Friday, October 01, 2010
My daughter came to me in tears two days ago. She had a doctors appointment and he wouldn't give her birthcontrol because of her weight. My daughter is considered "morbid obese" by the stats. She said it is one thing to know you are fat but it is another to have it stamped on a chart. Now it is real. Now I love my daughter, so it is my turn to pay it forward. It ripped my heart out to have her crying and broken hearted, but it would hurt a hell of a lot more to have her dead young, from obesity. Now i'm a pharmacy tech certified, I see this daily, I see what damage it does. I take continuing education all the time on obesity, I have lost 20 pounds myself on spark and much before that. I know the damage, the mental anguish. we hide behind food. I see the stats, i see the results of overeating and just plain in some, sorry laziness, but I see the determination in others, I see the moment of glory for a lot here on spark and on ww. I know the feeling of joy at a pound lost, and the pound gained when you are so disapointed and the first thought on your mind is I failed.
So as a family and as a mom to a beautiful, overweight, daughter, i'm paying it forward. we are getting together for sunday dinners, working out, and just talking, I am her line between eating that twinkie and giving me a call instead. I"m her rock at the moment, but you know what? she is helping me. I told her now maybe she will help me reach my goals. because if she is willing to change her lifestyle, she didn't want the pills because she said to me it will come back and what have I learned. So i'm proud of her. She has a three year old beautiful son, she must do this for him if not for herself right now. So as a team we are doing this together. I'm encourageing her to join spark, and who knows maybe sunday I will get her started.
So my moral here is this: maybe just maybe we are here to learning something that one day may inturn help someone else. I know my moment is here. I have the info, stats, and now I have the determination to share this with one other, whom inturn may share with one other and so on. We cannot force anyone to be healthy, but when they come to us crying, broken hearted, and feeling hopeless, that is where we step up to bat and hit the one out of the park.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Will my dreams be realized? Will I see the magic number on the scales? Will I be happy with the choices I make throughout the day? These are all questions i'm asking of myself. Today my team leader of ww reached her goal. She is a success in my book before the "magic" number appeared but today was her special moment. Her moment in the spotlight. I cried for her and for myself. For her for the moment and I could feel her happiness. For me because i've been on this journey for almost two years. I had 30 pounds to go to reach my ultimate goal. Oh i've come down from a 60 pound gain over the years, but since joining spark and ww it is 30 pounds. Anyhow, my point is this: I really thought by now I would be at goal, I thought I would have made it. I would know the feeling of reaching my ultimate number and moving on to maintenance. But due to my issues, I have a few, that still i'm working on and due to me really not sticking like I should to plan, i'm still at the 10 pound mark.
10 pounds isn't really a whole lot left considering at 175 and 5'1" I looked like a pumpkin. My hubby didn't even know it was me in a pic with my mom and daughter. I was unreconizable. Here I sit, for the first time in a very long time, like 25 years, at a size 4-6, exercising daily, eating right for the most part, and i'm still not at goal. I could reach out and touch it and i'm still not there. Now this isn't a pitty party by any means. I've finally had a breakthrough and I owe it all to a wonderful lady whom reached her goals and has helped me to begin to reach mine.
I have a friend on this journey also. Really two, but one that I chat with regurally, that small thing has come to mean so much to me. we found we have a lot in common and someday the lord willing we will meet face to face so I can give her a big hug just for letting me be me. I vent, I woohoo, I push her and really she pushes me to succeed. My ww team leader also has come to mean very much to me. She has shown me through her struggles that each moment no matter how small, each success, each step we take is all leading us to our ultimate goal.
So again I ask myself the question: Will my dreams be realized? The answer: yes. It may not be in the next month, six months but each time I get out and exericse i'm taking the steps needed to get there, each time I pass up the chips i'm taking a step, each time I choose water instead of soda i've taken a step. Each of these steps that I take will lead me to the "magic" number on the scales that i'm so ready to see. I just have to keep taking one step at a time and one day at a time.
As my dear friend keeps saying it is about choices. I have choices and each time I choose the right ones i'm headed in the right direction.
is my new motto for myself. Because I can do it!!!
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