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It's drawing to a close

Friday, May 07, 2010

As my week draws to a close this week I have to look back at all my accomplishments so far. I have reached and exceeded my goals for this week. I exercised more then usual and really enjoyed each moment. I didn't binge eat all week so far. For me that is awesome considering I was home from work and that could of spelt disaster. I have to say so far because my week doesn't end till saturday night. But I have faith I can see this through.

With each day ending with a good note it is making me a bit stronger for the next week and then the next. but I will not dwell on those weeks. I need to FOCUS on this one week. Each day holds its own power and we must reach for the stars on the given day and if we fail we are given another day to get it right.

I have pushed myself this week to reach a goal. Not THE goal, but a goal. Baby steps are the key to this lifestyle. With each new change comes a strength we never even knew we had. I want to wish this strength on each of you. we are all important. We are worthy of love, praise, and we hold the key to our own happiness. I say these things for myself as well as others. I have spent most of my life trying to please everyone and now i'm sitting on this isle by myself and I have no one to please but me. the sad truth is I don't know where to begin. I have spent so much of my life trying to make everyone else comfortable that somewhere in there MICHELLE got lost. But never fear, i'm finding her. She was lost under a lot of baggage, but i'm pulling her out inch by inch.

So to my spark friends and anyone reading this we are going to succeed because we can. Not because someone tells us we can but because we know we can. I am going to succeed one day at a time. this is my lifetime journey.

  
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KNITTABLES 5/7/2010 1:55PM

    Well done, I love baby steps. What a successful week, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IUHRYTR 5/7/2010 9:26AM

    Your emoticon attitude calls for a emoticon and a emoticon as well as a emoticon. Go get 'em! -- Lou

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SLIMPAM23 5/7/2010 8:35AM

    What a GREAT blog---I am a firm believer in baby steps and I too, have spent most of my life living it for others. It is a good feeling to put myself first for a change and also to to know that I was not the only person in the world living that life!! I hope your first day back to work was a good one. Enjoy the weekend!!
Big Hugs,
Pam

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JZAPRN 5/7/2010 8:31AM

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Congrats on having such a great week! Keep up the good work!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 5/7/2010 7:52AM

    Baby steps ... they are my favorite!
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Heading back to work today and routine

Thursday, May 06, 2010

I have to tell ya i'm so glad to be getting back to work today. I need routine. Now don't get me wrong this week I have worked on me, taken care of me, and used my new word FOCUS alot. I have learned a bit about the new me I want to become. Number one is that I like exercise, number two I like to eat healthy, and number three if i set a plan in motion it usually is successful. One thing i've learned on this site is "if you fail to plan, you plan to fail". That quote is so true. I find for me I have to plan. I mean really plan out my day. I don't handle boredom very well and I have the tendency to get lazy.

Well this last week I didn't get lazy. I got in my daily walks in the evening and I have found I actually enjoy this so i'm going to continue this now that i'm back at work. I walk at lunch during work time, but I really enjoy the evening walks and my dogs seem to look forward to it also. I think that one i'll keep. Heck I can always use a bit more exercise. Who couldn't.

I planned my meals and weighed and measured without fail. I learned alot about portion size this week. I didn't snack all day, I set aside times for that, there were even days I found it was lunch before I really wanted anything and then the snack moment was gone. Not that I went under calories by anymeans. I got in my veggies, fruits, and water without a problem. I'm having trouble with protein as meat just isn't important to me. I have added an egg somedays at breakfast, and in the evening I try to have some form of protien. Funny but as my lifestyle has changed so has the foods I crave or want.

I'm getting my sleep again. For a couple days that was off, don't really know why but I started back to bed at a normal time and got up about the time I usually do for work and I finally slept through without trouble. Sorry guys I need my rest.

So today i'm all about routine. I'm ready to head to work and get the day accomplished. I have plans to hop on my elliptical this morning, get in some strength, and my walk at lunch. today I won't get home till after nine tonight so no walk this evening for me. But I will get in as much as I can at lunch.

I will focus, I will succeed. I won't have it any other way. emoticon

  
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KNITTABLES 5/6/2010 11:25PM

    Yes I find that I need routine in my life as well, I am starting tomorrow with a new routine. good luck with yours. Keep up the great work.

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 5/6/2010 10:37AM

    Good for you!!!! YOU are sooooo worth the effort, my sweet friend!
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THE_JULES1 5/6/2010 9:48AM

    I like routine, too. I need structure. You are doing so great!

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Staying on track

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Today is day four of my new week. So far i'm staying on track. Handling each moment, and I mean each moment. Tomorrow I head back to work and things should settle down for me. Finding things to occupy my time with is tough and i've run out of things to clean. Staycations are not for the weak at heart. We were suppose to head to florida but with my "little surgery" and things getting messed up i'm at home and my hubby is back at work. Oh well such is my life.

I"m a bordom eater and let me tell ya i've had to plan and think my days through. That is no easy feat when the chores are done and I sit down with my book and then it hits. I need something crunchy....nope not time. So I get up and move, or chew gum. The gum chewing is helping a lot. I must recommend that to you all. Give it a try.

OH well, I'm handling each moment as it comes. I can't jump to far ahead or i'll trip myself up. Day by day, and minute by minute. I have been reading a bit of spark articles, blogs, and messages to get some good ideas. Those have helped me stay focused.

Focus is my new word...I write it at the top of my journal page now, and try to think it through. Focuse is what this is all about. I"m going to reach my goals. I just have to take it slow and steady and the rest will fall into place. emoticon

  
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SLIMPAM23 5/5/2010 7:55PM

    Glad you are heading back to work.....ROUTINE is one of my biggies! If I can stay in my normal routine things seem to go very well - but let me get out of routine and look out!! So - I am glad that your life is getting back to your normal routine - even if it does involve work!!!
Pam

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 5/5/2010 7:13PM

    You are doing this, Michelle. You are growing each day ... growing into the new, stronger you. You are amazing!
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IUHRYTR 5/5/2010 5:09PM

    Focus. Determination. Willpower. Combined make a mighty force. -- Lou

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Success on day 1

Monday, May 03, 2010

emoticonI did it. I made a choice and a commitment to me and I did it. emoticon I didn't graze at all, I met all my challenges head on, I only had one snack and it was planned and on a plate and eaten at the table. No eating out of a bag, no chips, no grazing, no munching.

Now I have to be honest with you all and tell you it was no easy feat....old habits die hard, but I took each moment for what it was and didn't look too far ahead. I find that when watching tv, reading my book or sitting still I wanted to munch. So I got up and moved. I cleaned, I bathed the dogs, I chewed a couple of sticks of gum. I survived. I have to admitt getting up this morning, having a bit of trouble sleeping straight through for some reason, I was so proud of me and ready for today. Today will bring new challenges, new tricks, and new plans. I'm ok with that. I also found that when I woke I wasn't bloated. My belly was down, and I wasn't hungry. Imagine that, not hungry, starved, or hung over from food.

I prepped my foods, snacks, weighed and measured (which I may add I was slacking on) and I used the spark food tracker. Now I do ww and that is on a point system but I wanted to see how close the ww points were to the calorie count....lets just say right on the money for the most part. I find it is easier for me to write as I go then to sit down and enter each food in the computer.

I got in a short walk, rain made that not any longer. I got a lot accomplished in my day. I feel empowered today to head into this next step. This journey is one step at a time and I was running I feel and I tripped so many times. So i'm slowing it down a bit and walking to my goal. I can not beat myself up about mistakes, I can not give in, and I will not fail. So im off to begin this day. Hopefully I will have the same success as yesterday because this feeling of empowerment is awesome and the euphoria is just unexplainable.

There really is no time like the present. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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IUHRYTR 5/4/2010 10:16PM

    One meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time will get us where we want to be. Keep up the good start. Woo hoo! -- Lou

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NEWGUN71 5/4/2010 11:20AM

    I have the problem of wanting to eat when I am inactive. Just sitting here at the computer makes me want to munch. Getting ready to go to the gym and karate class and I guarantee I will not think about it. Rule #1--Keep moving. Good job on your success. Keep it up.

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TITUS2WMN 5/3/2010 10:38AM

    Way to go, Michelle!!! I'm excited to have an accountability partner!! :o)

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SHOOTBANGS 5/3/2010 7:14AM

    Way to go! I tend to veg a bit too, but once you get over the habit of it it seems to be a little easier. Drink lots of water, that's what I've been doing. Instead of chips and soda, i drink bunches of water and it curbs your apatite and gives you kinda something to do instead of eating. Keep it up! emoticon

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 5/3/2010 6:26AM

    emoticon Michelle!!! Tweaking here and there and you are going to win this!! It's the little things that count! They all add up to Victory!
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Enough

Sunday, May 02, 2010

I had my weigh in this morning and lets suffice it to say it was not pretty. I feel like crying, kicking, yelling. You know the picture. Well I'm not. I mean I should, but that is self pitty and that is not me. So lets just say if I plan on reaching my goals for the month of may I better get to it.

I have reset my trackers, goal's, and such on spark. I'm ready to take this head on. I can look back on my journal and know where my problems lie so it is up to me to fix it. I wish one of you could wave the magic wand but that isn't going to happen so I need to get going. I want to thank all for the encouragement through out my journey. You have all given me such good ideas and visons, it is just that I haven't held me accountable. Well today I have no choice. the proof is on the scale.

Yeah I know it could be that i'm on vacation and not really working out like I do when on work days, and yest it could be that i'm bored and eating myself crazy, and it could be that darn bag of chips I choose to bring in the house. It could be all of that. Wait it is all of that. So I am aiming for a loss this week. It is easy for me to sit here and type that but it won't be easy to do it. I have to be honest i'm great sun thru wednesday, then for some unknown reason I struggle the rest of the week. Enough....one day should be no different from the rest. I need to do this for my own sanity. I hate being unhealthy. yeah i've come a long ways from that close to 200 pound woman who is only 5'1" and looked like humbty dumpty.

Yeah i've gotten down to a size 6 (woohoo), yeah I work out daily, yeah I eat better, yeah I'm starting to like what I see when I look in the mirror...but I hate the setbacks. Yeah I know everyone has them. but this one has been going on now most of the winter. ENOUGH. I want change, and that change has to come from me....................so i'm changeing me.

They say you have to want it.....OH I want it alright. I want it all, the brass ring, the WOW factor. Yep I want it all. So I"m here to say i'm going to go for it. If it means sweating a bit more, then i'm there, IF it means more water i'm on it, less chips or snacks on the grocery list,,,I can do that. I have to do this for me. Because right now people stepping on the scales and seeing the same ole weight week in and week out is getting old. I want to see changes.....So i'm off now to begin on the me I want to be.

I'm going to get there, it is just going to take me a few more steps and a few more days at a time. emoticon

  
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IUHRYTR 5/2/2010 12:45PM

    Love your determination! Admitting dissatisfaction is a first step to achievement. You will make it. Look how far you have come so far. Hang in there. -- Lou

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 5/2/2010 9:49AM

    emoticon There we go!! I waved the magic wand! How's that? You feel any different? LOL!!! No, but it was fun, wasn't it? We both know the answer and you spelled it out so beautifully. emoticon I know you can!!! And you have soooooo many folks supporting you!
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TERESA6262 5/2/2010 9:12AM

    I'm right there with you! I've been good all week (alomst TWO).... but last night ate an entire bag of microwave popcorn. Definitley NOT a Zone friendly product! (let alone eating a WHOLE BAG!)Thanks for kiking yourself in the pants.... cause you kicked me TOO!
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PATRISNA 5/2/2010 8:12AM

    Go for it. I know it is tough. I am having some of the same feelings.

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