Thursday, April 08, 2010
This is going to be my new motto. Yes I can do it. As I sit here i'm wondering if it will be this month, next, or next year though. I tell myself each day that this is going to be the day I get back to it....nope not today, maybe the next.
Well this morning i've sat down and wrote out a few things I need to do to get there from here, I wrote my goals, and I'm posting it on the fridge. So what my daughter will snicker at it, my husband will ask questions. I will see it each time I head for a snack. I am having trouble with snacks for some reason. I do fine when i'm working, I guess that is because i'm on a schedule, when i'm off I do fine till afternoon. Seems as soon as I sit down to relax I snack. and snack, and snack somemore. Then I beat myself up about it that evening.
I want to see the scales move for the first time in a bit. Yeah I know they are moving a bit here and there, but lets be honest .2 or .4 is something that you can spit out. I want to see a loss, a loss in inches from the areas I need to lose in.
Each week I weigh in and i'm hopefull. Then mid week comes and i'm doubtfull, what is up with that. Am I alone in this thinking. My team mates lose, my buddy is moving her scales. Mine don't. I know don't compare to others, we are our own people, but come on...frustraion is the word I would use. I'm tired of being stuck on the scales. It is time to move it.
So I'm starting again. I"m always starting again. BUt the saying is try and try again. Sooner or later it has to get right. I"m going to get this right. It may not be this week, or next. But each day I exercise is a step, each glass of water is a step, each fruit I choose instead of that chocolate bar is a step. I have learned so much through spark and ww, I just need to apply what i've learned. Planning is the key and I plan to get this right.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Ok, i'm up, i'm alive, and i'm blessed. Now I really must get back at it. The last couple of days i've been a bit off. I have gotten in exercise and i've gotten in my water and such, but I do believe it was the cake and the piece of pie I had last night that might put me over the edge. But my slate is cleared today, this is a new day with new beginings and i'm up for the challenge. I think I can change up the outcome of this week with a bit of sweat and a lot of measuring. I"m not going to let this one week get me down.
I worry about posting a gain on my tracker. Then I have to stop and tell myself the only one i'm hurting is me. If I don't post is that hurting my team? No, it is me that is the ultimate loser, no pun intended there. I have to post each and every gain, loss, and nothing that comes my way. It holds me accountable to me. Afterall it is me i'm working for no one else.
So i'm off to get in a good run, today is my day to get back at it. no matter what those dumb scales say I know i'm a winner. One day, step, and week at a time.
Saturday, April 03, 2010
Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Yesterday I wrote about the stressess of my world as of late. Why is it that people (family) want to understand but in the midst of that they suffocate you. They all want to know why no hysterectomy now, why not fight that? Guys i'm just glad that I may not need that at this point. They are going to take a piece of my cervix out and see what that does. Yes, it could mean going back for the remainder after three months, but I have faith and with that faith I have to be content in knowing that the lord will see me through. I have my strength, my health at this point, besides the little issue of cervical cancer, is great. I"m going ot come through this without a scratch, ok maybe a piece of me missing, but the piece is flawed and i'm working on the beauty that is me, so why not get rid of the flawed?
Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the well wishes and such, but i'm a solitary person. Right now my mind is on overload and they keep adding to the thoughts. Got any suggestions on how to slow them down a bit? I could use one or two great suggestions right about now.
I'm keeping up with the exercise this week, I want to heal well. I know i'm strong but am I ready for this challenge set before me? you bet. So i'm off to start my day. exercise and eating right at the key to getting better quickly and I intend to do just that.
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