Saturday, July 31, 2010
Man I stayed the same. I guess I could be upset, or I could be happy, or I could look at this week as a learning experience. You can't snack in the evenings and no expect that something is going to move. The weight is not leaving this body without some kind of guideance.
Ok, bring on this next week. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it. I will have to take this one day at a time because something isn't working with planning so far ahead. I do good at the beginning of the week and then I slack at the end. A week seems so long when your waiting for weigh in day. LOL.
Ok, this week is going to take a bit of work from me, a bit of planning and a bit of staying out of the pantry. I can and I will do this. I'm really not to worried about the scale movement, hey I've learned to maintain, hahah. But really I set a goal for myself and my 44th birthday is looming and this is a bit of a setback on the planned loss. It means I lost a week, but I can pick this back up. Better to stay the same then to gain.
So i'm off to plan my week. I 'm going to try a weekly menu and see how that goes. sometimes without realizing it im not planning, just guessing and maybe that is why i'm eating at night. something is missing. I will continue to journal because i've found I do enjoy that. Putting things on paper gets them out of my head and I can rest much better.
Have a very good day all, enjoy your weekends. MIchelle.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.
- Rabindranath Tagore
Today's affirmation: I Act with Bold Courage. Taking inspiration from the powerful vision of my future, I boldly set sail with courage and intent. I hold my course with focused attention and relentless commitment, as I weather the storms of life.
I hoped on those darn scales this morning looking for them to about stay the same. Alright, it is my lucky day I had a loss, and not just any loss 1.2 pounds lost.
It must of been that I finally woke up, got myself in gear, and did what I was suppose to do. Now I have to think of what those scales had said if I had gotten back on that wagon at the beginning of the week insead of towards the end. So my goal for this week is to stay on track. I can do it, I think I can. I'm going to continue to work on the munching at night. Journaling is becoming a nightly habit now, and Going to sleep instead of getting back up to have a snack. Funny the terrible things we do without even realizing what we are doing to ourselves.
Ok, I'm also going to work more on not letting others determine my day. I had a moment this week at work and i'm about fed up. So i've decided with the help of a great friend that what others say is not what I have to think or be. I'm going to succeed because I can. I'm learning that others sometimes make you feel bad so they can feel good about themselves. We all have things in our lives we don't want others to know about. If we put the stress to others it takes it off us for just a bit. I'm not going to allow that to happen.
thank you my spark friends for always haveing a nice word, a push when needed, ideas, and just a hug. I have come to rely on each one of you in turn and thank you all very much. some have commented that message boards aren't for them, But this is how i've made many friends and one day I hope to come face to face with a few so I can say in person thank you for coming on this journey with me and helping me enjoy the ride.
Friday, July 23, 2010
I can't believe weigh in is tommorrow, I need more time. I mean the last couple of days have been great, but it is the ones before that and the week before that i'm worried about. I can do this, I can see my goals come to reality. I will see this through. Each journey begins with just a step. Why is it we don't want to say "hey i'm just beginning this journey" everyone started at one.
Well i've handled late night snacking two nights in a row. I"ve journaled once in bed, turned out the light and gone to sleep. No reading, no tv, just bed. I'm trying a new routine for myself. Training is what it is all about. training ourselves to be something different. I want to be different. I must overcome the munchie monster whom lives in my mind.
Had a terrible day at work and just wanted to walk out. I can't is the sad thing, I must have that paycheck. i've been there 14 years and i'm stuck at this point. a couple of the people i work with make it a living hell. I just have to learn to breath and wait it out. I've been there this long and they will not be there as long as me. One says she won't be anyways so I can only hope. I"ve got to make it through the days. I got all the way to my car yesterday and then I stoped.....I will not be pushed aside. I"m worth more than that. I will stick this out. The lord did open my eyes to a couple of things I needed to see, both good and bad. one followed me out and gave me a hug when I thought she didn't even know I was there. So we just have to be patient. the lord will guide and we can't go looking for friendship. Sometimes friends come in the most unsuspectng forms. I love my job, it is the couple of people that make it unbarable. Why do we allow others to determine how we see ourselves, how we handle things, how we get through each day.
One thing spark has taught me is that we have to learn to stand on our own two feet. Yes, before it is asked I have talked to my boss, he sees not a problem. So I just shake my head and move on. The moment of truth will come to light. things are not revealed in our time, but the lords and I can wait it out. I"m a tough ole broad.
I'm just thankful i'm not a stress eater or I would be really upset....lol. gotta find the humor in every situation or we would surley not survive.
Today is a new day, it is friday, i'm almost at goal, I stuck this out and I will stick this situation out at work. I will survive because i'm strong.
P.s. didn't mean to vent but as soon as I started typing it just came out.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Ok, it was only the first day, but I did it. Not munching minlessly at night. I wrote in a journal, turned off the light and went to bed. No getting back up to head to the pantry. I'm one down and many more to go, but all one step at a time.
I had a heart to heart with myself of which i'm sure my neighbors thought I had lost my mind, but I needed to be honest with myself. I have come so far and have so far to go, I'm hurting myself by not following my own lifestyle change. I'm heading back to the ways of old and that is what didn't work. If it did I wouldn't be on ww or spark.
I'm off now to begin day two. I've set my daily goals and i'm prepared, or I hope anyways, I have choices to make and I will reach my goals. I would love to be there or close on my birthday the big 44 sept 10th. What better gift to myself then health.
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