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Last chance day oh my

Friday, July 23, 2010

emoticonI can't believe weigh in is tommorrow, I need more time. emoticonI mean the last couple of days have been great, but it is the ones before that and the week before that i'm worried about. emoticonI can do this, I can see my goals come to reality. I will see this through. Each journey begins with just a step. Why is it we don't want to say "hey i'm just beginning this journey" everyone started at one.

Well i've handled late night snacking two nights in a row. I"ve journaled once in bed, turned out the light and gone to sleep. No reading, no tv, just bed. I'm trying a new routine for myself. Training is what it is all about. training ourselves to be something different. I want to be different. I must overcome the munchie monster whom lives in my mind.

Had a terrible day at work and just wanted to walk out. I can't is the sad thing, I must have that paycheck. i've been there 14 years and i'm stuck at this point. a couple of the people i work with make it a living hell. I just have to learn to breath and wait it out. I've been there this long and they will not be there as long as me. One says she won't be anyways so I can only hope. I"ve got to make it through the days. I got all the way to my car yesterday and then I stoped.....I will not be pushed aside. I"m worth more than that. I will stick this out. The lord did open my eyes to a couple of things I needed to see, both good and bad. one followed me out and gave me a hug when I thought she didn't even know I was there. So we just have to be patient. the lord will guide and we can't go looking for friendship. Sometimes friends come in the most unsuspectng forms. I love my job, it is the couple of people that make it unbarable. Why do we allow others to determine how we see ourselves, how we handle things, how we get through each day.

One thing spark has taught me is that we have to learn to stand on our own two feet. Yes, before it is asked I have talked to my boss, he sees not a problem. So I just shake my head and move on. The moment of truth will come to light. things are not revealed in our time, but the lords and I can wait it out. I"m a tough ole broad.

I'm just thankful i'm not a stress eater or I would be really gotta find the humor in every situation or we would surley not survive.

Today is a new day, it is friday, i'm almost at goal, I stuck this out and I will stick this situation out at work. I will survive because i'm strong.


P.s. didn't mean to vent but as soon as I started typing it just came out.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/24/2010 3:09AM

    Vent away..we are here for you! You realize that you can't control others but you can control how they make you feel. Don't let them get you down. I've been talking with my DD a lot lately about how she can choose how she responds to people that treat her badly. She has the right to tell them that they are not allowed to disrespect her. She has the right to tell herself that they are wrong, but she won't let it rule her mood or how she feels. I tell her when she's in a bad situation (at her father's) to tell herself that it's only for a short time, and that nothing he can say can hurt her if she doesn't allow it to. Tough to do, but hopefully she will learn to take other's actions with a grain of salt and not let it effect her self esteem! Okay..getting off subject again, aren't I?? Like a little kid, just take my hand and put me back where I was supposed to be...
Anyway, unfortunately most of us work with at least one idiot that makes our days harder than they have to be..but just know that at the end of the day, we've done our best and won't let them get us down!! Hugs to you Michelle, and congratulations on staying on track and keeping track of things!

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JUNEBUG1944 7/23/2010 4:38PM

    That's what a blog get out our feelings, to write how we feel. I'm sorry that two stupid fools are making you so unhappy. Like you said, you've been there for 14 years and they haven't...eventually they'll be gone.

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KNITTABLES 7/23/2010 2:01PM

    Vent all you want. You have listened to many of my vents. Now I can return the favour. Hang in there. I am so glad you have go it off your chest. I hope you feel better I do afterwards. Things will get better. Good luck with the weigh in. You will be fine. HUgs.

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SHORTCAKE48 7/23/2010 12:18PM

  Better to vent here than to eat. I have a couple of people at work also that I will give you. I think it is the course of nature to have a few in every office/work situation. Makes me really appreciate the good ones!

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    What a perfect place to vent! And you did it well! You get it off your chest and it doesn't continue to eat at you so badly.

Work people. I have a couple I'd like to trade in also! I'd even keep one if I was told we could only trade off one of them. But that one, he's just awful. So to deal with him, my group makes total fun of what he says. His group has to write test plans for my group. He told his people to write as if they are writing for "retards". WHAT!? That made me mad. It made me mad that my supervisor was sitting right there beside me, heard it and didn't say a thing. BUT! I told my group about it. Now, we're all making jokes about us being "retards". Now, we're not serious about it and we wouldn't call someone else that ugly word, but we've taken the power out of it for Keith, the jerk guy.

I realized this week that this week ... take the power out of things that hurt. Fix them so that they don't hurt me any more. Ramping up my whole group to laugh about being called "retards" worked beautifully. Yesterday, we laughed all day. Nobody could get us down. It was a horrible day for our department as all departments that were to feed work to us played hooky, but we did our very best and laughed and joked and saw the positives. My group has never been like that ... they've been negative for years. People can change, but sometimes it comes slowly ... in God's timing I suppose.

LOL! Thanks for giving me blog space on your page! :) You're doing a great job, Michelle!

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IUHRYTR 7/23/2010 9:47AM

    Nothing wrong with venting. Better than holding it inside. And you're still looking for the positives in your situations. That's terrific. Keep up the good work. -- Lou

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New attitude day one= success

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Ok, it was only the first day, but I did it. Not munching minlessly at night. I wrote in a journal, turned off the light and went to bed. No getting back up to head to the pantry. I'm one down and many more to go, but all one step at a time.

I had a heart to heart with myself of which i'm sure my neighbors thought I had lost my mind, but I needed to be honest with myself. I have come so far and have so far to go, I'm hurting myself by not following my own lifestyle change. I'm heading back to the ways of old and that is what didn't work. If it did I wouldn't be on ww or spark.

I'm off now to begin day two. I've set my daily goals and i'm prepared, or I hope anyways, I have choices to make and I will reach my goals. I would love to be there or close on my birthday the big 44 sept 10th. What better gift to myself then health.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/24/2010 3:02AM

    You can do this!!! You are a strong, amazing woman and I'm cheering for you.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/23/2010 7:02AM

    Great start and u r so right...Health is the best gift! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/22/2010 2:52PM

    Great attitude and a great job on day 1, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHORTCAKE48 7/22/2010 11:00AM

  Hi I joined WW also on Tuesday. Am tracking my daily food intake and walking. Maybe together we can keep tabs on each other. Sounds like you have a positive attitude which is what we need to be successful.

Good luck.

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IUHRYTR 7/22/2010 9:00AM

    You have learned what many miss -- that we do this for us and not for anyone else. And remember, even SP says it doesn't matter when we eat, only the daily calories are important. Is there a way to save up some calories for a later snack? Continued success to you. emoticon -- Lou

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    emoticonI'm sooooo happy for you, Michelle!!!

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Working on a new attitude

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation.
- Brian Tracy

this is something i'm working hard at. Intead of beating myself up for the mistakes I make along the way, I need to focus on what i've done right. I've been having trouble with nightime snacking yet again. seems I go through this from time to time. So i'm back to setting goals and hopefully finding new ways to deal with this. I will check back and follow up with this blog because it helps keep me in control when I hold me accountable.

I'm going to succeed, I just have to see the prize and walk towards the light.


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JACQUIEANN1 7/21/2010 9:54PM

    have you tried a gratitude journal?i used one for a long time and it made me see the good long before i saw the bad

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KNITTABLES 7/21/2010 2:35PM

    Night time snacking is hard for me too! So I usually end up having a piece of fruit or a 100 calorie snack. Hang in there and you will find what works for you.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/21/2010 9:39AM

    Wow we r in the same space. My last podcast was about continuous improvement. So each nite i write down what went well and what could be improved. I have to write it in the positive. So there is no longer any woe is me or i'll never get it together. Actually it feels good. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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IUHRYTR 7/21/2010 8:43AM

    How about adding a morning snack, afternoon snack and an evening snack to your plan and divide the day's calories out that way. Will that help keep things under better control? Hang tough and you'll find a way. Remember that SP says eating at night is no different than during the day, it's the total calories for the day that counts. -- Lou

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    You can do this! You'll figure out your solution. Just like my journaling worked for me, you'll discover what works for you. It takes time to work it all out, but we have plenty of that!

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SKINNYPOWELL1 7/21/2010 7:49AM

    I used to do after dinner and night time snacking. I solved that problem. I posted a picture of me when I was my heaviest on the refrig and snack cabinet with big huge letters that said DANGER - HAZARDOUS TO YOUR HELP and another one says YOU ARE NOT HUNGRY, FIND SOMETHING TO DO. You'd be surprised at how much I hate that picture and that I always turn away from it. Silly, but effective. Good luck in overcoming your struggle. emoticon

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Weekend update

Sunday, July 18, 2010

emoticonHi guys, this weekend was so busy. I took the remaining pups to the humane society saturday. Now we are back to some kind of normal around here. We were going to keep two pups, but ended up with four. As we were counting the pups going down the road we discovered that one was missing. Oh she wasn't missing, she was hiding under our bed. We were already on the interstate and decided that the one, at the time we didn't know which one, was saved from going to his/her new home. you see we had 10 pups left to transport. My daughter and I and my grandson. Now my grandson whom is almost three wanted to help, so imagine the drama of getting these pups in the right boxes. Needless to say one got a reprieve. the others are set for new homes as of next week I was told. My husband wouldn't have it anyother way, so they had to go to a no kill or I was keeping them all. So we had to drive a bit to get to the one we did use.

When I got home I called my husband at work and let him know we had one more addition. I say god had other plans for that one. It turned out to be a little girl and Todd is calling her houdini, dini for short. Oh well at least it is only one and not the 16 we started with. Man that tested my patience to the end.

My Food intake was way over this weekend. Saturday was good, stoped at a produce stand and got a few good veggies and some apples and strawberries we ate on the way home. Good choices at that moment. Got home and wham, ate till dinner and then bed. Today wasn't much different. Boredom is my problem. I was busy all morning getting my house back to rights after the puppies and then I stopped. Wham, eating again.

I did get in a great 45 min. walk this evening and then a 25 min. swim. So i'm hopefully not in too much trouble. Tomorrow is a new day. I'm going to get back on track this week. I have to for my own sake.

So that is about it. My weekend in review. I hope all had a great weekend and I hope you are following through with you goals.


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KNITTABLES 7/20/2010 2:08AM

    Aw, she wanted to stay with you and what a cute name. I am so glad the doggies have a good home to go too.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/19/2010 7:16PM

    Go dini Go!!! Gotta love her
You will do just fine!

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IUHRYTR 7/18/2010 9:42PM

    There has to be a reason Dini was left behind. She will probably be a blessing to you. Again, thank you for caring about our little doggie babies emoticon emoticon. -- Lou

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    emoticonKeep the vision of your goal dress or whatever is motivating you in your thoughts and hopefully that will help you through the next days. emoticon

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Ok the results are in

Saturday, July 17, 2010

All that is necessary to break the spell of inertia and frustration is this: Act as if it were impossible to fail.
- Dorthea Brande

emoticon Ok, the results are that i've gained 0.8 this week. If I was really honest with myself or you it should of been more. I really thought it would be. I didn't stay on plan, I ate like there was no tomorrow and I really didn't exercise like I wanted. How do I feel about this? Upset with myself.

One of my coworkers had this suggestion for me....."just take a week off and don't track or count and begin frest next week". You've got to be kidding me. I don't think so. Isn't that what I did this week? I mean look how that turned out. Not.

So today is my first day of a new week. I'm paying for ww and i'm going to use every available service to me. I'm going to get up and move this week, I'm going to try to beat my usual times and i'm going to get my butt back on plan. Tracking and counting is what worked and that is what i'm going to do. Stopping what i'm doing isn't the answer. Heck that is what got me here in the first place. I guess people see this as a kind of punishment. The truth is i'm eating a lot of good food most of the time. I have moments and insanity days but for the most part the thought of stopping all this is crazy to me. nope, i'm not giving up for a week or a day, i'm here for the long haul.

So I pledge to me, Michelle, to get up and move more this week, get my fruits and veggies in daily, drink my water and give it heck.

emoticon emoticonI am a winner and i'm going to prove that to me.


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JUNEBUG1944 7/18/2010 12:39AM

    Well, we all need a break now and then...yours is over! Mine will be over too...soon! Forget about last week. This is new week with a new attitude and a new success! You go, girl!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/18/2010 12:01AM

    Hang in there Michelle, you can DO this!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/17/2010 9:08PM

    As the song winner says
You looking at a winner winner winner
Can't miss can't loose can't miss!!! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/17/2010 1:39PM

    That's the spirit, you can do it and you will. Good luck.

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HEALTHY-BEAR 7/17/2010 10:53AM

    Hang in there, Michelle!! Little steps, small goals... they all add up!

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SLIMPAM23 7/17/2010 10:29AM

    Hi Michelle---
If it makes you feel in the least bit better - you were in good company this week! This was the worst week I have had since I started 11 months ago. But I too, am getting back on that horse and I will get to where I need to be!!
Have a good weekend and remember that today is DEFINITELY a new day and a new beginning!

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GRANDMAELL 7/17/2010 10:10AM

    Hey, I bombed yesterday, but put myself right back on track today! By the looks of things you are doing great! Don't be too hard on yourself. Each day is a fresh start. You have lots of determination so don't quit!

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IUHRYTR 7/17/2010 9:43AM

    emoticon Winners never quit! -- Lou

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    Yes, you are a winner! GO, MICHELLE!!
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BRONXBABE 7/17/2010 8:51AM

    I love your positive attitude! emoticon

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    Michelle, I'm so proud of you!!! You did take last week off ... I agree with you. It's time to be back on program every step of the way and see a loss this week. I'm cheering for you!!!
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