Saturday, April 17, 2010
Today is a new and bright day. I have had a wonderful week and even with a bit of surgery i'm still sitting pretty. I can't say if the scales will move, and to be honest since my week was spent in the bed the first two days of it, I really don't expect to see any. But if I do i'm truly blessed this week.
I'm feeling wonderful after my results from the doctor and i'm so blessed to be here. This week and the last months have given me new reason to feel blessed. As I sit here typing and thanking god that my "abnormal cells" could of been so much worse and that I was told I didn't have to worry and that I won't have to go back to the docs for six whole months, and I should be starting with a clean slate when I do. That is awesome.
I'm healing great, able to move and function. Been at work for two days and got caught up on so much. Now I can only hope this inspiration spreads to my weight loss. I've passed the same number three times already and that kinda worries me. Not in the sense that I can't get there, but that it is way too easy to get there. IF you know what I mean. One wrong step and all that we have worked for could be gone. We have to take this day by day and we also have to know this is a lifetime commitment. If your not ready for that step, stop now, don't go any further....your just wasting your time and much needed energy.
Well today is a new day. I"m off to get it started. I'm going to get my exercise in, have my weigh in tomorrow and what will be will be. God bless each of you. I will get there one step, day, and week at a time.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Yesterday was my first day back at work. It was so busy. We have this crud going around, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea...lots of sick people and for a tech like me job security....sorry guys.
I was so busy I didn't have time to sit down at all. Not that that was a problem. No cramping, or anything. I even got outside during my lunch and walked two miles. It was wonderful. I'm so glad to be back and once again able to exercise. Some may not understand that one but i don't sit around well. I have to be moving.
So far this week i'm getting my goals met....even had a 483 cal differential yesterday. I love sparks new chart for calories in and calories out. awesome.
I'm off now to begin my friday. I have to work later this morning and i'm going to enjoy another cup of joe and relax for a bit before my day begins.
I'm going to get there one step, day, and week at a time. afterall we can't move that fast or we will trip up.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Well i'm off to work today. I kinda can't wait. Been up since very early. Sorry not one to sit around for long. I'm a doer and I need to do.
I have succeeded in two whole days of no snacking uncontrollably and I have to tell you it is awesome, the feeling of empowerment. Some whom don't have this problem won't understand, but for me this is like an addiction. I'm trying to curb the instinct to munch. Last night I actually had to think about it, and talk myself out of it.
today is a new day, i'm ready to succeed yet again. I will keep this blog short as i'm off to get in a bit of elliptical before work. nothing too strenuous but enough to say I did it.
I will succeed one day, one minute, and one step at a time.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
The only place where your dream becomes impossible is in your own thinking.
- Robert H. Schuller
I know that this is true to me. I have felt like i've been sabataging myself all along the way. I snack when i'm not hungry, don't exercise when I should, and sometimes I just plain eat like a grown man. lol. why is it we do this to ourselves? we know what it is we want, we can see the prize, and yet we dare to not touch it.
I think I dare to not touch it because most of my life i've been told I couldn't. I couldn't do most of the things i got ideas about, and let;s face it i've started and stopped this journey so many times along the way. But I really in my head want this. I want to see it through. I stop, I start, I eat, I watch the next day. this is a rollercoaster ride i'm on.
I'm up, i'm down, I'm up again. But yesterday was a up day. In a good way. I ate what I should. Got in a walk, short though it was, and I got more water then I needed. I have to add that with being in bed most of the time the last couple days i'm getting my sleep. maybe too much.
today is another day. I'm vowing to myself that I did it yesterday being laid up and I can do this again today. today is my last day of "rest". I have to go back to work tomorrow and the docs say two days was all I needed in way of bed rest. I will take it easy again today, but as the days go by and I feel like standing for longer periods of time, I will succeed.
today is one more day towards my goal...one step, day, week, at a time i'm going to reach it.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Hello spark friends. I'm so blessed this morning to be waking up and sparking. I'm sitting tall, Litterally, and I feel like a million bucks. I won't be doing much cardio at this moment but walking isn't out of the question.
My "abnormal cells" were only 3-4mm deep. So they got them without much fuss. They carterized the remaining cells just incase some should of gotten loose. But I think that was the worse part. Oh the burning. but this morning i'm sitting tall, feeling awesome, and ready to get back to it.
They said I will hear from those cell checks in about two weeks. So till then i'm going to get healthy and stay healthy. No more paps for 6 whole months, woohoo, and i"m ready to get back at this weight loss thing now.
I have to say that all this has made me aware of what is important in life. Maybe that is what god intended of me. Everything is a lesson and this is one I will pray is over with. But if it isn't I will continue to do what is needed to get back to normal day by day.
now I have to work on me. For some reason I can't seem to get myself past a certain point. I mean to say as I hit a lower weight, I gain back up going back to my old habits. why? I have asked myself this question this morning. I think fear of the unknown is to blame. But I tell myself I want to be healthy and thin, then as I near the end I head back up. I had a pep talk with me this morning. I"m going to figure this out. I'm only sabotaging myself.
So I end this blog with my usual saying.....i'm going to get there one step, day, and week at a time. Today i'm taking the steps I need to get through the day and make this the best week I possibly can.
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