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New Years eve: last blog of the year

Friday, December 31, 2010


Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark.
- Rabindranath Tagore

Celebrate endings - for they precede new beginnings.
- jlh

I decided today I would blog just once more before the new year. this past year has seen many ups, downs, and so many inbetweens. I'm ready for the new year to begin so I can have a fresh start, fresh ideas, and fresh goals. Wait.........I can have that every day of the year. I could but sometimes I don't. The new year always brings with it the spark of new things to come, clean fresh starts, new goals and new resolutions. Some are kept some are forgotten long before they even begin. I have made two: reach my goal weight, and get myself on track with my budget. I'm getting there with the budget, which may I add is a lot like a new healthy lifestyle. You have to cut somethings, add others, and keep on track daily. I've kept it simple, im following the plan both in my budget and in my lifestyle where food, exercise and water are concered.

So I end this old year with so many new plans for the new year. I didn't even have to wait for the new calender, I began the beginning of the week. Good luck to you all in the coming year. Clean out the old and bring in the new.

Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 1/1/2011 1:50PM

    I think the energy is different at the beginning of the year. But I agree we get a fresh start daily and we will do this! Congrats in advance on a successful year! emoticon

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IUHRYTR 1/1/2011 10:08AM

    Focus on losing one pound at a time. Anyone can lose a pound. Doesn't matter how long it takes. When you do, congratulate yourself and then aim for one more pound. Each success will build confidence and make reaching your goal weight easier than trying to focus on the total you want you lose. Best of success to you. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 12/31/2010 8:21PM

    Happy New Years. All the best for your family in 2011 emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 12/31/2010 12:55PM

    May 2011 bring you the best :)
Happy New Year!
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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 12/31/2010 7:31AM

    Happy New Year Michelle! 2011 can be your year to shine.
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Moving forward to a new year

Sunday, December 26, 2010

As this year draws to a close i'm able to look back and see where i've come from and now look forward to where I want to go. I have so many new wishes for the coming year. I want to see my "magic number" appear in the scale window, I want to shake off this funk i've been in now for a bit, I want to see my daughter married May 7th, I want to watch my grandson become the wonderful little boy he is turning into. I want to be happy. I"m not looking for riches, or gold, I just want to be happy. I guess that is all any of us can ask for at any given time. we just have to work at it. Happiness comes so easy to some and the rest of us have to really work at it. I'm learning to see my blessings each and everyday. I write of them in my journal daily. Helps me to see i've been blessed.

So as I approach this new year with so much excitement and the plans I have for the coming year, i'm blessed to have spark, i'm blessed to have Weight watchers, I'm just plain blessed in this journey. I have made so many friends, they help to hold me up, and give me so many great ideas for the new me i'm becoming. After all we are all works in progress as this juncture in our lives. None of us is perfect yet. we all have a ways to go to get there, but i'm proud to walk this path with all of you.

I sat down this morning and wrote my goals out for the coming year. I have my plan in place and with a little help from my friends I will hope to reach a couple of them. The plan is pretty easy, mostly same ole same ole. I need to exercise, drink my water, get my fruits and veggies, my rest. the rest should fall into place once i've taken care of me.

So today I begin my new journey for the new year. I have so far to go and really i'm right there. the journey is funny like that, it can lead you all over or right next door.

Michelle.

  
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JUNEBUG1944 12/29/2010 11:31PM

    Oh yeah, you'll get to your goal weight with no problem...just don't stress about it and you'll do it! Besides, Pam needs your help... emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 12/29/2010 5:20PM

    You are going to see that magic number before you know it. I hope it's soon though because I stink at maintaining and I want YOU to get to the maintenance stage so you can show me how to do it!!!! 2011 is going to be a GREAT year for all of us!!
emoticon Here's to our many blessings!!!
Pam

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NEWNAC304 12/28/2010 3:36PM

    Wishing you the best of luck on your journey! You're doing great, you can do it!

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NEWGUN71 12/27/2010 7:16PM

    Sounds like you have made yourself a map and have your journey planned. Good luck and looking forward to a great year for all of us.

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BARBARAJ73 12/27/2010 12:31PM

    emoticon Have a wonderful year ahead!

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KNITTABLES 12/27/2010 3:35AM

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CHINAGAL 12/26/2010 10:54PM

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IUHRYTR 12/26/2010 9:07PM

    Plan for one pound at a time. Makes our goals easier to visualize and to reach. emoticon -- Lou

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/26/2010 8:33PM

    WE are all here with you on this journey, cheering you on to success, one day at a time! We will see great things this year, I know we will.

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KENDRACARROLL 12/26/2010 10:20AM

    No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers. ~Author Unknown

They say that nobody is perfect. Then they tell you practice makes perfect. I wish they'd make up their minds. ~Wilt Chamberlain

The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four. Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye. ~Winston Churchill

I'll be there with you in 2011 emoticon
Let's make it great!

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THIAWINTER 12/26/2010 7:55AM

    I'm on the journey with you! I'm blessed here, and I'm also a Weight Watcher. Here's to the journey! emoticon

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NWLIFESRC 12/26/2010 7:53AM

    Have a great journey

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Christmas with my family

Saturday, December 25, 2010

I will post a few pics hopefully this weekend. My daughter borrowed my camera as hers won't work. So I don't have it to download what we took. My grandson was awesome this year. we do it where he gets a gift, then it is someoneelses turn for a gift and so on. He waited his turn, and as he gets wayyyy more then us we give him a second in a row, he stopped us and told us it was his mommas turn for a present. I was so proud of him. He is so grown up sometimes. we told him he couldn't do gifts untill we all finished with dinner, when we where done he came to each of us in turn to ask if we were finished. It is amazing how grown up a three year old can be. I'm truly blessed this holiday.

I also will have a pic of my "Christmas tree of decorations". I look at it and can't believe all the good days I had. they were not all in a row but I got a lot of "stars" for my tree. I have a new calender for the new year and smiley faces this time. I'm going to succeed one moment at a time. I think this is a lot about us as we grow and about the losses. sometimes I forget that and having a visual helps me to see that really i'm doing great. I have bad days, but in the end i'm holding my own. I"m not losing like I would hope, but i;'m losing, i'm staying in the same weight range when i don't. I need to start seeing the glass as half full instead of always half empty.

So as the new year approaches i'm hoping for a sence of renewal. Rebirth so to speak. A fresh year, with fresh starts, fresh ideas and outlooks. What more do we need? nothing.

I want to wish all a very Merry christmas this holiday season. Be blessed in all that you do.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/26/2010 8:31PM

    You will have a wonderful new year, Michelle! I'm so glad you enjoyed your Christmas with your family. Enjoy that precious grandson of yours and all these wonderful memories you are making with him!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 12/26/2010 7:13AM

    What a great attitude! Part of the journey is not losing the weight, but changing our thought processes. You're doing that, my friend ... and you're doing it well!

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KENDRACARROLL 12/25/2010 2:16PM

    Merry Christmas!
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IUHRYTR 12/25/2010 9:23AM

    That was so polite and grownup of him to wait for Momma. Precious moments. Hope you have a blessed day. -- Lou

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SYLVIALYNN2 12/25/2010 8:31AM

    Sounds like a lovely time with family. Glad the Reward Tree inspired you. Maybe you could make a Snowman for January. a Heart or Cupid for February and a Shamrock for March.

I can just see Ms. Snowwoman dressed in a lot of gold and silver stars for bling. A couple of rows of stars for a belt and hat band. Other colors for shoes and gloves.

Merry Christmas and wishing you and yours a happy, healthy, prosperous 2011.

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Week 3: Weigh in on Christmas eve

Friday, December 24, 2010

emoticonI refuse to go quietly into that good night. I"m down 0.2 this week. I worked hard for that. I was expecting a bit more. But i"m not giving up or in, i'm not going quietly and i'm not ready to quit. My weight doesn't have me yet. I'm actually down 2 inches total in the last month. took those measurements today also. So even though my weight is plugging along my body is taking on shape, definition and soon the weight will come with it. So today Christmas eve begins my new week. Week three on the new weight watchers program. I"m not seeing a huge change in my weight from it but i'm still working out the kinks. At least that is what I like to tell myself. emoticonI'm going to win this battle of the bulge if it takes me another year to do it. I wanted to be at goal by years end, that isn't going to happen, but in a glass half full kinda way i'm down another 5 pounds this year. I know that sounds really lame, but when your close to goal, stop and start as many times as I do, stress, holidays now, well it all works to hold us back. And if I'm truthful with you all and myself it is probably because i'm getting settled at this weight. I like the size i'm at, I like the way I look. I know it isn't in the healthy BMI range yet, and it isn't goal, but I'm ok here for the time being. Is this the weight I want to be? Nope. I'm still holding out for that magic number, so if it takes me another year, Oh well at least it will stay off that way.

So I give it my all not to get too upset over these things. Not that I don't, I feel like I give it my all and then to step on the scales and loose a tiny amount is really disheartening. but again i'm doing my best to see that i'm making headway. Rome wasn't built in a night and I guess this weight is going to come off easy. Some good things are worth fighting for. So I will sit down once again, plan my week stratagey, change up a few things, and then give it heck. There is still next week.

Happy holidays to you all and be blessed.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/26/2010 8:29PM

    Congratulations on those inches! They are a wonderful way to know you are changing things, even if your scale doesn't cooperate. Michelle, you've had a great year. You are healthier, stronger and more focused than ever. Concentrate on finding the happiness and joy there is in life, enjoying your health (and looks, because yes, you look fabulous!) Hang in there hon, make 2011 YOUR year!!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 12/26/2010 7:10AM

    What a wonderful gift you've given yourself this year ... better health, better habits. You're doing so well!

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KNITTABLES 12/24/2010 2:40PM

    Merry Christmas. a small loss is a great loss. You are heading in the right direction and you have lost inches too. That is awesome.
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KENDRACARROLL 12/24/2010 12:25PM

    Don't let the scale get in the way of your feeling well. (The scale is E-V-I-L :))
We'll continue doing this in 2011 - it's our life!
Have a wonderful Christmas!
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IUHRYTR 12/24/2010 7:57AM

    Keep working toward that one pound, little by little. -- Lou

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Week 2: Christmas gifts you can't wrap up

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.
- Helen Keller

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in this world.
- Helen Keller

I recieved a call from my son whom lives in vermont yesterday. As some of you may know we haven't been on the best of terms. He is a troubled young man and sometimes being mom and being the one that he lashes out at, well we haven't been on the best of terms. Anyhow I recieved an email which turned into a phone call. My son lost his job about two months ago and even though he said it wasn't his fault.....well I didn't believe him. As an addict can do he lies a bit more than usual. So you really have to take what he says with a grain of salt and move forward. I know that sounds a bit harsh from a parent but once burned twice shy....anyhow he had been fighting for it back. Went to all the available chanels and he won. He had witnesses and managers in his corner. He won that battle. He is at a different location but he is back to work. As a parent i'm so proud he took it upon himself to say "hey wait a minute I was wronged", he actually stood up for himself and he won. I will be proud for him and hope he is growing up a bit. we talked, he listened, I listened. Who knows maybe this is a step for both of us in the healing prosess. Oh it may take a lot more truths to be revealed on my part, but i'm going to be alright and I pray each day for him. Like I tell him, it is one day, one step at a time.

He is taking steps to help himself and i'm taking steps to help me. I'm getting healthier, heck I am healthier, i'm learning to relax, and i'm trying not to be the one to fix the worlds troubles. I did tell my son that I can't be held responsible for his choices. See that word comes into play alot, choices, anyhow, He made the choices with the friends he chose, I didn't. He had the same opportunities as his sister, he chose the path he is traveling. You can't go back but you can always move forward. I'm moving myself forward. each choice I make for me is a choice I make to further my life, my health, my happiness. It again boils down to our choices.

So yesterday that one phone call gave me a gift, a prayer answered. It can't be wrapped but it arrived in the same pretty packaging as all the rest......my beautiful baby boy is becoming a man.

Michelle.

  
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SYLVIALYNN2 12/25/2010 8:57AM

    Reading this on Christmas Day. I have a troubled daughter and it breaks my heart to see her struggle because of her choices. I can beat myself up thinking that maybe I should not have divorced her dad when she was 15, but now that she is 38, she is an adult and responsible for her choices. I have not talked to her since Thanksgiving, when I went to visit her. I could not stay for the visit as the pot smell was overwhelming. I had asked her before, that while it is her home, I am not comfortable being exposed to it and am disappointed that she was disrespectful in not giving me warning so I could decide to stay or leave.

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CANDOK1260 12/25/2010 7:44AM

    your son sounds like my twin brother. hope this is the new begining you waiting for. I have wish you and your a great holiday season. emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 12/22/2010 5:00PM

    Im reading this late Michelle - but I am glad I did. I have a son that sounds very much like your son. My son has bipolar disorder and his CHOICE for many years was illegal drugs over bipolar meds. Long story that is not worth going into - you may have a similar version of it of your own!!! I too, am always grateful when I see a glimmer of any sort of maturity and responsibility - even the small ones...
What I have always told him is this.....
"You can always get out the the hole you have dug for yourself...but you have to put the shovel down.
I am truly glad for you today - because I know the feeling that comes with this type of gift!!
Merry Christmas!
Pam

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TITUS2WMN 12/20/2010 10:58AM

    Michelle,

If your son shows interest in the Lord and lives near West Townshend, VT, there is a great, small church there. The pastor has a very colorful past and is a great discipler of men. It is called Calvary Chapel of West River Valley http://www.calvarychapelwrv.org/.R>
:o) Christine

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/20/2010 12:55AM

    That's grat news Michelle! I know the phone call made you happpy. I hope he continues to grow and mature and turn his life into what it could be. You are doing the right thing and choosing to back away and let him learn may be hard for you, but it's in his best interest, and making choices that take YOU where you want to be is the best gift you could every possibly give to yourself!
Merry Christmas, Michelle!!

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JUNEBUG1944 12/19/2010 7:04PM

    That is terrific, Michelle. You must be in seventh heaven! I wish you both the best...Merry Christmas...what a present! You couldn't get a better one!

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KENDRACARROLL 12/19/2010 3:07PM

    I bet your heart was light for the moment and you certainly deserve this little victory. No matter what tomorrow brings, I'd count this as a pretty great Christmas present.
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DARLENEK04 12/19/2010 2:11PM

  Michelle,
I think you have a lot of inner wisdom, and God is telling
you how best to help your son. As hard as it is, sometimes
the best thing you can do for them is back off and let them
learn some of life's lessons.
I firmly believe your son is on the right track by his going
to battle with those who wronged him, and the fact that he
had assembled his little army of witnesses and so forth, shows
he is maturing.
Stand your ground, know you are doing the right thing, and
eventually, he will come around.

Love and Hugs,
Darlene

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KNITTABLES 12/19/2010 1:44PM

    That is such great news and I am so happy for you and for him. Hopefully he is on the good track and will stay on it. Take care and keep relaxing. emoticon emoticon

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IUHRYTR 12/19/2010 8:19AM

    emoticon news. Hope he continues on a better path. -- Lou

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 12/19/2010 6:48AM

    That's emoticon news Michelle! emoticon and emoticon wishes to you and your son.

Myrna

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BEABEELEVER 12/19/2010 4:50AM

    Reconciliation with family members is priceless!! I think everyone has a family member struggling with some type of addiction. I am so glad to hear a success story.

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