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The journey

Sunday, September 12, 2010

emoticonWe hear that all the time from friends and family alike. But do we really believe in our heart that we can win this battle? emoticonI know i'm going to do my utmost to see this journey through to the end.

I told myself I was giving up the snacking. It just wasn't working for me. I didn't know when to quit. So I have done great so far. Funny once you set your mind to something how it can be done. Maybe all those other times I was on the journey were just practice for this once in a lifetime moment. To succeed. I had a birthday party for my three year old grandson to attend yesterday. How did I do you may ask? emoticon emoticon emoticonI had a plan when I went, I stuck to the plan and it worked out fine. I enjoyed the visit with family and friends, afterall that is what I was there for not just the meal.

I came home at about six and had a cup of broth (my tea of choice) and a small bag of popcorn. I then read for a bit and went to bed. No snacking, no uncontroled munching, no cheating. My daughter in all her loving wisdom saw fit to give her mom a nice bigggggggggggg cinnamon roll from the cinnabun place in the mall. Did I eat it? nope, I took bits and put it in a small bowl to have one bite daily. My hubby has promised to finish the roll. He hasn't as of yet and soon it will hit the trash.

So I"m off to walmart now. He is getting impatient to finish a home project and he is looking over my shoulder and it is driving my mad. So continue on your journey and never give up. You just have to take it one day at a time. looking too far ahead can make the strong lose their balance and fall.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/12/2010 11:06PM

    You sound uplifted and positive and that is fantastic! Way to go at the birthday party AND saying no to the cinnamon roll! Your positive attitude is infectious so now I just have to work on keeping pu with you!! emoticon
You're doing great!!! Way to go!
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/12/2010 7:54PM

    That ending statement was POWERFUL!!! I am practicing staying in the NOW as Eckhart Tolle says.

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 9/12/2010 12:53PM

    You ARE doing it Michelle! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 9/12/2010 12:10PM

    You are doing a great job, keep it up and yes emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/12/2010 11:24AM

    emoticon Broth is soooo yummy! Keep it up! You're doing just fine ... learning as you go!

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My weekly weigh in

Saturday, September 11, 2010

emoticonI met my goal for losing one pound this week. How you may ask? i'm really not so sure. I feel the exercise was the reason. I can't stress enough how we need to move with this journey. I'm going to strive hard this week for another pound which will bring me to a new personal low. I know I can do this.

My plan to give up snacking is working so far. I was thinking this morning when did the need to snack become such a addiction. I never snacked when the kids where small, of course I was still large from the meals, and no movement that was included in laundry, grass mowing, and just life in general. I really didn't sit down and snack on the chips and such until later. So what made it such a part of my life that thinking about quiting puts me in a nervous trance? can't say. I'm working on changing that. I have worked on changing the eating in bed and so far none. I'm now moving on to the need to munch. One baby step at a time. I can tell ya that so far the last three days have been successful. I have found in the evenings I have to talk myself out of such nonesense but i've won each night.

So this is my new week and i'm going to make it a successful one. I have shopped and planned my meals for the week. I see a loss in my future what about yours?

MIchelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/12/2010 11:03PM

    way to go, Michelle! I knew you could do it! Congratulations on the loss for the week AND to saying no to the snacking. I think you are right, the exercise is crucial, and I promise to get myself moving every day this week!! Hang in there, you are doing great!

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MILNE81 9/11/2010 8:05PM

    emoticon I'm glad you're seeing progress! I'll be here cheering you on this week too! You can do it!

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RACEMOM576900 9/11/2010 4:10PM

    Great job this week Michelle! You are winning the battle against the snack attacks! Good luck this week. I know emoticon

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KNITTABLES 9/11/2010 1:55PM

    Great job this week and you will rock it out next week and make your goal. WTG.

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/11/2010 10:45AM

    emoticonMichelle! What an awesome week for you!!!

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KENDRACARROLL 9/11/2010 10:25AM

    Great job! Congratulations.

I wonder, in a world of plenty and food available to us practically 24/7, what exactly puts us in a frenzy when we think about bridging the gap between meals without eating? I'm of the same mindset and what the heck is this about anyway?

Sometimes I think reading too much and too many conflicting opinions is just adding to the general confusion.

I've often weighed the advantages/disadvantages of 3 square meals versus constant mini meals throughout the day and came to the conclusion that I can't mini-meal. I've proven that to myself (again!) so far this month.

So, I'm with you, let's cut out the snacking and find more meaningful things to do between meals.

Happy Saturday!

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HSMOMX2 9/11/2010 10:04AM

  emoticon emoticon I'm sure you will hit your goal this week too. Keep up the planning for success and great work. You will get there!

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 9/11/2010 9:30AM

    emoticon on a emoticon week Michelle! emoticon

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This weeks last chance day:

Friday, September 10, 2010

emoticonThis week has been full of my own person struggles with myself. I can't say how my weigh in is going to go and really I don't know if I want to. I'm just happy to have succeeded in making it through one day with success. I had choices and options and I choose the right ones. Now day two? hum, that is the question of the day...I never seem to be able to pull off two in a row, today seems like a good day for new records.

I have decided that snacking is not in my plan for a while. That is what gets me everytime. I say i'm going to have a snack and it turns into multiple snacks, bingeing. So i've decided to have fruit or ff pudding with meals and let it be in the plan and not an after thought. I'm going to purchase one, count them one, 100 calorie snack option for the moments when nothing else will do but a moment. I have to get a grip on myself and my plan and move this train forward.

I have so much success just waiting for me.

A emoticonmoment I have to share: I was out doing my morning walk/run and my neighbor ( I live in the country neighbor is one mile up the road) drove by me and stopped me, she told me that I looked terrific and to keep on doing what I was doing. I thanked her and the smile on my face couldn't be denied. As I walked away and she drove off I felt like crying. Here I was just thinking that maybe I wasn't cut out for this and here she comes. I knew god was listening and that was my sign to keep going strong. So i'm going to get strong for myself. I have come so far and no matter how long it takes me to get there i'm getting there.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/10/2010 11:35PM

    My friend, you can do this and we will do it together!! You ARE that strong, beautiful woman so let her shine!! Keep the grin on your face and know you have come so very far and we WILL succeed!!!
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KNITTABLES 9/10/2010 4:35PM

    You can do it and you are doing it, great job.

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Ok enough:

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Enough self doubt, enough self blame, enough self sabotage. today is new, fresh, and i'm on it. I kick myself so much that I wonder if I'm able to move. I can't do that anylonger. Yesterday I survived the day but OMG the evening food I ate. So this has to stop. I will not do this to myself anylonger. I have goals, plans in place, new tactics, new friends to walk beside me as well as old still standing with me.

Kristi, we are going to do this, Kricket enough, i"m with you on this journey, cathy, I want to be where your at, and sandra...i'm going to be standing with you at goal soon. we all came to this journey together and by george i'm going to finish with each of you in turn. If you get there before me, please be patient with me, I have days and they slow me down, but i'm coming. If I reach it before you, i'll wait on you to join me before proceeding on.

we are strong women, we can see this through. I'm ready to beat this nonesense. Afterall it is a small thing standing in my way...well somewhat. but i'm stronger then the craving, I just havn't let myself see that in quite a while. But watch out i'm back ;and i'm mad.......

So my friends.....lets show um how it is done. Ready, set, go.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/10/2010 11:33PM

    Michelle, I am with you! We will see this through to the finish line and beyond!! We are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, and there is nothing to stand in our way!!
Kristi

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/10/2010 5:08AM

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You have so much greatness inside of you. You can and you will do this and I will catch up with you as we meet our challenges head on with victory and determination in our eyes!!!

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KNITTABLES 9/9/2010 5:38PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonGreat attitude and we will all be with you, right beside you every minute of every day. No more beating yourself, but give yourself every encouragement that you give me to yourself. All for one, and one for ALL. emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 9/9/2010 10:30AM

    Good attitude Michelle!!! You ALL will get there. And it will be in your own time!!!
Group Hug!!
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KENDRACARROLL 9/9/2010 8:55AM

    Hey, we can do this!!!

Evenings and weekends can be hard.

I do better evenings, if I go to the gym. Usually after working out I'm not "snacky" anymore. I think, evening overeats for me are mainly from stress and/or releasing stress. What makes me think that food can help me unwind? Somehow I see that as a misconception. Ha!

Weekend overeats are mostly from boredom. A spend a good part of my weekends by myself, by choice. I just like to be a hermit... But I'm thinking this is not such a good choice either.

Ya, again it comes down to choices.
Okay, this is what I'm preaching to my 17-yo son and look at me... :)
I wonder if self-sabotage is a genetic trait, or is it taught, or is it self-inflicted?

Wow, what insight at 5:30 in the morning... Maybe I should get up this early more often - NOT!

Have a really great day.
Looking forward to a positive report tomorrow.
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ROSE5328 9/9/2010 8:40AM

    You can do it!

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    emoticon emoticon You're going to win at this!!!

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Today is a new day

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

emoticonOk, enough with the pity party. today is a fresh new day with a new attitude. I joined the team challenge and motivation, I have spark friend walking beside me in spirit if not in flesh, i"m strong, and i'm determined. I got this far didn't I? I can get to the finish line of this part of my journey. Let's be honest maintenance is the next leg.

emoticonto all my friends whom have pushed me forward, given me encouragement, or just a nice spark goodie. Sometimes I don't have the time to get back on that kind of stuff but know how it makes me smile to recieve a spark goodie or a note. I keep coming back to a few teams for the involvment they have, some i've had to drop because well....they didn't do it for me. I'm not going to get very far with a team that doesn't move or no one comes back. I mean I can talk to myself all the time at home but when i'm sparking I want to be answered. lol.

emoticonSo i'm picking up my emoticon and getting moving. It is time to face the facts, this weight didn't come on without a little help from me, and it surely won't leave without some help from me. I put myself in this place and I have to take myself out of it. It isn't going to be easy to take the high road and leave the easy road. It isn't going to be easy not giving in to my cravings, boredom eating, or just bad habits, but who said this journey was easy. what in life worth having is ever easy? Nothing.

So till next time my spark friends......
Michelle.

  
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VICB57 9/9/2010 3:40PM

    I say you can do it too!!!! I know you can!!


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KENDRACARROLL 9/8/2010 7:28PM

    I'm hoping your new day was awesome and everything you wanted it to be.


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KNITTABLES 9/8/2010 2:10PM

    Great blog. I too have left many teams because I felt left out on the group or ignored and some teams I have left because of no responsed on the thread or little action for our team leader. Good for you for getting a move on and you can do it. I am walking right beside you. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2010 9:11AM

    Today is the day we take charge of our own destinies, Michelle! You can do this. I have all the faith in the world in you!
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Kristi

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JHADZHIA 9/8/2010 8:46AM

    Go for it Michelle, you are going to get it done!!!
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Cheering you on!!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/8/2010 7:32AM

    emoticon Today's YOUR day!

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