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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

emoticonWell I had a great blog going and this darn computer froze up. So here goes the shortened version.....

I have decided to thanks to a dear ww team leader to re-evaluate my goal weight. I have dropped it four pounds, in the scheme of things this isn't a whole lot but in my world it will mean the difference of struggling on or reaching this goal and moving on to the next is I so choose. So it may not be this december as I wanted but i'm still here and i'm still going strong. Slow and steady does win races. I haven't gained back any that i've lost and that is a big plus. two years worth of pluses. So I will stand strong and finish this out.

I know where my trouble lies and the boredom snacking is my downfall on the weekends. This is where I have to work it out and if I don't then I will never reach goal. It isn't about struggling because my body doesn't want to give up the weight, it is about my and self sabatage. So my new best friend and I have decided that choices is the way to go. She emails me, kicks me when i'm in need, and is just plain there. For this I thank her. No matter how long this takes we are going to reach our goals my dear friend. Choices just remember that word.

I'm off now to begin this new challenge of reaching goals. remember slow and steady will get this done.


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KNITTABLES 9/29/2010 3:04AM

    You will do this and you can do this. do you have a hobby or something you can do. When I am bored and want to eat I knit or work on a puzzle. Something to keep my mine off the food. You are doing a great job.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/28/2010 5:32PM

    You are going to do this!! I think it will do you good to set a new goal weight. When you reach that, you can maintain if you feel comfortable with it, or go for more if you think you need to. Maybe it will relieve some of the pressure you put on yourself. And YES think of what all you have done in two years!! Awesome!! Amazing!! Wonderful!!
We will get there and I am proud to call you my friend!!

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KENDRACARROLL 9/28/2010 10:07AM

    You know what you need to do - now go do it! :)
Boredom snacking is my downfall as well.

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    You are going to do this!!! You are going to reach that scale number and we're going to celebrate! YOU have what it takes!!! emoticon emoticon

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Will my dreams be realized?

Sunday, September 26, 2010

emoticonWill my dreams be realized? Will I see the magic number on the scales? Will I be happy with the choices I make throughout the day? These are all questions i'm asking of myself. Today my team leader of ww reached her goal. She is a success in my book before the "magic" number appeared but today was her special moment. Her moment in the spotlight. I cried for her and for myself. For her for the moment and I could feel her happiness. For me because i've been on this journey for almost two years. I had 30 pounds to go to reach my ultimate goal. Oh i've come down from a 60 pound gain over the years, but since joining spark and ww it is 30 pounds. Anyhow, my point is this: I really thought by now I would be at goal, I thought I would have made it. I would know the feeling of reaching my ultimate number and moving on to maintenance. But due to my issues, I have a few, that still i'm working on and due to me really not sticking like I should to plan, i'm still at the 10 pound mark.

10 pounds isn't really a whole lot left considering at 175 and 5'1" I looked like a pumpkin. My hubby didn't even know it was me in a pic with my mom and daughter. I was unreconizable. Here I sit, for the first time in a very long time, like 25 years, at a size 4-6, exercising daily, eating right for the most part, and i'm still not at goal. I could reach out and touch it and i'm still not there. Now this isn't a pitty party by any means. I've finally had a breakthrough and I owe it all to a wonderful lady whom reached her goals and has helped me to begin to reach mine.

I have a friend on this journey also. Really two, but one that I chat with regurally, that small thing has come to mean so much to me. we found we have a lot in common and someday the lord willing we will meet face to face so I can give her a big hug just for letting me be me. I vent, I woohoo, I push her and really she pushes me to succeed. My ww team leader also has come to mean very much to me. She has shown me through her struggles that each moment no matter how small, each success, each step we take is all leading us to our ultimate goal.

So again I ask myself the question: Will my dreams be realized? The answer: yes. It may not be in the next month, six months but each time I get out and exericse i'm taking the steps needed to get there, each time I pass up the chips i'm taking a step, each time I choose water instead of soda i've taken a step. Each of these steps that I take will lead me to the "magic" number on the scales that i'm so ready to see. I just have to keep taking one step at a time and one day at a time.

As my dear friend keeps saying it is about choices. I have choices and each time I choose the right ones i'm headed in the right direction.

emoticon is my new motto for myself. Because I can do it!!!


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/26/2010 10:55PM

    Michelle, you are doing this, each and every day. You are one step closer. You are right, each choice you make leads to a healthier you. You'll get through this, and you will figure it out. Maybe you do need to take another look at that "number" and see if it's still the right number for you. If it is, then keep moving and keep your eyes on where you want to be. Our goals are ever changing as we grow and change. You will have that wonderful blissful moment when you feel like you've reached that ultimate weight loss destination and then you will move into maintenance head held high with determination and the strength to stay there. I'll be there to cheer for you along the way and rejoice with you when you get there. What's next? Whatever it is, you'll be ready!

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JUNEBUG1944 9/26/2010 11:54AM

    Of course you can do this, Michelle! Look how far you've come!

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RACEMOM576900 9/26/2010 11:25AM

You are doing great! A number focus may be whats holding you back.How do you feel? Do you look better than before? Are you eating healthier, exercising, having fun and being happy? These things are so much more important than the number. Chin up, smile and continue to make right choices. Your body will do the rest of the work. One day you will wake up and that number may magically appear just by maintaining those little streaks. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 9/26/2010 10:20AM

    It seems to me that if my focus is not on weight, not on the magic number, but on eating right, counting calories, exercising, drinking water, I have better success.
I swear there is a huge mental factor to weight loss. While calories in versus calories out is the logical explanation there must be more.

While BUTTERFLYEMERGE has some valid points, I too refuse to settle. Healthy BMI, okay, but really isn't it also about us proving something to ourselves? Maybe this is not the right kind of mindset, but maybe it's the best we know? What works for one won't work for another.

Will your dreams be realized? Yes, as long as you keep chasing them.
And while you're on this road, every week you stay the same is a practice week for maintenance, so you'll know exactly what to do once you get there. Okay, nice try :) I know...

Have a successful day.
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    emoticonMy dear friend. I'm going to ask some questions and I'm going to make a suggestion because I think it's time to look at your "magic number".

Is it the correct number for you? ... You keep struggling to get there. If you're struggling that much now, how much will you struggle to maintain it? After all, this is a journey, not a destination. We need to figure out how to be able to sustain what we've achieved.

Let's look at what you're trying to achieve. What if your goal weight was still a healthy BMI number, but a higher weight? For your 5' 1" height, 130 pounds would give you a healthy BMI of 24.6.

I'd like to suggest that you change your goal to 130 pounds. Get there. Spend your 6 weeks in Maintenance. See how easy that weight is for you to maintain. If you feel like you want to go lower, you can. But you are at Goal, the "magic number", you are in a healthy BMI ... who could ask for more?!!

Why suggest this? Losing 5 pounds may just be more attainable than 10 pounds. Mentally, the journey isn't as long. Again, if the fight is this hard now, what's it going to be like to maintain that 10 pound lower weight?

It's worth pondering, sweet friend. You are worth the effort of studying this and working out what is best for you. emoticon

We're on this journey together and we'll figure it out. And we'll celebrate when you make it to the "magic number"!!! What a party that will be!!!! emoticon emoticon

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BRONXBABE 9/26/2010 7:45AM

    Hi, Michelle.

You have come a long way in your journey. Sometimes, the closer we get to goal, the harder it is to lose. I know this because I struggled to lose 30 pounds seven years ago. The last few months were painfully slow.

This time around, I've been stalled in the same place (give or take 5 lbs) for two years! But I am so stubborn, I REFUSE to give up. I know I have it in me to reach my goal. So, like you, I keep taking those baby steps. I keep my head down, and watch my progress one baby step at a time because looking up ahead to search for the finish line just strains my eyes.

One day, we'll each look up, and there it will be. And our friends will be crying for US!

Don't give up, and don't get down on yourself.
The last dejected effort often becomes the winning stroke.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/26/2010 5:45AM

I remember being so close and still not making goal. I was still very unhappy with the way I looked which changed my focus. See if there is a block from the inside. YOU CAN DO THIS. You will have your spotlight moment!!! Because YOU can do it! emoticon

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My scales are stuck!!!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

emoticonI just know they are. I've stayed the same for three weeks now. I'm not ready for maintenance just yet so what gives? emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonThis is a natural part of each of my days. So again I ask my body what gives?

Since it doesn't answer i'm going to .....I need to change up a few things. I need to get a bit of different exercise this week, my ww team has a challenge to drop two points off our daily total, that is like 100 less calories daily for six days. I think I may need to do this. I'm giving it a try. Then next week I'll go back to my norm and see if that hasn't got this body started again.

I'm a bit disappointed in the scales for not moving a inch. Well they are digital so that isn't even an excuse. Oh well what is done is done. So onwards and downwards. I'm ready to nip this in the bud. I want to see a loss next week.


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KNITTABLES 9/25/2010 10:42PM

    hang in there and I am sure if you switch things up the scale will do down.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/25/2010 6:38PM

    Michelle, hang in there. I know it's disappointing after all your hard work to not be rewarded with a lower number on the blasted scale, but each day you are rewarded with better health, increased determination, and the tools to stay on track and not give in. The number does not matter as much as your perspective. Keep going, you will get there.

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KENDRACARROLL 9/25/2010 11:38AM

    You know you're down to the last 10 when NOTHING moves... :(
If you find something that works, please post.

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SUNRISE14 9/25/2010 8:19AM

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SUNRISE14 9/25/2010 8:05AM

    emoticon i am losing slooooooooooooower and slooooooooower but am thankful i am eating in control ! One off meal a week can thru the weight loss for the next week ! emoticon

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    Hitting a plateau is a natural part of weight loss. Go to and read some articles on plateaus. Make sure you're actually on one. See the hints they give you ... they are great. You'll be moving along before you know it. Your body needs this hiatus to adjust. You're going to be just fine ... physically if not mentally. :)

Hugs, my friend.

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TLINDAMT 9/25/2010 7:44AM

    i have the same problem and the advice i got was to measure and see if my measurements had gone down. also as you are losing fat you are building muscle maybe you just built the same amount as you lost. emoticon

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Oh yeah it's finally Friday!!!!

Friday, September 24, 2010

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon This was such a busy week at work. I just can't say enough how glad I am that it is behind me. Of course I work in a busy pharmacy and next week is the first, but that said i'm just so glad this week is over. We had a girl out on vacation and that just made it worse on all of us. But we survived and I lived to tell about it.

On the health front I feel pretty confident about my week. I had a few rough patches but nothing that was out of the norm for me. I have restocked my cabinets for the coming week and that is over and I can begin fresh again tomorrow. I'm always anxious to weigh in and start a new week, I really don't know why because then partway through the week i'm nervous about my weigh in and how the week went. Go figure. All a part of it I guess.

So it is off to get a few more spark points in, check my emails which I haven't had time to answer all in the last few days and they just build up, and then off to bed. For all my friends whom weigh in tomorrow on my ww team....good luck guys. Cathy this is your magic moment week I can feel it. Let us know for sure.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/25/2010 12:07AM

    Good luck on the weigh in...despite what the scale may say, you've done great this week. CHOICES..we've made good ones!
Hope the coming week is calmer at work for you.

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JUNEBUG1944 9/24/2010 11:30PM

    Hey Michelle! Sorry you had such a busy, hectic week! Glad you had a pretty good health week! I feel the same way about a new week...always lots of optimism! But then...

Oh, I see I was're exercising late today! LOL!

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    emoticon my sweet friend! I can hardly wait for morning to arrive!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!!

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RRP546 9/24/2010 9:24PM

  sounds familar

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Is it friday yet?

Thursday, September 23, 2010

emoticon let it be friday. I'm so tired. The pharmacy is crazy, we have a girl out on vacation and i'm exausted and still have two days left. Sure keeps me from eating or doing anything when I get home though. I just want to go to bed.

I survived a whole day without overeating. Go figure. I'm trying to work through the whys of doing the damage in the first place. It is a slow process as I have a lot of excess baggage from my previous life. You know the one, the one where we grow up in an abusive household, marry the wrong guy all around, divorce and raise two children alone, then meet and marry a wonderful guy, but still hold all the turmoil inside and on the outside your just plain fat. That is all people see. They don't see the abuse, the inner conflict, the hard work your now doing, the struggles you have survived, the new you emerging. When people say don't judge anyone by the outside this is so true. We don't know what anyone else may be going through. So we just have to smile and wish them a blessed day and move on.

So i'm moving on. I'm smiling and letting myself know that i've concured a lot of those ole demons and maybe just maybe if I work extra hard I will see this to the end. Heck it has been two years and i'm still here. I haven't quit, I backslide on occasion but I never quit. And lord willing I will see this to the magic number on the scales. I will then proceed onto the next stage of maintenance and beyond. I don't yet know what the beyond is but when it gets here I'll know.

So if you may of been thinking of giving up, DON'T!!!! We all make mistakes, it is how we learn from them that really counts. Do you learn, refigure, move on? Sometimes what works for your friend may not work for you. YOu have to find your way. I am going to reach this small goal. Afterall this is just one step in the new me i'm digging out of the rubble of an old life. I have survived so much and i'm still here. I am strong even though I don't always think so. So dust off your shoes and lets get moving.


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RACEMOM576900 9/24/2010 12:14PM

    Your attitude is right on! While we stumble over those life building blocks and knock down those walls of our past a brand new person emerges! God only gives you that which you can handle and makes you stronger! When you start feeling down, think of every possible positive thing that happened from those situations. It could be as simple as increased personal strength, awareness of wrong from right, or knowing that you are not always in control. You are doing this and I believe in you!! Keep those goals in sight....hang them up where you can see them daily. That person inside of you is emerging beautifully! Way to go!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/24/2010 4:40AM

    This is a keeper for when those down days come!!! Love the new you that is emerging, conquering and victorious!!! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 9/23/2010 10:10PM

    One step at a time, one day at a time and one feeling at a time. That's the way to do it and you will. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 9/23/2010 10:20AM

    Ya, one foot in front of the other... always. We'll get there, obstacles and all.
Hope your day today will be less stressful.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/23/2010 9:57AM

    Michelle, you are doing this! yes, you are strong and I am glad you are able to see that. We will put the past behind us, and we will emerge from the rubble wiser, stronger, and knowing we are worthy and deserving of loving ourselves as well as loving and being loved by others! It's an ongoing process, this figuring out who we are and who we want to be - then deciding how to get there! You will see that magic number, and then you will move on to the part where you keep it there! You can do this!!!

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JUNEBUG1944 9/23/2010 9:51AM

    You are doing great, Michelle. That old life is over and done with...your new life is wonderful and you will succeed in your goals. Try and forget those bad times and enjoy these, new good times.

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    Just have to work on that old stuff and not stuff it down with food, don't we? I know, I've had to do it. Being abused by a hurt child, being abused by an ex-husband, having to go through the divorce ... gosh, the list goes on. But, I survived, and I'm a thinner woman now having dealt with my issues. We can do it if we put the effort into ourselves!!!
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