Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Im ready to get this journey moving down the road. I've been taking a moment and letting the days slip by me. Now it is almost the end of the year and my second goal for the year was to meet my goal. I'm going to come up short yet again. Oh I know i've reached so many goals this year, i've suceeded in all that counts, but I really wanted to reach my goal weigh. I wanted to finally settle down and get this part done. well that isn't going to happen this month. Oh I could do the "colon cleanse" and get it done like in a day. Of course tomorrow it would be right back to normal. Wow the things some will do to shed a few pounds.
Today is a new day for me. I've had an epiphany on the treadmill, yup walking does that to me, I saw me as I am and I saw me as I want to be. At goal. Now mind you i'm not going to be much smaller, i'm about there, it isn't about the size it is about the part of actually finishing something. I watched the biggest loser last night and Elizabeth had the same idea. She just wanted to finish something she began. Oh i've started a lot of things. But i've finished a couple and I can proudly say i'm still doing it. LIke smoking. I quit that some 10 years ago. I can't say i'm disappointed in that decision. Yuk. I stood up for my daughter and her choices and I still have held by that all these 8 years later. I'm strong when it counts. I"ve taken care of my son and let him go. That was a hard one for me. We don't see eye to eye right now because I guess i'm the reason for all his troubles. this is not true, but when your an addict someone is always to blame but you. I'm living with this and i'm handling it, day by day. So why is it that dieting, weight loss, is so darn hard. What is it about the control food has over us that we can't seem to beat? Im trying to change my thinking on this and maybe just maybe I will win this coming year. Oh I know I can.
I'm ready? Yup, I'm more than ready.