Saturday, May 01, 2010
I want to post a goal or two for this month. I do this on my spark page but maybe if I put it out there for all I will be more apt to stick with it.
Goal #1: lose three pounds this month CW: 141.8
Goal#2: Work off at least a inch off my body
That is it for this month. Not too tough, but right now with the weight i'm having a bit of trouble. I lose, I gain, I lose. It is a vicious cycle and it needs to end now. So I'm posting and hoping this ends here and now. I want to hop on the scales with confidence each week, not trepidation and what they may or maynot read. I find I get nervous, can't sleep, and worry about the outlook on the scales. That is so sad.
I see my spark friends posting losses and I envy them their dedication and then I think I just don't have to strength of them. But that isn't true. I have the strength, dedication, and stamina. I prove that to myself everyday I head out for my walk. It is the food i'm having trouble with. I do great in the daytime if i'm working, I'm even handling evenings better on those days. It is weekends and days off that i'm having a bit of trouble with. I do great it seems till after lunch. Then I get the snack attack. I have to really work it through. This weeks success step for ww is doing just that. So here is my chance to make changes I can live with.
I have the evening snack thing down now. OR at least I think I do. I have to actually think about it and stop myself sometimes. So again a work in progress.
I'm going to succeed this week and next. And should I not, there is the next. This is no easy feat, no magic pill, wand, or word to get me to my goals. It is going to take me and only me with the help of my friends and spark that is, to get to my goal.
So i'm off to begin. After all each journey begins with one step.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Here I sit wondering what to do with my day. As I said to my husband yesterday this vacation stuff would be ok if I had gone somewhere. But i'm broke, and due to my surgery we had to change our plans. So I sit here bored and wonder what to do.
Well I have survived the last couple days. the first I snacked but yesterday I told myself I was not going to do that, so I went shopping. Got a cute summer short set, which I need, and a couple of things at a steal at the goodwill for my porch. That is my project this spring. A new back screen porch. I'm having a time fixing up on a budget but so far because i've taken my time and looked around, when it is done it is going to be awesome and all on a budget.
My journey is a lot like this. I"m learning to take things slow, don't grab at the first thing I see, and planning makes perfect. Funny how things work together. Weight loss and remodeling, diet and budgets. They all work together for the good of each of us. Slow and steady wins the race no matter what we are trying.
So today i'm off to the grocery store and I hope to get only what is planned. I have to be sure I eat before and bring a snack, because if i'm hungry everything looks like a meal. Can't have that.
Lets all have a sparking good day today. I'm going to succeed. It may take me one day at a time but i'm going to reach my goals.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Ok, we all know about boredom, for me it is a means to an end. An end to the food in my cupboard. Now yesterday I got in my exercise, did the exercise of the day with my Alabama team mates, got in my waters, fruits/veggies.....but I also had a couple of snacks...... . Darn hubby and those little debbie snack cakes, and then when he gets home from work he makes english muffin pizzas, In and of themselves they are pretty good calorie wise because I buy the low cal muffins and the sauce isn't bad, but anyhow it is when you have had lunch, had three snack cakes, and you get the picture. Now I did account for all this. It wasn't pretty, but I didn't lie to me. If you bite it you have to write it. That is ww motto and it works for me.
I wrote it, I had the extra points to have these, of course now I will have to be careful the next few days till weigh in because now i'm limited, but that was my choice. I was the one to choose to eat that garbage. And the sad part is as good as they tasted, I felt awful. Not just my stomach, but my mind. I"m in a mindset now where I know when i'm doing wrong, but your body takes over and the mind loses. Maybe it was the other way around I can't be sure.
But i'm up, i'm ready for this new day. I'm getting out of the house today. Sitting around isn't good for me. I have to be doing something. So i'm off to get something done for me, today is my day to take back myself.
I want this, I want to succeed and little debbie is not going to do that for me. So today she is hitting the road. As for me i'm hitting the pavement myself. I need to work off three cakes. lol.
I'm going to get there from here one step at a time.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.
- Walt Disney
Last night watching the biggest loser, I heard one of them say to a woman as they were doing the 5k about her losing the weight is " you have to want it". I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote that down. That was a great idea for my next blog....
Truer words have never been spoken...you reallly have to want change, If you just think you do none will come or they will come for a bit but then we start back to our old ways. I want this. As i'm out walking/running each day I tell myself I really want this. It isn't a matter of hitting the number on the scales for me any longer. It is about getting healthy. I see so much each day as a pharmacy tech and it isn't pretty. Some have surgery and never bounce back, others just never even have the chance to bounce anywhere. It is horrible to see the amount of pills people take to "stay alive". Because without them they would surely pass.
I had surgery earlier this month. By the second day I was up and ready to move. Now mind you moving wasn't an option, but after day three I was out walking again. Not my usual pace but I was up. they told me two weeks, I was back at work after three days. I'm not bragging, but I am saying I owe a lot of this to just getting healthy. Movement is an awesome thing. I do believe to sit back and do nothing is one sure way to kill ourselves slowly. I won't have that be me.
this is a choice. Each day I make the choice to get up and move. To eat healthy foods, I snack on occasion, I even eat fried on occasion. but I don't live on this type of food. I walk daily at work. I choose to give my lunch break over to exercise. I eat for the first half and walk the second. I choose to pack my lunch, I choose to cook at home for me and my hubby. I choose to keep only good foods at the ready and I also choose to keep a small treat in the fridge drawer for just that moment.
Life is about choices. We make them each day. Why not make the choice to live. To be healthy. Forget the scales for a moment. Just do this for you. I do.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.
- Tony Robbins
Staying flexible on this journey is what it is all about. We are committed to getting to a certain weight, goal, or outcome. But if we are so ridged in our approach we will surely break. I know for me this is so true. If I follow my plan to a tee sometimes it leads to behavior not becoming of a woman. YOu know the one, bingeing, sneaking, lazing about. When we allow ourselves to be so strict that there is no room for a little "fun" we lead ourselves down a dark path with no light.
I myself allow me the light the shine. What I mean is if i'm hungry, lord forgive me, I eat. If I want that cake, I eat it too. But if i'm tired I rest. I also know that in this flexability I have to leave a little wiggle room so to speak. I also have to be sure I have the wiggle room. If I follow my plan and make a space for that cake, I can eat it too. If I eat all day long and leave no space.....that is my own fault.
On my journey really I make or break me. I have the power to succeed or fail. I can either win or I can fall down and just roll over. I intend to win. I'm doing that this last week, month, year. I may not always see a difference on the scales, tape measure. but I see the difference in me. I no longer just get up and get ready for work, I set my alarm and I get up at the same time most days. I will allow a day or so to sleep in but then I find i'm up the same time as usual. I get up and spark for a bit with my morning coffee, then it is off to the elliptical or the open road. At my lunch i'm eating, and then walking for about thirty more minutes. Just me and my mp3 player. I have taken to taking a friend along on a couple of my walks, I thought at first this would deter me, but I have found I enjoy it. We chat and the time just flies. Now I enjoy my solitude so it is nice that this is only on occasion. I find I'm counting my veggies and fruits for the day if i'm i'm running short I will drink a v8 to pump it up. Water, or yeah then there is the water.
Where i'm going with this rambling is just that along with the flexiblity comes a bit of habits. One day we wake up and find we are different. We no longer like the taste of oil, fried foods, or greasy things. At least I have. I have also noticed that my "bingeing" is usually on healthy foods. Yeah maybe i'm eating more than I should be it isn't candy, chips, cookies, ice cream. It is nuts, crackers, boiled eggs (yeah I love a good boiled egg on occasion). So we may be the same but we are also different.
Now that i've rambled long enough and really haven't gotten very far, in closing I would love to say I"m going to do this. I am doing this. I like the new me. I love the new body i'm creatiing. I'm starting to notice changes in myself that before I may have overlooked. I have definition in my legs, waist, and arms. I have energy, I get things done. I"m ME. I like me. I'm going to get there from here.
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