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Staying on track

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Today is day four of my new week. So far i'm staying on track. Handling each moment, and I mean each moment. Tomorrow I head back to work and things should settle down for me. Finding things to occupy my time with is tough and i've run out of things to clean. Staycations are not for the weak at heart. We were suppose to head to florida but with my "little surgery" and things getting messed up i'm at home and my hubby is back at work. Oh well such is my life.

I"m a bordom eater and let me tell ya i've had to plan and think my days through. That is no easy feat when the chores are done and I sit down with my book and then it hits. I need something crunchy....nope not time. So I get up and move, or chew gum. The gum chewing is helping a lot. I must recommend that to you all. Give it a try.

OH well, I'm handling each moment as it comes. I can't jump to far ahead or i'll trip myself up. Day by day, and minute by minute. I have been reading a bit of spark articles, blogs, and messages to get some good ideas. Those have helped me stay focused.

Focus is my new word...I write it at the top of my journal page now, and try to think it through. Focuse is what this is all about. I"m going to reach my goals. I just have to take it slow and steady and the rest will fall into place. emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 5/5/2010 7:55PM

    Glad you are heading back to work.....ROUTINE is one of my biggies! If I can stay in my normal routine things seem to go very well - but let me get out of routine and look out!! So - I am glad that your life is getting back to your normal routine - even if it does involve work!!!

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    You are doing this, Michelle. You are growing each day ... growing into the new, stronger you. You are amazing!

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IUHRYTR 5/5/2010 5:09PM

    Focus. Determination. Willpower. Combined make a mighty force. -- Lou

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Success on day 1

Monday, May 03, 2010

emoticonI did it. I made a choice and a commitment to me and I did it. emoticon I didn't graze at all, I met all my challenges head on, I only had one snack and it was planned and on a plate and eaten at the table. No eating out of a bag, no chips, no grazing, no munching.

Now I have to be honest with you all and tell you it was no easy feat....old habits die hard, but I took each moment for what it was and didn't look too far ahead. I find that when watching tv, reading my book or sitting still I wanted to munch. So I got up and moved. I cleaned, I bathed the dogs, I chewed a couple of sticks of gum. I survived. I have to admitt getting up this morning, having a bit of trouble sleeping straight through for some reason, I was so proud of me and ready for today. Today will bring new challenges, new tricks, and new plans. I'm ok with that. I also found that when I woke I wasn't bloated. My belly was down, and I wasn't hungry. Imagine that, not hungry, starved, or hung over from food.

I prepped my foods, snacks, weighed and measured (which I may add I was slacking on) and I used the spark food tracker. Now I do ww and that is on a point system but I wanted to see how close the ww points were to the calorie count....lets just say right on the money for the most part. I find it is easier for me to write as I go then to sit down and enter each food in the computer.

I got in a short walk, rain made that not any longer. I got a lot accomplished in my day. I feel empowered today to head into this next step. This journey is one step at a time and I was running I feel and I tripped so many times. So i'm slowing it down a bit and walking to my goal. I can not beat myself up about mistakes, I can not give in, and I will not fail. So im off to begin this day. Hopefully I will have the same success as yesterday because this feeling of empowerment is awesome and the euphoria is just unexplainable.

There really is no time like the present. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IUHRYTR 5/4/2010 10:16PM

    One meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time will get us where we want to be. Keep up the good start. Woo hoo! -- Lou

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NEWGUN71 5/4/2010 11:20AM

    I have the problem of wanting to eat when I am inactive. Just sitting here at the computer makes me want to munch. Getting ready to go to the gym and karate class and I guarantee I will not think about it. Rule #1--Keep moving. Good job on your success. Keep it up.

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TITUS2WMN 5/3/2010 10:38AM

    Way to go, Michelle!!! I'm excited to have an accountability partner!! :o)

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SHOOTBANGS 5/3/2010 7:14AM

    Way to go! I tend to veg a bit too, but once you get over the habit of it it seems to be a little easier. Drink lots of water, that's what I've been doing. Instead of chips and soda, i drink bunches of water and it curbs your apatite and gives you kinda something to do instead of eating. Keep it up! emoticon

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    emoticon Michelle!!! Tweaking here and there and you are going to win this!! It's the little things that count! They all add up to Victory!

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Sunday, May 02, 2010

I had my weigh in this morning and lets suffice it to say it was not pretty. I feel like crying, kicking, yelling. You know the picture. Well I'm not. I mean I should, but that is self pitty and that is not me. So lets just say if I plan on reaching my goals for the month of may I better get to it.

I have reset my trackers, goal's, and such on spark. I'm ready to take this head on. I can look back on my journal and know where my problems lie so it is up to me to fix it. I wish one of you could wave the magic wand but that isn't going to happen so I need to get going. I want to thank all for the encouragement through out my journey. You have all given me such good ideas and visons, it is just that I haven't held me accountable. Well today I have no choice. the proof is on the scale.

Yeah I know it could be that i'm on vacation and not really working out like I do when on work days, and yest it could be that i'm bored and eating myself crazy, and it could be that darn bag of chips I choose to bring in the house. It could be all of that. Wait it is all of that. So I am aiming for a loss this week. It is easy for me to sit here and type that but it won't be easy to do it. I have to be honest i'm great sun thru wednesday, then for some unknown reason I struggle the rest of the week. day should be no different from the rest. I need to do this for my own sanity. I hate being unhealthy. yeah i've come a long ways from that close to 200 pound woman who is only 5'1" and looked like humbty dumpty.

Yeah i've gotten down to a size 6 (woohoo), yeah I work out daily, yeah I eat better, yeah I'm starting to like what I see when I look in the mirror...but I hate the setbacks. Yeah I know everyone has them. but this one has been going on now most of the winter. ENOUGH. I want change, and that change has to come from i'm changeing me.

They say you have to want it.....OH I want it alright. I want it all, the brass ring, the WOW factor. Yep I want it all. So I"m here to say i'm going to go for it. If it means sweating a bit more, then i'm there, IF it means more water i'm on it, less chips or snacks on the grocery list,,,I can do that. I have to do this for me. Because right now people stepping on the scales and seeing the same ole weight week in and week out is getting old. I want to see changes.....So i'm off now to begin on the me I want to be.

I'm going to get there, it is just going to take me a few more steps and a few more days at a time. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 5/2/2010 12:45PM

    Love your determination! Admitting dissatisfaction is a first step to achievement. You will make it. Look how far you have come so far. Hang in there. -- Lou

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    emoticon There we go!! I waved the magic wand! How's that? You feel any different? LOL!!! No, but it was fun, wasn't it? We both know the answer and you spelled it out so beautifully. emoticon I know you can!!! And you have soooooo many folks supporting you!

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TERESA6262 5/2/2010 9:12AM

    I'm right there with you! I've been good all week (alomst TWO).... but last night ate an entire bag of microwave popcorn. Definitley NOT a Zone friendly product! (let alone eating a WHOLE BAG!)Thanks for kiking yourself in the pants.... cause you kicked me TOO!

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PATRISNA 5/2/2010 8:12AM

    Go for it. I know it is tough. I am having some of the same feelings.


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May goals

Saturday, May 01, 2010

I want to post a goal or two for this month. I do this on my spark page but maybe if I put it out there for all I will be more apt to stick with it.

Goal #1: lose three pounds this month CW: 141.8
Goal#2: Work off at least a inch off my body

That is it for this month. Not too tough, but right now with the weight i'm having a bit of trouble. I lose, I gain, I lose. It is a vicious cycle and it needs to end now. So I'm posting and hoping this ends here and now. I want to hop on the scales with confidence each week, not trepidation and what they may or maynot read. I find I get nervous, can't sleep, and worry about the outlook on the scales. That is so sad.

I see my spark friends posting losses and I envy them their dedication and then I think I just don't have to strength of them. But that isn't true. I have the strength, dedication, and stamina. I prove that to myself everyday I head out for my walk. It is the food i'm having trouble with. I do great in the daytime if i'm working, I'm even handling evenings better on those days. It is weekends and days off that i'm having a bit of trouble with. I do great it seems till after lunch. Then I get the snack attack. I have to really work it through. This weeks success step for ww is doing just that. So here is my chance to make changes I can live with.

I have the evening snack thing down now. OR at least I think I do. I have to actually think about it and stop myself sometimes. So again a work in progress.

I'm going to succeed this week and next. And should I not, there is the next. This is no easy feat, no magic pill, wand, or word to get me to my goals. It is going to take me and only me with the help of my friends and spark that is, to get to my goal.

So i'm off to begin. After all each journey begins with one step.

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TERESA6262 5/2/2010 9:18AM

    You're more than a number on the scale. How about taking a an article of clothing that's too tight (shorts, top or pants) and making a goal of wearing that piece comfortably? That'll factor in wieght loss and inches lost. And besides, if you're sticking w/ your exercise, you're a success in my book anyway you slice it!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/1/2010 7:31PM

    I know that you can do this!!!!

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    I think the most valuable part of what you said is that you are a work in progress. You are learning soooooo much about yourself. No week is wasted while you are learning.
Hugs, my friend,

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IUHRYTR 5/1/2010 12:33PM

    One meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time. You can do it. :) -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 5/1/2010 11:24AM

    New day, new month and very attainable goals. You go!
Guess we all have our tough times regarding food that we need to work through.
Here's to a successful month. emoticon

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Friday, April 30, 2010

Here I sit wondering what to do with my day. As I said to my husband yesterday this vacation stuff would be ok if I had gone somewhere. But i'm broke, and due to my surgery we had to change our plans. So I sit here bored and wonder what to do.

Well I have survived the last couple days. the first I snacked but yesterday I told myself I was not going to do that, so I went shopping. Got a cute summer short set, which I need, and a couple of things at a steal at the goodwill for my porch. That is my project this spring. A new back screen porch. I'm having a time fixing up on a budget but so far because i've taken my time and looked around, when it is done it is going to be awesome and all on a budget.

My journey is a lot like this. I"m learning to take things slow, don't grab at the first thing I see, and planning makes perfect. Funny how things work together. Weight loss and remodeling, diet and budgets. They all work together for the good of each of us. Slow and steady wins the race no matter what we are trying.

So today i'm off to the grocery store and I hope to get only what is planned. I have to be sure I eat before and bring a snack, because if i'm hungry everything looks like a meal. Can't have that.

Lets all have a sparking good day today. I'm going to succeed. It may take me one day at a time but i'm going to reach my goals. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 5/1/2010 12:36PM

    I can sure relate to the grocery shopping. Even though i go with a list and eat before I go, there are so many temptations to pass by. Sometimes it's tough. But, one day at a time. -- Lou

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THE_JULES1 4/30/2010 2:57PM

    I can't wait to see what your porch turns out like. You must take pictures!

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    You will succeed! You have the right mindset for this. Enjoy your staycation!! It's all about YOU!!!

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NUTRON3 4/30/2010 7:50AM

    Have a wonderful day!

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