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weigh in: no movement this week

Saturday, July 31, 2010

emoticonMan I stayed the same. I guess I could be upset, or I could be happy, or I could look at this week as a learning experience. You can't snack in the evenings and no expect that something is going to move. The weight is not leaving this body without some kind of guideance.

emoticonOk, bring on this next week. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it. I will have to take this one day at a time because something isn't working with planning so far ahead. I do good at the beginning of the week and then I slack at the end. A week seems so long when your waiting for weigh in day. LOL.

emoticonOk, this week is going to take a bit of work from me, a bit of planning and a bit of staying out of the pantry. I can and I will do this. I'm really not to worried about the scale movement, hey I've learned to maintain, hahah. But really I set a goal for myself and my 44th birthday is looming and this is a bit of a setback on the planned loss. It means I lost a week, but I can pick this back up. Better to stay the same then to gain.

So i'm off to plan my week. I 'm going to try a weekly menu and see how that goes. sometimes without realizing it im not planning, just guessing and maybe that is why i'm eating at night. something is missing. I will continue to journal because i've found I do enjoy that. Putting things on paper gets them out of my head and I can rest much better.

Have a very good day all, enjoy your weekends. MIchelle.

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FAITH2712 7/31/2010 4:15PM

    Hang in there i know what it feels like,just keep moving on no matter what emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/31/2010 3:26PM

    emoticonJust take it one day at a time. We can do this together.

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IUHRYTR 7/31/2010 12:52PM

    One day at a tie with patience and you'll see progress. Hang in there. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 7/31/2010 11:19AM

    You're entering the last 10 and while this is not an impossible task it's tedious and frustrating. I've been there way too long myself :)

I found that since I'm already at an acceptable weight I let myself get away with things I shouldn't. This goes for both eating and exercising.

Don't let deadlines and scheduled weigh-in dates stress you out. Work this thing one day at a time.

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PSYCHBAMA 7/31/2010 10:01AM

    Hang in there and just get back on track. A weekly menu is a good idea, that way you don't have to worry day to day. You can do it!!!!!

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    An idea: That time you spend snacking in the evening, spend it reviewing tomorrow. Plan what you are going to eat. Check the kitchen to make sure you have the right food. Plan your exercise. Plan your "Me" time. Simply use the time to take care of Michelle. Lots of time the desire to eat is just the body saying, "You who, I'd like a little attention here." Give it some. But let it be something that benefits you. And, it's OK if you let it be hungry! Or, grab a class of Crystal Light "Hunger Satisfaction" Strawberry Banana drink while you're doing your planning and it should take hold by the time you're done!
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I"m still among the living

Friday, July 30, 2010

Sorry haven't blogged much this week. I have been so busy and when I get home from work my number one goal is bed. I'm holding my own this week, getting my exericse is top, foods coming in second. My nighttime snacking is coming down but that is because i've limited my intake in the house. Bad foods out.

took my grandson to the zoo and had a blast. He liked the train the best. He almost didn't want to get off of it. I don't know who had more fun us or him. My husband and I kept him over again monday night and he went fishing for the first time with his poppy. He loved it but didn't understand why the fish wouln't get on his pole. I think we enjoy his company as much as he enjoys coming to see us. His poppy and him practicing in the pool with his fishing pole.

He thought you had missed the train, he was on a dead run to find it.

today is also my last chance day. Weigh in tomorrow. I guess really it is all over but the crying. I will blog then and let you all know how that worked out.

Have a great day. Michelle.

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SLIMPAM23 7/30/2010 4:45PM

    Glad you had fun at the zoo!! We took our little guy to New Orleans zoo last year and he had a blast too! They are just so precious when they are young. Drake is starting 3 year old preschool in a couple weeks. He has some severe speech issues and so we are glad to get him in early and get some early intervention before Kindergarten. Also loved the fishing story!!Have a GREAT weekend and I am thinking {{{SKINNY}}} thoughts for you tomorrow!!

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KENDRACARROLL 7/30/2010 10:59AM

    There you are!
Your grandson is adorable. Enjoy!

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KNITTABLES 7/30/2010 10:57AM

    What a little cutie, so glad you had a great time with him. You are doing a great job. Good luck with the weigh in. emoticon

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    LOVE the pics! What a little cutie you have on your hands!!! At the end of the day, no matter what, you know that you've loved him RIGHT!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/30/2010 8:01AM

    At least you are doing something....keep doing it!!! He is sooooo cute

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IUHRYTR 7/30/2010 7:55AM

    Aren't kids fun when they're his age? As for the weigh-in, regardless of what the scale shows, you have put in a good effort this week and will continue to do so. So, as the song tells us, "Don't worry. Be happy." -- Lou

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Wow I had a loss this week, Go figure

Saturday, July 24, 2010

You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.
- Rabindranath Tagore

Today's affirmation: I Act with Bold Courage. Taking inspiration from the powerful vision of my future, I boldly set sail with courage and intent. I hold my course with focused attention and relentless commitment, as I weather the storms of life.

I hoped on those darn scales this morning looking for them to about stay the same. emoticon Alright, it is my lucky day emoticonI had a loss, and not just any loss 1.2 pounds lost.

It must of been that I finally woke up, got myself in gear, and did what I was suppose to do. Now I have to think of what those scales had said if I had gotten back on that wagon at the beginning of the week insead of towards the end. So my goal for this week is to stay on track. I can do it, I think I can. I'm going to continue to work on the munching at night. Journaling is becoming a nightly habit now, and Going to sleep instead of getting back up to have a snack. Funny the terrible things we do without even realizing what we are doing to ourselves.

Ok, I'm also going to work more on not letting others determine my day. I had a moment this week at work and i'm about fed up. So i've decided with the help of a great friend that what others say is not what I have to think or be. I'm going to succeed because I can. I'm learning that others sometimes make you feel bad so they can feel good about themselves. We all have things in our lives we don't want others to know about. If we put the stress to others it takes it off us for just a bit. I'm not going to allow that to happen.

thank you my spark friends for always haveing a nice word, a push when needed, ideas, and just a hug. I have come to rely on each one of you in turn and thank you all very much. some have commented that message boards aren't for them, But this is how i've made many friends and one day I hope to come face to face with a few so I can say in person thank you for coming on this journey with me and helping me enjoy the ride.


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KENDRACARROLL 7/25/2010 4:33PM

    Great job! Congratulations.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/25/2010 12:58PM


Great job.. unexpected surprise!! sometimes we worry about what we did wrong during the week instead of what we did right. I am still learning. WTG on not allowing others to determine your day.

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JUNEBUG1944 7/24/2010 9:58PM

    Good for you, Michelle! I'm glad things are better today. Congrats on your weight loss!

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KNITTABLES 7/24/2010 2:31PM

    Congrats on the weight loss and keep up the journaling. You are doing a great job. Have a great time at the zoo with your grandson. emoticon

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DARLENEK04 7/24/2010 10:57AM

  Way to go girlfriend...chasing the grandson around
the zoo today should help you burn off a few more.....
Blessings and keep on rockin'


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    emoticonMichelle!!! What an awesome WI!!!!

You are making such beautiful progress ... emotionally as well as physically. That's how to win the war!

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IUHRYTR 7/24/2010 7:21AM

    All right! Weight loss = good effort. You are wise to recognize that others who have a negative attitude will not be happy for our success and will not build us up but will instead try to cause us to be as miserable as they are. Stay within yourself and don't pay attention to the naysayers. -- Lou

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NUTRON3 7/24/2010 7:07AM

    Have a wonderful day!

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    emoticon Michelle. That was a great weigh-in Don't let the negative thoughts or actions of others hold you back. I've learned that I can't control what others do or say, but I can control how I react. Keep being positive and caring about yourself. You are worth it!
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Last chance day oh my

Friday, July 23, 2010

emoticonI can't believe weigh in is tommorrow, I need more time. emoticonI mean the last couple of days have been great, but it is the ones before that and the week before that i'm worried about. emoticonI can do this, I can see my goals come to reality. I will see this through. Each journey begins with just a step. Why is it we don't want to say "hey i'm just beginning this journey" everyone started at one.

Well i've handled late night snacking two nights in a row. I"ve journaled once in bed, turned out the light and gone to sleep. No reading, no tv, just bed. I'm trying a new routine for myself. Training is what it is all about. training ourselves to be something different. I want to be different. I must overcome the munchie monster whom lives in my mind.

Had a terrible day at work and just wanted to walk out. I can't is the sad thing, I must have that paycheck. i've been there 14 years and i'm stuck at this point. a couple of the people i work with make it a living hell. I just have to learn to breath and wait it out. I've been there this long and they will not be there as long as me. One says she won't be anyways so I can only hope. I"ve got to make it through the days. I got all the way to my car yesterday and then I stoped.....I will not be pushed aside. I"m worth more than that. I will stick this out. The lord did open my eyes to a couple of things I needed to see, both good and bad. one followed me out and gave me a hug when I thought she didn't even know I was there. So we just have to be patient. the lord will guide and we can't go looking for friendship. Sometimes friends come in the most unsuspectng forms. I love my job, it is the couple of people that make it unbarable. Why do we allow others to determine how we see ourselves, how we handle things, how we get through each day.

One thing spark has taught me is that we have to learn to stand on our own two feet. Yes, before it is asked I have talked to my boss, he sees not a problem. So I just shake my head and move on. The moment of truth will come to light. things are not revealed in our time, but the lords and I can wait it out. I"m a tough ole broad.

I'm just thankful i'm not a stress eater or I would be really gotta find the humor in every situation or we would surley not survive.

Today is a new day, it is friday, i'm almost at goal, I stuck this out and I will stick this situation out at work. I will survive because i'm strong.


P.s. didn't mean to vent but as soon as I started typing it just came out.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/24/2010 3:09AM

    Vent away..we are here for you! You realize that you can't control others but you can control how they make you feel. Don't let them get you down. I've been talking with my DD a lot lately about how she can choose how she responds to people that treat her badly. She has the right to tell them that they are not allowed to disrespect her. She has the right to tell herself that they are wrong, but she won't let it rule her mood or how she feels. I tell her when she's in a bad situation (at her father's) to tell herself that it's only for a short time, and that nothing he can say can hurt her if she doesn't allow it to. Tough to do, but hopefully she will learn to take other's actions with a grain of salt and not let it effect her self esteem! Okay..getting off subject again, aren't I?? Like a little kid, just take my hand and put me back where I was supposed to be...
Anyway, unfortunately most of us work with at least one idiot that makes our days harder than they have to be..but just know that at the end of the day, we've done our best and won't let them get us down!! Hugs to you Michelle, and congratulations on staying on track and keeping track of things!

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JUNEBUG1944 7/23/2010 4:38PM

    That's what a blog get out our feelings, to write how we feel. I'm sorry that two stupid fools are making you so unhappy. Like you said, you've been there for 14 years and they haven't...eventually they'll be gone.

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KNITTABLES 7/23/2010 2:01PM

    Vent all you want. You have listened to many of my vents. Now I can return the favour. Hang in there. I am so glad you have go it off your chest. I hope you feel better I do afterwards. Things will get better. Good luck with the weigh in. You will be fine. HUgs.

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SHORTCAKE48 7/23/2010 12:18PM

  Better to vent here than to eat. I have a couple of people at work also that I will give you. I think it is the course of nature to have a few in every office/work situation. Makes me really appreciate the good ones!

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    What a perfect place to vent! And you did it well! You get it off your chest and it doesn't continue to eat at you so badly.

Work people. I have a couple I'd like to trade in also! I'd even keep one if I was told we could only trade off one of them. But that one, he's just awful. So to deal with him, my group makes total fun of what he says. His group has to write test plans for my group. He told his people to write as if they are writing for "retards". WHAT!? That made me mad. It made me mad that my supervisor was sitting right there beside me, heard it and didn't say a thing. BUT! I told my group about it. Now, we're all making jokes about us being "retards". Now, we're not serious about it and we wouldn't call someone else that ugly word, but we've taken the power out of it for Keith, the jerk guy.

I realized this week that this week ... take the power out of things that hurt. Fix them so that they don't hurt me any more. Ramping up my whole group to laugh about being called "retards" worked beautifully. Yesterday, we laughed all day. Nobody could get us down. It was a horrible day for our department as all departments that were to feed work to us played hooky, but we did our very best and laughed and joked and saw the positives. My group has never been like that ... they've been negative for years. People can change, but sometimes it comes slowly ... in God's timing I suppose.

LOL! Thanks for giving me blog space on your page! :) You're doing a great job, Michelle!

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IUHRYTR 7/23/2010 9:47AM

    Nothing wrong with venting. Better than holding it inside. And you're still looking for the positives in your situations. That's terrific. Keep up the good work. -- Lou

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New attitude day one= success

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Ok, it was only the first day, but I did it. Not munching minlessly at night. I wrote in a journal, turned off the light and went to bed. No getting back up to head to the pantry. I'm one down and many more to go, but all one step at a time.

I had a heart to heart with myself of which i'm sure my neighbors thought I had lost my mind, but I needed to be honest with myself. I have come so far and have so far to go, I'm hurting myself by not following my own lifestyle change. I'm heading back to the ways of old and that is what didn't work. If it did I wouldn't be on ww or spark.

I'm off now to begin day two. I've set my daily goals and i'm prepared, or I hope anyways, I have choices to make and I will reach my goals. I would love to be there or close on my birthday the big 44 sept 10th. What better gift to myself then health.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/24/2010 3:02AM

    You can do this!!! You are a strong, amazing woman and I'm cheering for you.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/23/2010 7:02AM

    Great start and u r so right...Health is the best gift! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/22/2010 2:52PM

    Great attitude and a great job on day 1, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHORTCAKE48 7/22/2010 11:00AM

  Hi I joined WW also on Tuesday. Am tracking my daily food intake and walking. Maybe together we can keep tabs on each other. Sounds like you have a positive attitude which is what we need to be successful.

Good luck.

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IUHRYTR 7/22/2010 9:00AM

    You have learned what many miss -- that we do this for us and not for anyone else. And remember, even SP says it doesn't matter when we eat, only the daily calories are important. Is there a way to save up some calories for a later snack? Continued success to you. emoticon -- Lou

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    emoticonI'm sooooo happy for you, Michelle!!!

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