Saturday, March 07, 2009
i'm off to the grocery store(woohoo),today is the day to restock for the coming week. i will do my best to stay away from the foods i don't need, aka combos, chips, chocolate. i have reached the next milestone on my journey and i really don't want to go back just forward. so with that i must step back and take stock of myself and my goals and begin again. i have the next five to lose and then the next and i can't give up. each day feels like a new moment for me and sometimes an old one. old habits sure do die hard and i'm giving my all for the next and better ones. i'm at a weight i haven't seen in some time and i worry daily if i will stay here, deserve to be here, and sometimes i'm just shocked that i'm actually here. yesterday coming in from my walk at work i just happen to catch my reflection in the glass of the doors ( i don't have a full length mirror at home) and i had to stop for a minute and just gaze at my reflection looking back at me. that was me and i could hardly believe it. i had to smile. me, looking that good, damn i've come so far and yet i still worry about tomorrow. when do these feelings and thoughts go away? do i really want them to? if they do i may get too set in my ways and just let all this go and i don't want that. oh well i sat down just to jot a minutes and it has turned into a lot more than that. thanks for always listening to me. and till tomorrow keep sparking.
Friday, March 06, 2009
YES OH YES, HAPPY DANCE, HAPPY DANCE......I MADE THE 10LB MARK. AND NOT ONLY THAT AM ABOUT A HALF POUND TO THE NEXT FIVE. I TAKE THIS IN BABY STEPS, FIVE POUNDS AT A TIME. I'M SO HAPPY I COULD SCREAM. WAIT I DID.....NOT ONLY DID I LOSE THE WEIGHT GAINED ON VACATION ( I THINK THAT WAS WATER TO BE HONEST), BUT I WENT ON TO THE NEXT STEP OF MY JOURNEY. I TRY TO THINK OF THIS AS A JOURNEY AS EACH DAY BRINGS SOMETHING NEW. SOMETIMES GOOD NEW, SOMETIMES NOT SO GOOD NEW, BUT ALWAYS A LEARNING EXPERIENCE. CAT...AGAIN THANK YOU....MY ROCK, MY BUDDY, AND MY GREATEST FRIEND. I LOVE YOU AND I'M HERE FOR YOU JUST AS YOU HAVE BEEN FOR ME. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, I INTEND TO. I HAVE NOWHERE TO GO BUT UP SO I'M READY TO SAIL!!!!!!!!!!!TILL NEXT TIME KEEP SPARKING.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
well here it is another week almost over. since i gained last week i feel as though i have farther to go this week. i would just be happy to get off what i put on and maybe just a bit more. but i will take what is there and not pout about what isn't. well maybe just for a minute, but then thats it. lol. yesterday i happened to be off from work and it was beautiful here in alabama, finally. and i got out and walked. the hills got me but i made it and felt wonderful. i also got in a workout last night. if i could just keep up this flow. but life will get in my way and i will have to slow down at some point. oh well, today is my last chance to work off some extra calories and i intend to do just that. i will not give in or up. today is the first day of the rest of my life and i intend for this part to be wonderful. so till tomorrow for the weigh in keep sparking folks
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
well today is wednesday, over the hump day. i would like to think i may be over the hump but i find lately each day is a struggle. snacks at work make me have to really hold back and somedays that is impossible. the urge is so strong somedays i have to litterally stop myself and step back. i hope this too shall pass. i've come to far to slide back over nothing. each day is a new beginning for me and i will not dissapoint myself. i can do this and i will do this one minute, day, and week at a time. i have strength from within and i have help from without. my husband has noticed a change in me, my coworker and great spark buddy cat is my rock, and i am my own best cheering section. so to all you oatmeal cookies, potato chips, chocolate cherries, and such i say to hell with you and step back. i'm here to win this battle of the bulge and my new lifestyle is here to stay. it is my shield from temptation and i will come out ahead in the end. so till nexr time keep sparking guys.
Monday, March 02, 2009
i have beaten myself up over having eaten off the beaten path yesterday for the last time. today i'm commiting to weighing my food, and getting my water and just getting back on track. i kicked myself all evening and you know what? it didn't change a thing, i'm still here and the combos are still in me so i just have to move on. i will get in my workouts today and no more punishing myself. that is my goal for this day. i can't say about tomorrow as i take this one minute, one day, and one week at a time. so till tomorrow keep sparking folks
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