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I know what I want. Do you?

Monday, May 24, 2010

At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want.
- Lao Tzu

I have been thinking alot lately about what I want. I have gotten so many compliments this last week on my weight loss and people are noticing. Some have things to say like " your too skinny, or tiny" some just say nice things " wow, are you losing weight you look great". of course those I love to get. Keeps me going. There are those that have asked how i'm doing it. They think i'm starving. Yeah right, I eat a lot. MOst of it is healthy fair, but when you weigh the options, a little of the "bad" stuff, or a whole lot of the good, you decide. For me a eater the choice is easy.

I want to reach that magic number on the scales, I want to run the whole mile, not just walk and run. I want to lose at least another inch or two in my belly (that one is not vanity believe me, that is two kids later belly), and I would love to look in the mirrow and see what others see.

That last one is tough. I still see me at the 175 mark. The tiny teen, gone huge with a child and then another at a very young age, then no time or no energy to work on herself. Then divorce and the weight did come off but then I met my new husband of now almost 16 years and wham, I got happy and back comes the weight. He says he loved me no matter what. But the key here is my loving me no matter what. That didn't happen.

So my misson these days is simple, eat right, exercise, get rest, and get to know me. I'm learning I like to run, I like to exercise. I'm doing that one about three times daily now. Now don't get me wrong, i'm still not in the league as some but it adds up to about a hour and a half daily. Can I stay on this path even after I reach my goals? yup. What i'm doing i'm enjoying and for me that is half the battle.

So this week i'm heading for the 15 pound mark on the scales. It may not happen this week or next but i'm doing all I can to ensure that it will happen. My runs are going to get longer and the walking is going to get shorter in the evenings. I will still walk at lunch as that gets me through the rest of my day, the stress level drops way down. I will up my elliptical by five minutes this week and see how that goes. Of course that will depend on my time each morning. These are my goals for this week.

Now I must be getting to those goals. Have a awesome day and week everyone. Put yourself first and set a small goal for the week. trust me, you will love the feeling of hitting that one small goal.

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KNITTABLES 5/24/2010 1:11PM

    What a great blog Michelle, emoticon

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TITUS2WMN 5/24/2010 11:38AM

    Awesome and inspiring blog, Michelle!!!

:o) Christine

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IUHRYTR 5/24/2010 9:29AM

    Love your attitude that had remained positive over time. Your determination is strong. You WILL make it. -- Lou

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    emoticon You have what it takes!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/24/2010 7:24AM

    I look forward to your entries. When I am struggling these are the words that help me keep on keepin on!
Have a lovely day my friend! emoticon

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KATIEJED 5/24/2010 7:15AM

  I do love reading entries like that.
great work!!!

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What a nice weekend

Sunday, May 23, 2010

emoticon this weekend was so nice. the weather was a bit muggy and hot but I feel like I got so much in. My grandson came over saturday and we swam for a bit, after then left my hubby and I picked a bunch of blackberries and then I got my walk in. We had a great swim in the pool after. Today was just as hot and again got my walk and then a nice swim. Something about the swim in the evening that makes the day all worth while.

I had my weigh in today. I was down .2 . Gotta love those ww scales and the tenths. But a loss is a loss just the same. I would of liked more but I refuse to get upset. I got in more exercise then usual and I stayed on plan so I can't ask for more and i can't get upset at the scales. I will just keep going and see what next week brings.

I'm off to a great start for my exercise minutes as of today. I like to take a nice walk on sunday. kinda gets my week reved up.

Hope all have a great evening. I'm off to check some email and a bit more sparking before bed. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/24/2010 12:04AM

    Congratulations on the loss! As long as the number is going in the right direction, it's a good thing! We both know that the scale is not the ultimate measure, so CONGRATULATIONS on getting in more exercise and staying on plan. Now THAT is what counts! You are doing fantastic, keep it up!!

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IUHRYTR 5/23/2010 9:02PM

    Every bit of a pound lost is a good bit. Keep up the effort. -- Lou

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KNITTABLES 5/23/2010 8:11PM

    Yes a loss is a loss, congrats, so glad you had a great weekend. Enjloy your day.

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Weeks end:

Saturday, May 22, 2010

emoticon I made it. this is the last day of my week. tomorrow is weigh in. I think I did ok. Wait I know I did ok, went over my calories burned goal everyday, ate within my range even with a couple of treats. this was a good week.

Last night as I went for my eveing walk/run it was getting darker. It was about 7:30 or close to 8., i was at the cool down stage, just walking with i step over something and I stop mind you and step back to see what that was. SNAKE...I was give out but I ran my butt all the way back to the house to get my hubby....HE had a thousand questions on the way back to the far side of the yard....How big? What did it look like? Now, I was so scared I just ran. I didn't lean down to investigae I just ran. Panic had set in, what if I had take one step in the wrong spot? I couldn't think about what it looked like. We found it, it was a rattle snake, small, he killed it, but LIke I told him I walk the parimiter of our land so I won't have to take the dogs out in the I'll be watching that also. Even my yard isn't safe it seems. He said it was too small to kill me but would of hurt like the devil. lol.

Now i'm over it. I'll be more careful and I will try not to walk in the late evening. Just that it is so much cooler then, hence the reason he was in my yard (snake). So today I get back up, shake off the panic, and get back out there. Tomorrow is my weigh in and this is my last chance day to shine for this week.

today is a new day filled with new possibilities. emoticon

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NEWMOON 5/22/2010 9:00PM

    WOW, I shuddered while reading this (not a snake person here, nope, not one tiny bit, eeeeeeek) and I applaud your determination for getting right back out there.

Does making noise help scare them away before you get too close? Like if you whistle or something while you're walking, will that scare them off before you even get close enough? Or tap a walking stick? You can tell I know nothing about them...

Good luck with your WI tomorrow.

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TITUS2WMN 5/22/2010 2:25PM

    Yikes!!! You get the courage award today for being willing to get back out there!! :o)

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    So glad you are an observant walker and keep yourself safe!

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KNITTABLES 5/22/2010 1:06PM

    emoticonI am glad you OK

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KENDRACARROLL 5/22/2010 12:21PM

    Wow, that really does sound scary. Glad you're okay.
Have a great day today and a super weigh-in tomorrow!

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IUHRYTR 5/22/2010 10:03AM

    Wow. Quite an experience. Good news that you're okay. -- Lou

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Reaching for our goals

Thursday, May 20, 2010

emoticonGood morning. As I sit here thinking, I do that alot, I've been thinking about my goals. I know I blog a lot about this but it keeps me focused on what is important to me. I'm important to me.

My goals at this point are simple, i'm wanting to hit my first milestone (15 pounds down) this week. I have reached this before but it never held and this time is different. I'm different. I'm not running after this weight, i'm taking it a day at a time. Like I told myself this morning if I don't reach it this week, then I will strive for next. From there it is the next three pound mark. As I don't have as much to lose as some my marks are smaller. This is not to say I don't have to struggle any more then some and any less then others. Whether we have 10 or 100 pounds to lost the struggle is the same. For me it is a bit harder maybe, I have to be happy with half-pound or .2 losses. I would love to see 2 or 3 each week, but that is not in my book. I"m learning this is ok for me.

I'm doing this for my own health. Yes i had high cholesterol, but that is down 15 points. My blood pressure is excellent, this last time was like 108/? and the nurse was like that is awesome. So being fit is a lot more about health then being skinny. Yeah, seeing numbers on the scale is a plus. Low numbers that is, but it isn't all there is. I'm learning this one day by day. I have to say this is the first week i've stayed off the scales. I'm holding out for my weigh in day. I want to say this is a constant battle for me. But I find when I do it early all I do is upset myself. I mean come on weight doesn't change over night. Yeah, some sure think it does, but it doesn't. It take 3500 calories to make a pound, so the next time you hop on those scales and it is up three pounds from the day before, stop and ask yourself this....did i eat that much yesterday? the answer is most obviously no.

A friend told me yesterday when I asked how she was doing that she isn't weighing in because the scales upset her. I had to why is that? I mean if you are doing what you should, you are eating right, exercising, getting in your waters, then you shouldn't be afraid of the scales. you shouldn't be upset by what they say. You get out of this what you put into it. I know sometimes I think i'm doing fine, but if I look back over my food journal I'm lying to myself. I snacked there, had seconds on that day, oh and the weekends. So the next time you wonder how your doing, I mean really wonder how your doing, STOP, look back over your week, or month. Are we doing all we could be doing, is our mind in the right place, did we set goals and follow through with them?

I want to reach my goal. I know in my head it is just a number on the scale. But that is my reality. Do I want to get there the right way? you bet. And i'm doing that. I eat right, most of the time, I exercise all the time, and I get my rest. Well the rest part I give it a good college try but perimenopause in no joke. I drink water all the time, I eat veggies and fruit way more now and I like them. If I want diet coke, which sorry guys I love, I have to finish my water first. Kinda on the reward system there. I'm down to one daily which is great concidering I used to have it interveniously fed to me.

So as I head off to work this morning I just want to wish each of you a great day. All our goals can be met with a little work and a lot of patience and creativity. I'm going to succeed are you? emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/24/2010 12:10AM

    This is a fantastic blog. Thank you for sharing! Your motivation is contagious and you inspire me to want to keep up what I am doing to become healthy. Healthy vs Skinny can be hard to decipher. You are doing so's so amazing what a transformation that can take place when we get in the right mental space to finally achieve our goals. Way to go!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/21/2010 2:10PM

    YOU are on a ROLLLLLLLL!!!!!
Great blog and sooooooo true. I never get upset with the scale because most of the time it is ME like 100% most of the time lol. I am like you I want to be healthy first then slimmerers

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KNITTABLES 5/20/2010 3:49PM

    Great blog and yes you can do it and you will. You are a great inspiration to us all. Have a great day. emoticon emoticon

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SPYKEY_RYE 5/20/2010 10:37AM

    I love this blog! What a motivational post!

You've really inspired me (as I've been slipping lately mainly because I've been putting too much pressure on myself given the job hunting and the wedding planning as well) to focus on the small things rather than making everything perfect every day!

Well done, keep up the great work! x

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quote of the day

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I got this email this morning. Does this not sound like something for us on spark. Not just spark but this journey. There is always going to be critics in our day to day lives. How we move past that and embrace ourselves as strong, wothwhile indeviduals is how we will succeed.

Remember we are worth the effort, we are special, we are strong. We will succeed in all we plan and do. Just have a little faith. Faith in yourself but most of all faith in the lord. When times get tough just call on him. Believe me, he hears from me all the time. He has probably turned my mute button on. lol.

Today is my day to reach for my goals. My day to succeed in all I do. My day to continue on this journey I have embarked upon. Today is my day. Is it yours?

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KNITTABLES 5/18/2010 1:51PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonIt sure is.

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KENDRACARROLL 5/18/2010 10:10AM

    Hey, today is my day too emoticon

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    Indeed it is!!! emoticon

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BILL60 5/18/2010 7:21AM

    It's "OUR" day to succeed. Hang tough!!

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