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Setting goals for a lifetime

Monday, November 15, 2010

emoticonOk, it is time for me to set some goals for myself. Oh i've made many plans, came up with a few good hearted ideas, but it is time to write them down and put them where I can see it. Not only that I need to have a time line. I have the time line because my Team Alabama has a challenge going till Dec. 31. My spark anniversary by the way. I have five pounds to lose and I need to get it going. I know we shouldn't put a time line on our weight loss efforts, really people after almost three years.....I think this one time will be ok. I need to get it done and move on to the next teir of my journey......maintenance.

I bloged each day last week about how I was doing each day. I handled the weekend like a pro. Yes my friends I got the
emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I'm working today on number five. Never and I say this with meaning, never have I had that many great days in a row. How you may ask did I do it? Shear will power and want power rolled into one. I have the want and now it seems i've found the will. The daily stars are working wonders for my psyche and the heedy power it gives is amazing. One of my ww team members took my idea, and put it to a christmas tree.....I'm borrowing that one also. Wow, what a great idea. So today, my staycation day one, i'm going to get a few small chores done, head to town to the dollar tree and see what I can find for my "weight loss tree".

Now that I have a plan, I need to set my goals to paper, again a trip to the dollar store is in order. I want to post my goals and plan on the fridge so each time i'm in the kitchen I can review and be reminded of where i'm at and where I was. I have to go through some old pics, i'm not looking forward to seeing me like that, but it needs to be done. One of them needs to be at the center of my plan. If I see where I was, I will be reminded of where i'm at.

Ok, today I hope is day five in my quest to get to my goal weight once and hopefulll for all.

Michelle.

  
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JUNEBUG1944 11/15/2010 6:05PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon There you are! It's here! You are motivating me! I almost had a great day yesterday....Today is Great, so far! Congrats to you on all your motivation...be sure to take a pic of that tree when it has a million stars on it...we wanna see it!
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/15/2010 4:52PM

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Now sing like Prince "NOW BABY IMMA ..STAR!!!! WHOA !!!

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JESSIELOVE78 11/15/2010 4:16PM

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KENDRACARROLL 11/15/2010 10:27AM

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You can do it! I'm rooting for you!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/15/2010 9:17AM

    You'll have that fifth star today! You can do it! You have some good plans set out, all great ways to remind yourself of not only how far you've come, but where you want to go, and you will succeed! Alexis is watching her stars grow too, and is excited, even though she has no idea what "reward" I'm planning for her. Perspective and choices. My two favorite words, you know! You are doing great!!!!
Kristi

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IUHRYTR 11/15/2010 8:33AM

    Don't be hopeful today will be another good day, KNOW and BELIEVE it will be! Go for it! Make it happen! -- Lou

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Days 6-7: The week is over

Sunday, November 14, 2010

emoticon emoticonI have had three consecutive good days in a row. count them three. I"m so happy with myself. I got up this morning and started to make my coffee and stopped and just looked at my husband and said "three count them three good days, no cheating, no mindless munching, three" Of course he thinks i've lost my mind. Really though we talked yesterday about all this. He knows my strengths and my weaknesses. For me I've found not having the weaknesses in the house, planning my day out before hand, and sometimes just stopping and listening to the little voice in my head has worked. Now my goal would be to make a week, then two. Because for me one day is good, two in a row is great, but three is awesome. I have never had three and never a good week that went into two. I seem to do good, slack, slack, good, you get the picture. But I can't do that any longer. I need to find the happy place for myself.

I have set up a calender, Thank you Kristi for the idea, and I have given me stars on my good days, Now I can look at a glance and see where i've come and where I need to go. I haven't come up with a reward for this yet, I"m leaning towards a ring I saw, Cathy thank you, and I think it is an awesome idea, then I can look down and see my success, and my hard work at a glance and decide then and there not to go back. I'm close to goal you see and I really need to see this part of my journey over. I have been allowing myself to fail. I think the word is self-sabatage. I don't know if it is the fear of being at goal, the wonder i'm not ready for, or old feelings coming into play. Because i guess I expected different things when I hit goal. I mean yes my body is smaller, but my mind still is bigger. If that makes sense. I'm seeing the results in the mirror but my mind is having trouble seeing that that is me. So I have a few issues i'm still working on.

Now today is my hardest day of the week. I have a plan though, and I hope I can succeed. I have faith I will, but a small part of me still worries. I want that fourth star on my calender. I feel like a kid getting a treat and it feels wonderful.

MIchelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/15/2010 9:13AM

    You can do it!!!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/14/2010 1:27PM

    YOU have inspired me! I have spoken about it in my blog. HUGGS AND KISSES!!

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JUNEBUG1944 11/14/2010 12:58PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Yup, there it is...count 'em...four...you are having a great day today, too! You can do this Michelle! You go, girl!


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KENDRACARROLL 11/14/2010 12:26PM

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You can do this!

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IUHRYTR 11/14/2010 11:46AM

    Those are terrific self-motivating ideas. Toward the end of reaching a goal we tend to not believe we have done what we have done but we need to convince ourselves that we have and then enjoy the pleasures of having done so. This is the time you need to dig down deep and sprint as hard as you can for the finish line. Give it all you've got. Then relish in the accomplishment of winning the race. emoticon -- Lou

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/14/2010 8:18AM

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Day 5: I finally did it

Friday, November 12, 2010

emoticon I finally had a good day. A wonderful team leader gave me the basics list...it was so easy. when I say the basic list I mean that I do ww...she gave it to me short and sweet.....water, exercise, points (my own), and most important write it down. So off I go with my little list. I checked off as I completed a task....water yup 9, exercise yup 30 min. elliptical and a walk with my lunch, points, yup went to bed with one left over, write it down, emoticon

It seemed so easy to just focus on the basics and not worry about the other stuff. Now I know some of you are thinking "she knew that" yup I did, but did I follow it? nope. I was trying to do so much at one time I was letting my emotions take over. I was beating myself up and then was so exausted that I wasn't seeing the big picture. I was so worried about the number on the scale that I wasn't seeing me where i'm at today.

I had my weekly weigh in this morning and you guessed it i'm up. 0.2 to be exact. Yup not a lot to some, but to me a big gain. Why you may ask? Well with the other two from the two weeks before it puts me up to a pound total. That is a lot in my book, Way too much for comfort. Because if it was that easy for me to slip and gain for three weeks in a row look how easy it will be for me to keep going and reach my old weight. This is why i'm so thankful to my friend for stepping in and giving me the talking to. My buddy and new best friend did that also. So with the two of them i'm ready to face another day.

Now I will not tell ya i've got it, because really I don't. I just go through the days, try to come up with new ideas for which i'm blank at this moment, and I just take this day by day. that is all I can give you and me right now, a day to day play.

So i'm off to begin my new fresh start to a new fresh week.

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IUHRYTR 11/13/2010 7:14PM

    Fresh starts are encouraged. Take things one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and always believe in yourself. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 11/13/2010 12:14PM

    Yay for a good day!

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SVANBAKEL 11/13/2010 12:58AM

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SLIMPAM23 11/12/2010 4:32PM

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In other words.....GOOD JOB!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/12/2010 9:50AM

    One day at a time and you are getting there! Yep..we start doing this a while, we "forget" the basics..we try to look too far ahead, try to see what's around the next corner...we think we should be doing more, thinking more, have all our problems solved by now...when what we need to do is just slow down, relax and just BE. Breathe and not obsess. It will happen. So you just smile, relax, stop being so hard on yourself and keep on remembering the basics..you are doing great!!

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/12/2010 7:56AM

    One day at a time is the best way. You're on your way Michelle!

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Day 4: Thank goodness for fresh starts

Thursday, November 11, 2010

emoticon The clock is ticking, i'm still on the old time or something. I can't seem to get my mind to follow my body these last couple of days. Thank goodness each day is a fresh start, and I have no problem with do overs. I have been doing do overs for about two years now, sometimes I wonder how I got to where i'm at on my journey with all the do overs I've had. These last couple of days have been eating frenzies. why? could be the weather, could be the time change, could be the time of year, could be pms, I could give so many excuses why i'm doing it but what good would that do. I'm still doing it. I haven't come up with a plan to fix it, I havn't sat down and given it much thought, in fact as i'm heading to the pantry the only thought I have is what is next.....meaning what can i have now? A crying shame to say the least. I really didn't want to post another gain for this week. That would be three in a row. Is that reason to give up, throw in the towel, hang my head? It could be if I wasn't me. I want to see this through. I want to know what is wrong. I think my body wants to be warm for winter, but my mind says no you can't, I have these two playing tug of war and the body is winning. Or is it it the mind? I'm so confused right now I really don't know which is which.

I know it is easy for someone who has succeeded to say how I need to do things, I know it is easy for a friend who is there to kick my butt, I know it would be really simple for me to pick up where I left off.....but I can't seem to. I say each morning how I want to, I look over my day the day before ( yes friends I bite I write) and I tell myself today is going to be different. It isn't.

So i'm not going to end this with today is a new day, which it is, i"m not going to tell you i'm going to give it my all, which I may, i'm not going to make promises I can't keep. I will tell you that this journey is not easy, this journey has many roadblocks and it is up to each of us to know them down one by one. this is my road block. It may take me some time to knock it down, go over, or even around it, but i'm going to succeed.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/12/2010 9:47AM

    You're getting there, and you will conquer this. We are working on those patterns and mindsets, and yes, it's a struggle, but one that is worth it.
I'm with youl..the time change has me totally screwed up!!
One day at a time...as many do-overs as we need, and we will get where we want to be. Hang in there my friend!!

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HEALTHYME47 11/11/2010 5:30PM

    I think life in general is a bunch of do-overs! Do-overs upon do-overs, in fact. It's like that old saying, it doesn't matter how many times you get knocked down, what matters is how many times you get back up! Yay for fresh starts!

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SLIMPAM23 11/11/2010 2:04PM

    I think it's the time change!! I am COMPLETELY out of whack this week - and like you , can't seem to stop myself. I am relying on the exercise to keep me in my "weight window" this week. Whatever is causing all of this instability....WILL pass. Do the right thing when you can....and do what you have to when you can't. Tomorrow is a new day and I know you are going to cross your finish line when the time is right!!
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RACEMOM576900 11/11/2010 11:54AM

    Hi Michelle,
Your honesty with how you feel is wonderful and inspiring. I believe we are all here because we are in the same situation, if not now at one point or another. The successes of others help to inpire us to keep heading toward those goals. We all know what we need to do to get there. However, change does not occur over night. So don't beat yourself up, just keep making those little changes. By the way, I had pizza last night...late last night. I have not had pizza in about 6 months and let me tell you, I enjoyed every greasy bite. Not soon after though, I did not fee so well. It just remined me why I was on this journey. So keep on making those changes and you will get there!


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KENDRACARROLL 11/11/2010 10:54AM

    Oh, you must be talking about me...
(My son and I made a trip to the store late last night for chocolate... now that's bad!!! He egged me on of course but I was driving :) Ate the entire 100 g, too. But it was good!)
New day today, let's do the best that we can.

The end of daylight savings time does not make me happy this year either. I used to appreciate the extra hour in the morning so it was not pitch dark when I get up, but this year I really miss the extra hour of light in the evening. 5:00 pm and it feels like it should be 10:00 pm.

So we soldier on. Giving up is not an option!


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MICKIDEE44 11/11/2010 10:10AM

    You will get there Michelle. I have been going through the same thing myself. The one thing I am learning is that we just have to get up and keep moving forward. And yes, it is a struggle each and every day. But look back and see the strides you have made, and that will be an indication of what you've done good to date.

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CAROLLYNN49 11/11/2010 9:53AM

    Okay Michelle, the first thing you have to do is stop beating yourself up. That negative internal dialogue is going to make your life a misery. I'm not Mrs. Positive that's for sure but recently I've been trying to treat myself in a kinder manner. That means when I start to think those limiting beliefs about myself I give myself a mental STOP and try to replace it with something I do well.

I'm no where near my goal and you are so you could probably give me more advice than I can give you about doing it, because my dear you have been doing it. Yes life has a habit of getting in the way and changing our focus but you've gotten back on before so this time you know you can do it!!!!

Some advice, sit down and give yourself the time to explore what is going on with you. As you near your goal are you afraid of getting there? Why? Have you internalised the fact that you are worthy, do you love yourself enough to give yourself permission to get to your goal? Is there someone in your life you thought would treat you different once you get there and you've found that nothing has changed but your size? Is your goal realistic or is your body fighting you because you are where you are suppose to be? There is something going on that makes you want to turn to your drug of choice, FOOD. Find out what for your sake and now is better than later. I have been recommending a book by Louise L Hay called You Can Heal Your Life, it will give you the tools to do some digging and help you find out why this is happening.

Above all, give yourself a break, be kind to yourself and that doesn't mean binging on anything that isn't nailed down. It means finding a way to accept yourself for who you are right now. Look into that mirror and say "Michelle, I love you just the way you are." Look deep, mean it, believe it and say it at least 5 times in a row once a day in the morning. We are more than the sum total of our weight!!!!

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 11/11/2010 9:17AM

    You will succeed Michelle!! You've got the right attitude and the skills to do it!
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ELEXEY 11/11/2010 9:06AM

    I'm not going to tell you 50 things to do, you already know what you need to do. I know that you'll get there because you know what you want. But I do want to offer emoticon

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Day 3- Two out of three ain't bad

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I began this "new" journey three days ago. I had two awesome days in a row none the less which for me is truly wonderful. Well day three brings with it new "moments" or rather the old that i'm still telling myself i'm working on but have yet to manage. Here I am watching my favorite show, The biggest loser, and I decide I want to have the snickers bar that my wonderful hubby thought he was doing me a wonderful thing by getting me. He had eaten the original one I had in the fridge and then goes and buys me a replacement. Now I could of said "oh no you eat that, I don't really need it" , but did I? nope...I ate it. The moral of this story is.....i'm still feeling like a failure in this. I know i'm not, I know I need think of the positives...I did get in my exercise, I did get my water (though I was two short from my daily goal), I did eat right the rest of the day. I know one "treat" won't ruin my whole week, but that doesn't stop my mind from telling me how I should of made better choices, how I berate myself all the time for the mistakes I make. I beat me up all the time. I look over my days and then I have to wonder how others are so strong and i'm so weak.....Well I need to work on this. I need to step away from myself for a minute and look at where i've been, where i'm at, and where I intend to go. I will have options most of my life. I will have choices. It is how I handle those choices that matters. So i'm off to begin day 4. I won't make promises I can't keep, I won't tell you I've learned a lesson here, or that it won't happen again. I would be lying to both of us. I will tell ya that since i've begun this journey i've learned many things about myself, my likes and dislikes, I've made wonderful new friends, lost a few, and gained the best one....she know who she is. So my journey will continue, because that is why i'm here, to see this through and beyond.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/10/2010 8:53PM

    Alright, Ma'am...you just stop right there. Stop beating yourself up!! Perfection doesn't exist...there is no right or wrong way to live a lifestyle - you live it the way YOU want on YOUR terms. Yep, you heard me..YOUR terms. Not mine or anybody else's. Each of us figures out what perfection means to us and we go for it. Life without a candy bar? Why??? You didn't have three or four. You ate right the rest of the day, you exercised. No, we don't want to eat them every day, but look at where you are and how far you've come. This battle is mostly mental anyway, if not for our brains our bodies would already be where we want them to be. You are doing a FANTASTIC job on what you have chosen for your lifestyle. You remember that. You rememember how strong you are, how much more confident you are becoming, and remember that you can accomplish your goals, that you ARE accomplishing your goals. Hang in there. Some days the snacking gets the best of us. Some days the cravings call and we answer. It doesn't mean we've failed or that we are less of a person. So you hold your head high and look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are amazing, and that you are doing this.
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RHONDA_11 11/10/2010 8:19AM

    Don't beat yourself up. It's not about being perfect, just make your next decision a better one. Take it day by day or even meal by meal (or snack). If you haven't already you may want to tell your husband if he wants to buy you a treat or replace one to get you some Kashi bars. They are a really good sweet treat especially the dark chocolate cherry ones. Best of luck. emoticon

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