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The wonderment

Thursday, August 05, 2010

You are the Michelangelo of your own life. The David that you are sculpting is you. And you do it with your thoughts.
- Joe Vitale

emoticonOk, It happened...I went to the store and tried on a new pair of carpris and they were a size 4....Me a size 4, who'd a thunk it. I had to just stand there and look at me in the mirror with these pants on and the smile on my face was a a sight. the butterflies in my belly, the excitement, the wonderment. I did this....I worked hard, I ate right, I slept when I could, I made choices, some good some not so good, but choices all the same. I must be doing something right. I must be heading in the right direction, because my body is changing before my very eyes.

emoticonThis mornin as I stood in front of the mirror to gaze at the wide wonder I had found (borrowed from a song but fitting), I just had to stare. that was me staring back at me. The person so upset at herself for eating way more than I should of just days ago, the person who a couple of years ago wouldn't of thought of getting up daily to walk at lunch, or better yet run on some mornings. that was me. The one who chooses water or cola most all day, the one who eats all her veggies and fruit before settling in for the night.

Oh I love to eat my chips, dips, candy, baked goods. but the days are farther and fewer in between. I'm learning one day at a time to take it slow. I was off yesterday and with that came worry. BUt i'm proud to report I did it. I ate my snacks on schedule, had a ice cream bar after dinner and counted it, got in my exericise, chores completed, watched two movies and didn't eat a thing during either. I did it. I planned and I stayed with it. OH I wanted to munch but each time I got up and moved. I got a few things done I had been putting off. So saving a few tasks for those moments worked out for me.

Ok, i'm heading off for my morning walk/jog. I love early morning exercise. I will walk at lunch time and i'm working till nine so that pretty much is going to be it for the day. BUt i'm ready for what this day holds. You all can have my moment of wonderment, just stand and let you see what the world already sees. The new you coming out. Baby steps will lead the way to goal.


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IUHRYTR 8/5/2010 3:23PM

    Your progress is impressive and inspirational. emoticon -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 8/5/2010 12:37PM

    Congrats on getting into a size four and for staying on track, that is wonderful. Proud of yah! emoticon

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    this is an amazing accomplishment!!

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SLIMPAM23 8/5/2010 9:43AM

    Wonderful news!!!! It is sure something when WE can't take our eyes off of ourselves!!! For how long did we avoid mirrors or cameras? I am proud of you......And YOU should be VERY proud of you!!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/5/2010 9:43AM

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WOW!!!! Do the dang thang!!!!

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    emoticonI'm sooooo happy for you!!!!

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Realizing dreams

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

We come this way but once. We can either tiptoe through life and hope we get to death without being badly bruised or we can live a full, complete life achieving our goals and realizing our wildest dreams.
- Bob Proctor

emoticonI personally don't want to go silent into that good night, I want to go kicking and screaming. I have been fighting some old habits as of late and i'm ready to begin some new ones. The last couple of days have been awesome for me. I've stayed on plan and gotten in my exercise, water, sleep and such. Of course today is my day off and i'm a bit worrried about it. I do great at breakfast and up till lunch, then when i'm off for some unknown reason lunch isn't my last meal till dinner. Nope, it is the beginning of a feeding frenzy.

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonFood glorious food becomes my enemy. It lures me in with its sweetness, it saltiness, it chewyness. I panic about days off. I"m a evening snacker but it is my days off that set me up for failure. I will use all my points, some free ones, and then I'm probably still going to want something more. It isn't about being full anylonger, it is about getting and getting more and more snacks. Am I really hungry? Heck no, mostly i'm bored, tired, or some such thing. Because in reality my stomach isn't growling, my hands aren't shaking, i'm not sweating from loss of blood sugar, nope i'm just letting the old munchy devil come to play.

So today I'm vowing to stay on course. I have a couple of small projects I'm saving for the boredom moment. I'm going to town and get some window shopping and bills done. I'm going to get my morning exercise in and my breakfast and then take it from there. I'm planning my lunch and what snack I shall have, i'm taking control of this mind monster. I have done awesome for the last two days and I intend to pull out a loss this week. My goal is so close I can reach out and touch it and I intend to reach it.

No excuses, no whining when I give in, after all no one forces me to eat that crap, I choose to. choices are what this journey is all about. We make good ones we make bad ones, but ultimatly we make the choices.

So tomorrow I hope to come back with news of a wonderful day off, spent doing what needs doing, resting, takeing care of me and that includes not giving in the those cravings of nothing but trouble.


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IUHRYTR 8/4/2010 8:01PM

    Onward and upward. emoticon -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 8/4/2010 6:55PM

    Great plan an you can do it.

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MOOMOO40 8/4/2010 1:15PM

    It sounds like you know what you are doing! I have felt the same way before too! Good luck!! emoticon

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/4/2010 9:13AM

    You are doing GREAT!! Regardless of the struggle you keep coming back and you revamp, redo you recharge yourself and move forward! YOU ROCK!

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    emoticon I love your plan! You are taking such good care of you. Learning so much about what it takes to succeed!

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Beating myself up

Monday, August 02, 2010

August 02, 2010
Virgo (8/23-9/22)

You need to get rid of any unrealistic goals -- and while you're at it, give that perfectionism a rest for the time being! They're nothing but ballast that keeps you down and prevent you from seeing real possibilities. It's past time for a change in attitude if you're looking externally for missing pieces to make you feel complete. Success is all about understanding exactly how much you've actually accomplished

Funny this morning i've been beating myself up for a baddddddddddd day yesterday food wise. I go to my yahoo page and here is my horoscope for the day.....coinsidence? I think it is the universe trying to tell me something. You see I have a little thing called OCD. To those who don't know it is "obsessive compulsive disorder". It isn't to the extent of some but enough to make my life a bit stressful to say the least. I work on perfection. I will straighten objects as I walk by, I will follow all rules to a very bad tee, I can't live with things out of place, and everything runs on a certain order, don't disrupt my order or I can't function. I know some of this may seem funny but if your living it it isn't a joke.

I try to let things go, I can't. so in following this ww plan and spark I have a routine and it has to be followed to a t or else I flounder. Yesterday I was flopping like a fish out of water. I ate till I couldn't possible eat another bite. I mean it, I ate a whole bag of quaker rice snacks, that is 11 servings I ate at once, two bowls of ice cream, then a cupcake, and then a nutty buddy bar. The points this totaled to say the least was horrible. Shocking is the word I would use. Any how I've fretted about this all evening and now this morning.

I get my horoscope and there it sits, telling me to let it go. So right, I made the bed now I must lie in it. I did do good yesterday in my water, exercise, sleep. I wasn't hungry I was craving. I told my hubby I just felt the need to snack and snack I did. but the moment is over, I can't get the day back, I have to move on. I'm moving on towards my goals because one bad day doesn't make for a bad week. I just have to pick up where I left off, the day before not last night, and get past this bump. I'm always telling others about the bumps in the road well I'm in a rut and I can find my way around it. I just have to take this one step at a time and let my OCD work for me. Staying on a plan is awesome for me, So I will get back on my plan.

See ya at the finish line. Michelle.

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ARCHIMEDESII 8/2/2010 2:26PM

    Bad days happen to good people. Don't beat on yourself because you weren't perfect. NO ONE is perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy. I'm a firm believer that a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup can be part of a healthy lifestyle.

You didn't derail any of your weight loss efforts. This week, you just eat a little better. If you eat right 5 out of 7 days, that's doing better than most Americans.

So, the beatings must stop. Would you tell your best friend they were bad if they told you they ate an extra piece of pizza ? Probably not. You'd tell them to do better for the rest of the week. Well, that's what I'm going to tell you. This week, you do your best to eat a few extra servings of your leafy green veggies. You make sure you drink plenty of water and you get your exercise in.

This is not a diet. This is a lifestyle change. You're trying to change habits learned over a life time. that's not going to happen overnight. Thus the need to be patient with yourself.


-- karen

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KNITTABLES 8/2/2010 2:08PM

    I hope today is better for you. Don't beat yourself up, These are little bumps and you will get past them. I read my Horescope everyday without fail. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 8/2/2010 11:55AM

    Sometimes it takes a lot of new beginnings to finally make a change in our lives. Good for you recognizing you ate from craving and not hunger. Now, like I am trying to do, figure out what caused the craving, what emptiness you were trying to fill. I'll do the same. Here's to us and a successful new beginning emoticon. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 8/2/2010 10:06AM

    OCD - do you rotate your plates too (clean ones on the bottom)? No, I'm not mocking you, cause that's me...
Wishing you a successful day!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/2/2010 9:34AM

    The messages always come when we NEED them!!! Glad you are moving forward!

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    Here, take my emoticon, let me help you out of the rut. It just gets deeper and deeper, doesn't it? ... nasty thing! Now, let's get you some emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon 0 POINT snacks to munch on when you start to graze and OCD makes you mow it all down. emoticon I know ... it's hard. I've always leaned a tad toward the OCD side myself. But, I'm learning to let go ... I think it comes with age.
emoticonHere's to a better day, a better week! emoticon

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A new month dawning

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Courage doesn't always roar.
sometimes courage is the quiet voice
at the end of the day, saying,
"i will try again tomorrow."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

emoticon This is going to be my motto for the month. I finished last month off with a total of 4.6 pounds gone. That is my best ever. So fretting over the scales not moving or a small gain is just a waste of precious time. The big picture is where we have to look. Like my quote today says we have to just try again tomorrow if today didn't go as planned. This is a journey and along the road is going to be bumps and curves up ahead. How we navigate those is how we will finish this journey. when the weight loss is over we then have maintenance. It is a never ending battle for the bulge. We are either battling it to get it gone, or battling to keep it gone. So we have to keep our chins up, and work on us.

emoticonEach day we work on us is a new day spent with the greatest of intentions. My new month will bring new goals, new visions for my future, new friends, new battles. I'm ready to take these on one day at a time. Never look too far ahead, your vision can get blurry and you really can't see the finish line clearly. Take this journey slowly, steadily, and with purpose and the finish line will come into your line of vision before you know it.

I'm off to begin my new month. I'm up and planning my day. Chores first then working on me second. Chores are dreaded but nessasary just like working on me is very much nessasary. Funny but I need spark and ww like an addict needs his drug of choice. Some days I feel like i'm addicted to this stuff. When someone suggest taking a break from it I have to laugh. I don't think so. This is my way of life and when I think about not being able to come here I get a queasy feeling in my tummy, not record what I eat? you have to be kidding. I'm going to continue this month working on reaching my goals. Someone suggested not putting undo pressure on me with a date......i'm not pressureing myself setting a date, I don't want to be at goal by my birthday just close. I have to have challenges, I have a ww team that gives me that on a weekly basis but I need to see an end to this part of my journey also. Without a vision I have endless space in front of me. If I say I have forever to lose this weight that is what i'll take...forever....Nope sorry guys I want to start the next leg of my journey reaching goal, maintenace, and so on.

Enjoy each moment this day and everyday. We will succeed one day at a time.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/1/2010 11:08PM

    emoticon on your loss for July!!! emoticon You will continue to have that success in August. Day by Day!!

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    Thanks for sharing Michelle! I love your motto for the month. It's a new month, let's make it a great one!
You will reach your goals and yes, even though it is an ongoing journey to STAY where you want to'll get there!

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KENDRACARROLL 8/1/2010 12:52PM

    I believe the rest of the message was "as long as your trend is downwards".
Wishing you much success in August.

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KNITTABLES 8/1/2010 12:38PM

    Great blog, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    emoticonThe journey is on, there is a vision of goal, a direction of how to get there, a map if you will. We'll do it! We're on our way!! emoticon

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weigh in: no movement this week

Saturday, July 31, 2010

emoticonMan I stayed the same. I guess I could be upset, or I could be happy, or I could look at this week as a learning experience. You can't snack in the evenings and no expect that something is going to move. The weight is not leaving this body without some kind of guideance.

emoticonOk, bring on this next week. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it. I will have to take this one day at a time because something isn't working with planning so far ahead. I do good at the beginning of the week and then I slack at the end. A week seems so long when your waiting for weigh in day. LOL.

emoticonOk, this week is going to take a bit of work from me, a bit of planning and a bit of staying out of the pantry. I can and I will do this. I'm really not to worried about the scale movement, hey I've learned to maintain, hahah. But really I set a goal for myself and my 44th birthday is looming and this is a bit of a setback on the planned loss. It means I lost a week, but I can pick this back up. Better to stay the same then to gain.

So i'm off to plan my week. I 'm going to try a weekly menu and see how that goes. sometimes without realizing it im not planning, just guessing and maybe that is why i'm eating at night. something is missing. I will continue to journal because i've found I do enjoy that. Putting things on paper gets them out of my head and I can rest much better.

Have a very good day all, enjoy your weekends. MIchelle.

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FAITH2712 7/31/2010 4:15PM

    Hang in there i know what it feels like,just keep moving on no matter what emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/31/2010 3:26PM

    emoticonJust take it one day at a time. We can do this together.

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IUHRYTR 7/31/2010 12:52PM

    One day at a tie with patience and you'll see progress. Hang in there. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 7/31/2010 11:19AM

    You're entering the last 10 and while this is not an impossible task it's tedious and frustrating. I've been there way too long myself :)

I found that since I'm already at an acceptable weight I let myself get away with things I shouldn't. This goes for both eating and exercising.

Don't let deadlines and scheduled weigh-in dates stress you out. Work this thing one day at a time.

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PSYCHBAMA 7/31/2010 10:01AM

    Hang in there and just get back on track. A weekly menu is a good idea, that way you don't have to worry day to day. You can do it!!!!!

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    An idea: That time you spend snacking in the evening, spend it reviewing tomorrow. Plan what you are going to eat. Check the kitchen to make sure you have the right food. Plan your exercise. Plan your "Me" time. Simply use the time to take care of Michelle. Lots of time the desire to eat is just the body saying, "You who, I'd like a little attention here." Give it some. But let it be something that benefits you. And, it's OK if you let it be hungry! Or, grab a class of Crystal Light "Hunger Satisfaction" Strawberry Banana drink while you're doing your planning and it should take hold by the time you're done!
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