Friday, February 04, 2011
I'm in danger from myself at this point in my journey. I have been through some phases that I overcame, like the exercise hurdle, the water hurdle, the fruit and veggies hurdle, the mind games and now i'm into a new one for me....settling on where i'm at. I'm seeing the me in the mirror and thinking hey i'm looking great, I can stop this nonsense now and move on to maintenance. Maybe this weight is ok for me right now. Why? I mean I still see room for improvement, I still worry over the scales, I still want to see a loss every now and again, I still tell myself I want to reach my goals, I still make a plan each month, change up my goals and then teams goals, I still work at this. Do I really want to settle? Enough!!!!! I don't want to settle. So I have to get me back on track mentally. Back on the losing track. The last couple of months i've lost at the beginning, gained at the end and ended up with a loss for the month of like less than a pound. That is not good averages. When i'm losing I should be continuing to lose. Nope not me, I get soft, lazy, in a feeding frenzy, and the cycle starts all over again. I';m going to say
to yoyoing and to reaching my goal. I have the tools, I have the motivation, I mean you don't get this close to goal without it. I have others asking me how I did it, what they can do, how much is this worth, How many miles around the store at work, ( my walking arena on nice days), so others are seeing the new me i've become. I want them to see the end results that hard work can help this achieve. I'm not trying to be the laugh in your face person. Yeah i've almost reached this end of the road, but it was hard work and I have so far to go. I have to maintain, I love to joke about the loss being the easy part and the maintaining is the hard part. So as of this moment i'm not settling anylonger. I don't like to see others do it and I won't allow it in myself.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
- Lee Ann Womack
Action is a great restorer and builder of confidence. Inaction is not only the result, but the cause, of fear. Perhaps the action you take will be successful; perhaps different action or adjustments will have to follow. But any action is better than no action at all.
- Norman Vincent Peale
I"m a firm believer in making a plan. Now it can be anything from more water daily to exercise, new stratagies, new goals...changing them up will keep you and me from getting bored. When you take action you see results. I had two wonderful days of great results. I did have a bit of a treat last night but still within my calorie budget so I was good. Guilt? yup. working on that one though. I"m not perfect, i'm close to goal but I still have some things i'm working through. I don't intend to give up. That would be the easy way and i've never been one for the easy way.
So the next time I blog I hope that I can share a wonderful loss, a great moment, or a new breakthrough but until then, i'm still working out the kinks and just staying in the game.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Distance cannot matter - ours is a friendship of the heart.
- Mary Anne Radmacher
I have been so busy lately and letting my sparking slide. I have decided that today i'm back to working this site like it should be worked. Oh I do what I need to each day to earn a few points, keep up with a few friends, but really i'm not doing all I could be for me. Today is a new day.
I haven't had a weigh in this week as of yet. I know I need to but i'm so busy and I don't really think I had a great week. That really isn't good considering I joined the scale back Alabama with some friends and they are counting on me. I guess it is the fear that I won't succeed that has put me in this place of not wanting to see the scales and what they hold. I should just bite the bullet, step on and be happy i'm still in the game. I may not have lost but i'm working as hard as I can to see this through. I really don't expect to see a 10 pound loss but shoot five or seven would be awesome. then I'd be at my goal. That is really all i'm looking for. To reach goal.
So this morning I sat down, wrote out some new goals I will enter into my goals page tonight for the new coming month, I will work these problem areas which have been the same since beginning spark.....eating after dinner. I don't mean just a snack I mean nonstop eating till I fall asleep. The worse part is I hate myself when i'm done. I'm not hungry I'm tired. So from today on I'm working on having a cup of decaf coffee after dinner, my new after dinner mint, and maybe a broth with my meal to help curb my appetite. I have to make a plan and follow it.
So the goals are set, the plan is in place. Now to work it. I'm so glad for spark and all that it offers. Now I will give back all that it gives me and I will be there for my friends as they have been there for me.
Friday, January 21, 2011
I am happy to report that i'm now down another .4 this week. that puts me at 4.6 lbs to my ultimate goal. I'm doing it. I"ve lost weight for the last three weeks in a row. A new record for me. I'm reaching for the gold and i'm actually seeing the rewards 10 fold. Not just in my outside appearance, but inside as well. I"m gaining more confidence in myself. I"m seeing that as I reach small lifetime goals I'm gaining more strength in me. I quit smoking over ten years ago, funny but that seemed easy complared to losing this weight.
But as i've played with this last ten pounds i've come to realize I was letting myself down on so many levels. I was so caught up in my own mind that I was letting the flow just happen. I mean I had all the tools, I just needed to apply them. So the last few weeks i've done just that. I've set limits for myself, i've weighed, measured, and counted my way to almost three pounds this month. that is awesome, my goal for the month was two pounds. So far i'm a half pound over that. When I began this journey my bmi was 29 now it is 24.9. what a feeling to go from obese to overweight. Yup, still not in my bmi range...my goal is healthy. But im so close. Much closer then when I began this journey two years ago.
So no matter how we struggle, how much we want to give up, we can't. We can't quit on ourselves. we don't quit on others why not give us what we need. I know I am and i'm not afraid to tell what I want. I'm learning to open my mouth as I open my mind.
Reaching for the gold........you better believe I am.
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