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Day 3- Two out of three ain't bad

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I began this "new" journey three days ago. I had two awesome days in a row none the less which for me is truly wonderful. Well day three brings with it new "moments" or rather the old that i'm still telling myself i'm working on but have yet to manage. Here I am watching my favorite show, The biggest loser, and I decide I want to have the snickers bar that my wonderful hubby thought he was doing me a wonderful thing by getting me. He had eaten the original one I had in the fridge and then goes and buys me a replacement. Now I could of said "oh no you eat that, I don't really need it" , but did I? nope...I ate it. The moral of this story is.....i'm still feeling like a failure in this. I know i'm not, I know I need think of the positives...I did get in my exercise, I did get my water (though I was two short from my daily goal), I did eat right the rest of the day. I know one "treat" won't ruin my whole week, but that doesn't stop my mind from telling me how I should of made better choices, how I berate myself all the time for the mistakes I make. I beat me up all the time. I look over my days and then I have to wonder how others are so strong and i'm so weak.....Well I need to work on this. I need to step away from myself for a minute and look at where i've been, where i'm at, and where I intend to go. I will have options most of my life. I will have choices. It is how I handle those choices that matters. So i'm off to begin day 4. I won't make promises I can't keep, I won't tell you I've learned a lesson here, or that it won't happen again. I would be lying to both of us. I will tell ya that since i've begun this journey i've learned many things about myself, my likes and dislikes, I've made wonderful new friends, lost a few, and gained the best one....she know who she is. So my journey will continue, because that is why i'm here, to see this through and beyond.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/10/2010 8:53PM

    Alright, Ma'am...you just stop right there. Stop beating yourself up!! Perfection doesn't exist...there is no right or wrong way to live a lifestyle - you live it the way YOU want on YOUR terms. Yep, you heard me..YOUR terms. Not mine or anybody else's. Each of us figures out what perfection means to us and we go for it. Life without a candy bar? Why??? You didn't have three or four. You ate right the rest of the day, you exercised. No, we don't want to eat them every day, but look at where you are and how far you've come. This battle is mostly mental anyway, if not for our brains our bodies would already be where we want them to be. You are doing a FANTASTIC job on what you have chosen for your lifestyle. You remember that. You rememember how strong you are, how much more confident you are becoming, and remember that you can accomplish your goals, that you ARE accomplishing your goals. Hang in there. Some days the snacking gets the best of us. Some days the cravings call and we answer. It doesn't mean we've failed or that we are less of a person. So you hold your head high and look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are amazing, and that you are doing this.
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Kristi

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JESSIELOVE78 11/10/2010 10:15AM

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RHONDA_11 11/10/2010 8:19AM

    Don't beat yourself up. It's not about being perfect, just make your next decision a better one. Take it day by day or even meal by meal (or snack). If you haven't already you may want to tell your husband if he wants to buy you a treat or replace one to get you some Kashi bars. They are a really good sweet treat especially the dark chocolate cherry ones. Best of luck. emoticon

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Day 2: The journey continues

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

emoticonDay one I decided to turn this journey on. I had been getting sedentary in my ways, eating to eat, not enjoying what the world had to offer. I want to reach my goals but at the same time I was unwilling to do what I needed to get there. So I succeeded on day one and decided to begin fresh. Today i'm at day two. My lunch was packed last night, my day is planned out, my daily goal today is 8 glasses of pure water. that means the diet soda is not involved. I really only have one or two daily but it is enough to mess up my straight water. So that is my daily goal.

I've decided that as ive said before....If it is to be its up to me. I can't wait for the weight to come off, I have to do something about it. So i'm doing something about it. I'm learning to love myself and the new me i'm becoming. I have learned I love exercise. I've said it before and i;ll say it again, exercise is not my problem. Snacks are. but i'm learning if I can plan for them, sit down and enjoy them, then they can be even better. that is the plan anyhow. I need to remember that I have to eat to live not live to eat.

I made the choice to walk on monday evenings with friend from work. we've been doing this a while now, Now the two of us have become three...we added a new friend to the walk. She is actually the one that led me to spark and then she went her own way. She isn't back to spark at this time but baby steps. She is walking with us. we have decided that even with the time change we are going to do this. we just have to make a few adjustments....flashlights, stick......just in case, and gloves. we are ready and we walk about two and a half miles now.

So now i'm off to begin my day 2. Well really I already have made good choices this morning. I'm sparking and i'm just about to do my exercise of the day.

Keep on sparking. Michelle

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/13/2010 9:54AM

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SLIMPAM23 11/10/2010 11:12AM

    Hi Michelle - Sometimes we just need to start anew!! Glad you are not giving and up choosing to keep moving toward those goals. You have done such an awesome job - and I know what you mean about snacking. I did really well with that until I reached the maintaining portion of this journey!! And it's been hard for me every since. Not going to lie - I was back in the Baked Cheeto's last night. But we can overcome this little problem of ours...and get to where we want to be!!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/9/2010 5:24PM

    Michelle, I know you can do this!! You have come so far, just keep on going! I hope you continue to enjoy the walks.
Hope you had a fantastic day two, and I'm rooting for you!!
Kristi

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RACEMOM576900 11/9/2010 8:39AM

    emoticon attitude. You seem very focused. This is great!! Keep it up!!

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I'm getting back up: again

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Our greatest glory lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
- Confucius [quoted by, and often attributed to, Oliver Goldsmith, Ralph Waldo Emerson, and Nelson Mandela]

emoticon emoticon Ok I went to the grocery store and I spot a bag of cheetos. Now I know me, I know my control over such things....does that stop me? nope. I buy them, I have a plan. One serving, that is what i'm going to have, just one. Ok, I meant a serving not a bag. But again I ate the bag, yes the whole darn thing. So this morning I wake up and I have decided it is time to make changes. In me that is. I now know I can eat just one piece of pizza and be full, I now know I can't buy any big bags of chips. The tiny ones at the checkout will have to suffice if I should want any. See this is a journey, i'm learning about me. Did I beat myself up over this? nope, I just picked up where I left off and started fresh. I finished the evening out just as I had planned.

I gave me the pep talk, this one day would not undo all my hard work. So now it is up to me to make this week, this month, or this year a success. For me it is in the planning. IT is also that I don't dwell on the negatives but the positives of my day. even though I had that bad "moment" I had successes also. I got in my exercise, I rested with a nap, I got in some great shopping, got my water, enjoyed family time at pizza hut and stuck to my game plan for the meal. So I have to take what i've learned from this a move forward.

I know there are some who never seem to fall down. Well friends i'm not one of them. I fall all the darn time. what sets me apart from them? I get back up, dust off the dirt, and start over. The trouble with never falling down is you don't know how to pick yourself up.

So enjoy this extra hour today with a book, an extra few minutes of exercise, or make a healthy meal and have leftovers for the busy week we all know is coming. That is my plan anyhow.

MIchelle.

  
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SLIMPAM23 11/8/2010 12:10PM

    I am unfamiliar with those who hardly every fall!!! I am that chick on the other side of you picking myself up AGAIN!!! I bought cheetos too. They were baked and I hardly ate any of them on Saturday and I wasn't counting calories!!! But I SHOULD have left the rest of the bag up at my mother's....but I didn't!!! They are back at my house - peeking at me every time I open the pantry door. Not my best move, huh? Well - At least I feel a little better knowing that I am in good company this time!!
We WILL overcome!!
Hugs,
Pam

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/7/2010 6:14PM

    Well you know I am not one of "them" who NEVER fall down!!! Thanks for the blog and I appreciate you!

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KNITTABLES 11/7/2010 2:30PM

    Great blog, all good in moderation and getting to know yourself better. Enjoy that extra hour. I spent mine trying to fix this darm computer and I should have been sleeping. take care.

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KENDRACARROLL 11/7/2010 12:14PM

    You're right, a bag of Cheetos won't ruin your life. Hope they were good :)
Are there really people who never fall down? Maybe they're just not honest enough to admit it...
Hope you have a super Sunday!

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IRISHEI 11/7/2010 8:55AM

    Well, I sure do understand. I love good healthy food, but I also love the snacks.
Had brown rice stir fry last night and it worked well. Then my friend had brought over dessert when we got back from the eating out. Well, I had a half of a cupcake. Can you believe it? It really did not even taste good. Just a bad habit. So, I too can relate to you. It is not easy, but we do pick ourselves back up and DECIDE we will do it and plan to move forward again. Today is the first day of the rest of our live. emoticon
emoticon ENJOY your day and extra hour too! Life is good. emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 11/7/2010 8:35AM

    Atta girl! Keep moving forward, learning lessons. Figure out how to keep track of them so you don't have to re-learn them. You're going to make it!!!!

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DARLENEK04 11/7/2010 8:03AM

  Gee Michelle, I dont know anyone who doesn't stump their toe
now and then....
Usually I will do well until (someone who shall remain ahhh
anonymous)(and nameless) but his initials are David....comes
home with some ice cream like last week: Pumpkin caramel crunch
I believe it was. So I had one serving and quit.

I don't think he realizes he is sabotaging me, and then I do
myself...I just have to say no...and after today, I am going
to be on his case about his weight too...lol...maybe reverse
psychology will work.

Off to church...should be interesting....I have been up all
night long.

Darlene

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RACEMOM576900 11/7/2010 7:40AM

    Way to go Michelle! My downfall is donuts- so I don't buy them. And you are so right. If you don't fall once in a while you don't know how to get back up again. You don't learn how to deal with those shortcomings. The important thing is realizing what went wrong and having a plan for the next time! I look at it this way, I have another hour to work out today! Have a great Sunday!

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quotes to share

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Our greatest glory lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
- Confucius [quoted by, and often attributed to, Oliver Goldsmith, Ralph Waldo Emerson, and Nelson Mandela]

Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.
- Marilyn vos Savant

It's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get up.
- Vince Lombardi

Stay in the game - keep playing.

  
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TENACIOUSTIGER 11/7/2010 8:51AM

    love your quotes i have borrowed some for my page, i love the ones about falling down and getting up again thanks, have a great day emoticon

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KNITTABLES 11/6/2010 2:58PM

    Great quotes, thanks for sharing. Have a great weekend.

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KENDRACARROLL 11/6/2010 10:51AM

    Wishing you a wonderful weekend. Stay in the game & keep playing. I'm on my way to play at the gym for an hour. Class is at 8:30. Ugh, I don't really like mornings!

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CHINAGAL 11/6/2010 10:12AM

    Reading this was a great way to start my day! Thanks.
Edna

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RACEMOM576900 11/6/2010 9:23AM

    What wonderful inspiring quotes to read this beautifully overcast morning! Thank so much for sharing. Have a wonderful weekend!

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JATHUENER 11/6/2010 9:14AM

    thanks for reminding us not to give up but stay in and you will keep edging forward---julie

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LUCKYLADY777 11/6/2010 9:10AM

    Thank you for sharing, good wise words to wake up to in the morning........ emoticon

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SOOZYBUG 11/6/2010 9:05AM

    I love Stay in the game-Keep playing!!

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SPARKFIT4LIFE 11/6/2010 9:02AM

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Halloween = gain

Friday, November 05, 2010

emoticonOk, the bucket is empty now, most of which I must say is in me. emoticonCan we say...thank goodness that is over with. Now I must move on. I have a new challenge that began this morning. It runs through Dec. 31. which happens to be the day I had picked to finally reach my goal. So i'm ready to get this part of my journey over wtih. I'll do what is needed to get from here to there. I may still have a few bumps in the road and I may veer off my path every now and again, but i'm committed to making this journey all it can be. I feel like I haven't given it my all. I've kinda skimmed through this last month and i'm ready to take on november with all that I have within me.

work has been crazy, pharmacies and first of the months, nuts to say the least. My meal planning hasn't been what it could be. I'm kinda grabbing and going. Quick fits the bill. I have grabbed emoticon emoticonWhen I should of been sitting down and having emoticonand emoticon So i'm going to do this as it should be done. I need to start planning for the weeks ahead and making sure I have on hand what is needed.

I'm going to get there from here. I just have to give it some thought and planning. Hey I can do that.

Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 11/6/2010 7:51AM

    YOU ROCK!

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DTPARKER202 11/5/2010 7:42AM

    LOL, I can't stay out of the bucket, either! At least the damage wasn't too bad...

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