Thursday, May 20, 2010
Good morning. As I sit here thinking, I do that alot, I've been thinking about my goals. I know I blog a lot about this but it keeps me focused on what is important to me. I'm important to me.
My goals at this point are simple, i'm wanting to hit my first milestone (15 pounds down) this week. I have reached this before but it never held and this time is different. I'm different. I'm not running after this weight, i'm taking it a day at a time. Like I told myself this morning if I don't reach it this week, then I will strive for next. From there it is the next three pound mark. As I don't have as much to lose as some my marks are smaller. This is not to say I don't have to struggle any more then some and any less then others. Whether we have 10 or 100 pounds to lost the struggle is the same. For me it is a bit harder maybe, I have to be happy with half-pound or .2 losses. I would love to see 2 or 3 each week, but that is not in my book. I"m learning this is ok for me.
I'm doing this for my own health. Yes i had high cholesterol, but that is down 15 points. My blood pressure is excellent, this last time was like 108/? and the nurse was like that is awesome. So being fit is a lot more about health then being skinny. Yeah, seeing numbers on the scale is a plus. Low numbers that is, but it isn't all there is. I'm learning this one day by day. I have to say this is the first week i've stayed off the scales. I'm holding out for my weigh in day. I want to say this is a constant battle for me. But I find when I do it early all I do is upset myself. I mean come on weight doesn't change over night. Yeah, some sure think it does, but it doesn't. It take 3500 calories to make a pound, so the next time you hop on those scales and it is up three pounds from the day before, stop and ask yourself this....did i eat that much yesterday? the answer is most obviously no.
A friend told me yesterday when I asked how she was doing that she isn't weighing in because the scales upset her. I had to say...now why is that? I mean if you are doing what you should, you are eating right, exercising, getting in your waters, then you shouldn't be afraid of the scales. you shouldn't be upset by what they say. You get out of this what you put into it. I know sometimes I think i'm doing fine, but if I look back over my food journal I'm lying to myself. I snacked there, had seconds on that day, oh and the weekends. So the next time you wonder how your doing, I mean really wonder how your doing, STOP, look back over your week, or month. Are we doing all we could be doing, is our mind in the right place, did we set goals and follow through with them?
I want to reach my goal. I know in my head it is just a number on the scale. But that is my reality. Do I want to get there the right way? you bet. And i'm doing that. I eat right, most of the time, I exercise all the time, and I get my rest. Well the rest part I give it a good college try but perimenopause in no joke. I drink water all the time, I eat veggies and fruit way more now and I like them. If I want diet coke, which sorry guys I love, I have to finish my water first. Kinda on the reward system there. I'm down to one daily which is great concidering I used to have it interveniously fed to me.
So as I head off to work this morning I just want to wish each of you a great day. All our goals can be met with a little work and a lot of patience and creativity. I'm going to succeed are you?
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
I got this email this morning. Does this not sound like something for us on spark. Not just spark but this journey. There is always going to be critics in our day to day lives. How we move past that and embrace ourselves as strong, wothwhile indeviduals is how we will succeed.
Remember we are worth the effort, we are special, we are strong. We will succeed in all we plan and do. Just have a little faith. Faith in yourself but most of all faith in the lord. When times get tough just call on him. Believe me, he hears from me all the time. He has probably turned my mute button on. lol.
Today is my day to reach for my goals. My day to succeed in all I do. My day to continue on this journey I have embarked upon. Today is my day. Is it yours?
Monday, May 17, 2010
Affirmation: Standing in the inspiring vision of my future, I boldly take every step - large and small - with courage and intent.
Each step, decision, and Idea we do or take is a step to our healthier future us. As you look into your future what do you see? do you see yourself healthy, thin, happy, less stressed? we each want something different from this journey. I myself want health and less stress. I'm working towards that goal.
I workout religously on a daily basis. Some days are more strenuous then others, sunday is just a nice walk with my dogs, but each day I do something. I want the be thin but ultimately I want to be healthy. I'm hoping that with this heath I can gain less stress in my life also. I need to work a plan for my budget just like I work a plan for health. So im doing that. I'm taking steps to less stress by being prepared. Just like my list at the store, I need a list for bills. So I've got a plan for that also.
With time, i'm hoping that my healthy mind will overflow into my healtht budget. I think this is a whole transformation and not just a bit and piece kinda thing. So i'm working towards goals. both in saving and in health.
today is a new day. today is my day. I have the choice to succeed or fail. I have the strength to succeed, I have the energy to keep moving forward. I intend to do just that in all things I do.
I will get there from here.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
This week is coming to a spark end. Tomorrow is the first day of a new spark week. I weigh in and the games begin again. If I don't lose I still keep working at the next week, If I lose....guess what? I still keep working towards my goal. This is a never ending journey.
I'm ready for what will be. I seem to say that each week but it is true. I knew coming into this that it wasn't going to be easy. I knew there would be setbacks, maybe I hoped not so many, but setbacks just the same. I knew there would be temptations, somedays there seem to be alot. Like thursday at work they did a potluck dinner. Oh the smells, the desserts, but I brought my own and I ate my own. Then yesterday it is our managers birthday: yup, cake, the chocolate kind with the whipped icing. Friday meetings: donuts. But i'm proud to say I had none. What stopped me? I imagined the thick feeling of grease in my mouth. Now that I eat healthier and not a lot of fats i find the grease feeling in my mouth is what kills it for me. And have you not noticed things just don't taste the same as I remember them to.
Is it that they tasted different or am I different. Opting instead for the "good foods" even though I know none are off limits to me, I do know my limits. I'm not good with cake, donuts, or chips. If I choose to eat some it will lead to a binge eat that is not pretty. Now don't get me wrong I'm not talking the binge eating of 23000 calories in a sitting, but the grazing kind of bingeing that will lead me from one item to the next without filling up. till finally i'm full and sick. Man I hate that feeling.
So about this week and temptations: I was able to pass each test with an A+. . So today i'm ready to tackle my last chance day before stepping on those darn scales in the morning. I'm not worried. In fact for the first time in a long time i'm ready to see what this week has brought by way of my weight. I may not see a change in the numbers but really is that the only reason i'm here? nope. Getting healthy was my main goal and i'm passed that. I'm 43 years old and i'm running, i'm playing with my grandson, and I mean playing. I'm walking for my lunch and trying to beat each weeks average. I'm sleeping (most of the time, darn menopause), and i'm feeling better then I have in a long time.
So as each of you start your new week don't look back over the last week except to see what you can do differently. Because let's face it each day is a learning experience for the rest of your life. Afterall this is a lifestyle change not a diet.
I'm going to succeed. One day, step and week at a time i'm going to get there.
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