Friday, November 19, 2010
You've got to be kidding me. But I worked so hard. Oh well the results are in, im only down a little .2. I mean what is that? Yup I know I should take it and be proud for the loss. Yup, I know I should look at other ways I may have lost, my pants are loose (I'm almost to goal, all my pants are loose), I might have built muscle (in what my big toe), I earned my "stars", I worked out a lot, I didn't sit around and eat. Yet those darn, dreaded, hated, scales let me down. I mean I was hoping for say half pound, maybe a full pound if I was really lucky. Nope, not in the cards this week. I pretty much stayed the same, because I had gained that the week before.
I'm so close to goal, 5 lbs, so I know this part could be the toughest, oh I know all the whys, whatfors, and all that good stuff. But come on body cut me some slack. I give you what you need, want, and a bit inbetween, I exercise faithfully (I really like exercise), I drink water that I would rather be anything else, I sleep, I relax. What more do you want from me. I make mistakes, yes, i'm human. But the scales, oh the scales made me so mad today.
So I titled this blog "is all this really worth it?" because sometimes it can get so darn frustrating. Your body is suppose to be your best friend, but it isn't, it fights you every step of the way, you give it what it needs, it wants more, yOu exercise, it gives you sore muscles for days, You drink the water it requires, you can't stay out of the bathroom no matter that you just went. It fights you every darn step of the way.
Well not this time. I'm fighting it. I'm not quiting, though right now I want to, i'm not giving up on myself. I've done that a thousand times before. Nope today I do what I always do, I have my coffee, exercise for about an hour, eat a good breakfast, and begin anew. I'm strong, i'm determined, i'm in control (right now), and i'm going to see a loss of some caliber next week. day by day I will get to my goal.
So again I ask me is all this really worth it? Oh you betcha it is.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Standing in the inspiring vision of my future, I boldly take every step - large and small - with courage and intent.
I did it. I earned an ornament on my "tree". I planned, I followed, I stopped myself, I had a talk with myself, I saw it through. It was that darn ornament that I wanted for the tree on the fridge that got me motivated to see it through. Motivation comes in many forms. Mine is coming in the forms of on the calendar and ornaments on the "tree". I found a felt tree yesterday and my hubby bought me glue sticks incase the foam stickers I found didn't stick. He wanted to put an ornament on that tree to try it out but I wouldn't let him. I wanted to earn it myself. I did!!!!!!!! I was so proud when I put my ornament on that darn tree. Of course my sweet hubby says " I sure hope that isn't the only ornament you end up with" He says this with a smile, he knows my "moments" can happen for any reason. But I planned and I followed. Why oh why can't I do that all the time? I wouldn't be normal if I did.
I have weaknesses, you have weaknesses. This journey is all about finding out those weaknesses and then finding a cure for what ails us. For me it is snacking. Not out of hunger but out of appetite. they taste good, so I eat. So i'm not buying that any longer. I have that control, If it isn't in the house I can't have a moment. Well I can, but the triggers aren't here.
So i'm off to see today through. I'm going to show you a tree in the end filled with ornaments and a calender lined with stars...but most important of all is the star on the top of the tree that shows i've reached my goal.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Grrrr, when will the aha moment happen? You know the one where all this healthy lifestyle clicks in place and makes so much sence. I mean does it ever, will I ever get it? I just don't see how. I still struggle the old struggles. My main one is the mindless munching that occurs when I sit down in the evenings. The one that happens after dinner is done, the dishes are washed and the kitchen is suppose to be closed. I sit down to watch a bit of tv and wham, it hits, I"m up, i'm down, i'm up, i'm down. You get the picture. I"m an endless yoyo heading to the pantry. My husband says he is going to put a lock on the pantry door. Hey that may just work. lol
Really though all jokes aside this is the one part of my journey I have yet to overcome. It isn't that I don't have the points (calories) for such moments. I do. But I set a goal for myself and it gets me so frustrated that I have no willpower over the snacks. My days are wonderful, I get up and I exercise each morning without fail. Usually anywhere from 30-50 minutes depending on my morning rush. I get all my waters in, i've got my water bottles in the fridge refilled daily (one holds three the other two) five cups mandatory that I drink , then the other liquids and more water. I get them all. I eat my veggies/fruits religously, so much so that I just do it. I plan, I write it all down, I head to spark, I do the message boards, I journal daily, I blog, I do it all. I just can't get the grip on the mindless munching. I don't know what it is. I"ve listened, i've read, I know it is boredom pure and simple. No i'm not hungry, No i'm not sad, No I don't eat my emotions, i'm the one that gets sick at my stomach when i'm stressed. It is boredom, or habit most likely.
So I have my little stickers, my star, my new calender on the fridge, My hubby is doing my tree (couldn't find anything to use yesterday for that), I have these cool little ornament stickers to use on my tree, the stars for the calendar. I'm ready to begin my holiday transformation. But today it is bare. I want the star to be my goal weight....the biggest one yet.
For those of you wondering what i'm talking about, I give myself gold stars for days that I succeed, that means all parts of the journey not one or two, No success not star, I put those on a calendar so I can see the days of success add up, A team member came up with a tree for the holidays, a success story and decoration at the same time. A few of us on ww are doing this. I found the ornament stickers at the dollar store yesterday and that was an awesome way to show my success. Now to succeed. One of my team members wants a pic of my tree at the end. I hope I can make me proud with at least a few decorations, but really I want the big star at the top. My Goal.
So even though my aha moment may not have happened, i'm living the lifestyle that I choose. I have moments, I have highs, lows, and sometimes I fall down. But I always get back up and dust off my a$# and get back to basics.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Ok, it is time for me to set some goals for myself. Oh i've made many plans, came up with a few good hearted ideas, but it is time to write them down and put them where I can see it. Not only that I need to have a time line. I have the time line because my Team Alabama has a challenge going till Dec. 31. My spark anniversary by the way. I have five pounds to lose and I need to get it going. I know we shouldn't put a time line on our weight loss efforts, really people after almost three years.....I think this one time will be ok. I need to get it done and move on to the next teir of my journey......maintenance.
I bloged each day last week about how I was doing each day. I handled the weekend like a pro. Yes my friends I got the
I'm working today on number five. Never and I say this with meaning, never have I had that many great days in a row. How you may ask did I do it? Shear will power and want power rolled into one. I have the want and now it seems i've found the will. The daily stars are working wonders for my psyche and the heedy power it gives is amazing. One of my ww team members took my idea, and put it to a christmas tree.....I'm borrowing that one also. Wow, what a great idea. So today, my staycation day one, i'm going to get a few small chores done, head to town to the dollar tree and see what I can find for my "weight loss tree".
Now that I have a plan, I need to set my goals to paper, again a trip to the dollar store is in order. I want to post my goals and plan on the fridge so each time i'm in the kitchen I can review and be reminded of where i'm at and where I was. I have to go through some old pics, i'm not looking forward to seeing me like that, but it needs to be done. One of them needs to be at the center of my plan. If I see where I was, I will be reminded of where i'm at.
Ok, today I hope is day five in my quest to get to my goal weight once and hopefulll for all.
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