Thursday, September 09, 2010
Enough self doubt, enough self blame, enough self sabotage. today is new, fresh, and i'm on it. I kick myself so much that I wonder if I'm able to move. I can't do that anylonger. Yesterday I survived the day but OMG the evening food I ate. So this has to stop. I will not do this to myself anylonger. I have goals, plans in place, new tactics, new friends to walk beside me as well as old still standing with me.
Kristi, we are going to do this, Kricket enough, i"m with you on this journey, cathy, I want to be where your at, and sandra...i'm going to be standing with you at goal soon. we all came to this journey together and by george i'm going to finish with each of you in turn. If you get there before me, please be patient with me, I have days and they slow me down, but i'm coming. If I reach it before you, i'll wait on you to join me before proceeding on.
we are strong women, we can see this through. I'm ready to beat this nonesense. Afterall it is a small thing standing in my way...well somewhat. but i'm stronger then the craving, I just havn't let myself see that in quite a while. But watch out i'm back ;and i'm mad.......
So my friends.....lets show um how it is done. Ready, set, go.
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Ok, enough with the pity party. today is a fresh new day with a new attitude. I joined the team challenge and motivation, I have spark friend walking beside me in spirit if not in flesh, i"m strong, and i'm determined. I got this far didn't I? I can get to the finish line of this part of my journey. Let's be honest maintenance is the next leg.
to all my friends whom have pushed me forward, given me encouragement, or just a nice spark goodie. Sometimes I don't have the time to get back on that kind of stuff but know how it makes me smile to recieve a spark goodie or a note. I keep coming back to a few teams for the involvment they have, some i've had to drop because well....they didn't do it for me. I'm not going to get very far with a team that doesn't move or no one comes back. I mean I can talk to myself all the time at home but when i'm sparking I want to be answered. lol.
So i'm picking up my and getting moving. It is time to face the facts, this weight didn't come on without a little help from me, and it surely won't leave without some help from me. I put myself in this place and I have to take myself out of it. It isn't going to be easy to take the high road and leave the easy road. It isn't going to be easy not giving in to my cravings, boredom eating, or just bad habits, but who said this journey was easy. what in life worth having is ever easy? Nothing.
So till next time my spark friends......
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
I get so upset with myself a lot lately. I say i'm going start fresh, do better, eat better and then wham i'm back to the old me. Mostly when i'm off and have too much time on my hands. Oh don't get me wrong, I exercise religously which is what probably has helped me stay where i'm at, I drink my water like a fish, and I get my veggies and such in for the day....it is the nonstop snacking while i'm at home.
Food glorious food is my downfall. Oh i'm good till say.....lunch. Then from then on it is eat, eat, and eat...Now during the week i'm awesome, but let me have a day off. Sometimes I hold tough till sunday, and sometimes I do terrible both days. then I weigh in a get upset. I should be upset with myself not the dumb scales for telling the dirty little secret.
Ok, that is out. It is a fresh day, new start yet again. I'm off now that i've spilled my guts to get in my morning workout. I love a walk in the mornings....If not for the exercise i'd be as big as a house I do believe. I try to laugh it off but it isn't funny. I feel sad for myself that I can't follow just one simple plan. I mean I can eat anything I want within reason, I just can't seem to stay in reason. lol.
Ok, so I want to wish all a terrific day. I'm off to try and figure out where i'm going to get the energy for the rest of the week.
Saturday, September 04, 2010
the scales moved this week. I lost 0.8, I should of been happy but coming off a week with a gain of 2.6 this weigh in just upset me. I worked so hard this week. Got in extra exercise thanks to a team challenge on my ww team, ate according to my plan, stayed under my free points. I should of been down I felt a lot more.
Looking over my tracker I see that I should of ate more, there just wasn't time. work was so busy and I missed breaks, I went to bed after eating a very light dinner because I was exausted and yes with the extra exercise I think my body held on to what I wanted it to let go of.
So my new plan for this week, I can't believe i'm going to say this, is to eat a bit more. I really need to eat the food i'm suppose to. I mean the amounts i'm suppose to. I just have to keep up the exercise and eat. Kinda seems funny to type that out.
So till my next blog. Lets keep sparking. My glass is half full this week, even though I must say this morning I was looking at it as half empty. I was so upset me the scales, the loss, and myself. But i've had time to think it out, look over my book, and move on.
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