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Ok the results are in

Saturday, July 17, 2010



All that is necessary to break the spell of inertia and frustration is this: Act as if it were impossible to fail.
- Dorthea Brande


emoticon Ok, the results are that i've gained 0.8 this week. If I was really honest with myself or you it should of been more. I really thought it would be. I didn't stay on plan, I ate like there was no tomorrow and I really didn't exercise like I wanted. How do I feel about this? Upset with myself.

One of my coworkers had this suggestion for me....."just take a week off and don't track or count and begin frest next week". You've got to be kidding me. I don't think so. Isn't that what I did this week? I mean look how that turned out. Not.

So today is my first day of a new week. I'm paying for ww and i'm going to use every available service to me. I'm going to get up and move this week, I'm going to try to beat my usual times and i'm going to get my butt back on plan. Tracking and counting is what worked and that is what i'm going to do. Stopping what i'm doing isn't the answer. Heck that is what got me here in the first place. I guess people see this as a kind of punishment. The truth is i'm eating a lot of good food most of the time. I have moments and insanity days but for the most part the thought of stopping all this is crazy to me. nope, i'm not giving up for a week or a day, i'm here for the long haul.

So I pledge to me, Michelle, to get up and move more this week, get my fruits and veggies in daily, drink my water and give it heck.

emoticon emoticonI am a winner and i'm going to prove that to me.

Michelle.

  
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JUNEBUG1944 7/18/2010 12:39AM

    Well, we all need a break now and then...yours is over! Mine will be over too...soon! Forget about last week. This is new week with a new attitude and a new success! You go, girl!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/18/2010 12:01AM

    Hang in there Michelle, you can DO this!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/17/2010 9:08PM

    As the song winner says
You looking at a winner winner winner
Can't miss can't loose can't miss!!! emoticon

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KNITTABLES 7/17/2010 1:39PM

    That's the spirit, you can do it and you will. Good luck.

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HEALTHY-BEAR 7/17/2010 10:53AM

    Hang in there, Michelle!! Little steps, small goals... they all add up!

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SLIMPAM23 7/17/2010 10:29AM

    Hi Michelle---
If it makes you feel in the least bit better - you were in good company this week! This was the worst week I have had since I started 11 months ago. But I too, am getting back on that horse and I will get to where I need to be!!
Have a good weekend and remember that today is DEFINITELY a new day and a new beginning!

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GRANDMAELL 7/17/2010 10:10AM

    Hey, I bombed yesterday, but put myself right back on track today! By the looks of things you are doing great! Don't be too hard on yourself. Each day is a fresh start. You have lots of determination so don't quit!

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IUHRYTR 7/17/2010 9:43AM

    emoticon Winners never quit! -- Lou

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 7/17/2010 9:25AM

    Yes, you are a winner! GO, MICHELLE!!
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BRONXBABE 7/17/2010 8:51AM

    I love your positive attitude! emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/17/2010 7:44AM

    Michelle, I'm so proud of you!!! You did take last week off ... I agree with you. It's time to be back on program every step of the way and see a loss this week. I'm cheering for you!!!
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My week in review:

Friday, July 16, 2010

emoticonI don't know what happened. One minute i'm on plan the next i'm out of control. I'm hungry, i'm bored, i'm tired and i'm eating uncontrollably. Not just one day but a few. I've used my free points, i'm even tempted to use my activity points even though I feel like you shouldn't reward yourself with food for getting physical but..................just this once I may have to.

My week started off great, then wham I'm hungry, ok maybe not hungry just wanting the foods I usually don't even care to have. I'm eating and eating and hating myself. You all know the feeling. The this is so bad feeling but so good at the same time. Don't kid me, I know we all have those moments. Well lets say I had a few of them this week.

My weigh in is tomorrow morning. Can I make a comeback in one day. Maybe not but i'm going to do my best to regain some form of respect for myself and my goals. I have goals and this week I just feel like they went way out the window. Yeah I moved alot, but did it make a difference? probably saved me from total anialation but that is about it.

So i'm not going to give in to the well "you've already messed up" line. I"m not going to just toss the week aside. I"m going to pick my sorry butt up off the ground and get moving. Yup i'm going to move today for all i'm worth. I'm going to stay on plan and let what will be be. I know that when I post a gain it is me whom I hurt, nobody else. I will get pats on the back and it will be ok emails, but really it would of been ok if I had done what I should of done and not what the old me used to do.

I tell myself i'm changed but then wham a week like this and I 'm wondering. Well no need to wonder, the old me would of thrown away all the hard work, the new me is ready to regain a bit of myself and my self respect and give it heck. I"m going to see my magic number one day and today may not be it but who knows it could be someday soon.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/16/2010 11:59PM

    yep..we all go there...and not just once, but will go there many times in our lifetime. There will be the days, the week that just doesn't go how we "know" it should. Life throws curves, but the thing is knowing that this time it is temporary! You've won the battle by knowing that this doesn't mean the END of all you've accomplished. You know that you will get up, dust yourself off and MOVE ON!! That's what counts..getting back up when you've fallen. We will never be perfect..life will certainly never be perfect; it would be too boring if it were! Hang in there, you are doing this!!

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KNITTABLES 7/16/2010 1:27PM

    I have been in your shoes many times, you learn, you forgive yourself and you do better. Hang in there. Next week will be better. Keep up the great attitude and learning. You are doing a great job.

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MOOMOO40 7/16/2010 9:59AM

    I have been feeling this exact same way all week long!! I can totally relate to the way you are feeling. Good luck with the weigh in. You have a great attitude about it. Thanks for helping me know I need to get back on track too.I have been struggling all week long. emoticon Teresa emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/16/2010 8:52AM

    Go girl!!! You are learning sooooooo much ... and that's part of the journey. As big a part as losing the weight!
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IUHRYTR 7/16/2010 8:40AM

    New beginnings are expected and can happen any time of the day so hang in there and start over and keep reminding yourself that none of us are perfect. -- Lou

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CCBULLDOG 7/16/2010 8:00AM

    We've all been there...I think your attitude is great for getting on track again...I'm an emotional eatter (any emotion and I want to eat)...I find when Im tempted to start eatting if I get on spark and read blogs it really helps to stay on track...Good luck with your weigh in...but don't sweat it!

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Words to live by:

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Always dream and shoot higher than you know you can do. Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself.
- William Faulkner

Never mind what others do; do better than yourself, beat your own record from day to day, and you are a success.
- William J. H. Boetcker

Achievement seems to be connected with action. Successful men and women keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
- Conrad Hilton



These came to me this morning in my email. I thought I would share with my spark friends. We are all successes in our own right. Some for great losses, some for hard work, some for determination, but all of us for coming here and taking that first step. The first step is the hardest for all of us. But we have done it. We began this journey with such hope and great ideas for our future. Sometimes we have taken wrong turns, lost all thought for ourselves, and just gotten tired. But somehow we hang on. We are what matters, we are our own worst enemies or our own best friends.

I"m learning to love myself. It has not been an easy journey, i'm learning to trust myself, again not an easy journey. It is funny how our lives and how they have been lived up to this point can determine how we see ourselves. For me it was abuse as a child, a exhusband who continued the trend of emotional abuse and sometimes physical, and then the moment when I was left totally alone to raise two young children . I was told for so long I couldn't do it and then here I was doing it. I found out I was strong, I was a good person, I was somebody. Now here I am years later, much counseling, a very wonderful husband, a new understanding of myself and 18 pounds lighter i'm loving me.

We all are wonderful we all have great ideas to share, we all have dreams to accomplish, we all want to see that magic number if only for a minute. we are somebody, we are strong, we are spark, we are going to succeed. Let no one tell you otherwise. You can be your own worst enemy or your own best friend. You decide.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/16/2010 11:54PM

    Thank you for sharing. We are all capeable of outstanding things when we get out of our own way and believe...
I believe in you and believe in the smart, witty, kind, amazing woman you are!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/15/2010 4:21AM

    HUGE emoticon for sharing. I have been slipping into my perfectionistic ways and those words helped. Me tinks me will cut paste and print them

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LEXIE63 7/14/2010 2:44PM

    Nicely put!
Hugs,
Lex xxx
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KNITTABLES 7/14/2010 1:09PM

    Thanks for sharing the message with us.

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IUHRYTR 7/14/2010 9:40AM

    Keep up the inspiring attitude and the good effort. emoticon -- Lou

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VICTORIAV4 7/14/2010 7:48AM

    Just what I needed to read this morning. I loved the quotes, helps put me in my place, to realize I need to not pay attention to what others do like the mother hen that I am. To daily work to improve myself, and love life.

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/14/2010 7:20AM

    What a great blog. So much truth and wisdom. Thanks for sharing, Michelle!
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Oh my i'm really doing this

Saturday, July 10, 2010

emoticonI'm really doing this. I'm staying on plan and losing weight. I'm down another pound this week. Week two of ww is a success also. I'm at a new low for me, haven't seen this number in many a year, wait i've never seen this number.

You see I was always the thin girl, the anorexic looking waif. I ate like a horse and never gained a pound. Yes haters that was me. I was never going to get fat. Nope not me, diet what was that but a bad four letter word. SURPRISE, life got in the way. I had a child and ballooned from 105 to 175 over night it seemed. Wait that will come right off, i've never had to watch what I ate before..... WRONG....

My first baby is 24 my second is 21, i'm still not back to my preprego weight. Will I ever be? nope, not for me anylonger. that was the skinny kid, the one who took her looks for granted, hid the little tummy, I mean what I would give for that belly roll again...lol...Nope, i'm happy just reaching a healthy weight this time. I'm happy i'm sitting where I am, yes the struggle has been great. Sure I would love to veg in front of the tube and eat my chips that I dearly love with a bit of ranch dip, but alas that is no longer me.

I'm content to have a few now and again, i'm content to watch one show and then get up and get moving, i'm content to step on the scales and see a half-pound loss or even a smidgeon of a loss. At this stage in my game i'll settle for anything. Wait i'm not settleing for anything. I'm making this happen. It isn't coming to me i'm reaching for it and i'm taking hold and not letting go.

It is funny how on this journey we sometimes only see the bad, my journey is sometimes filled with struggles, potholes, pitfalls, but i'm seeing the good in all this also. I'm in a much smaller size, i'm happy with the work I do each week and some weeks I get down on me when I don't get more work in. I 'm happyest eating the healthy foods, and treating myself on occasion to the not so good for me foods. I eat them and move one. LIfe is too short to waste it just being unhappy. My motto is if your unhappy with something change it. We have the power, if you think you don't you won't and you will not win. That isn't an option for me.

I'm going to succeed. I'm going to step on those scales one day and see the "magic" number come up. I'm going to go down fighting and come up swinging. We all have the power to succed it is in all of us. But you have to really want it, you have to be ready for it, and you have to work for it. The old saying is true....nothing worth having comes easy......

Ok, i've written more than I intended to. Sometimes I get to going and can't seem to stop myself. If you could hear me in person i'm the same way...a talker. I can multitask...walk and talk at the same time and do it daily. lol. emoticonMichelle.

  
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LUNADRAGON 7/17/2010 12:15AM

    Excellent Attitude! That is contagious! emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/16/2010 11:51PM

    Congratulations!! You are such an inspiration to me. Thank you for that. You are AMAZING!!!

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STARSTRUCKJEN29 7/10/2010 8:42PM

    Congrats on your weight loss. You're doing awesome, and the determination you have right now is inspring. Keep up the work!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/10/2010 3:55PM

    Michelle
I love reading your blogs. Very inspiring. And motivating!!!
Whoooo hoooooo on your loss

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KNITTABLES 7/10/2010 3:43PM

    Congrats on the weight loss, that is awesome, keep it up and you will get to a healthy weight. emoticon emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 7/10/2010 11:27AM

    You are doing great!!! Just keep doing whatever you are doing - cuz it's sure working for you!! Your attitude is awesome and that has to make a big difference to!!
Keep up the good work kiddo!!
PS - your kids and my kids are the same age!! How old is your grandchild? My Drake is going to be four in October. He's the best!
Have a great weekend -
Pam
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IUHRYTR 7/10/2010 10:02AM

    I so admire your determination and the happiness that comes through your words. Yes, life does catch up with us but that doesn't mean we can't fight back emoticon. Continue to hang tough. -- Lou

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/10/2010 7:49AM

    Girl, you are going to make it! You've got the spirit!!!
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Good morning

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

emoticonI feel a bit cheeky, I haven't blogged in a bit. Not that I didn't want to I just didn't have the time. Now I still found time to eat right, but my exercises leave a lot to be desired. I wish I could say it was because of great moment in my life taking up my time, but alas it is just too many pups to care for. Between changing puppy pads, feeding, cuddling 16 puppies and that takes about an hour each morning i'm not left with much energy for me. At night my one thought after taking care yet again is going to bed. But alas the light is at the end of the tunnel. they start going to new homes today. Thank you lord for that. Don't get me wrong I love each one in kind but enough is enough. Momma's don't know it yet but they are going to the vet as soon as the last pup goes.

My exercise has been thrown for a loop this week and i'm off to find a way to get it back. this morning i'm going to get in a bit of walk/jog, I've done strength and that is a bit more then i've been doing. I have gotten a walk in at lunch here or there but nothing like I was.

So i'm still here, still plugging along, and still heading for my magic number. It is just taking a few side roads along the way. I wish each of you a very spark filled day.

Michelle.

  
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KNITTABLES 7/8/2010 3:38PM

    You have done a lot of work taking care of those 16 puppies and I am glad your able to find home for them and you can get back into a good routine again.

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JACQUIEANN1 7/7/2010 2:26PM

    in my mind caring for 16 puppies IS exercise one is exhausting me
jacquie

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SLIMPAM23 7/7/2010 11:46AM

    Glad to hear from you and also glad that the puppies are going to their new homes - I am sure that they will make all those families very happy. If I'd known that you needed a little exercise - I would have made today "cardio" day!!
Pam

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KRICKET4 7/7/2010 11:11AM

    Well, it's not a straight road we're traveling. Detours seem to be built into this journey.
As long as we're going forward, I think we'll be okay.
Have a great day.


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IUHRYTR 7/7/2010 9:43AM

    We find time for what is important and now that is your pups. Soon, though, things will be back to normal. -- Lou

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/7/2010 8:09AM

    Morning Michelle
I wish I could blog more. My job requires a log of documenting which means typing so sometimes I have lots of things to talk about but I just dont wanna type lol
OHHHHHH the puppies are leaving. That is a lot of work! I did not think of it like that until you explained. I thought about breeding sasha but SHE was enough work by herself. Well despite all of that you are doing great in my eye.
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Keep up the good work I am trying to get rid of emails before we get out in the HOT weather here in DC

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