Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I sit down to check my email and maybe spark for a bit before bed and to my surprise I have been awarded the Alabama team member of the week. What an honor. I gushed like a school girl and the goodies, and notes on my spark page where awesome to say the least. I got the award for doing what spark teaches us to do best....welcome new members, encourage, lend a helping hand, huddle, and just be there for our team and ourselves. Thank you isn't enough but it is all I have to give at this time. This has just made my night, new day, and the rest of my week. I also want to say with this comes a new found energy for this week and it's weigh in.
I'm going to make me proud this day and everyday. I"m going to get there from here one step, day and week at a time.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Yesterday was an awesome day. I got up and went out for a good walk. The weather was so great here in Alabama that you just wanted to enjoy it. I also washed both our vehicles (they needed it after a very long winter).
I went to the store yesterday and the girl that waits on us most of the time actually asked me if I was losing weight....Now that was awesome it itself. When someone notices it just makes you smile and I know my face lit up. All this hard work is paying off. And don't get me wrong, this is hard work. But I have bad moments, food mistakes, snacks that aren't counted. We all do, but I also have good meals, many fruits and veggies, exercises on most days, and a gazillion cups on water. So the hardwork overrules the bad moments.
I'm going to get there from here, one step, day, and week at a time. Have an awesome day all.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Life is a journey. It is not a race to test who can finish first or who can end up with the most loot. Rather, life is best enjoyed as a meander - watching the view to left and right - above and below - as the days slowly move past in dress review.
Well it finally happened, I lost this week in a very good way for my recent weigh ins: down 0.6 this week. Almost a whole pound. that is awesome. My journey is moving along, finally. I want you to know that it meant counting, tracking, exercisesing, weighing food, measuring food. It didn't just happen. It was a little creativity and a lot of work.
I didn't try to race to the finish line. I took it slow, I ate when hungry, exercised daily (even if for 10 minutes a couple of days), but I wasn't in any hurry to finish. I want to enjoy the ride while i'm here. I"m seeing changes in myself daily, and I"m making new progress with myself. Life is good today, and with a lot of help from my leader it will be good tomorrow.
So guys, enjoy the journey, take it one step at a time and before you know it you will be at the finish line.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I'm hoping this is my day to shine. All is working out well with my daughter and her home. She just had to be patient. Pathways from fannie mae is awesome for first time homebuyers like her.
As for mom? i'm holding my own. My hubby and I hare having a few problems and I know deep in my heart it is my fault this is happening. Now don't get me wrong he is by no means perfect, I mean after all he is a male, lol.. He just don't understand my stress right now and really I just need to work on me. I'm in need of some me time. Last night I took it. Went for a drive, alone, went to a store and bought something for me. I got some new pjs finally, and I must admitt, they are a juniors 7/9 and they look darn good. I had to stop in the mirror this morning and just gaze at the wide wonder I had found. (borrowed that from a song). I should of done this a bit ago but maybe I wasn't ready. I had to grow, and learn. OH yes i'm learning about me all the time.
My children have always been my first and formost priority, then my hubby, the dogs, you get the picture, I fall to the very bottom. Soaking in a tub? you have to be crazy that entails me to undress, too much effort there. Do my nails? who has time to just sit still for any length of time, too much to do.
Now I must confess as my spark friends know, my children are grown, no longer at home. And I must confess I don't know how to take care of me. Even when I say I will, I don't. Where do you begin? How do you do it without the guilt of "I should be doing such and such"? This is where i'm at. I was so young when I had my kids I went from teenager to mom in zero point two seconds. I have been focused on family for so long when I do for me the guilt is aweful and heavy.
But alas this is my day to shine. The sun is out, I have new pj's, new panties, new socks, darn I"m a new person already. I have the warm weather, and a day to be me. My new life starts today. Move out of my way Michelle is coming through and nothing is going to stop her this time around. The guilt will still be there at times, like i'm letting someone down, but that is not for me, I"m not letting anyone down except me.
I didn't spend 20.00 yesterday and that 20.00 made me feel like a million buck this morning. I'm going to get there from here, one step, day, and week at a time. Not only am I going to reach my goal for the first time in my life, i'm going to take better care of me.
Friday, March 26, 2010
As I sit here about to get ready for another day of work, though it is friday thank goodness, and my exercise routine i'm aware that this is the norm now and not the occasional doings it used to be. that is the exercise. Each morning as I get up have a cup of coffee, yes some of us do survive on a cup, and I do a coach nicole video or just some of my own strength, then off to outdoors or the elliptical depending on the weather. then it is shower and off to work. My routine is not hard, not tiring, and I'm usually on time to work. Now mind you I do get up about 30 min. to an hour earlier than I could but is it worth it? You bet ya!!
As this week has been full of activity and mind numbing experiences i'm so glad for the even keel of my morning routine. Without it I would be so frazzled. My daughter is trying to purchase her first home, it isn't new by any means, needs work, and she is having trouble with her loan because of this, she calls and is upset and mom has to lend a ear, an arm, and a hug. That is my job, but I have to repeat to her as I often have, anything worth having never comes easy. If this home isn't the one there will be others to choose from. She doesn't like to hear this and I wish financially I could give this to her but I can't. We don't always get what we want, but we always get what we need.
I also have the tests that I took the other day for cervical cancer in the back of my mind. I say the back because I'm trying not to ponder the whys, where to fors, and such of this little trouble. It isn't the cancer that scares me as much as the tests and the pain of each one. I had a good cry last night, not out of pitty, but for my daughter and her dilemmas, me and mine, and just for the injustices in general. Does anyone else ever just feel like you have to cry to clear your head? I do!
I'm writing all this in that is seems to go hand in hand with this journey i'm on for my weight,....again nothing worth having comes easy, this is hard work. Getting healthy and staying there is hard work. I can't give up and I can't give in. What will be will be. I have faith that will see me through. I'm going to end this blog now as I have to get ready for a walk outside. Weather is permitting this and i'm ready. I can't run at this time due to healing from dr.s appointment but I can walk.
I will get there from here, one day, step, and week at a time.
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