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Reaching for the gold:

Friday, January 21, 2011

emoticonI am happy to report that i'm now down another .4 this week. that puts me at 4.6 lbs to my ultimate goal. I'm doing it. I"ve lost weight for the last three weeks in a row. A new record for me. I'm reaching for the gold and i'm actually seeing the rewards 10 fold. Not just in my outside appearance, but inside as well. I"m gaining more confidence in myself. I"m seeing that as I reach small lifetime goals I'm gaining more strength in me. I quit smoking over ten years ago, funny but that seemed easy complared to losing this weight.

But as i've played with this last ten pounds i've come to realize I was letting myself down on so many levels. I was so caught up in my own mind that I was letting the flow just happen. I mean I had all the tools, I just needed to apply them. So the last few weeks i've done just that. I've set limits for myself, i've weighed, measured, and counted my way to almost three pounds this month. that is awesome, my goal for the month was two pounds. So far i'm a half pound over that. When I began this journey my bmi was 29 now it is 24.9. what a feeling to go from obese to overweight. Yup, still not in my bmi goal is healthy. But im so close. Much closer then when I began this journey two years ago.

So no matter how we struggle, how much we want to give up, we can't. We can't quit on ourselves. we don't quit on others why not give us what we need. I know I am and i'm not afraid to tell what I want. I'm learning to open my mouth as I open my mind.

Reaching for the better believe I am.


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JESSIELOVE78 1/24/2011 2:03PM


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/22/2011 11:06PM

    Congratulations Michelle!!!!!!! You are AMAZING!!!
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JUNEBUG1944 1/22/2011 10:06AM

    You are so'll make your are so determined and determination is the key!

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KNITTABLES 1/21/2011 3:52PM

    Your doing a great job, emoticon

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IUHRYTR 1/21/2011 3:25PM

    Isn't it reinforcing when we make progress? That's why I encourage aiming for a one pound loss rather than trying to visualize 20 or 50 or 100. Easier to picture and achieve. Every bit of success builds confidence and yours is shining brightly. Stay focused and positive. emoticon -- Lou

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BUMBLEBEE2451 1/21/2011 12:11PM

    emoticon you're almost there!

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RACEMOM576900 1/21/2011 8:29AM

    Congrats on the weight loss! You are doing awesome!

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ELLEN0407 1/21/2011 6:53AM

  good job

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I hold the key:

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

It is funny we hold the key to our own happiness, our own goals getting reached. I know what is holding me back for the most part. Fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of succeeding. Funny how fear can be the downfall of the human person. I fear change, I fear failing, but then again I fear succeeding.. Why? Because I may not succeed after getting this far, I may fall on my face with so many watching, then again I may succeed and do I stay that way or do I again go back to my old self. For me these are questions I have to ask as I"m sure so many before me and after will ask.

But you know what? I'm not so much afraid anymore as I am anxious. I'm ready to see the end result of all this hard work. I'm ready to face my demons head on. Because let's face it we wouldn't be here if not for some unknown force pulling us in that direction. I mean you don't decide to be over weight, who loves being so uncomfortable in their own skin. I sure didn't. I'm in a much smaller skin now, but the old fears still haunt me. I'm working them out one by one. I can see them clearly now. Sometimes I wish I had a big banner that said I have lost weight. I did it my way and the right way. The me people see today isn't the same me of two years ago. I'm more confident, stronger, active. I don't want to sit on the couch on the weekends, I want to move.

Yup I hold the key to me. I intend to unlock the new me and keep her safe from the old one. hopefully that woman is a thing of the past. A woman my daughter knows works in the same walmart I do, she said she knew me by the "one that eats all that healthy food:", to some that may be a knock, to me that was a compliment. Maybe I can be the picture and someone else may say "someday I want to be just like her". No magic pill here, just old fashioned hard work.

So grab your key and unlock the new you. One day and one pound at a time.


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JUNEBUG1944 1/22/2011 10:05AM

    Good blog, Michelle! That's a good moniker..."the one who eats all the healthy food." So much better than the "fat one" or the "one who eats junkfood." That's a good legacy! You are making a difference because people are noticing you and seeing that your are doing the right thing! You go, girl!

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RACEMOM576900 1/19/2011 9:21PM

    Great job Michelle! Thank you for sharing! You are so right and we all have our own fears to at a time.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/18/2011 11:07PM

    Michelle, you know I can relate. To let go of that fear is going to take some work, but we are going to do it. One pound at a time, and those fears will lose their hold. You're doing so well. We can do this.

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IUHRYTR 1/18/2011 8:00PM

    Why do we fear succeeding with our weight loss? Shouldn't this be a precious gift we give ourselves and celebrate when we do succeed? Let's do this for us and us alone, one positive day and one pound at a time. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 1/18/2011 3:44PM

    I can so relate to this blog about fear. I like you need to just go for it and trust in the process that it will all be fine in the end. emoticon

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No regrets on this journey

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Regret is an appalling waste of energy, you can't build on it - it's only good for wallowing in.
- Katherine Mansfield

Simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
- don Miguel Angel Ruiz

You can not have any regrets on this journey. You do what you do to you. If you bite it right it, if you eat it don't fret on weigh in day. You did this to you. Only you can fix your problems, and only you can get you to the end results.

Do YOU see a pattern here, it is all up to us. Only us. We can't blame the environment, we can't blame each other, and we can't blame the cook. You picked it up, you ate it, you didn't exercise. So no more regrets. today get out there and show the world that you are made of sterner stuff.

A group of four of us, my daughter included are joining the Scale back alabama. We are all joining for our own reasons. Mine is to have the motivation to reach goal, my daughters is to get healthy before her wedding, my friends to lose the weight they have gained over the last couple of years. We all set out on this journey for our own reasons, but the end result is the same for all of us, health. It may take us longer than others to reach our goals but we don't give up. We tackle each along the way and knock down those barriers. this journey isn't about how much you can lose it is about finding you. I'm learning new things about myself each step of the way. This is an awakening among getting slim. When we are large we can hide behind ourselves, take away the wall and people can see us.

What are doing for YOU today and everyday?


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KNITTABLES 1/17/2011 1:57AM

    Awesome blog. I like it very much. I need to stop regretting about things. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 1/16/2011 4:19PM

    Girl you are on a ROLL!!! I see a motivator badge coming!!! It goes with my blog on forgiving myself!! Thanks

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IUHRYTR 1/16/2011 2:15PM

    It is not about how much we each lose, it is also not about how long it takes us as long as we get there. -- Lou

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/16/2011 12:28PM

    Wonderful Michelle!!!

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RACEMOM576900 1/16/2011 9:32AM

    Very well put! I have learned that my thoughts and actions are my own. The way other people think are their own thoughts and actions and have nothing to do with me personally. I am in control of my life and body. No one forces me to eat junk, sit on the couch and be lazy. I am the one responsible for making myself workout and eat healthy. We are all in control of our own lives and it is up to us, and only us to reach our goals. Thanks for the morning inspiration!

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RACHGLAZE 1/16/2011 8:49AM


On my journey, I am learning to think differently about how I eat and why I eat. I have been gaining and losing weight my whole adult life. I have never eaten just because it was the healthy thing to do. I have always either eaten for weight loss (restrictive diet) or completely let go and binged all the time. There has never been a time when I have just been a peace with food. That is what I am learning this time. It feels good to finally be at peace!

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TERESA6262 1/16/2011 8:36AM

    I hear such strength in your blogs, Michelle! YOU ROCK!

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Changes: you have to make some!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Ok, you really have to make changes if you want to see changes. This is the time of year when so many have undertaken the "diet craze". I see this daily in my work at the pharmacy, on spark, the boards just load up, then the work happens and many fall by the roadside. People you have to make changes to see changes. The saying is " if you do what you've always done, you get what you've always got". The changes come from you, your environment, and your friends and family. You have to stop, back up, take stock, and decide what it is you really want.....that soda, donut, chips, or the exercise, fruit, veggies, water that will lead you to what you call happiness. Being thin isn't about being happy, it is a state of mind.

The question I get asked a lot is if I starved myself. First off people, I love food. I wasn't overweight before because I didn't. So no, I don't starve myself. I mess up, I eat bad food a lot, but I also eat the good foods more. I exericise daily, yes you have to move some. If you ask me what it takes to get thin and healthy, I'll tell ya. But don't roll your eyes, say "that won't work for me" or knock all my suggestions. You see me, you see the changes in me. You know they work. This isn't a one size fits most. This is a one size fits all kind of lifestyle. You have to make the changes to see the changes. That is why it isn't working for you......and why it is working for me. I'm living proof the healthy lifestyle works. I have kept what i've lost off for two years now, yup i'm not to goal but i'm a breath away. Nope, i'm not perfect, I make mistakes, eat what is considered not good for me, I overindulge on occasion. But you know what? I've made the changes can you?

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/16/2011 12:26PM

    Well said! We can't change unless we do the work. Sure, I'd love a quick fix. I'd love to wake up in the morning thin and healthy..but it ain't gonna happen!! BUT if I continue to make the right choices more often than not, I'm going to get there. You've done so well, Michelle!! You've kept off the weight and you keep moving forward. You've chosen this lifestyle and you are proof that determination, hard work and more hard work will pay off!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 1/15/2011 8:36AM

    Great Blog!!! I felt like you had your Jack Nichols voice on from the movie A Few Good Men! But what you said is the truth and the whole truth so help us God!!!

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TERESA6262 1/14/2011 6:30PM

    Wow! You go girl! You have always said.... just keep on stepping in the right direction! So it seems that it can be summed up w/ "consistancy and perserverence" but not necessarily perfection! Thanks for the thoughts!

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RACEMOM576900 1/14/2011 9:45AM

    People are so afraid of change, but without it how do you succeed? It is up to every individual to take a personal inventory. Get rid of the bad habits, learn to incorporate the good habits, have fun and love life. We can do this on step at at time, one change at a time!

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KNITTABLES 1/13/2011 3:21PM

    It is all about a healthier lifestyle and taking in positive steps to improve and make those right choices and yes once in awhile we do slip up and that is OK.
Your are on the right track and doing this for the long run and not a short cuts. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 1/13/2011 2:04PM

    Long range thinking will be successful. Our excess weight wasn't gained overnight and won't be lost overnight. -- Lou

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CHINAGAL 1/13/2011 9:36AM

    Good advice! I'm thinking that if I apply the 80/20 rule I can do this. 80 percent of the time I will follow my plan, but I know that I will mess up about 6 times a month!

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Reaching for our goals

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal.
The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.
- Benjamin Mays

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream;
not only plan, but also believe.
- Anatole France

Powerful Dreams Inspire Powerful Action.
When you can taste, smell, and touch your dreams, you can enroll the world.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Believe in yourself. Dream big dreams. Set important goals. Take action on those goals

I received these quotes today and they spoke spark. we have so much we want to succeed at in life but have you actually sat down and written them out. Drew up a plan and then actually dared to reach for the brass ring? I have, I am, and i'm so close I can touch it with the tips of my fingers. I have seen many here reach their goals. I have celebrated with them, cried with them, and laughed a lot with a few, I want to be the one to finally reach my goals. I don't have an ulterier motive for reaching a certain weight. This isn't a competition. For me it is about health, and being happy inside of myself. I was always the skinny girl, the anorexic looking waif in the back row, I ate what I wanted when I wanted. But looking back i also see I was the athletic waif, I ran in my spare time, I rode my bike where ever it would carry me. I walked, I had fun. Then I had my daughter, then my son. The weight came and never went. I was so unhappy inside myself. I was uncomfortable, I was tired, I was fat. No way to mince words I was fat. Oh I lost a few here and there, I joined ww in 1989 and then I got pregnant with my son. Did I continue? nope, I ate my way back to 175 pounds. I was a short fat women again. I was unhappy once again. My ex wasn't the type to say I love you just as you are, nope he wanted a thin woman, he found him one it just wasn't me. I sank lower, now I felt like I was nothing. Then I lost the weight again, divorce will do that to ya, but then a couple of years later I met my husband of 15 years. I gained it again. I was unhappy with me once again. I didn't look in mirrors because that took the me in my mind and showed me the real me in my body. I also hated to buy clothes, that mean knowing my true size. My husband said all the right things, but you know what? I wasn't happy with me. No matter how anyone else feels about you, you have to love you.

So I have come a long ways, I like me. I see me in mirrors and I have to stop and just smile sometimes. That is me. I have done this. I didn't starve, I haven't given up. I am going to succeed one pound at a time. And when I do it will be my pleasure to share with you all my spark friends. that moment is coming. I hope it is sooner rather than later, but i'm going to reach it no matter what. I have a plan, and I have goals to reach.

So again I say: I will see you at the finish line.


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IUHRYTR 1/12/2011 8:48PM

    You are right that we all have be the person we are and if we admit to ourselves who we are will be be able to move on either as we are or toward a better person. Some people talk the talk but don't walk the walk. They love to go on and on about healthy this or that but never make an effort to get in shape. You are one of the ones who did and for that you should be rightly proud. Good going! -- Lou

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    Wonderful blog! I was the skinny kid too so I can relate to how you felt after gaining weight. But you're doing great and you ARE going to reach that goal. I'm cheering for you every step of the way.
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KNITTABLES 1/12/2011 2:23PM

    Your doing great and you will get there.

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KENDRACARROLL 1/12/2011 10:32AM

    You're going to get there. But remember, reaching this finish line doesn't mean you're done and it also doesn't mean your goal weight will stick. The work continues - always :)

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/12/2011 9:50AM

    You are going to get there and I have a feeling you will be there sooner rather than later!! I will be cheering as loudly as I can when you do!!!

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IAMFIREWORK 1/12/2011 9:14AM

    Your strength radiates and is truly inspiring. And it's that strength that WILL push you to your goals sooner, not later. I will see you t the finish line, I will just be there a little later (I have a much longer way to travel) And when I do, I will give you that high five we both deserve.

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