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When does the "aha" moment happen?

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

emoticonGrrrr, when will the aha moment happen? You know the one where all this healthy lifestyle clicks in place and makes so much sence. I mean does it ever, will I ever get it? I just don't see how. I still struggle the old struggles. My main one is the mindless munching that occurs when I sit down in the evenings. The one that happens after dinner is done, the dishes are washed and the kitchen is suppose to be closed. I sit down to watch a bit of tv and wham, it hits, I"m up, i'm down, i'm up, i'm down. You get the picture. I"m an endless yoyo heading to the pantry. My husband says he is going to put a lock on the pantry door. Hey that may just work. lol

Really though all jokes aside this is the one part of my journey I have yet to overcome. It isn't that I don't have the points (calories) for such moments. I do. But I set a goal for myself and it gets me so frustrated that I have no willpower over the snacks. My days are wonderful, I get up and I exercise each morning without fail. Usually anywhere from 30-50 minutes depending on my morning rush. I get all my waters in, i've got my water bottles in the fridge refilled daily (one holds three the other two) five cups mandatory that I drink , then the other liquids and more water. I get them all. I eat my veggies/fruits religously, so much so that I just do it. I plan, I write it all down, I head to spark, I do the message boards, I journal daily, I blog, I do it all. I just can't get the grip on the mindless munching. I don't know what it is. I"ve listened, i've read, I know it is boredom pure and simple. No i'm not hungry, No i'm not sad, No I don't eat my emotions, i'm the one that gets sick at my stomach when i'm stressed. It is boredom, or habit most likely.

So I have my little stickers, my star, my new calender on the fridge, My hubby is doing my tree (couldn't find anything to use yesterday for that), I have these cool little ornament stickers to use on my tree, the stars for the calendar. I'm ready to begin my holiday transformation. But today it is bare. I want the star to be my goal weight....the biggest one yet.

For those of you wondering what i'm talking about, I give myself gold stars for days that I succeed, that means all parts of the journey not one or two, No success not star, I put those on a calendar so I can see the days of success add up, A team member came up with a tree for the holidays, a success story and decoration at the same time. A few of us on ww are doing this. I found the ornament stickers at the dollar store yesterday and that was an awesome way to show my success. Now to succeed. One of my team members wants a pic of my tree at the end. I hope I can make me proud with at least a few decorations, but really I want the big star at the top. My Goal.

So even though my aha moment may not have happened, i'm living the lifestyle that I choose. I have moments, I have highs, lows, and sometimes I fall down. But I always get back up and dust off my a$# and get back to basics.


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STEINERMOM 11/19/2010 7:33AM

  You are doing so many wonderful things to care for yourself! I hope that you can celebrate that! You are already so far along the path. Good for you!

Regarding the snacking, clearly there is something that needs attention (other than food). I believe that our attempts to eat when we are not hungry are either habits that we have ingrained over time or some emotion that surfaces inside of us that we turn to food instead of dealing with the feeling. It is often in the moments of rest and quiet at the end of the day that these things surface.

Maybe planning the evening for your journalling? You could write about how you want snacks and what you are feeling. When I do this (you can see my Wanting to Eat blogs), unexpected things rise to the surface that I never would have thought of otherwise.

Sometimes evening eating (for me) is simply a sign that I am tired and trying to pick up my blood sugar level to give myself more energy.

I am sure that with patience and thoughtfulness you will be able to discover insights which will help with your situation!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/18/2010 9:32AM

    I think I'm still waiting on that AHA moment myself...sometimes I feel like I've got it in my grasp, then I feel it slipping away again and I start to struggle. So, we struggle..we fall down, but we do not fail. Nope, not us! We are here for the long haul and we'll get there. You will see that big gold star on that tree and when you do, I'll be hopping up and down in joy for you!! You can do it!!

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JUNEBUG1944 11/17/2010 8:51PM

    You have written about me...that crystal ball, again! LOL!

You know what? I HAD an AHA moment and I lost it...I think all my willpower was in my old knee that is gone!

Michelle, your tree will be FILLED with gold stars, I know it will. Just keep plugging can do this, my friend!
You are counting on you! (Yep, you read that right!)

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IUHRYTR 11/17/2010 5:01PM

    I've found that not keeping chips or cookies or other similar snacks in the house keeps me from wanting them every day. I haven't had chocolate, cookies, cake, pie, etc. in six weeks and now don't crave them. Once in a while I do have chips out for lunch, maybe every couple of weeks to make me feel as if I am indulging and that's it. Out of sight, out of reach. Takes willpower but after a while you don't miss them. Best of luck. -- Lou

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JUDYFRANCE 11/17/2010 11:28AM

    OMG!! You are doing SO well. You are motivated and you are doing the right things. It's important to take things one at a time, one step at a time. If you are ready to stopthe night snacking (even though you have the calories to snack), then devise a plan. You'll be able to focus on that, then.

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KRICKET4 11/17/2010 10:56AM

    I have an idea. Make yourself do 10 jumping jacks or 10 lunges or 10 pushups every time you get up to go to the pantry. Just a little deterrent and maybe enough time to change your mind.

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TAMMERIAN 11/17/2010 9:55AM

    I love the idea of the tree and would like to hear more about it. Are you making something like an advent calendar with them? I'm so curious.

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JESSIELOVE78 11/17/2010 9:45AM

    great ideas. I love it. emoticon

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ZENNIE84 11/17/2010 9:07AM

    I deal with the same thing and the sad thing is that I have many "aha" moments, but i revert back to my old habits. Stay strong and continue on this life changing path. It will all be worth it in the end!

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Did I let me down?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

emoticonoops, It happened I had a "moment". Did I let me down? Nope. It is going to happen from time to time. I had the points or calories in english to have a "moment" and not hurt myself. Now I can't have one today and then tomorrow but really I don't think I want to. It left me feeling kinda emoticon Funny how eating junk that you don't normally eat will do that to ya. It isn't a feeling I want again anytime soon. I did write it down, I did account for it on ww, spark, and my journal. I know it came from boredom. I had dinner, I was sitting down to relax with a bit of tv before bed......then it hit. The munchy monster came out full force. So i'm sorry to tell ya that I only got to 4 emoticonthis time.

So today starts over again. Did i give myself that star on my calender? no way. That would be lying to myself. I won't do that. I will see the bump in the road and maybe just maybe I will learn from it. Nobody is perfect, and i'm certainly not. So today I pick up and move forward. Afterall that is what this journey is all about........moving forward.


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STEINERMOM 11/19/2010 7:34AM

  I really appreciate your honesty! Nice job with the self-forgiveness.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/17/2010 2:25PM

    You ROCK!!!!! Really you do!!!

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KRICKET4 11/16/2010 10:41AM

    But, nobody can take away those 4 very successful days.
Today starts over emoticon
Just keep trucking along like you have been.

I've noticed, that when I track, and at the end of the day I see that I have some leftover points, I feel the urge to use up those points and usually that leads to disaster. I think it would be much better to just carry them over, especially when I'm not hungry. But no, insanity sets in and that can ruin a otherwise great day. Got me!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/16/2010 9:16AM

    You can do it! Hey, you got to four this week, maybe next week will be five!! I don't sit down to watch much t.v., but when I do, I try to have something to keep my hands busy. Before my friend left for Saudi Arabia, she tried to give me a crash course in knitting. Her motto was that you couldn't eat while you were knitting. It works...I just wasn't that good of a knitting student! ha!
Keep're doing great.

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JUDYFRANCE 11/16/2010 7:26AM

    Every morning I wake up and see a clean calorie journal. It's like waking up a virgin every single morning!

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IUHRYTR 11/16/2010 7:08AM

    That's the attitude I wrote about yesterday -- every day we are given a clean slate to begin anew. Will we cover it with positive accomplishments? If we slip and don't, we get another clean slate tomorrow to try again. We need to never give up trying. Go for a good day today! -- Lou

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JAMBABY0 11/16/2010 6:53AM

    Watching t.v. at night is when that munch monster hits for a lot of us. I try to do another activity while I am watching t.v. so hands stay busy and then I don't think about food. Like crocheting or sewing. There's also things like needle point and cross stitch too. There are a lot of things that can be done while watching t.v. Good luck with doing better! Keep trying.

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Setting goals for a lifetime

Monday, November 15, 2010

emoticonOk, it is time for me to set some goals for myself. Oh i've made many plans, came up with a few good hearted ideas, but it is time to write them down and put them where I can see it. Not only that I need to have a time line. I have the time line because my Team Alabama has a challenge going till Dec. 31. My spark anniversary by the way. I have five pounds to lose and I need to get it going. I know we shouldn't put a time line on our weight loss efforts, really people after almost three years.....I think this one time will be ok. I need to get it done and move on to the next teir of my journey......maintenance.

I bloged each day last week about how I was doing each day. I handled the weekend like a pro. Yes my friends I got the
emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I'm working today on number five. Never and I say this with meaning, never have I had that many great days in a row. How you may ask did I do it? Shear will power and want power rolled into one. I have the want and now it seems i've found the will. The daily stars are working wonders for my psyche and the heedy power it gives is amazing. One of my ww team members took my idea, and put it to a christmas tree.....I'm borrowing that one also. Wow, what a great idea. So today, my staycation day one, i'm going to get a few small chores done, head to town to the dollar tree and see what I can find for my "weight loss tree".

Now that I have a plan, I need to set my goals to paper, again a trip to the dollar store is in order. I want to post my goals and plan on the fridge so each time i'm in the kitchen I can review and be reminded of where i'm at and where I was. I have to go through some old pics, i'm not looking forward to seeing me like that, but it needs to be done. One of them needs to be at the center of my plan. If I see where I was, I will be reminded of where i'm at.

Ok, today I hope is day five in my quest to get to my goal weight once and hopefulll for all.


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JUNEBUG1944 11/15/2010 6:05PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon There you are! It's here! You are motivating me! I almost had a great day yesterday....Today is Great, so far! Congrats to you on all your sure to take a pic of that tree when it has a million stars on it...we wanna see it!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/15/2010 4:52PM

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Now sing like Prince "NOW BABY IMMA ..STAR!!!! WHOA !!!

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JESSIELOVE78 11/15/2010 4:16PM

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KRICKET4 11/15/2010 10:27AM

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You can do it! I'm rooting for you!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/15/2010 9:17AM

    You'll have that fifth star today! You can do it! You have some good plans set out, all great ways to remind yourself of not only how far you've come, but where you want to go, and you will succeed! Alexis is watching her stars grow too, and is excited, even though she has no idea what "reward" I'm planning for her. Perspective and choices. My two favorite words, you know! You are doing great!!!!

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IUHRYTR 11/15/2010 8:33AM

    Don't be hopeful today will be another good day, KNOW and BELIEVE it will be! Go for it! Make it happen! -- Lou

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Days 6-7: The week is over

Sunday, November 14, 2010

emoticon emoticonI have had three consecutive good days in a row. count them three. I"m so happy with myself. I got up this morning and started to make my coffee and stopped and just looked at my husband and said "three count them three good days, no cheating, no mindless munching, three" Of course he thinks i've lost my mind. Really though we talked yesterday about all this. He knows my strengths and my weaknesses. For me I've found not having the weaknesses in the house, planning my day out before hand, and sometimes just stopping and listening to the little voice in my head has worked. Now my goal would be to make a week, then two. Because for me one day is good, two in a row is great, but three is awesome. I have never had three and never a good week that went into two. I seem to do good, slack, slack, good, you get the picture. But I can't do that any longer. I need to find the happy place for myself.

I have set up a calender, Thank you Kristi for the idea, and I have given me stars on my good days, Now I can look at a glance and see where i've come and where I need to go. I haven't come up with a reward for this yet, I"m leaning towards a ring I saw, Cathy thank you, and I think it is an awesome idea, then I can look down and see my success, and my hard work at a glance and decide then and there not to go back. I'm close to goal you see and I really need to see this part of my journey over. I have been allowing myself to fail. I think the word is self-sabatage. I don't know if it is the fear of being at goal, the wonder i'm not ready for, or old feelings coming into play. Because i guess I expected different things when I hit goal. I mean yes my body is smaller, but my mind still is bigger. If that makes sense. I'm seeing the results in the mirror but my mind is having trouble seeing that that is me. So I have a few issues i'm still working on.

Now today is my hardest day of the week. I have a plan though, and I hope I can succeed. I have faith I will, but a small part of me still worries. I want that fourth star on my calender. I feel like a kid getting a treat and it feels wonderful.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/15/2010 9:13AM

    You can do it!!!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/14/2010 1:27PM

    YOU have inspired me! I have spoken about it in my blog. HUGGS AND KISSES!!

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JUNEBUG1944 11/14/2010 12:58PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Yup, there it is...count ' are having a great day today, too! You can do this Michelle! You go, girl!

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KRICKET4 11/14/2010 12:26PM

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You can do this!

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IUHRYTR 11/14/2010 11:46AM

    Those are terrific self-motivating ideas. Toward the end of reaching a goal we tend to not believe we have done what we have done but we need to convince ourselves that we have and then enjoy the pleasures of having done so. This is the time you need to dig down deep and sprint as hard as you can for the finish line. Give it all you've got. Then relish in the accomplishment of winning the race. emoticon -- Lou

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/14/2010 8:18AM

    emoticon emoticon Michelle.
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Day 5: I finally did it

Friday, November 12, 2010

emoticon I finally had a good day. A wonderful team leader gave me the basics was so easy. when I say the basic list I mean that I do ww...she gave it to me short and sweet.....water, exercise, points (my own), and most important write it down. So off I go with my little list. I checked off as I completed a task....water yup 9, exercise yup 30 min. elliptical and a walk with my lunch, points, yup went to bed with one left over, write it down, emoticon

It seemed so easy to just focus on the basics and not worry about the other stuff. Now I know some of you are thinking "she knew that" yup I did, but did I follow it? nope. I was trying to do so much at one time I was letting my emotions take over. I was beating myself up and then was so exausted that I wasn't seeing the big picture. I was so worried about the number on the scale that I wasn't seeing me where i'm at today.

I had my weekly weigh in this morning and you guessed it i'm up. 0.2 to be exact. Yup not a lot to some, but to me a big gain. Why you may ask? Well with the other two from the two weeks before it puts me up to a pound total. That is a lot in my book, Way too much for comfort. Because if it was that easy for me to slip and gain for three weeks in a row look how easy it will be for me to keep going and reach my old weight. This is why i'm so thankful to my friend for stepping in and giving me the talking to. My buddy and new best friend did that also. So with the two of them i'm ready to face another day.

Now I will not tell ya i've got it, because really I don't. I just go through the days, try to come up with new ideas for which i'm blank at this moment, and I just take this day by day. that is all I can give you and me right now, a day to day play.

So i'm off to begin my new fresh start to a new fresh week.

Michelle. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 11/13/2010 7:14PM

    Fresh starts are encouraged. Take things one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and always believe in yourself. -- Lou

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KRICKET4 11/13/2010 12:14PM

    Yay for a good day!

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SVANBAKEL 11/13/2010 12:58AM

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SLIMPAM23 11/12/2010 4:32PM

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In other words.....GOOD JOB!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/12/2010 9:50AM

    One day at a time and you are getting there! Yep..we start doing this a while, we "forget" the basics..we try to look too far ahead, try to see what's around the next corner...we think we should be doing more, thinking more, have all our problems solved by now...when what we need to do is just slow down, relax and just BE. Breathe and not obsess. It will happen. So you just smile, relax, stop being so hard on yourself and keep on remembering the are doing great!!

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/12/2010 7:56AM

    One day at a time is the best way. You're on your way Michelle!

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