Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Ok, enough. I'm so close to goal but I have to kick it up a notch. I'm exercising but i let the cold define my day. Yeah the nordic (elliptical) is great, and the bike is ok(not my favorite piece of equipment), but i need fresh air. I need to run. To be honest with myself i'm not even getting 20 minutes in lately. Some days yes but too often not. I strength train, but when i took measurements yesterday i wasn't down in the waist or bust or arms. That tells me i'm doing fine with the lower part of my body but i need to revamp my upper and core.
I'm getting in my water intake, and my fruits and veggies. The little gold stars i give for that daily are adding up. It is my calories (ww points for me) that aren't going where i want. I'm using way too many free points daily and at the end of the week i'm left with none. Not good. My nighttime snacks are down this week but that is still a constant struggle for me.
So i'm blogging this new plan for me and to hold me accountable. I have a goal in mind, I have a new me waiting. Well the new me is already here. I do notice the changes in me but I want to reach for the first time in my life a goal. I don't want to dream about it, i don't want to wish it, I want to meet and surpass it.
I'm going to sit down, come up with a plan of action, and do my darndest to reach all my goals. This weight I have been carrying around being the first of them. Yes I don't have much left, less than 10 pounds, but I did start out rather large, obese by the standards set in the trackers, and i'm only 5' 1". Not pretty, and not a happy person. When i look at my loss and weight I see low numbers and I have to sometimes kick myself and let me know that the numbers don't matter one bit. I had to struggle with this journey the same as any one of the others even though I only had to lose fifty pounds and they may have more. The journey is not different and I need to give me credit for the work that i have done. So today i'm giving me credit and i'm going to get to my goal. No matter if it takes me another year, of which i hope not, or it takes me six months. I'm going ot take this off and then i'm going to keep it off. I sure don't want any of it back.
So I hope with my next blog I can give an update with the new plan, new ideas and the new me coming to be. The mind is a terrible place sometimes. I have issues as do so many of us, I mean we got here for the wrong reasons but we stay for the right ones. I'm working on my issues and I have overcome a few, I'm stronger in mind as well as in body. As a person with depression I can only hope that one day i can give up the meds for good. But on a great note i have cut back to half. . I guess where i'm going with this blog is all over the page, but i had a few things i wanted to clear off my mind so i can begin fresh.
I guess what i want to say in closing is no matter what we see on the outside, inside lurks an awesome person waiting to be heard or seen. I am going to get there from here. This journey and the friends i have made along the way have been the best thing to happen to me. I mean after all I have stayed with this for over a year now. God bless you all and have a very spark day.