Thursday, August 19, 2010
You know it is funny that we blame others for our state. If we eat extra it is because for some reason or another someone felt we needed it, we had a bad day, were tired, yadayada....well I can say without a doubt that I think it is myself that is the root of my troubles. Whether it is a feeling I have or it could be that snack cake sitting in my gut, or was it the granola bar, or the popcorn....this is all things I ate while in the bed. Mind you I got up to get them, brought them back and just inhaled....Problem.....oh yeah....want to know why? I do this to me all the time.
I could of, should of, need to plan for the nights when i'm going to binge. The nights I work late, the nights i'm not tired (or think i'm not), do I you ask? Never, Oh I say i'm going to, I head to the store with good intentions and then comes the mid week, weekend, boredom blues and i'm heading for anything that is edible. I've tried gum, hot chocolate, going to bed to sleep, hard candy, dessert after my meal...Nothing seems to stop me. I have a good day and then the next is downhill from there.
Am I setting myself up for failure? you betcha...it has taken me over a year and a half to lose about 20 pounds. I see folks on here doing that in months. It has taken me a lot of miles to get the shape I have but is it the final magic moment? nope. this is a milestone for sure, but it isn't where I really want to be. So knowing this, paying for ww online, buying all the neat tools, toys, foods, and such why am I still at the place that put me here in the first place? That is the magic question.
I tell myself I want to succeed, I tell you all I want to succeed, I go out and walk, run, elliptical, treadmill, bike, weights myself to a sweating mass, I buy all the great foods, I eat breakfast, go to bed at the right time, get my water in. I even use my lunch break at work and get in about 20-25 more minutes of light walking daily. So i'm doing all that I can, or think I should be to reach my goals and hold them there.....then I go and mess it up.
Guys i'm telling you somedays the calore content in one evening is more then I eat during a good meal...what is up with this? Before you say journal, I do. I still couldn't tell ya what is up. I don't eat because i'm upset. I thought it was boredom but i'm beginning to think that isn't it either. So i'm going to have to have a heart to heart with Michelle and see what it is she wants and needs. We have to do this from time to time. Keeps her in the now and she does tend to relax a bit too much sometimes.
I'm going to begin today anew, I know that the scales may show the quilty pleasures i've had this week, I've stayed the same for three weeks running and i'm prepared for this weigh in. I'm not quitting. I've just got to grab myself and stop this madness. My goal this week is to work on no eating after eight. If I can do that then I will work on the others. One baby step at a time. Of course no snacking after dinnner is going to be a part of this week also since by the time I get home from work and eat dinner it is after seven thirty anyhow.
So wish me luck and any suggestions that have worked for you would be greatly welcomed.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I ran into my stepmother yesterday, she had to take a second look at me. She said "oh my god you have lost a lot of weight", we don't see each other much as you can tell. Anyhow I told her how much I had lost and I was so happy just to be saying how great I was doing, then I say "yeah i'm ten pounds from goal". then the look, the words, "you don't need to lose anymore weight". I hate hearing those words. I work with a lady that asked me the other day if I was going to keep going till I was invisable. What is up with people.
I'm with my doctor on this. He chose a weight, I chose one higher. I actually chose a weight I could maybe keep for the long haul. I'm not getting anorexic. My god I eat more then most, less then others. I just chose to eat better food. I exercise and I'm fit.
I want to know why do people question our goals? Do they not want to see us succeed, are they worried about us, are they just curious how we can keep doing this for the long haul? I was just wondering because i'm tired of hearing how thin I am, how i don't need to walk, how I don't need to diet. People come on...cut me some slack. I know my body, I know what I need. I eat, I sleep, I exercise...that is what healthy living is all about.
So people step aside....I have a goal to meet, a magic number to see on the scales one day, I have a future waiting for me and I'd like to resume where I left off.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Nope i'm not kidding Michelle, those scales didn't move an inch. Not one iota again. Can we say plateau? REally such a small word, but it wreaks havoc on us each week we step on those scales and wham...nothing, nata, zip, zilch. Not even a blip on the scales.
I look back over my week, I stayed within my points, I exercised, I got my water, my sleep...so what gives? Nothing, that's what. Oh i'm upset, i'm angry, i got off and back on three times just in case...you all know the scenerio. But alas the scales didn't move a bit. Since they are digital you can't even guesstimate a loss, the truth is staring you right in the face.
So what did I do after the temper tantrum for the third week in a row, I came here to figure out a new plan of attack on this last bit of fat hanging on. I know it wants to stay but really I don't want it anymore. So I have to be really strong this week, I have to do what i'm suppose to even when I don't want to. I have to get those waters in even when i'm not really in the mood, I have to exercise in the evening like I was even when I think i'm too tired. Looking back over my journal I can see places I could of done better. Not could of, should of. Places that I let a few things slip like eating healthy in favor of that chip, chocolate, or such.
I'm stocked this week as of last night in the fridge and in the fruits and veggies department...so that is taken care of, I have water, pitas, healthy sandwich meats, healthy choices for dinners. I'm good to go this week. I have found witht the heat i've fallen into a food rut. eating the same ole same ole just because it is convenient and cool. I will measure and weigh my foods, everything, not just the obvious, I think i'm eyeballing too much here and maybe i'm not hitting it right on.
I will see movement on this next weigh in. i'm heading on vacation for a couple of days to florida andthe beach in another week. I want to see movement before I leave, I don't want to head out with the attitude of it won't matter because it won't matter if you get my drift.
So friends and neighbors i'm off to begin my next week. I know i've got changes happening in myself, inches lost, new pants size, new attitude about life. So really I can live at this weight for say....today. After today I want to see changes in those digital numbers. lol.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
All of life is change. Each change has some positive and some negative, but always focus on the positive aspects of each change.
I have to focus on the changes that I have already achieved and the new one to come. FOr me it is easy to overlook my accomplishments and just focus on the downfalls. Each time we make a change whether for the good or bad it impacts our goals.
I want to reach my goals but it is going to take me a bit more change to do that. I have still to overcome a couple of problem areas if i'm to meet and then stay at my goals. Knowing my trouble areas helps me to prepare for the days to come.
So i'm off to work on me. I'm going to have a walk/run this morning which I haven't done in a while. Oh i've gotten in my exercise I've just walked and no running. I miss it. but due to heat, well you get the picture. so today i'm changeing up my routine and going to sweat for a bit.
Sunday, August 08, 2010
As I sit here wide awake again at 2:30 I have to ask myself this question...why?? I mean I worked hard yesterday, no nap, went to bed at a good time. what is up with this? It is happening more and more. So tonight maybe I will try something new. don't know what as of yet but something.
I have to tell ya I did great all day yesterday, planned, ate on schedule, stayed on points, then the sun went down and munchy monster came to play. I played. So I journaled, gave me new goals for the newweek and i'm ready to take him on. I will eat my snacks at the table or none at all, and no eating after 8 pm. These two things are doable and I will give them a week and see where i'm at next week. Funny how one little problem can mess up all our intentions. I for one don't intend to let this setback of one evening ruin my week. I wil succeed this week in my efforts.
It takes 21 days they say to reach a new "habit", today is day one. Bring it on.
Have a blessed sunday all, and remember we are worth all the effort we make, all the work, all the planning. We are worth it all.
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