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Lessons from the scale

Friday, November 26, 2010

Ok, this morning in my normal weigh in day. So even though I hopped on yesterday I still do my usual weigh in.....well surprise i'm down .6 for the week. Ok lesson here: never get on those darn things before your time. they will lie, cheat, and steal their way into your subconsious. So today I treated to a wonderful surprise but also i've seen why weighing on your normal day is imperative to your sanity.

Well that holiday is passed. I survived it, ate according to my plan, and still had a loss. I'm a bit nervous about the next one though. That isn't just one day to handle it is a party and then cookies, and then the day. I can do this, i'm strong and i'm on to my "whittle away the pounds" for this week to reach goal. I had a friend lead me to a blog he wrote and it was based on the lumberjack and his swipes at chopping down the doesn't take just one chop, or ten... it takes a bunch of swipes to get the tree down. The same is true for us. Just because the scales don't show our successes each week doesn't mean we are not whittling away at the whole thing. each thing we do for our bodies is one more swipe towards reaching our goal. It made me realize i'm doing all I can for me. I exericse a lot and I love it. I drink my waters, eat my good foods and every now and again I give it a treat. It will all come together, I just need to be patient. So the next time you think about giving up think about the lunberjack and his tree.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/29/2010 5:42PM

    Yay! Glad you had a loss on your "regular" weigh in day!! Woohoo!!! Ok, I'm getting to this late, I know..I've been so behind! I'm still cheering for you though!

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JUNEBUG1944 11/26/2010 9:24PM

    Glad to see your scale made you happy today! Way to go, my friend! Just keep at'll come. Slow, but sure, wins the race!

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IUHRYTR 11/26/2010 6:19PM

    I know this sounds like a broken record, but if we take things one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time, we will eventually succeed. Hang in there. -- Lou

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/26/2010 3:23PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KNITTABLES 11/26/2010 1:54PM

    Scales do lie but you are so right. You are doing so well and you know emoticon. Have a great Friday.

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 11/26/2010 10:39AM

    emoticonI'm soooooo happy for you!!! You're figuring this out! You're making this work!!! emoticon

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/26/2010 9:01AM

    emoticon Keep swinging that axe, Michelle! emoticon

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JESSIELOVE78 11/26/2010 8:06AM

    emoticon blog. You are so right!

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AMUNOIR 11/26/2010 7:48AM

    scales ge you up & down

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Happy Thanksgiving

Thursday, November 25, 2010

emoticonFirst and foremost I want to say Happy Thanksgiving to all my spark friends. This has been a journey this year that is for sure and you all have made it worth the trip. Thank you. I"m truly blessed to have you all in my corner.

Today I decided I would weigh in because since today I may choose bad options, I wanted to be "safe". well the scales didn't budge. So do I wait one day? will it really matter? I don't think it will be whatever it says I will post tomorrow. You know it is very disheartening to do all the right things and hop on those scales and expect to see a change, even a slight change, and nothing. You surely deflate. I know I did. I was so upset. I sat down and went back over my week to make sure I hadn't done anything I wasn't suppose to and forgot. Nope I did it all right. But I got in a lot of exercise, maybe too much and not enough food. Funny how not eating enough can cause as much trouble as eating too much. Funny thing our bodies.

I had my moment. I"m over it. I know that I did all that I could do. I can't go back only forward. I will do my darndest to have this week catch up with me next week. I have started exercising like a fiend and maybe I need to take a day off and just relax. I used to do sunday like that and then for some reason I was so wrapped up in exercise I kept going. Who knows maybe I need a day of rest both in food and exercise. Well ok exericse, never food. That would be a catastrophe for me.

Ok. I 'm off to put my turkey in the oven. I wonder when I get to go to my childrens homes and get to eat and bring the rolls. lol.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/29/2010 5:40PM

    Hmmm..maybe if you are exercising more you need to account for that and adjust your calorie intake? Not sure how WW works that, I did WW years ago, and it's foggy...but maybe you're doing too much exercise for the amount of calories you are eating and it's stalling your loss?

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KNITTABLES 11/26/2010 12:48AM

    Happy Thanksgiving. emoticon

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JUNEBUG1944 11/25/2010 4:13PM

    Happy Thanksgiving to you, dear friend! Did ya ever think ya may be gaining more muscle? Lots of exercise will do that.

My sister graduated to doing the holidays when my mother turned around niece started the Christmas cooking when she had her first baby (he's 15, now) because her husband refuses to go ANYWHERE for Christmas...he wants Christmas at their house so the kids can get up to Santa at home. Of course, my sister and I help...I do the pies (at least 4 this year) and my sister does...actually, I can't remember what she does, but the three of us are working in the kitchen to get that meal on the table. We have a great time!

So, to answer your question, probably when you are 75 or as soon as you get old and feeble... emoticon

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JESSIELOVE78 11/25/2010 12:28PM

    Happy Thanksgiving!!! Have an emoticon day!! You can do it.

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IUHRYTR 11/25/2010 12:27PM

    Perhaps reading my blog, "Are You a Lumberjack?" will hope put things into focus. I don't promote and beg people to read what I write like some people, but this one may be helpful. Stay the course. Never give. Always believe in yourself. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 11/25/2010 10:52AM

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/25/2010 7:55AM

    Happy Thanksgiving Michelle! Don't be too hard on yourself. Sometimes our bodies take awhile to show the results of our good habits. Have a blessed day with your family!

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GLOWORM1963 11/25/2010 7:12AM

    Happy Thanksgiving ~ Hope you have a Wonderful Day!!!

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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

emoticonI'm sitting here this morning wondering what do I blog about. I mean yes i'm on this journey, yes I exercise, my family (though very disfunctional) is mine, I mean am I really happy with my journey? both in my weight loss and in my personal life. I mean each day is a journey into ourselves really. I went back to work yesterday after a much needed break. It was wonderful. I wasn't stressed even before I got there and I took each happening in stride and the day just flew by and I wasn't stressed from it. Why can't each day be that easy? My weight loss journey for the moment in on track. I'm planning and doing what is needed, i'm relaxed, i'm secure in knowing i'm doing what i need to do to reach the finish line of this part of the race. Why isn't each week this secure?

We all have our own demons we fight each day, weather they be financial, personal, family, diet, weight, we all have stresses in our life. I guess the key is how we handle that stress. Now i'm not going to tell you my secret because really I don't even know what that would be. I stress daily, I worry over bills, My family as i've said is disfunctional to say the least, and my journey is always up or down depending on the day. I have no answer to the million dollar question called: what is life?

I have no answers, but I know one thing......i'm learning i'm strong, I can win this small battle, I can see past the past and move forward. If I don't I will surely drive myself insane. I wish I could wave my magic wand and make all the troubles in my life disapear. Not going to be. I wish I could win the lottery and poff all my financial woes are gone. nope, that isnt going to happen either. I wish I could take that magical pill that makes me thin in one week....yeah right, not going to ever happen people. I just have to take each day, step, and moment and make it mine. I have to own my troubles, find the cure or what works for me and smile. Most of all smile through it all.

this is thanksgiving week, I've been thinking over what i'm thankful for. Oh there is daughter, my son, my husband, my grandson. It is funny my home, my job, and such come in at the bottom. Family is the key to happiness. Now mine is a mess, my son is an addict, my daughter is working fulltime and going to school fulltime and with the help of her( dare I say this) black husband to be, they are raising a beautiful child, My hubby bless his heart is so unhealthy right now, hight cholesterol, thyroid, trying to quit smoking, (we are working on all this), then there is me.............Oh really I'm just trying to hold it all together. I handle the day to day, the planning, the finanes. When they fall into trouble I blame myself because hey I should of planned better. Then I try to work on me.

Well guys, i'm working on me. I'm doing it. One day at a time. Oh I messup, fall down on my face alot. I mean it has taken me two years almost to lose 25 pounds. Yeah they say slow and steady wins the race, but come on now. So in the midst of all that is worrisome in our lives. we have much to be thankful for. I'm very thankful for spark, and for being able to type this mess out and clear my mind for another day.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/26/2010 3:21PM

    Great blog...even the "dare I say part" (the pic of the cute little boy does give that fact away)LOL
But sweets you are not alone ALL of US have some dysfunction in the family. Hell if Adam and Eve could not get it together who are we. BUT I do like that despite all that is going on you are striving to respond to the stress in the most positive way. My youngests child's dad is an addict and my dad was an alcoholic it is a hard place to be as a parent. BUT keep up the good work that you are doing on YOU!!!! AND continue to take care of you no matter what. I am trying to reduce my stress as well so we can strive to keep each other sane! Huggs and Kisses dimi

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PVILLELADY 11/24/2010 5:28AM

    I swear we're living nearly identical lives... Thanks for the reminder to be thankful for the good in my life, and not resentful of what I don't have! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/23/2010 9:50PM

    Thanks for sharing Michelle. You are proving yourself to be stronger than you ever imagined, and learning you are deserving of the love of yourself and others. That is something to be thankful for! Is there such a thing as a family that is NOT dysfunctional?? Just wondering...but yes, you said it, they are OURS dysfunction and all, and we love them dearly. We might not understand them, or know what to do for them, and sometimes we just have to let go, but we love them always.
You are doing a great job, my friend. Just keep on taking care of yourself and the rest always seems to work out.
Know that you are appreciated and loved..just for being you.

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IUHRYTR 11/23/2010 8:22PM

    None of us are perfect and just think if you hadn't started on weight loss two years ago you would still carry that extra 25 pounds. Would that have made you happy? Probably not. So be proud of how far you have come and remember that while we would like to be at our goal weight right NOW, we know it will take time. But every pound lost is one positive step to where we want to be. Hang in there. -- Lou

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JESSIELOVE78 11/23/2010 11:09AM

    Thank you for the wonderful blog. There is so much we have to be thankful for. Have a happy and safe Thanksgiving.

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KENDRACARROLL 11/23/2010 11:08AM

    As moms we just want to fix everything and getting to the realization that we can't is just heartbreaking. But this is real and this is life. We cannot fix anything but ourselves, and the ones around us need to come to that same realization in order to help themselves. Oh yes, we can suggest and we can point out, we can even scream and threaten, and maybe, sometimes, we are heard; maybe not.
We give our kids the basics and then they need to fly on their own.
Yes, we'll probably always be there to pick up the pieces (and die a little bit more inside each time we do), but maybe that's normal. Maybe that's what moms are born to do. Caring moms anyway.
So, given your circumstances, make it your best life!
Wow, we're really all in this together!

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KNITTABLES 11/23/2010 10:58AM

    What a great blog. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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CHINAGAL 11/23/2010 9:49AM

    I'm thankful for sparkfriends like you that help keep things in perspective. A friend says "I give my troubles to the Lord, but then I snatch them right back." I think that's true of all of us - we just can't let go of the stress and worry. Sometimes I think the reason I'm so heavy is that I'm carrying too much of everyone else's load, but I know that doing so doesn't really lessen their burden - it's just what moms do!

Thanks for a thought provoking blog. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

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NUTRON3 11/23/2010 7:19AM

    Great blog!

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I'm taking this all the way

Monday, November 22, 2010

If you aren't going all the way, why go at all?

~Joe Namath

I borrowed this from my WW team. It speaks so true for a lot of us. We start out on this journey with so many ideas, plans, goals. Then as the time goes by we sort of just do. We stop planning, the ideas seem few and far between, and goals? What were those? But i'm here for the long haul. Oh i've had stops, restarts, moments, and emoticonmoments. So today i've decided I want it all. I want the gold stars, I want the health, I want to be fit. I want to be in a healthy BMI range. I'm almost there, for me to quit now would be crazy. But alas many do. Many quit before they see the light at the end of the tunnel. Not I!!!!!!!!!!!

So today my goal is to focus yet again. I need to figure out what it is I want from this, from me, from the world at large. I can do this, I will do this. I won't take no I can't for an answer. So today decide what it is you want and go for it. No excuses why you can't, just do it. After all that is what this journey is all about.....just doing it.


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JESSIELOVE78 11/24/2010 9:27AM

    emoticon emoticon You are awesome!!!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/23/2010 9:45PM

    I'm right there with ya! Focus is something that seems to elude me sometimes, but together we can do this!!

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JUNEBUG1944 11/22/2010 5:15PM

    Me, too! It's a long journey, but we must and will stay on it. It will never end, but we don't want good things to end, do we?

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KNITTABLES 11/22/2010 11:53AM

    Great blog, great attitude and emoticon

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IUHRYTR 11/22/2010 9:38AM

    emoticon emoticon = Your motivation! -- Lou

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TBONE13 11/22/2010 7:04AM

  great attitude, good luck !!

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Focus: that is my goal for today

Saturday, November 20, 2010

When you dance, your purpose is not to get to a certain place on the floor.
It's to enjoy each step along the way.
- Wayne Dyer

The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate.
- Oprah Winfrey

My husband was looking over my shoulder last night (he will do that from time to time), he gives me ideas, none I would use, and he noticed my pic. I thought he had seen it....he said that didnt' even look like me. He said the camera must of added pounds because I don't look that big in person. I told him that was the nicest thing he could of said to me. I thought my pic was wonderful. Now I see i'm actually smaller than that. Wow, I have come a long way.

Sometimes I focus so much on what i'm doing wrong on this journey I forget what i'm doing right. My friend suggested a motivation board to work on this weekend. You know I felt that was a wonderful Idea. I have yet to do my collage for spark and myself. It seems like it is time to sit down and do that. I went through some pics. OMG is what comes to mind. They are sad. sad for me that is. In a couple you would never recognize me when my kids where small. I was near 200 and rather large. I looked and it made me so sad for her. that lonely woman in those pics. Yup I was lonely. My ex wasn't there in the physical sense and when he was he sure wasn't there for me mentally. I was very lonely and I guess food and sleep where my best friends. Oh we were close, I slept all day long and when it neared time for him to come home I would do the dishes, start supper, throw in a load of get the picture. It was a messy divorce and many years later I learned I was depressed. I just thought I was a miserable person. That dark place is somewhere I don't ever want to be again.

I thank my friend for leading me to spark. I also thank my husband for the many times he has listened to me, given me advice, told me he never saw me as big, all these things have made me strong. I also want to thank my Team alabama team mates for the humor, the exericses, the challenges, I want to thank my WW team for the same. You guys have made me sit down and focus on me, you have given me the motivation I sometimes needed to finally get to this pount.

I know I sound like i'm receiving my award, and really I did yesterday, 50000 spark points. that is a lot of reading, exercise, and just plain sparking. But really this journey would of been very lonely without you all. Thank you for giving my Focus on me for the first time in a very long time.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/23/2010 9:43PM

    You've made such progress, and I am so glad you are starting to see that! You aren't alone and you will never have to go back to that place. Embrace the new you and be proud of yourself!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/21/2010 8:50AM

    I am so happy for you and your progress!!! I am glad that your friend lead you to sparkpeople.

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IUHRYTR 11/20/2010 7:37PM

    Isn't seeing progress a nice feeling, validating all of our hard work and discipline? Stay the course and keep believing in yourself. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 11/20/2010 6:55PM

    Your very welcome and you have worked so hard to get where you are and you look great. Keep up the great work and I am so thankful that I have you as a spark friend. emoticon

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JUNEBUG1944 11/20/2010 5:32PM

    You're've been there for us, also. That's what a team is all about...helping each other. We can't do this alone...I know I've tried it alone many times before! You've come a long way and overcome adversity. You look great...but more important, you feel great, both mentally and physically! You go, girl!
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