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Saturday, April 03, 2010

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.
- Anonymous

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TLN-NOW 4/8/2010 5:52PM

    Think about, if you switched the word "watch" for the word "Encourage"

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TLN-NOW 4/8/2010 5:50PM

    Each line, by itself, is a jewel to be pondered and considered~ for better or for worse!

Thank you

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    emoticon I like this ... so very true.
Have a beautiful day, my friend.

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IUHRYTR 4/3/2010 11:41AM

    As we think, so are we. A wise message. Thank you. -- Lou

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Well meaning from family can be such a drag!

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Yesterday I wrote about the stressess of my world as of late. Why is it that people (family) want to understand but in the midst of that they suffocate you. They all want to know why no hysterectomy now, why not fight that? Guys i'm just glad that I may not need that at this point. They are going to take a piece of my cervix out and see what that does. Yes, it could mean going back for the remainder after three months, but I have faith and with that faith I have to be content in knowing that the lord will see me through. I have my strength, my health at this point, besides the little issue of cervical cancer, is great. I"m going ot come through this without a scratch, ok maybe a piece of me missing, but the piece is flawed and i'm working on the beauty that is me, so why not get rid of the flawed?

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the well wishes and such, but i'm a solitary person. Right now my mind is on overload and they keep adding to the thoughts. Got any suggestions on how to slow them down a bit? I could use one or two great suggestions right about now.

I'm keeping up with the exercise this week, I want to heal well. I know i'm strong but am I ready for this challenge set before me? you bet. So i'm off to start my day. exercise and eating right at the key to getting better quickly and I intend to do just that.

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    Keeping you in my prayers. I still remember 20 years ago when I went through all my Gyn surgeries. Smothering is what families are best at it seems. Big emoticon

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DIANE7786 4/1/2010 9:39AM

    I'm sorry you have to go through medical treatment. Big hugs for a quick recovery. You have lots of the kind of support you need on this site. I read in your previous blog that your insurance won't pay for a full hysterectomy until after you try the partial. You are a solitary person but it sounds like your family is stressed and think talking will make sense of this. Maybe you can calmly listen, thank them for their concern and then talk long, solitary walks to keep yourself relaxed.

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MAYBER 4/1/2010 8:45AM

    Smile and agree with them cause you will never be able to tell them to mind their own business and you have to do what is best for you one day at a time you are in thoughts and prayers. God bless.

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IUHRYTR 4/1/2010 8:42AM

    Stay convinced that your decision is the best one for YOU and ignore the others, change the topic or come right our and say you don't want to talk about it. If they persist, walk away. Be well. - Lou

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RE2BAH 4/1/2010 8:38AM

    It's hard to hear comments about what you should do especially when you've decided what's best for YOU!

Keep a smile on your face and say this is what your faith led you to do!

Stay strong with them and in your fitness and nutrition!

Have a great week! emoticon emoticon

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Moving on through the stress

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

When this year started I was so full of excitement for the year to begin. 2010 just had a great ring to it, but as this year has progressed and not too far into I may add, I have met many hurdles i've had to overcome. THe first was my son and his addiction which has been going on for some time. We went through the cleaning up process many months, about two years, ago, and wham I was hit with this again. He is working this out now, and even has a job. ONe hurdle over.

I get test results from a normal yearly pap smear that don't come out quite right. I go back for more, again not good, and then I do a biopsy, Not good at all. Results came in yesterday. I have cancer of the cervix. Fixable yes, but daunting just the same. I"m now going for a in hospital surgery, i'm having part of my cervix removed. Not all yet, but my doctor tells me that is to probably come. Insurance says I have to do this first. Welcome to my world. Hurdle number two.

SO far the only good thing so far this year is my daughter bought her first house. Or I should say is in the process. She is just waiting on the closing apr. 23. It needs some work and i'm looking forward to getting my hands dirty and my mind on something else for awhile. But I only hope my surgery isn't about the same time. That would be another wrench in my year.

My weight loss is going fine I suppose. i"M up, i'm down, i'm inbetween. I"m getting a bit overwhelmed with that. I must confess last night I snacked till I couldn't see straight. Binged is what I should call it. NOthing to bad, but enough to make me even more upset. I never thought of myself as an emotional eater but maybe I am. I kept thinking what difference does this make in the scheme of things?

Well i'm awake now, and I can see the difference. I have to take care of me during this time. And bingeing isn't doing that. So i'm up, i'm ready to move on and i'm going to do just that. I'm not going to lie, my mind isn't where it needs to be right now, but i'm going ot be fine. It is the road I have to follow right now that makes me a bit nervous.

I"m going to get there from here. It is going to take me one step at a time but I will get there.

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WITHSPIRIT 3/31/2010 8:13PM

    Oh, I will be praying for your good health!!!

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IUHRYTR 3/31/2010 2:07PM

    Hang tough one positive day at a time. Prayers sent your way for a quick recovery. -- Lou

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COUNTRYBUMKIN65 3/31/2010 1:59PM

    Be Strong and Know There Are Lots of Prayers Being Sent Your Way... Biggest And Warmest of HUGS!!!!!

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THE_JULES1 3/31/2010 12:07PM


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    Oh my sweet friend. emoticon emoticon You are in my prayers ... and will continue to be. I'm always here for you.

2010 is only one quarter over. Think of the time left for the most remarkable things left in this year for you! YOU soooooo deserve them!

Love and prayers,

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WALKNLOVE 3/31/2010 8:12AM

    May God grant you the strength you need to fly over these hurdles in the race we call life! May you run & not grow weary, may you walk and not faint. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength! And you will not only come out victorious...YOU WILL WIN! emoticon

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My star moment

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I sit down to check my email and maybe spark for a bit before bed and to my surprise I have been awarded the Alabama team member of the week. What an honor. I gushed like a school girl and the goodies, and notes on my spark page where awesome to say the least. I got the award for doing what spark teaches us to do best....welcome new members, encourage, lend a helping hand, huddle, and just be there for our team and ourselves. Thank you isn't enough but it is all I have to give at this time. This has just made my night, new day, and the rest of my week. I also want to say with this comes a new found energy for this week and it's weigh in.

I'm going to make me proud this day and everyday. I"m going to get there from here one step, day and week at a time. emoticon emoticon

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IUHRYTR 3/30/2010 9:31PM

    emoticon on a emoticon honor well deserved. -- Lou

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JUNEBUG1944 3/30/2010 2:27PM

    Woohoo! It is an honor...especially since you are the FIRST Star of the week! You deserve it! Enjoy!

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BRONXBABE 3/30/2010 9:21AM

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Couldn't have happened to a nicer gal!

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UNSTOPPABLE_ 3/30/2010 9:08AM

    emoticonYou deserve it!

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LOSINGJESS 3/30/2010 8:59AM

    grats emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon That's just wonderful! I'm so happy for you!!!

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SPYKEY_RYE 3/30/2010 7:38AM

    Wow, what an accomplishment! Well done that's amazing!

Totally well deserved as well - you have picked me up and kept me on track more than once! Well done hun! x

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Great Day

Monday, March 29, 2010

Yesterday was an awesome day. I got up and went out for a good walk. The weather was so great here in Alabama that you just wanted to enjoy it. I also washed both our vehicles (they needed it after a very long winter).

I went to the store yesterday and the girl that waits on us most of the time actually asked me if I was losing weight....Now that was awesome it itself. When someone notices it just makes you smile and I know my face lit up. All this hard work is paying off. And don't get me wrong, this is hard work. But I have bad moments, food mistakes, snacks that aren't counted. We all do, but I also have good meals, many fruits and veggies, exercises on most days, and a gazillion cups on water. So the hardwork overrules the bad moments.

I'm going to get there from here, one step, day, and week at a time. Have an awesome day all.

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JUNEBUG1944 3/29/2010 11:21PM

    It sure is great when someone notices! You're doing great, keep it up! Congratulations, again, on being the Alabama Star of the Week!

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IUHRYTR 3/29/2010 11:01AM

    When someone notices we're losing weight, it really does brighten our day. -- Lou

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PATRISNA 3/29/2010 10:17AM

    I Hope you have a wonderful week! You are doing great!

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    I love the "gazillion cups on water" ... just made me laugh this morning. It is a gazillion, isn't it!?

Have a glorious day, my sweet friend!

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