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Saturday, April 10, 2010

As some of you may know i'm getting ready for surgery on monday. I have a bit cf cervical cancer and it is going to be removed, or so we hope, anyhow that is not what I want to talk about.....anyways I have the best of both worlds in and out of spark, I have a spark buddy that I not only can chat with online but she works right beside me. We have been on this journey together now for over a year. She took a "rest" and I kept on trudging along. Though i'm not as far as I should be since winter. She rejoined me two weeks ago and I have to say life is full now.

Ok, now that you have that unneeded info my reason for this blog is this: she gave me the best gift yesterday before my leaving work. She had a "goodie bag" for me. It was awesome, in it was a new pedometer that i've been wanting but couldn't afford, a new mp3 player, and a bookmark, and gum, and our fav treats.....not only did I cry when receiving this, but when I got home and read the card and layed out my treats like a little kid at christmas I was awed that she knew me so well.......Cat if you read this I want to say thaink you once again. You got it so right. Of course I cryed again. How could I not.

So as I go off to the drs with my new bookmark in my book, and i'm chewing the gum to relax. I will be thinking of my spark buddy, and when i'm able and i'm off on my walks listening to my favorite music and checking my miles, i'll be thinking of my spark buddy.

Spark buddies and friends alike come to mean so much to us. They are there to see us through, laugh, cry, hug, and hope right along with us. I"m truly blessed in that my best friend is also my spark buddy. The lord placed her here for me and i'm so glad for that. I needed that hug yesterday and I truly loved the ilittle gifts that in my book were not so little. It was the bookmark that did it for me. I told my husband as I layed all the goodies out, "look she knows my so well", that is what made me cry the most. A small bookmark, she took the time to learn about me.

We all need a spark buddy and best friend. Mostly i'm a solitary person, but every once in a while I want and need that spark friend to see me through. I want to thank all my spark friends for the well wishes, and the prayers. My journey with this cancer is just beginning, but my journey with spark is never ending. God bless you all........

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/11/2010 1:55AM

    Michelle I will be praying that all goes well with your surgery. I hope you have a speedy recovery!
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BAMAMAMA130 4/10/2010 10:54PM

    I don't know what I would do without my spark buddy.
May God bless you and watch over you durnig surgery and afterwards. I pray for a speedy recovery for you.

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DARLENEK04 4/10/2010 9:32PM

  Michelle,

Praying for you..........that doesn't change from any other day
but now I am being specific.

Hugs,
Darlene

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IUHRYTR 4/10/2010 7:59PM

    Prayers offered for you, the doctors and the surgical team tomorrow and for you to have a speedy and successful recovery. We're here for you when you need us. -- Lou

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MAMABEARLICIOUS 4/10/2010 6:24PM

    i'm praying for you and also for your spark buddy because she is feeling it too. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THE_JULES1 4/10/2010 4:22PM

    Spark Buddies are the best. And it sounds like your buddy sparkles in more ways than one.
You know, I always say you have to be a friend to have a friend. I am glad she is able to lessen the weight you have on your shoulders right now.
I will be praying for you!

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EWEINHISPASTURE 4/10/2010 11:52AM

    I am praying for you dear spark friend,
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MARYHANNA 4/10/2010 11:42AM

    My thoughts and prayers will be with you! I love the fact that your SBuddy knows you so well. That is truly awesome!

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JUNEBUG1944 4/10/2010 11:19AM

    I wish you the best, Michelle! We'll all be praying for you and pulling for you! It's so nice to see that people care, and we do! emoticon

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WALKNLOVE 4/10/2010 10:54AM

    Every good and perfect gift ( a friend) comes from the Father.
May The Lord lead and guide your doctors.May the Lord's hand be the one doing the surgery, and in Jesus name, may you be healed! love & prayers....

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NEWGUN71 4/10/2010 9:25AM

    As you see you have a lot of support here, but it helps so much to have that added support with the people we see as well. I hope all goes well and you are in my prayers.

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EVVYSBABY 4/10/2010 8:45AM

    Awesome! It is so cool that you have a friend/spark buddy that is such a blessing in your life.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/10/2010 8:33AM

    She is gem and so are you...Keep shining together.

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CBLANK20091 4/10/2010 8:26AM

  Such a good friend is a true blessing and treasure. I'll keep you in my prayers

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 4/10/2010 8:20AM

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Friends just are the very best ... especially on this journey we call life.
Praying for you that Monday's outcome will be most awesome.
Love and prayers,
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PVILLELADY 4/10/2010 8:14AM

    How awesome it is to have a Spark buddy like yours! She sounds like a real treasure!! You are, indeed, a very lucky lady.

I wish you all the best with your surgery...am sending you good thoughts and many prayers that all goes well and that you have a very quick recovery period!!!!

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Ever changing

Friday, April 09, 2010

"The very nature of the world is constant change. You set a goal and create a plan to achieve it; then the assumptions on which you based your plan change - they always do. The challenge is to retain your goals while adapting your tactics. Relax and stay flexible in order to reach your goals and maintain your happiness."

This came to me today. Sitting in my email and it had me written all over it. Just yesterday I was talking about change, daily change, and Here is this message telling me to be flexible. That is what I like about spark, it is flexible. I can be me, I can slip up, get back at it, then reach milestones or slide back to home. But still spark is there. with open arms. friends to care, and share, and a place for me to cry, kick my feet, get angry, and just laugh.

I'm kicking my heels today, up that is. It is time to be flexible, it is time to fix what is wrong, come up with a new plan, be happy for how far I have come and know that around the next bend is goal. Not that goal is the end of the line, nope, more like the next step. After all what got you there is now what will keep you there. Work, tough, long, sweaty work is going to keep me there. No one ever said this was going to be easy. There is not magic pill, if only, and there is not magic word, wave of the hand, or stomping of the feet going to get me there.

So i'm biting the bullet. Putting on a happy face, and getting down and ready to fight. Ready to fight for me, to look in the mirror and see how far i've come. See me for whom I am. Not what I think I am. ME, just me. I"m going to get there from here. One step, day, and week at a time.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/9/2010 6:34PM

    THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing. This exactly where I am. If it takes me past my goal date to loose these 35 pounds and I am happy in the process I will be ok! emoticon

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JUNEBUG1944 4/9/2010 6:13PM

    Thanks for sharing. It's good to read about what is helping each one of us. We are all so different, yet so much alike.

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PVILLELADY 4/9/2010 9:22AM

    You are such an inspiration, Michelle!! Truer words were never spoken...

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts and prayers while I try to climb out of this depression pit; they mean the world to me!! I'm getting better, slowly but surely... I've started walking again and can't wait to start running. You and I are going to do a 5K together this year, just you wait and see!!

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ROCKNROBIN62 4/9/2010 8:48AM

    Wow you couldn't of said it better. These words will come to me when I feel like I can't go one more step. Nobody said it would be easy but the end result is worth it. A long and happy life.
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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 4/9/2010 8:08AM

    What true words! Thanks for sharing!!

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Always starting again!!

Thursday, April 08, 2010

emoticonThis is going to be my new motto. Yes I can do it. As I sit here i'm wondering if it will be this month, next, or next year though. I tell myself each day that this is going to be the day I get back to it....nope not today, maybe the next.

Well this morning i've sat down and wrote out a few things I need to do to get there from here, I wrote my goals, and I'm posting it on the fridge. So what my daughter will snicker at it, my husband will ask questions. I will see it each time I head for a snack. I am having trouble with snacks for some reason. I do fine when i'm working, I guess that is because i'm on a schedule, when i'm off I do fine till afternoon. Seems as soon as I sit down to relax I snack. and snack, and snack somemore. Then I beat myself up about it that evening.

I want to see the scales move for the first time in a bit. Yeah I know they are moving a bit here and there, but lets be honest .2 or .4 is something that you can spit out. I want to see a loss, a loss in inches from the areas I need to lose in.

Each week I weigh in and i'm hopefull. Then mid week comes and i'm doubtfull, what is up with that. Am I alone in this thinking. My team mates lose, my buddy is moving her scales. Mine don't. I know don't compare to others, we are our own people, but come on...frustraion is the word I would use. I'm tired of being stuck on the scales. It is time to move it.

So I'm starting again. I"m always starting again. BUt the saying is try and try again. Sooner or later it has to get right. I"m going to get this right. It may not be this week, or next. But each day I exercise is a step, each glass of water is a step, each fruit I choose instead of that chocolate bar is a step. I have learned so much through spark and ww, I just need to apply what i've learned. Planning is the key and I plan to get this right.

  
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JUNEBUG1944 4/8/2010 10:25PM

    As long as you keep starting over, you are still in the game. You will do it, my friend! I know what you are going through, believe me, I do! Just keep starting over and, hopefully, the times between starting over will become longer and longer until you aren't starting over anymore!
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LITTLEBRICHIZ 4/8/2010 10:30AM

  you can do this. every day is a new day and chance for you to become a new you. we are here for you.

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IUHRYTR 4/8/2010 10:07AM

    Take it one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and you'll get there. -- Lou

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ITSABOUTME2407 4/8/2010 9:31AM

    i loved how topazdiva put it you are only stalled!!! as long as you don't give up just keep that thought running through your mind!I'm going to
i am right there with you emoticonbut... I think???we have to some where along the journey learn to have self talks and be accountable to ourselves right? emoticon
wishing u a successful sparks day emoticontrisha

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/8/2010 8:55AM

    I am glad you are starting again and again and again... You are not a quitter. We might get stalled but we dont quit!!! Thanks for your comments on my blogs. I see we are in the same place. WE CAN DO THIS!!!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 4/8/2010 8:44AM

    Mid-week snacker. Oh my! We should form a support group! Or perhaps I need to go to an extra meeting during the week. Geez! This has to stop for me too. Your list on the fridge is a wonderful idea. Thanks for posting ... feels better to not feel alone.
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CHITOWNGURL 4/8/2010 8:38AM

    I know how you feel sister.....right there with you. I am a snacker.....MAJOR SNACKER....I got laid off from my job due to workforce dropping & I eat out of bordem or stress....not working will give you both....so I felt doomed.....so.....I thought if I cannot quit snacking then I would allow myself to snack but just snack on things I like that are healthy or allowed to have....I got the fat free popcorn (some brands do not taste fat free such as Weaver's from walmart) and there are flavoring salts to mix up the flavor....I also eat apples with a little peanut butter....this does not sound like something you would want to snack on but I would force myself to try it first & if I did not want it could go to something else....but after the first bite I loved the sweet & savory of this snack & now love it....I also have lite lauging cow cheese with a few slices of oscar mayer shaved turkey or ham on wheat thins flatbread crackers....I really feel like I am cheating when I eat this! and for 2 long crackers with 3 slices of meat & the wedge of cheese is only 150 calories! Dark chocolate is another snack that is so full of flavor so you do not have to have much to be satisfied & is full of antioxidants & healthy for you....find low calorie or healthy snacks you like & have them handy....veggies dipped in reduced fat sour cream with dry ranch dressing added to it is another fave...I really hope this helps you some...I am the snacking queen but it took me awhile to figure out how to have my snacks and stay in my calorie range. If I want something not calorie friendly I let myself have it but do without something at dinner or have a low calorie dinner instead....good luck! emoticon

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GERAPTIKO 4/8/2010 8:34AM

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It's hard but you can do it lots of people have lost weight and they've all had distractions, just do it!

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LOLEMA 4/8/2010 8:23AM

  as long as you don't give up you are doing good

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Getting back to it!!!

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Ok, i'm up, i'm alive, and i'm blessed. Now I really must get back at it. The last couple of days i've been a bit off. I have gotten in exercise and i've gotten in my water and such, but I do believe it was the cake and the piece of pie I had last night that might put me over the edge. But my slate is cleared today, this is a new day with new beginings and i'm up for the challenge. I think I can change up the outcome of this week with a bit of sweat and a lot of measuring. I"m not going to let this one week get me down.

I worry about posting a gain on my tracker. Then I have to stop and tell myself the only one i'm hurting is me. If I don't post is that hurting my team? No, it is me that is the ultimate loser, no pun intended there. I have to post each and every gain, loss, and nothing that comes my way. It holds me accountable to me. Afterall it is me i'm working for no one else.

So i'm off to get in a good run, today is my day to get back at it. no matter what those dumb scales say I know i'm a winner. One day, step, and week at a time.

  
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COUNTRYBUMKIN65 4/7/2010 3:34PM

    Yes today you have a clean slate... Hopefully when you write on that slate today it will be all wonderful things:)

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IUHRYTR 4/7/2010 12:32PM

    w beginnings are allowed and encouraged. Hang in there and take it one positive day at a time. -- Lou

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THE_JULES1 4/7/2010 11:52AM

    You can do it. You have had a rough couple weeks. Hang in there!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 4/7/2010 10:10AM

    YOU are soooooo worth working for!!!!! emoticon

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JHADZHIA 4/7/2010 10:08AM

    We all have slips ups, its not a crime, just put in the time and get it done!
You are a winner because you aren't giving up!
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RE2BAH 4/7/2010 10:07AM

    emoticonGreat plan!!! Acknowledge that you "fell off the wagon", dust yourself off, get back on the plan that will help you reach your goals!

Your sparkfriends are beside you all the way! emoticon

Have fun! Enjoy the springtime, get out and walk! emoticon emoticon

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Happy Easter and my weigh in

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Happy Easter to you all. First and foremost that is what I want to say. second....weigh in this week: 140.0 down again from 140.4. Not a lot, but still a very good week. Lost an inch during this weeks measurements and in my book both those add up to another giant step in the right direction.

I must confess when I first stepped on the scales I was a bit upset. I upped my exercise this week and took in a bit less calories. I really should of kept the cals a bit higher because of the exercise, this week that is my new plan. It really is hard in the scheme of things to say "hey I need to eat more" but there it is.

Enjoy this day with friends and family and have a bit of ham for me. Actually i'm having ham with my family but a little extra never hurt....well maybe it did, or we wouldn't be here. Ok veggies, have veggies for me. God bless on this wonderful day. emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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SLIMPAM23 4/4/2010 1:22PM

    You are heading in the right direction and slow and steady is the way to go!! I am eating ham today too - and veggies on the grill. Instead of pie we are having strawberries on angel food cake with sugar free fat free cool whip. I may overeat - but it will be healthier foods than ever before!
Happy Easter!
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IUHRYTR 4/4/2010 11:57AM

    Wishing you a terrific Easter Sunday. -- Lou

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 4/4/2010 10:18AM

    Easter blessings emoticon, my dear friend, and emoticon on the weight loss. We're getting there. We're going to make it!!! YES WE ARE!!!
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JHADZHIA 4/4/2010 7:52AM

    Enjoy your Easter!
Actually, losing an inch is really good! So well done! I still struggle with the concept you have to eat more when you exercise more, but that is what makes the Fitness and Nutrition Trackers so helpful, it shows how much you need based on what exercise you are getting. They work in tandem. It was interesting as I lost weight and exercised more, how my calorie range changed.
I don't eat ham, but I don't even know what I will be eating as I am going to up my sister's farm today, and she is a Spark advocate, so I assume there will be some healthy options, even though her family doesn't like her new cooking, so she will have bad options for them too.

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BLUEANGELLK 4/4/2010 7:12AM

    Happy Easter to you!

Congratulations on your loss. I know it is disappointing, but it is still a move in the right direction. Keep up with your hard work an it will pay off!!

I will have some ham for you! I am having it later today as well. Unfortunately the only veggies we will have will probably be cheese covered! YUM, but UGH.

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