Friday, July 23, 2010
I can't believe weigh in is tommorrow, I need more time. I mean the last couple of days have been great, but it is the ones before that and the week before that i'm worried about. I can do this, I can see my goals come to reality. I will see this through. Each journey begins with just a step. Why is it we don't want to say "hey i'm just beginning this journey" everyone started at one.
Well i've handled late night snacking two nights in a row. I"ve journaled once in bed, turned out the light and gone to sleep. No reading, no tv, just bed. I'm trying a new routine for myself. Training is what it is all about. training ourselves to be something different. I want to be different. I must overcome the munchie monster whom lives in my mind.
Had a terrible day at work and just wanted to walk out. I can't is the sad thing, I must have that paycheck. i've been there 14 years and i'm stuck at this point. a couple of the people i work with make it a living hell. I just have to learn to breath and wait it out. I've been there this long and they will not be there as long as me. One says she won't be anyways so I can only hope. I"ve got to make it through the days. I got all the way to my car yesterday and then I stoped.....I will not be pushed aside. I"m worth more than that. I will stick this out. The lord did open my eyes to a couple of things I needed to see, both good and bad. one followed me out and gave me a hug when I thought she didn't even know I was there. So we just have to be patient. the lord will guide and we can't go looking for friendship. Sometimes friends come in the most unsuspectng forms. I love my job, it is the couple of people that make it unbarable. Why do we allow others to determine how we see ourselves, how we handle things, how we get through each day.
One thing spark has taught me is that we have to learn to stand on our own two feet. Yes, before it is asked I have talked to my boss, he sees not a problem. So I just shake my head and move on. The moment of truth will come to light. things are not revealed in our time, but the lords and I can wait it out. I"m a tough ole broad.
I'm just thankful i'm not a stress eater or I would be really upset....lol. gotta find the humor in every situation or we would surley not survive.
Today is a new day, it is friday, i'm almost at goal, I stuck this out and I will stick this situation out at work. I will survive because i'm strong.
P.s. didn't mean to vent but as soon as I started typing it just came out.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Ok, it was only the first day, but I did it. Not munching minlessly at night. I wrote in a journal, turned off the light and went to bed. No getting back up to head to the pantry. I'm one down and many more to go, but all one step at a time.
I had a heart to heart with myself of which i'm sure my neighbors thought I had lost my mind, but I needed to be honest with myself. I have come so far and have so far to go, I'm hurting myself by not following my own lifestyle change. I'm heading back to the ways of old and that is what didn't work. If it did I wouldn't be on ww or spark.
I'm off now to begin day two. I've set my daily goals and i'm prepared, or I hope anyways, I have choices to make and I will reach my goals. I would love to be there or close on my birthday the big 44 sept 10th. What better gift to myself then health.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation.
- Brian Tracy
this is something i'm working hard at. Intead of beating myself up for the mistakes I make along the way, I need to focus on what i've done right. I've been having trouble with nightime snacking yet again. seems I go through this from time to time. So i'm back to setting goals and hopefully finding new ways to deal with this. I will check back and follow up with this blog because it helps keep me in control when I hold me accountable.
I'm going to succeed, I just have to see the prize and walk towards the light.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Hi guys, this weekend was so busy. I took the remaining pups to the humane society saturday. Now we are back to some kind of normal around here. We were going to keep two pups, but ended up with four. As we were counting the pups going down the road we discovered that one was missing. Oh she wasn't missing, she was hiding under our bed. We were already on the interstate and decided that the one, at the time we didn't know which one, was saved from going to his/her new home. you see we had 10 pups left to transport. My daughter and I and my grandson. Now my grandson whom is almost three wanted to help, so imagine the drama of getting these pups in the right boxes. Needless to say one got a reprieve. the others are set for new homes as of next week I was told. My husband wouldn't have it anyother way, so they had to go to a no kill or I was keeping them all. So we had to drive a bit to get to the one we did use.
When I got home I called my husband at work and let him know we had one more addition. I say god had other plans for that one. It turned out to be a little girl and Todd is calling her houdini, dini for short. Oh well at least it is only one and not the 16 we started with. Man that tested my patience to the end.
My Food intake was way over this weekend. Saturday was good, stoped at a produce stand and got a few good veggies and some apples and strawberries we ate on the way home. Good choices at that moment. Got home and wham, ate till dinner and then bed. Today wasn't much different. Boredom is my problem. I was busy all morning getting my house back to rights after the puppies and then I stopped. Wham, eating again.
I did get in a great 45 min. walk this evening and then a 25 min. swim. So i'm hopefully not in too much trouble. Tomorrow is a new day. I'm going to get back on track this week. I have to for my own sake.
So that is about it. My weekend in review. I hope all had a great weekend and I hope you are following through with you goals.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
All that is necessary to break the spell of inertia and frustration is this: Act as if it were impossible to fail.
- Dorthea Brande
Ok, the results are that i've gained 0.8 this week. If I was really honest with myself or you it should of been more. I really thought it would be. I didn't stay on plan, I ate like there was no tomorrow and I really didn't exercise like I wanted. How do I feel about this? Upset with myself.
One of my coworkers had this suggestion for me....."just take a week off and don't track or count and begin frest next week". You've got to be kidding me. I don't think so. Isn't that what I did this week? I mean look how that turned out. Not.
So today is my first day of a new week. I'm paying for ww and i'm going to use every available service to me. I'm going to get up and move this week, I'm going to try to beat my usual times and i'm going to get my butt back on plan. Tracking and counting is what worked and that is what i'm going to do. Stopping what i'm doing isn't the answer. Heck that is what got me here in the first place. I guess people see this as a kind of punishment. The truth is i'm eating a lot of good food most of the time. I have moments and insanity days but for the most part the thought of stopping all this is crazy to me. nope, i'm not giving up for a week or a day, i'm here for the long haul.
So I pledge to me, Michelle, to get up and move more this week, get my fruits and veggies in daily, drink my water and give it heck.
I am a winner and i'm going to prove that to me.
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