Saturday, January 29, 2011
Distance cannot matter - ours is a friendship of the heart.
- Mary Anne Radmacher
I have been so busy lately and letting my sparking slide. I have decided that today i'm back to working this site like it should be worked. Oh I do what I need to each day to earn a few points, keep up with a few friends, but really i'm not doing all I could be for me. Today is a new day.
I haven't had a weigh in this week as of yet. I know I need to but i'm so busy and I don't really think I had a great week. That really isn't good considering I joined the scale back Alabama with some friends and they are counting on me. I guess it is the fear that I won't succeed that has put me in this place of not wanting to see the scales and what they hold. I should just bite the bullet, step on and be happy i'm still in the game. I may not have lost but i'm working as hard as I can to see this through. I really don't expect to see a 10 pound loss but shoot five or seven would be awesome. then I'd be at my goal. That is really all i'm looking for. To reach goal.
So this morning I sat down, wrote out some new goals I will enter into my goals page tonight for the new coming month, I will work these problem areas which have been the same since beginning spark.....eating after dinner. I don't mean just a snack I mean nonstop eating till I fall asleep. The worse part is I hate myself when i'm done. I'm not hungry I'm tired. So from today on I'm working on having a cup of decaf coffee after dinner, my new after dinner mint, and maybe a broth with my meal to help curb my appetite. I have to make a plan and follow it.
So the goals are set, the plan is in place. Now to work it. I'm so glad for spark and all that it offers. Now I will give back all that it gives me and I will be there for my friends as they have been there for me.
Friday, January 21, 2011
I am happy to report that i'm now down another .4 this week. that puts me at 4.6 lbs to my ultimate goal. I'm doing it. I"ve lost weight for the last three weeks in a row. A new record for me. I'm reaching for the gold and i'm actually seeing the rewards 10 fold. Not just in my outside appearance, but inside as well. I"m gaining more confidence in myself. I"m seeing that as I reach small lifetime goals I'm gaining more strength in me. I quit smoking over ten years ago, funny but that seemed easy complared to losing this weight.
But as i've played with this last ten pounds i've come to realize I was letting myself down on so many levels. I was so caught up in my own mind that I was letting the flow just happen. I mean I had all the tools, I just needed to apply them. So the last few weeks i've done just that. I've set limits for myself, i've weighed, measured, and counted my way to almost three pounds this month. that is awesome, my goal for the month was two pounds. So far i'm a half pound over that. When I began this journey my bmi was 29 now it is 24.9. what a feeling to go from obese to overweight. Yup, still not in my bmi range...my goal is healthy. But im so close. Much closer then when I began this journey two years ago.
So no matter how we struggle, how much we want to give up, we can't. We can't quit on ourselves. we don't quit on others why not give us what we need. I know I am and i'm not afraid to tell what I want. I'm learning to open my mouth as I open my mind.
Reaching for the gold........you better believe I am.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
It is funny we hold the key to our own happiness, our own goals getting reached. I know what is holding me back for the most part. Fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of succeeding. Funny how fear can be the downfall of the human person. I fear change, I fear failing, but then again I fear succeeding.. Why? Because I may not succeed after getting this far, I may fall on my face with so many watching, then again I may succeed and do I stay that way or do I again go back to my old self. For me these are questions I have to ask as I"m sure so many before me and after will ask.
But you know what? I'm not so much afraid anymore as I am anxious. I'm ready to see the end result of all this hard work. I'm ready to face my demons head on. Because let's face it we wouldn't be here if not for some unknown force pulling us in that direction. I mean you don't decide to be over weight, who loves being so uncomfortable in their own skin. I sure didn't. I'm in a much smaller skin now, but the old fears still haunt me. I'm working them out one by one. I can see them clearly now. Sometimes I wish I had a big banner that said I have lost weight. I did it my way and the right way. The me people see today isn't the same me of two years ago. I'm more confident, stronger, active. I don't want to sit on the couch on the weekends, I want to move.
Yup I hold the key to me. I intend to unlock the new me and keep her safe from the old one. hopefully that woman is a thing of the past. A woman my daughter knows works in the same walmart I do, she said she knew me by the "one that eats all that healthy food:", to some that may be a knock, to me that was a compliment. Maybe I can be the picture and someone else may say "someday I want to be just like her". No magic pill here, just old fashioned hard work.
So grab your key and unlock the new you. One day and one pound at a time.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Regret is an appalling waste of energy, you can't build on it - it's only good for wallowing in.
- Katherine Mansfield
Simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
- don Miguel Angel Ruiz
You can not have any regrets on this journey. You do what you do to you. If you bite it right it, if you eat it don't fret on weigh in day. You did this to you. Only you can fix your problems, and only you can get you to the end results.
Do YOU see a pattern here, it is all up to us. Only us. We can't blame the environment, we can't blame each other, and we can't blame the cook. You picked it up, you ate it, you didn't exercise. So no more regrets. today get out there and show the world that you are made of sterner stuff.
A group of four of us, my daughter included are joining the Scale back alabama. We are all joining for our own reasons. Mine is to have the motivation to reach goal, my daughters is to get healthy before her wedding, my friends to lose the weight they have gained over the last couple of years. We all set out on this journey for our own reasons, but the end result is the same for all of us, health. It may take us longer than others to reach our goals but we don't give up. We tackle each along the way and knock down those barriers. this journey isn't about how much you can lose it is about finding you. I'm learning new things about myself each step of the way. This is an awakening among getting slim. When we are large we can hide behind ourselves, take away the wall and people can see us.
What are doing for YOU today and everyday?
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Ok, you really have to make changes if you want to see changes. This is the time of year when so many have undertaken the "diet craze". I see this daily in my work at the pharmacy, on spark, the boards just load up, then the work happens and many fall by the roadside. People you have to make changes to see changes. The saying is " if you do what you've always done, you get what you've always got". The changes come from you, your environment, and your friends and family. You have to stop, back up, take stock, and decide what it is you really want.....that soda, donut, chips, or the exercise, fruit, veggies, water that will lead you to what you call happiness. Being thin isn't about being happy, it is a state of mind.
The question I get asked a lot is if I starved myself. First off people, I love food. I wasn't overweight before because I didn't. So no, I don't starve myself. I mess up, I eat bad food a lot, but I also eat the good foods more. I exericise daily, yes you have to move some. If you ask me what it takes to get thin and healthy, I'll tell ya. But don't roll your eyes, say "that won't work for me" or knock all my suggestions. You see me, you see the changes in me. You know they work. This isn't a one size fits most. This is a one size fits all kind of lifestyle. You have to make the changes to see the changes. That is why it isn't working for you......and why it is working for me. I'm living proof the healthy lifestyle works. I have kept what i've lost off for two years now, yup i'm not to goal but i'm a breath away. Nope, i'm not perfect, I make mistakes, eat what is considered not good for me, I overindulge on occasion. But you know what? I've made the changes can you?
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