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Setting myself up for failure

Thursday, August 19, 2010

You know it is funny that we blame others for our state. If we eat extra it is because for some reason or another someone felt we needed it, we had a bad day, were tired, yadayada....well I can say without a doubt that I think it is myself that is the root of my troubles. Whether it is a feeling I have or it could be that snack cake sitting in my gut, or was it the granola bar, or the popcorn....this is all things I ate while in the bed. Mind you I got up to get them, brought them back and just inhaled....Problem.....oh yeah....want to know why? I do this to me all the time.

I could of, should of, need to plan for the nights when i'm going to binge. The nights I work late, the nights i'm not tired (or think i'm not), do I you ask? Never, Oh I say i'm going to, I head to the store with good intentions and then comes the mid week, weekend, boredom blues and i'm heading for anything that is edible. I've tried gum, hot chocolate, going to bed to sleep, hard candy, dessert after my meal...Nothing seems to stop me. I have a good day and then the next is downhill from there.

Am I setting myself up for failure? you has taken me over a year and a half to lose about 20 pounds. I see folks on here doing that in months. It has taken me a lot of miles to get the shape I have but is it the final magic moment? nope. this is a milestone for sure, but it isn't where I really want to be. So knowing this, paying for ww online, buying all the neat tools, toys, foods, and such why am I still at the place that put me here in the first place? That is the magic question.

I tell myself I want to succeed, I tell you all I want to succeed, I go out and walk, run, elliptical, treadmill, bike, weights myself to a sweating mass, I buy all the great foods, I eat breakfast, go to bed at the right time, get my water in. I even use my lunch break at work and get in about 20-25 more minutes of light walking daily. So i'm doing all that I can, or think I should be to reach my goals and hold them there.....then I go and mess it up.

Guys i'm telling you somedays the calore content in one evening is more then I eat during a good meal...what is up with this? Before you say journal, I do. I still couldn't tell ya what is up. I don't eat because i'm upset. I thought it was boredom but i'm beginning to think that isn't it either. So i'm going to have to have a heart to heart with Michelle and see what it is she wants and needs. We have to do this from time to time. Keeps her in the now and she does tend to relax a bit too much sometimes.

I'm going to begin today anew, I know that the scales may show the quilty pleasures i've had this week, I've stayed the same for three weeks running and i'm prepared for this weigh in. I'm not quitting. I've just got to grab myself and stop this madness. My goal this week is to work on no eating after eight. If I can do that then I will work on the others. One baby step at a time. Of course no snacking after dinnner is going to be a part of this week also since by the time I get home from work and eat dinner it is after seven thirty anyhow.

So wish me luck and any suggestions that have worked for you would be greatly welcomed.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/19/2010 11:10PM

    I wish I had some wonderful bit of wisdom that would put an end to this madness, but if I did, well, I'd be 70 pounds lighter by I can say is hang in there, keep trying and you can do it! I think working on only the goal of not eating after 8 is a good idea. You are already doing so many great take some time and concentrate on just this one thing for a while. You know you're going to know you're going to drink your just focus on the nighttime dilemma.
You aren't alone...we're right here with you and will be right here with you when you do reach that magic number.

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AGUAWOMEN 8/19/2010 10:04AM

    I restarted today also. So here a few words, 20lbs over a year is more likely to stay off then come back on. Increase you calories in the morning, and do several snacks. Dinner at 730pm, Make it light, 300 calories or less with lots of protein and fiber. Even if its a smothie. My smoothie is usually blueberries, one scope of protein, two table spoon of ground flax seed, one cup of skim milk. high fiber, protein, source of dairy. At night wash your dishes by hand. time consuming and it keeps you away from food. Hope it help. Day one for me to.

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CHINAGAL 8/19/2010 8:10AM

    I feel you with this one, friend. Nighttime is my hardest time. I find myself in the kitchen in front of the fridge - I'm not hungry, I just want to eat. I prowl.

I've gotten better since I've been doing SP. I save some calories for late at night. I go ahead and plan a treat and post it in my record. But it is very hard.

One thing that helps me is to go ahead and brush my teeth and use mouthwash after my last planned food.

Keep working at it. I'm sure you will figure this out.

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BRONXBABE 8/19/2010 7:47AM

    Hey, I don't remember writing this! And how did it come up under Michelle's name? Hmmmm....these are the same things I'm doing. I've paid WW a fortune since 2003. But I keep on eating like the world is going to end tomorrow.

I wish I had some answers. Some tried and true solutions to OUR problem. Sorry, I don't. The only thing I can tell you is to just say "NO" when you find yourself going in the kitchen to get something else to put in your mouth. It's not always going to work. It probably won't work at all the first few times. But maybe it will slow you down just a bit, and make you think about what you're doing.

Just keep plugging away, my friend. I know we're going to have a breakthrough one of these days.

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Why do people question our goals?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

emoticonI ran into my stepmother yesterday, she had to take a second look at me. She said "oh my god you have lost a lot of weight", we don't see each other much as you can tell. Anyhow I told her how much I had lost and I was so happy just to be saying how great I was doing, then I say "yeah i'm ten pounds from goal". then the look, the words, "you don't need to lose anymore weight". I hate hearing those words. I work with a lady that asked me the other day if I was going to keep going till I was invisable. What is up with people.

I'm with my doctor on this. He chose a weight, I chose one higher. I actually chose a weight I could maybe keep for the long haul. I'm not getting anorexic. My god I eat more then most, less then others. I just chose to eat better food. I exercise and I'm fit.

I want to know why do people question our goals? Do they not want to see us succeed, are they worried about us, are they just curious how we can keep doing this for the long haul? I was just wondering because i'm tired of hearing how thin I am, how i don't need to walk, how I don't need to diet. People come on...cut me some slack. I know my body, I know what I need. I eat, I sleep, I exercise...that is what healthy living is all about.

So people step aside....I have a goal to meet, a magic number to see on the scales one day, I have a future waiting for me and I'd like to resume where I left off.


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KENDRACARROLL 8/19/2010 1:58AM

    I wouldn't be so kind and say that people are worried about us. It's pure jealousy, girl.
(People are evil.... hehehe).
Having said that, ignore the nay-sayers and do what you set out to do.

What annoys me though is the fact that these nay-sayers make me feel very uncomfortable, almost guilty, even though I don't know why I would be. Strange.

Comment edited on: 8/19/2010 1:59:50 AM

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/18/2010 12:05AM

    You know what you need and don't let anyone tell you otherwise! I don't know why people take it upon themselves to question our fitness goals..but so much of the time those comments come from "well meaning?" family members who ought to know better!! Just hang in there, don't let what anyone says get you down!! You are doing awesome!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/17/2010 8:18PM

    I went through that when I lost 30 pounds 2 yrs ago and I thought I was fighting it but along with my other challenges I took it in subconsciously. Like the rapper Rocko says u do u imma do me.... watch me do me!!!!! THATS WHAT YOU SAY TO ALL OF THEM!!! emoticon

Comment edited on: 8/17/2010 8:19:16 PM

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IUHRYTR 8/17/2010 4:35PM

    Other people do not want us to succeed. It is a way of them making themselves feel better. Hang in there and do this for you. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 8/17/2010 1:10PM

    I here the same things too and it drives me nuts. You are doing this for you so keep up the great work.

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MILNE81 8/17/2010 10:38AM

    I'm glad you don't let the words of others stop you. It seems like it would be easy to stop and be content with where you are based on how other people think, but you are pressing on and making sure you are happy with your own results. In the end I think that's what people have to understand, you live in your skin so you need to be comfortable with it!I say keep on rockin on! You're doing a great job!

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VICB57 8/17/2010 9:17AM

    Know what your saying..been through the same thing with people as I reached my goal!! Keep up the good work!!! emoticon

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4DOGNIGHT 8/17/2010 9:12AM

    When my sister lost 60 pounds, I thought she was too thin. She maintained that loss for a couple of years but she could not eat much. Now she has gained 10 or so back but in my opinion, she looks better, not so wrinkled. When we get older, our faces sag and skin hangs, especially if we've been over weight so long. And also, others are jealous of our progress. My goal is modest. I could lose more but at my age, I don't want to look thin and drawn and wrinkled. I appreciate where you are coming from though. Just look at it as jealousy and keep on trucking. Your body will stop when it needs to stop.

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BEYOURBEST1 8/17/2010 8:31AM

    Great job on your weight loss!
Like you, I have found that people seem to feel qualified to tell us how much not to lose. What I do now is I stopped telling them how much I lost. When they ask, I tell them I lost "a good amount" and that's all I say. I do not tell them of my weight loss goals either since I do not need to engage in a dialog or discussion to convince anyone about why my goals are appropriate and healthy. Sometimes, keeping our privacy helps with nosy people. We are in this for our health, not for anyone else's opinions.
Keep up the great work and best of luck on your healthy journey.

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PUGGY7932 8/17/2010 8:05AM

  It happens to me to and I don't understand it. My husband was saying the wind was going to blow me away! I'm a healthy 132 Goal 115 and some days i feel bad for wanting my goal but then i tell myself its for me and all the haters can step off (in a good way he is my hubby.)

So now that's said i would guess its hard seeing us being able to change our self's. Change in any form is hard.

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    I think that we as a country no longer see an appropriate body size as appropriate, as average any longer. We see it as skinny, to thin, a goal not to be achieved. Why? Because we see obese people around us all the time. That has become the norm. I've avoided those comments by not telling people that I'm still losing. Why do they need to know? This is my journey and I like to walk it happy. So, I decide to leave their opinions out of it by not discussing my goals. It's a choice we get to make. I only discuss my goals with folks I know will support me.

Wishing you the best this week! May the scale be kind!!

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You've got to be kidding!!!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Nope i'm not kidding Michelle, those scales didn't move an inch. Not one iota again. Can we say plateau? REally such a small word, but it wreaks havoc on us each week we step on those scales and wham...nothing, nata, zip, zilch. Not even a blip on the scales.

I look back over my week, I stayed within my points, I exercised, I got my water, my what gives? Nothing, that's what. Oh i'm upset, i'm angry, i got off and back on three times just in all know the scenerio. But alas the scales didn't move a bit. Since they are digital you can't even guesstimate a loss, the truth is staring you right in the face.

So what did I do after the temper tantrum for the third week in a row, I came here to figure out a new plan of attack on this last bit of fat hanging on. I know it wants to stay but really I don't want it anymore. So I have to be really strong this week, I have to do what i'm suppose to even when I don't want to. I have to get those waters in even when i'm not really in the mood, I have to exercise in the evening like I was even when I think i'm too tired. Looking back over my journal I can see places I could of done better. Not could of, should of. Places that I let a few things slip like eating healthy in favor of that chip, chocolate, or such.

I'm stocked this week as of last night in the fridge and in the fruits and veggies that is taken care of, I have water, pitas, healthy sandwich meats, healthy choices for dinners. I'm good to go this week. I have found witht the heat i've fallen into a food rut. eating the same ole same ole just because it is convenient and cool. I will measure and weigh my foods, everything, not just the obvious, I think i'm eyeballing too much here and maybe i'm not hitting it right on.

I will see movement on this next weigh in. i'm heading on vacation for a couple of days to florida andthe beach in another week. I want to see movement before I leave, I don't want to head out with the attitude of it won't matter because it won't matter if you get my drift.

So friends and neighbors i'm off to begin my next week. I know i've got changes happening in myself, inches lost, new pants size, new attitude about life. So really I can live at this weight for After today I want to see changes in those digital numbers. lol.

Michelle. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/18/2010 12:01AM

    You are changing and you ARE going to win! I see that pesky scale moving soon, but dont' let it get the best of you! You are determined and you will conquer this!!

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LEFTSOX 8/14/2010 6:41PM

    I agree in changing up the routine. I can't get to the point of doing the same thing every day. I wish I could but life keeps happening and so everyday is different. Even different foods is good. Maybe your body is lacking a vitamin it wants and is holding on to fat because of that.

We all know those last few pounds are a pain in the butt, you will figure it out just change a thing or two this week and see if your scale moves. If not maybe it's time for a new scale! LOL I have been known to weight myself in the middle of the department store because I wanted to see if my scale was still working! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 8/14/2010 2:41PM

    I agree with Kricket4, change up your exercising and do something different. You body is so used to the same ole same ole. Switch it up and You will see a difference. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 8/14/2010 1:35PM

    You could always blame the French emoticon
- for the stupid word, anyway...
Change up your exercise routine, maybe that'll do the trick.
All the best.

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MERIMARY 8/14/2010 1:00PM

    You'll get past this.

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4DOGNIGHT 8/14/2010 9:27AM

    you have a great and positive attitude. It will come off, just takes time sometimes. Keep up the good work! P.S. It is hot here in Florida!

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CHINAGAL 8/14/2010 9:16AM

    Change is HAPPENING, and just because you don't see the evidence on the scale doesn't mean it ain't so!

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QUIETCUPOFTEA 8/14/2010 8:50AM

    you can do it & change is coming. i am looking forward to the big emoticon when it does!!! keep on sparkin'!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/14/2010 8:47AM

You gonna see movement!!! Keep up the FANTASTICSUPERDUPERAWESOME work!

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KEAUXALLA 8/14/2010 8:47AM

    I am sure you will break through. At least the scale isn't going up. emoticon

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    emoticonYou've got a plan!!!! emoticon emoticon

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RIDLEYRIDER 8/14/2010 6:36AM

  I know your frustration!! But it sounds like your changes you have planned WILL bring the results you want. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 8/14/2010 6:34AM

    For some reason, even though our clothes are looser and we can see a difference in the mirror, we want to see it on the scale and when we don't it's irritating. Why are we like this? Ah, well, keep working, maybe increase the cardio a bit and you'll get there. -- Lou

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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

All of life is change. Each change has some positive and some negative, but always focus on the positive aspects of each change.

I have to focus on the changes that I have already achieved and the new one to come. FOr me it is easy to overlook my accomplishments and just focus on the downfalls. Each time we make a change whether for the good or bad it impacts our goals.

I want to reach my goals but it is going to take me a bit more change to do that. I have still to overcome a couple of problem areas if i'm to meet and then stay at my goals. Knowing my trouble areas helps me to prepare for the days to come.

So i'm off to work on me. I'm going to have a walk/run this morning which I haven't done in a while. Oh i've gotten in my exercise I've just walked and no running. I miss it. but due to heat, well you get the picture. so today i'm changeing up my routine and going to sweat for a bit.


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KNITTABLES 8/13/2010 10:54PM

    Keep up the good work and stay hydrated. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/12/2010 9:41AM

    I know you are going to do this and I am cheering for you!! You have such dedication and determination and you are succeeding! Each and every day you ARE changing and making your life what you want it to be. You can do it!!!!
It IS awfully hot, so be careful!
Take care!!
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/11/2010 8:40PM

    gulp!!! thanks I needed that. Keep up the good work !

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    emoticonYou have the courage and the strength!

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IUHRYTR 8/11/2010 9:00AM

    Sweating can be good emoticon and you'll love the endorphin high. -- Lou

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SLIMPAM23 8/11/2010 8:48AM

You are one of the most dedicated Sparkers I know!! I have no doubt that you will overcome whatever may be holding you back. And you WILL reach your final goal.....of that I am certain!!! Be careful in this heat - it is horrific this year!! And it can be deadly - so be determined....but be safe!!
Hugs - I KNOW you are going to make it!!
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My plans for the coming week.

Sunday, August 08, 2010

As I sit here wide awake again at 2:30 I have to ask myself this question...why?? I mean I worked hard yesterday, no nap, went to bed at a good time. what is up with this? It is happening more and more. So tonight maybe I will try something new. don't know what as of yet but something.

I have to tell ya I did great all day yesterday, planned, ate on schedule, stayed on points, then the sun went down and munchy monster came to play. I played. So I journaled, gave me new goals for the newweek and i'm ready to take him on. I will eat my snacks at the table or none at all, and no eating after 8 pm. These two things are doable and I will give them a week and see where i'm at next week. Funny how one little problem can mess up all our intentions. I for one don't intend to let this setback of one evening ruin my week. I wil succeed this week in my efforts.

It takes 21 days they say to reach a new "habit", today is day one. Bring it on.

Have a blessed sunday all, and remember we are worth all the effort we make, all the work, all the planning. We are worth it all.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/12/2010 9:38AM

    You can do it! I hope you have an amazing week and I also hope you get some sleep!!

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KNITTABLES 8/8/2010 1:24PM

    Great attitude and you can do it and get some sleep. I am having sleeping issues again so I know how you feel.

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IUHRYTR 8/8/2010 10:23AM

    No, indeed, do not allow one off night affect your entire week. Here's one way to set a goal, try for, say, five good positive days a week. Once that's ingrained, move up to six days. That way, if you have an off day, you can still meet your goal. But you've got great determination and you WILL meet your goals. I'm confident of that. -- Lou

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BRONXBABE 8/8/2010 8:11AM

    Michelle, how could the munchy monster be playing with you, while he was here with me all day and night? He must have a twin!

I love your positive attitude! You will definitely succeed in your efforts to build your new healthy habits.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/8/2010 6:50AM

    emoticon U are a shining star!!!!

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    emoticon emoticon That's it! Revamp the plan until the plan fits you to a "T"! It takes a while, but it's well worth the effort!

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