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Ok enough:

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Enough self doubt, enough self blame, enough self sabotage. today is new, fresh, and i'm on it. I kick myself so much that I wonder if I'm able to move. I can't do that anylonger. Yesterday I survived the day but OMG the evening food I ate. So this has to stop. I will not do this to myself anylonger. I have goals, plans in place, new tactics, new friends to walk beside me as well as old still standing with me.

Kristi, we are going to do this, Kricket enough, i"m with you on this journey, cathy, I want to be where your at, and sandra...i'm going to be standing with you at goal soon. we all came to this journey together and by george i'm going to finish with each of you in turn. If you get there before me, please be patient with me, I have days and they slow me down, but i'm coming. If I reach it before you, i'll wait on you to join me before proceeding on.

we are strong women, we can see this through. I'm ready to beat this nonesense. Afterall it is a small thing standing in my way...well somewhat. but i'm stronger then the craving, I just havn't let myself see that in quite a while. But watch out i'm back ;and i'm mad.......

So my friends.....lets show um how it is done. Ready, set, go.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/10/2010 11:33PM

    Michelle, I am with you! We will see this through to the finish line and beyond!! We are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, and there is nothing to stand in our way!!
Kristi

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/10/2010 5:08AM

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You have so much greatness inside of you. You can and you will do this and I will catch up with you as we meet our challenges head on with victory and determination in our eyes!!!

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KNITTABLES 9/9/2010 5:38PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonGreat attitude and we will all be with you, right beside you every minute of every day. No more beating yourself, but give yourself every encouragement that you give me to yourself. All for one, and one for ALL. emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 9/9/2010 10:30AM

    Good attitude Michelle!!! You ALL will get there. And it will be in your own time!!!
Group Hug!!
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KENDRACARROLL 9/9/2010 8:55AM

    Hey, we can do this!!!

Evenings and weekends can be hard.

I do better evenings, if I go to the gym. Usually after working out I'm not "snacky" anymore. I think, evening overeats for me are mainly from stress and/or releasing stress. What makes me think that food can help me unwind? Somehow I see that as a misconception. Ha!

Weekend overeats are mostly from boredom. A spend a good part of my weekends by myself, by choice. I just like to be a hermit... But I'm thinking this is not such a good choice either.

Ya, again it comes down to choices.
Okay, this is what I'm preaching to my 17-yo son and look at me... :)
I wonder if self-sabotage is a genetic trait, or is it taught, or is it self-inflicted?

Wow, what insight at 5:30 in the morning... Maybe I should get up this early more often - NOT!

Have a really great day.
Looking forward to a positive report tomorrow.
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ROSE5328 9/9/2010 8:40AM

    You can do it!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/9/2010 7:56AM

    emoticon emoticon You're going to win at this!!!

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Today is a new day

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

emoticonOk, enough with the pity party. today is a fresh new day with a new attitude. I joined the team challenge and motivation, I have spark friend walking beside me in spirit if not in flesh, i"m strong, and i'm determined. I got this far didn't I? I can get to the finish line of this part of my journey. Let's be honest maintenance is the next leg.

emoticonto all my friends whom have pushed me forward, given me encouragement, or just a nice spark goodie. Sometimes I don't have the time to get back on that kind of stuff but know how it makes me smile to recieve a spark goodie or a note. I keep coming back to a few teams for the involvment they have, some i've had to drop because well....they didn't do it for me. I'm not going to get very far with a team that doesn't move or no one comes back. I mean I can talk to myself all the time at home but when i'm sparking I want to be answered. lol.

emoticonSo i'm picking up my emoticon and getting moving. It is time to face the facts, this weight didn't come on without a little help from me, and it surely won't leave without some help from me. I put myself in this place and I have to take myself out of it. It isn't going to be easy to take the high road and leave the easy road. It isn't going to be easy not giving in to my cravings, boredom eating, or just bad habits, but who said this journey was easy. what in life worth having is ever easy? Nothing.

So till next time my spark friends......
Michelle.

  
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VICB57 9/9/2010 3:40PM

    I say you can do it too!!!! I know you can!!


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KENDRACARROLL 9/8/2010 7:28PM

    I'm hoping your new day was awesome and everything you wanted it to be.


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KNITTABLES 9/8/2010 2:10PM

    Great blog. I too have left many teams because I felt left out on the group or ignored and some teams I have left because of no responsed on the thread or little action for our team leader. Good for you for getting a move on and you can do it. I am walking right beside you. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2010 9:11AM

    Today is the day we take charge of our own destinies, Michelle! You can do this. I have all the faith in the world in you!
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Kristi

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JHADZHIA 9/8/2010 8:46AM

    Go for it Michelle, you are going to get it done!!!
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Cheering you on!!

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JESSIELOVE78 9/8/2010 7:47AM

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/8/2010 7:32AM

    emoticon Today's YOUR day!

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BEACH_BUMM 9/8/2010 7:31AM

    Way to have a good attitude! emoticon

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Why, oh why?

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

emoticonI get so upset with myself a lot lately. I say i'm going start fresh, do better, eat better and then wham i'm back to the old me. Mostly when i'm off and have too much time on my hands. Oh don't get me wrong, I exercise religously which is what probably has helped me stay where i'm at, I drink my water like a fish, and I get my veggies and such in for the day....it is the nonstop snacking while i'm at home.

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonFood glorious food is my downfall. Oh i'm good till say.....lunch. Then from then on it is eat, eat, and eat...Now during the week i'm awesome, but let me have a day off. Sometimes I hold tough till sunday, and sometimes I do terrible both days. then I weigh in a get upset. I should be upset with myself not the dumb scales for telling the dirty little secret.

Ok, that is out. It is a fresh day, new start yet again. I'm off now that i've spilled my guts to get in my morning workout. I love a walk in the mornings....If not for the exercise i'd be as big as a house I do believe. I try to laugh it off but it isn't funny. I feel sad for myself that I can't follow just one simple plan. I mean I can eat anything I want within reason, I just can't seem to stay in reason. lol.

Ok, so I want to wish all a terrific day. I'm off to try and figure out where i'm going to get the energy for the rest of the week.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2010 12:31AM

    Michelle, we have certainly been thinking AND behaving alike these days!! I've been more discouraged these past few weeks than I have been in a very long time. And the bad thing is, it's all my own fault, I have no one else to blame. So...what do we do? We hold our head up, we forgive ourselves and we forge ahead! We still have time to make this a great month, so let's do it!!

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KNITTABLES 9/7/2010 8:25PM

    You can do this, take it one day and one hour at a time and give yourself a break and don't be to hard on yourself. I have had a bad week too and now I am back to square one. emoticon

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SIDKROSE 9/7/2010 10:32AM

    I used to be the same way, snacking all the time when I had too much time on my hands. Now, I have one rule. I can have what I want for a snack, but I have to sit at the table and just concentrate on eating! Usually, If I'm eating something ridiculous, I'll stop, and be like, why am I doing this? Or, I'll recognize that with that specific food I have very little self control and need to be extra careful around it. Hope this helps! You can do it!

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KENDRACARROLL 9/7/2010 10:23AM

    I didn't do too well this past weekend either...
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MILNE81 9/7/2010 10:17AM

    During the week while you're doing so well and staying so strong try getting rid of the non-good-for-you foods from the house. Maybe that will help on the weekends if you don't have anything in the house that will cause you such setbacks.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/7/2010 10:07AM

    Focus on the success. Practice not perfection!!! Not gaining is GREAT as my scale is doing the seesaw!!! Have a great day. Sending energy vibes fed express!!

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JESSIELOVE78 9/7/2010 8:36AM

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RIDLEYRIDER 9/7/2010 7:55AM

  We all get discouraged when we feel we are losing control...just remember you can't be 'perfect' all of the time. Just try to do the right thing MOST of the time and you will succeed! emoticon

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Weekly weigh in

Saturday, September 04, 2010

the scales moved emoticon this week. I lost 0.8, I should of been happy but coming off a week with a gain of 2.6 this weigh in just upset me. I worked so hard this week. Got in extra exercise thanks to a team challenge on my ww team, ate according to my plan, stayed under my free points. I should of been down I felt a lot more.

Looking over my tracker I see that I should of ate more, there just wasn't time. work was so busy and I missed breaks, I went to bed after eating a very light dinner because I was exausted and yes with the extra exercise I think my body held on to what I wanted it to let go of.

So my new plan for this week, I can't believe i'm going to say this, is to eat a bit more. I really need to eat the food i'm suppose to. I mean the amounts i'm suppose to. I just have to keep up the exercise and eat. Kinda seems funny to type that out.

So till my next blog. Lets keep sparking. My glass is half full this week, even though I must say this morning I was looking at it as half empty. I was so upset me the scales, the loss, and myself. But i've had time to think it out, look over my book, and move on.

MIchelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/6/2010 12:23PM

    That's what this is all about...one week at a time, one day at a time, looking back and seeing what we need to tweak in order to do better next time. You are on the right track and you can do it!!
Kristi

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KNITTABLES 9/5/2010 2:35PM

    .8 LBS is a loss, your doing great, Hang in there.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/5/2010 9:09AM

    Celebrate the positivity of the gain and the loss both r teaching u something. It does not feel good to gain. I KNOW FOR SURE. But there r things I learned about myselt that I would not have identified without the gain. U r doing great

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/4/2010 9:05PM

    emoticonon the 0.8 pound missing! That's great! Wishing you another successful week ahead!

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LUBAML 9/4/2010 8:54PM

    I wish you successful week! You can do it! emoticonLuba

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Moving in the right direction

Thursday, September 02, 2010


Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
- Henry David Thoreau

Efforts and courage are not enough without purpose and direction.
- John F. Kennedy


I think I myself my be finally moving in the right direction. It has only taken me ohhhhhh about a year and a half to reach this point. I'm staying the course, coming up with new ideas, getting the movement in that is needed and much wanted at this point. who would of thought I'd enjoy movement. Me the couch potato with the chips, dip, and a good book. I really find i'm reading less so as not to munch. I'm trying to retrain my brain about reading and snacking don't go hand in hand but as of yet still working on that one.

So far this week had been awesome to say the least. I"m so pumped for the weigh in coming. I know they may not show a whole big change but I feel the changes in me. The not eating after eight is working out great. Once I set my mind to it I see it happening. Hum, this might work in other parts as well...maybe i'll work on that one next.

I wish you all a great day. I'm off now to finish up some sparking and then hit the ground running this morning. I have a 100 days of fitness to get to.

Michelle.

  
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INCTRL 9/5/2010 6:07PM

    Love those quotes! If we don't give up we eventually "get it" and move on to meet our dreams!

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EDNABEYER 9/2/2010 11:54AM

    Thanks for the motivating quotes. Your words are exactly what I needed to read this morning. You're the best!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/2/2010 11:12AM

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KNITTABLES 9/2/2010 10:48AM

    Great quotes, I have been up since 5am and got my workout in and will do another short one later. You will acheive your goals. I can see your determination.

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KENDRACARROLL 9/2/2010 10:24AM

    Great! Have a super day!
I'll be getting myself to the gym tonight (it's been a while...)

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 9/2/2010 8:00AM

    YOU are going to do it!!!! I see you at GOAL ... can you see you there?

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PMAY0313 9/2/2010 8:00AM

    Great quotes!
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