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Always starting again!!

Thursday, April 08, 2010

emoticonThis is going to be my new motto. Yes I can do it. As I sit here i'm wondering if it will be this month, next, or next year though. I tell myself each day that this is going to be the day I get back to it....nope not today, maybe the next.

Well this morning i've sat down and wrote out a few things I need to do to get there from here, I wrote my goals, and I'm posting it on the fridge. So what my daughter will snicker at it, my husband will ask questions. I will see it each time I head for a snack. I am having trouble with snacks for some reason. I do fine when i'm working, I guess that is because i'm on a schedule, when i'm off I do fine till afternoon. Seems as soon as I sit down to relax I snack. and snack, and snack somemore. Then I beat myself up about it that evening.

I want to see the scales move for the first time in a bit. Yeah I know they are moving a bit here and there, but lets be honest .2 or .4 is something that you can spit out. I want to see a loss, a loss in inches from the areas I need to lose in.

Each week I weigh in and i'm hopefull. Then mid week comes and i'm doubtfull, what is up with that. Am I alone in this thinking. My team mates lose, my buddy is moving her scales. Mine don't. I know don't compare to others, we are our own people, but come on...frustraion is the word I would use. I'm tired of being stuck on the scales. It is time to move it.

So I'm starting again. I"m always starting again. BUt the saying is try and try again. Sooner or later it has to get right. I"m going to get this right. It may not be this week, or next. But each day I exercise is a step, each glass of water is a step, each fruit I choose instead of that chocolate bar is a step. I have learned so much through spark and ww, I just need to apply what i've learned. Planning is the key and I plan to get this right.

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JUNEBUG1944 4/8/2010 10:25PM

    As long as you keep starting over, you are still in the game. You will do it, my friend! I know what you are going through, believe me, I do! Just keep starting over and, hopefully, the times between starting over will become longer and longer until you aren't starting over anymore!

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LITTLEBRICHIZ 4/8/2010 10:30AM

  you can do this. every day is a new day and chance for you to become a new you. we are here for you.

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IUHRYTR 4/8/2010 10:07AM

    Take it one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and you'll get there. -- Lou

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ITSABOUTME2407 4/8/2010 9:31AM

    i loved how topazdiva put it you are only stalled!!! as long as you don't give up just keep that thought running through your mind!I'm going to
i am right there with you emoticonbut... I think???we have to some where along the journey learn to have self talks and be accountable to ourselves right? emoticon
wishing u a successful sparks day emoticontrisha

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/8/2010 8:55AM

    I am glad you are starting again and again and again... You are not a quitter. We might get stalled but we dont quit!!! Thanks for your comments on my blogs. I see we are in the same place. WE CAN DO THIS!!!

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    Mid-week snacker. Oh my! We should form a support group! Or perhaps I need to go to an extra meeting during the week. Geez! This has to stop for me too. Your list on the fridge is a wonderful idea. Thanks for posting ... feels better to not feel alone.

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CHITOWNGURL 4/8/2010 8:38AM

    I know how you feel sister.....right there with you. I am a snacker.....MAJOR SNACKER....I got laid off from my job due to workforce dropping & I eat out of bordem or stress....not working will give you I felt thought if I cannot quit snacking then I would allow myself to snack but just snack on things I like that are healthy or allowed to have....I got the fat free popcorn (some brands do not taste fat free such as Weaver's from walmart) and there are flavoring salts to mix up the flavor....I also eat apples with a little peanut butter....this does not sound like something you would want to snack on but I would force myself to try it first & if I did not want it could go to something else....but after the first bite I loved the sweet & savory of this snack & now love it....I also have lite lauging cow cheese with a few slices of oscar mayer shaved turkey or ham on wheat thins flatbread crackers....I really feel like I am cheating when I eat this! and for 2 long crackers with 3 slices of meat & the wedge of cheese is only 150 calories! Dark chocolate is another snack that is so full of flavor so you do not have to have much to be satisfied & is full of antioxidants & healthy for you....find low calorie or healthy snacks you like & have them handy....veggies dipped in reduced fat sour cream with dry ranch dressing added to it is another fave...I really hope this helps you some...I am the snacking queen but it took me awhile to figure out how to have my snacks and stay in my calorie range. If I want something not calorie friendly I let myself have it but do without something at dinner or have a low calorie dinner instead....good luck! emoticon

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GERAPTIKO 4/8/2010 8:34AM

It's hard but you can do it lots of people have lost weight and they've all had distractions, just do it!

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LOLEMA 4/8/2010 8:23AM

  as long as you don't give up you are doing good

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Getting back to it!!!

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Ok, i'm up, i'm alive, and i'm blessed. Now I really must get back at it. The last couple of days i've been a bit off. I have gotten in exercise and i've gotten in my water and such, but I do believe it was the cake and the piece of pie I had last night that might put me over the edge. But my slate is cleared today, this is a new day with new beginings and i'm up for the challenge. I think I can change up the outcome of this week with a bit of sweat and a lot of measuring. I"m not going to let this one week get me down.

I worry about posting a gain on my tracker. Then I have to stop and tell myself the only one i'm hurting is me. If I don't post is that hurting my team? No, it is me that is the ultimate loser, no pun intended there. I have to post each and every gain, loss, and nothing that comes my way. It holds me accountable to me. Afterall it is me i'm working for no one else.

So i'm off to get in a good run, today is my day to get back at it. no matter what those dumb scales say I know i'm a winner. One day, step, and week at a time.

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COUNTRYBUMKIN65 4/7/2010 3:34PM

    Yes today you have a clean slate... Hopefully when you write on that slate today it will be all wonderful things:)

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/7/2010 1:29PM

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IUHRYTR 4/7/2010 12:32PM

    w beginnings are allowed and encouraged. Hang in there and take it one positive day at a time. -- Lou

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THE_JULES1 4/7/2010 11:52AM

    You can do it. You have had a rough couple weeks. Hang in there!

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    YOU are soooooo worth working for!!!!! emoticon

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JHADZHIA 4/7/2010 10:08AM

    We all have slips ups, its not a crime, just put in the time and get it done!
You are a winner because you aren't giving up!
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RE2BAH 4/7/2010 10:07AM

    emoticonGreat plan!!! Acknowledge that you "fell off the wagon", dust yourself off, get back on the plan that will help you reach your goals!

Your sparkfriends are beside you all the way! emoticon

Have fun! Enjoy the springtime, get out and walk! emoticon emoticon

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Happy Easter and my weigh in

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Happy Easter to you all. First and foremost that is what I want to say. second....weigh in this week: 140.0 down again from 140.4. Not a lot, but still a very good week. Lost an inch during this weeks measurements and in my book both those add up to another giant step in the right direction.

I must confess when I first stepped on the scales I was a bit upset. I upped my exercise this week and took in a bit less calories. I really should of kept the cals a bit higher because of the exercise, this week that is my new plan. It really is hard in the scheme of things to say "hey I need to eat more" but there it is.

Enjoy this day with friends and family and have a bit of ham for me. Actually i'm having ham with my family but a little extra never hurt....well maybe it did, or we wouldn't be here. Ok veggies, have veggies for me. God bless on this wonderful day. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SLIMPAM23 4/4/2010 1:22PM

    You are heading in the right direction and slow and steady is the way to go!! I am eating ham today too - and veggies on the grill. Instead of pie we are having strawberries on angel food cake with sugar free fat free cool whip. I may overeat - but it will be healthier foods than ever before!
Happy Easter!
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IUHRYTR 4/4/2010 11:57AM

    Wishing you a terrific Easter Sunday. -- Lou

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    Easter blessings emoticon, my dear friend, and emoticon on the weight loss. We're getting there. We're going to make it!!! YES WE ARE!!!

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JHADZHIA 4/4/2010 7:52AM

    Enjoy your Easter!
Actually, losing an inch is really good! So well done! I still struggle with the concept you have to eat more when you exercise more, but that is what makes the Fitness and Nutrition Trackers so helpful, it shows how much you need based on what exercise you are getting. They work in tandem. It was interesting as I lost weight and exercised more, how my calorie range changed.
I don't eat ham, but I don't even know what I will be eating as I am going to up my sister's farm today, and she is a Spark advocate, so I assume there will be some healthy options, even though her family doesn't like her new cooking, so she will have bad options for them too.

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BLUEANGELLK 4/4/2010 7:12AM

    Happy Easter to you!

Congratulations on your loss. I know it is disappointing, but it is still a move in the right direction. Keep up with your hard work an it will pay off!!

I will have some ham for you! I am having it later today as well. Unfortunately the only veggies we will have will probably be cheese covered! YUM, but UGH.


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quick quote

Saturday, April 03, 2010

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.
- Anonymous

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TLN-NOW 4/8/2010 5:52PM

    Think about, if you switched the word "watch" for the word "Encourage"

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TLN-NOW 4/8/2010 5:50PM

    Each line, by itself, is a jewel to be pondered and considered~ for better or for worse!

Thank you

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    emoticon I like this ... so very true.
Have a beautiful day, my friend.

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IUHRYTR 4/3/2010 11:41AM

    As we think, so are we. A wise message. Thank you. -- Lou

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Well meaning from family can be such a drag!

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Yesterday I wrote about the stressess of my world as of late. Why is it that people (family) want to understand but in the midst of that they suffocate you. They all want to know why no hysterectomy now, why not fight that? Guys i'm just glad that I may not need that at this point. They are going to take a piece of my cervix out and see what that does. Yes, it could mean going back for the remainder after three months, but I have faith and with that faith I have to be content in knowing that the lord will see me through. I have my strength, my health at this point, besides the little issue of cervical cancer, is great. I"m going ot come through this without a scratch, ok maybe a piece of me missing, but the piece is flawed and i'm working on the beauty that is me, so why not get rid of the flawed?

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the well wishes and such, but i'm a solitary person. Right now my mind is on overload and they keep adding to the thoughts. Got any suggestions on how to slow them down a bit? I could use one or two great suggestions right about now.

I'm keeping up with the exercise this week, I want to heal well. I know i'm strong but am I ready for this challenge set before me? you bet. So i'm off to start my day. exercise and eating right at the key to getting better quickly and I intend to do just that.

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    Keeping you in my prayers. I still remember 20 years ago when I went through all my Gyn surgeries. Smothering is what families are best at it seems. Big emoticon

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DIANE7786 4/1/2010 9:39AM

    I'm sorry you have to go through medical treatment. Big hugs for a quick recovery. You have lots of the kind of support you need on this site. I read in your previous blog that your insurance won't pay for a full hysterectomy until after you try the partial. You are a solitary person but it sounds like your family is stressed and think talking will make sense of this. Maybe you can calmly listen, thank them for their concern and then talk long, solitary walks to keep yourself relaxed.

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MAYBER 4/1/2010 8:45AM

    Smile and agree with them cause you will never be able to tell them to mind their own business and you have to do what is best for you one day at a time you are in thoughts and prayers. God bless.

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IUHRYTR 4/1/2010 8:42AM

    Stay convinced that your decision is the best one for YOU and ignore the others, change the topic or come right our and say you don't want to talk about it. If they persist, walk away. Be well. - Lou

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RE2BAH 4/1/2010 8:38AM

    It's hard to hear comments about what you should do especially when you've decided what's best for YOU!

Keep a smile on your face and say this is what your faith led you to do!

Stay strong with them and in your fitness and nutrition!

Have a great week! emoticon emoticon

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