is to limit yourself to one serving and not the whole package! Yeah, I know, easier said than done! I'm working on it and some days it's hard, others, not so much. The exercise is important and you've got that down pat. Good for you! Half the battle is won!

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QUEENIE27161 2/9/2011 9:06AM

    I need to be accountable to me to. That is a skill, that I have not learned.

This whole diet thing and accountability is new to me. I have wanted to lose weight for years, but I new did because I already new before starting I would fail. Well. No more.

I am taking this journey slow, and now I know I need to add accountability to it as well.

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What an awesome weekend

Sunday, February 06, 2011

emoticon emoticonThis weekend was so wonderful. The sun was out the weather was a bit chilly but still comfortable to get out in. I took the dogs for walks both days. Yesterday about a mile and today we did two. They are now resting and i'm sparking a bit before dinner. I just couldn't let this weather pass me by.

emoticon emoticonand cheese-its where my enemies this weekend. I tride to stay strong but they had me beat. But I handled it well, stuck to my guns and still stayed within my range for the day. I had a heart to heart with myself this afternoon on my walk and I have decided I won't be buying the cheez-its or candy any longer. The popcorn fits in my plan so it can stay. I just can't measure and eat responsibly of the other. I'm like an alcoholic on a binge. one is too many and a thousand isn't enough. If you can understand what i'm saying. I've come to learn that mindless snacking is my addiction and in order to control it like any other I will have to give it up for good. I have no control. I can say that, I can admit that...I have no control. I"m weak where those foods are concerned. So since if they are here I have to have them, they are no longer allowed in. Easy as that.

This journey is all about change and I have to make changes in me to succeed. Not just to goal but beyond. I mean really that is what counts here....the beyond. If we just run through this we don't learn about ourselves, our weaknesses and we sure don't learn how to eat properly or how to get what our bodies need. I can have the occasional treat but until that day comes I will have to take a step back and build a relationship with another food...hum...carrots are crunchy.


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JUNEBUG1944 2/7/2011 2:57PM

    emoticon are good, but Cheez-its are better. I know, I know, that was mean. I haven't found a replacement for any of the food that I really love...there isn't any! You know what your addictions are and that's good. It's staying away that is so hard. As you say, don't bring them in the house and then you can't eat them!

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SLIMPAM23 2/7/2011 1:53PM

    What do you suppose they put in Cheese-It's that makes them addictive? Even my husband can't control himself around a box of them - and he doesn't even snack much. I think they are like like crack for foodies!!

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TERESA6262 2/6/2011 9:56PM

    Radishes are a good snack... honest! They are very crunchy!!! CRUNCH! CRUNCH! I love 'em!

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    Fantastic! I'm glad you had such a great weekend! Woohoo! I also had a haert to heart with myself today, and well, cheese it's won't be coming into my house for a while either!
We're ready for tomorrow..we can do it!

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    Hmm, I fall for donuts, cake, cookies, and such. Somebody brought tons of donuts into work last Friday, I think I had 5... Oh boy, and you say you have no control?!??
Glad you're having an awesome weekend. It's only going on 3:00 pm here, so there is still a bit of weekend left for me.

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KNITTABLES 2/6/2011 5:41PM

    emoticonGreat attitude and I you will find a new a wonderful relationship with carrots. Enjoy the rest of the day.

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Smile today is a new day

Saturday, February 05, 2011

This is my wish for you:
Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Hugs when spirits sag,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Faith so that you can believe,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
Love to complete your life.
- Anonymous

May the world be kind to you, and may your own thoughts be gentle upon yourself.
- Jonathan

No matter what is behind us today is a new day. We can make this anything we wish. We have a clean slate, a new beginning, a chance to rebuild the new you. Today is my last chance day so to speak for the week. I have a weigh in tomorrow morning and then my new week begins. I have today though. I can opt to make it right or slide all the way to the bottom. I'm getting my mind geared up for the making it right. I want change and it won't just happen. I have to make it happen. So again I have the plan in place, i have the mind set, and I have the tools. The rest is simply a matter of doing it. Excuses don't work on the scales. They don't hear you, they don't care how small a "snack" you had or how many chips you ate, they don't care that you worked out for only two days because you were oh so busy, they just don't care. They are going to be honest and some weeks painfully so.

This morning i'm up, again not sleeping, but I have read some wonderful blogs this morning. they have inspired me, given my ideas, and just plain pumped me up. These are real people dealing with the same issues and hurdles that I am, yet they are finding ways to concur them. They have set a plan and seem to be following it through. Oh they have setbacks, I mean this journey is sometimes painfully full of them, but they have worked it out and come out winners. I want to be with them. I want to work out the kinks and be with them at the finish line. I want to face my hurdles with the ones still on the weight loss portion of their journeys. I'm going to do this. I will do this.

It is funny but I have let myself believe that because i'm so close to my goal that I don't fit with some of these people, not meaning that in a bad way, I mean like If I say i'm having a bit of trouble they will just shake their heads and say yeah right. But i'm still in the loss portion of my journey, i'm still having struggles that others are haveing whether we have two or 100 pounds to lose. the journey is the same, a loss is a loss, and a triumph is nothing short of a miracle and is a reason for celebration.

I won't stress or worry that i'm not worthy of the letting people know I have struggles, I 'm not going to think I can't ask for help because i'm close to goal, I may of triumphed over some things, but I still have other hurdles or I would be at goal. So If I say I need help, or I worry over no loss, or I worry because I can't get my nighttime munching under control, for me these are real issues and they worry me. I don't want to hear how I don't need to diet, I don't want to hear that i'm small enough, I don't want to hear that I have nothing to worry about when your talking about starting a diet.....people I have been there, i'm still there, and this isn't how I always looked. So yes, i still have a bit to go, and yes, I still need a push every now and again. Don't you?


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 2/6/2011 11:04AM

    You are right, we may all be at different stages of the journey, but that doesn't mean there is any difference at all in one person's loss and another person's. A pound is a pound jsut the same. Everyone's road has a beginning and an end..we're all at different spots on that road. You can do this. You know what you want and you know how to get there. There are struggles but you will work out the kinks and overcome them. Hang in there my friend, you will do this!!

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IUHRYTR 2/5/2011 4:01PM

    Everyone loses weight a pound at a time. Oh, sure, there may be a two or five pound loss one week or one month, but it still comes off one at a time. So if anyone doubts they can lose a large amount of weight, ask them if they can lose one measly pound. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 2/5/2011 1:49PM


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    I saw your blog pop up late last night, too late to respond, actually too late to really read and comprehend, as I could barely keep my eyes open. No idea, why I was up that late. Guess we do stupid things sometimes...

I totally understand where you're coming from, cause I'm in the same boat. Sometimes I think that if I respond to a blog of someone who has 50 lbs to lose they'll think I'm a hypocrite.

Our struggles are just as real, and just as valid, and we have to fight too, every day.
Yes, today is a brand-new day. Let's make it great!

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RACEMOM576900 2/5/2011 12:05PM

    Yes, we all struggle and Yes I need a push. Thank you for giving that do me today and sharing the quotes. You reminded of the frame of mind I want to be in and no one is going to put me there but me.

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Settling: I may be

Friday, February 04, 2011

emoticonI'm in danger from myself at this point in my journey. I have been through some phases that I overcame, like the exercise hurdle, the water hurdle, the fruit and veggies hurdle, the mind games and now i'm into a new one for me....settling on where i'm at. I'm seeing the me in the mirror and thinking hey i'm looking great, I can stop this nonsense now and move on to maintenance. Maybe this weight is ok for me right now. Why? I mean I still see room for improvement, I still worry over the scales, I still want to see a loss every now and again, I still tell myself I want to reach my goals, I still make a plan each month, change up my goals and then teams goals, I still work at this. Do I really want to settle? emoticonEnough!!!!! I don't want to settle. So I have to get me back on track mentally. Back on the losing track. The last couple of months i've lost at the beginning, gained at the end and ended up with a loss for the month of like less than a pound. That is not good averages. When i'm losing I should be continuing to lose. Nope not me, I get soft, lazy, in a feeding frenzy, and the cycle starts all over again. I';m going to say

emoticonto yoyoing and emoticonto reaching my goal. I have the tools, I have the motivation, I mean you don't get this close to goal without it. I have others asking me how I did it, what they can do, how much is this worth, How many miles around the store at work, ( my walking arena on nice days), so others are seeing the new me i've become. I want them to see the end results that hard work can help this achieve. I'm not trying to be the laugh in your face person. Yeah i've almost reached this end of the road, but it was hard work and I have so far to go. I have to maintain, I love to joke about the loss being the easy part and the maintaining is the hard part. So as of this moment i'm not settling anylonger. I don't like to see others do it and I won't allow it in myself.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 2/6/2011 10:52AM

    You can do it Michelle! I know you, and you won't settle. You are going to see this through to the finish line where a new journey will begin for you

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PUGLOVER1999 2/5/2011 9:18PM

    I especially like what IUHRYTR wrote. I'm going to try to remember that ... I need it with the loss of every pound, and I know I will especially need it when I get as close to my goal as you are.

You DO look great! Just a few more pounds will give you some "wiggle room" once you reach and start maintaining!

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IUHRYTR 2/4/2011 11:41PM

    In foot races, the winner is very often the runner who digs deep at the end and finds a reservoir of determination to spurt on to victory. That's what we need to do when our goal is in sight. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 2/4/2011 4:08PM

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JUNEBUG1944 2/4/2011 1:18PM

    You'll get there, Michelle! It is easy to say, hey, I look good, I can quit, but you know what you want and you're going after it! Good for you!
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    emoticon attitude Michelle!

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We need to take action: for ourselves

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
- Lee Ann Womack

Action is a great restorer and builder of confidence. Inaction is not only the result, but the cause, of fear. Perhaps the action you take will be successful; perhaps different action or adjustments will have to follow. But any action is better than no action at all.
- Norman Vincent Peale

I"m a firm believer in making a plan. Now it can be anything from more water daily to exercise, new stratagies, new goals...changing them up will keep you and me from getting bored. When you take action you see results. I had two wonderful days of great results. I did have a bit of a treat last night but still within my calorie budget so I was good. Guilt? yup. working on that one though. I"m not perfect, i'm close to goal but I still have some things i'm working through. I don't intend to give up. That would be the easy way and i've never been one for the easy way.

So the next time I blog I hope that I can share a wonderful loss, a great moment, or a new breakthrough but until then, i'm still working out the kinks and just staying in the game.


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SLIMPAM23 2/3/2011 12:15PM

    Hey Girl----
I know that eating in the evening is something that you are working on.....but remember that if you plan your day calorie-wise so that you can have a snack...then don't feel guilty about that. That is normal. I know you are working on that because "just a snack" is not ordinarily what happens to you in the evenings....but if you DID just have a snack and you had the calories to cover that snack....then replace the guilt with a huge sense of accomplishment!!! And remember it's baby steps can build on this one small victory!!!!!!
YOU CAN DO IT MICHELLE!!! You are going to get to goal soon!!

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SUZIEQ115 2/2/2011 10:51PM

    I agree! Making goals is very important. There's something about sitting with a pen and a fresh pad of paper and defining my goals that really motivate me.
I didn't grow up with a computer, so I still think better and am more creative with a pen and paper then a keyboard. There just isn't the same mental connection flowing from brain to keyboard as there is from brain to pen to paper!

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JUNEBUG1944 2/2/2011 10:13PM

    You're almost there, girl! You are doing it! Making goals works for you and that's great that you can make them achieve them!

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RACEMOM576900 2/2/2011 11:55AM

    Keep it up! You are so right and we all need to take more action sometimes. Have a wonderful day!

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KENDRACARROLL 2/2/2011 10:28AM

    Staying in the game is all that matters. Results are what follows.

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IUHRYTR 2/2/2011 10:13AM

    Sometimes, simply keeping on track, even at a slow pace, is the best confidence builder we can have. A slow jog is still running. So stay the course every day to whatever extent you, and we, can. -- Lou

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JAMARIGOLD 2/2/2011 7:56AM

    Good to hear you choose to dance! emoticon

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