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A few quotes to share

Monday, March 01, 2010

No one is in control of your happiness but you
No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.
- Barbara De Angelis

Self-disciplined begins with the mastery of your thoughts. If you don't control what you think, you can't control what you do. Simply, self-discipline enables you to think first and act afterward.
- Napoleon Hill

If we want to direct our lives, we must take control of our consistent actions. It's not what we do once in a while that shapes our lives, but what we do consistently.
- Anthony Robbins

Regrets are the tears of choices not made and of good deeds left undone.
- Jonathan

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PURPLELVR7 3/1/2010 8:18PM

    Thank you

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THE_JULES1 3/1/2010 3:49PM


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HIDIANE 3/1/2010 11:28AM

    Excellent post, thank you!!
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IUHRYTR 3/1/2010 8:32AM

    "Regrets are the tears of choices not made and of good deeds left undone." - Jonathan

How wise. For we truly do regret forever not doing what we know in our heart we should have done. Thanks forthe reminder we need to follow our feelings and do what is right, for us and for others. -- Lou

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    Consistency ... it's going to get us to goal ... and keep us there! Thanks for posting these. What a great way to start the day!

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LADYPIPPIE 3/1/2010 6:52AM

    Thanks for posting these quotes.

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TATTER3 3/1/2010 6:51AM

    LOVE it!!! Thanks for posting! Have a great day!!!

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I may be up in weight but i'm not out

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Well it is official i'm up 2 pounds from last week. emoticon emoticon emoticon I'm up but i';m not out. I would like to think this is a learning experience for me. Now I have to use my new word HALT, get in more exercise, and a lot less snacks. I would also like to blame this gain on my emoticon but I would be just shifting the blame and not hold myself accountable. Let's face it guys you can't lose if your snacking everynight after dinner, and I don't mean a lite snack....I mean a SNACK.

So now that the moment of upset has passed, not at the scales at myself and my lack of control for the most part, i'm ready for this new week. I'm off to a wonderful start (of course today is my first day of the week), and we all know it can go anywhere from here. But I have the gumption to get there and I have more than enough energy, fight, and ambition for a couple of us right now. I can see the goal just over that next ridge and I so want to get there.

I sat on spark last night for the first time in a long time and read through some of my journal entries. Do any of you journal? It was a picture book to my past, the struggles I had my first year of this journey, the ups, downs and a lot of inbetweens. It renewed me for the next leg of my journey. I'm ready to begin again. For me sometimes it gets to a point where I want to just give in and say the heck with it. The work seems to hard, the weighing, measuring, and counting is too much work. The the lightbulb goes off once again and I know it is all worth it in the end.

Oh yes, there will be an end, maybe not in the final, finished, kaput, kinda way, but an end to the dislike of oneself, the end of the tiredness you feel from just plain being lazy, the lack of interest in most anything. Oh yeah, I see that end. I still have to pinch myself when I look in the mirror sometimes to let me know that is me and not the almost 180 pound woman that I loathed. Nope this is the new me, the me that wears a size six, in jeans, the me that gets up an hour early for work to have a coffee and a cardio sessions. This is the me that eats carrots and veggies like they are the milk chocolate of life. Oh yes sir, i'm going to get over this ridge, and when I do, watch out. You will hear me shouting from Alabama to my friends in Canada and the greater US.

I'm going to quit this blog now, I could go on and on today and I really don't know why. I guess my sense of being I have come to understand is a part of me and I have spark, the challenges, and my friends on here and off for the support and the pushes I get each leg of my journey. I'm going to get there from here just you wait and see. emoticon

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JUNEBUG1944 3/1/2010 11:34AM

    Good for you for sticking with it. It sure is disappointing when we gain back some of the weight we've worked so hard to lose! I keep threatening myself that I'm going to duct tape my mouth if I eat in the evenings!

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WENDYSPARKS 2/28/2010 12:31PM

    Keep up the good work! You can do it! Have a nice day, from wendy

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IUHRYTR 2/28/2010 12:26PM

    emoticon on the new self-awareness and determination. Take things one meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and you will be successful. -- Lou

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    emoticon How awesome to see you taking such good care of you!!! You are going to make it to goal and maintain!

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Saturday, February 27, 2010

Here I sit, evening before weigh in....and i'm wondering did I get it done this week? why do I do this to myself? I tell myself about Wednesday that if i lose I lose, if not it will be ok, then comes the dreaded saturday.

I'm done with this nervous pity on myself. I've come so far and I want to go so far. I have goals, and things left undone. If I don't get out of my own way it doesn't get done. It is as simple as that. On my ww team I learned a new word HALT. It means H: hungy A: angry L: lonely T: tired. If you find you are standing in front of the fridge or pantry you use this word. HALT. Then decide, do you really want it, is this a feeling or am I really hungry? Used it this evening after dinner. I"m drinking water. One moment saved from temptation.

I have saved and saved for a new treadmill. New isn't really the word I should use, a treadmill as I don't own one yet. Anyhow I finally succeeded. Next weekend when i'm off that baby I have been eyeing from my walmart is coming home with me. No more wondering what i'm going to do on rainy or cold days. Don't get me wrong I have a home gym with a few items currently....elliptical, bike, and weights. THe nordic trak doesn't reccomend using daily only everyother, and the bike loses its appeal to me after say 15 min. Now I can get back to running and bypass last summers distance. emoticon

Well that is it for this evening. I wish I had some exciting story to share, or joke, but alas I had to work today and nothing but rushing to note on that. Did stock up for the coming week with healthy foods though after. So I will end this blog with a heartfelt i'm going to get there note and crossing my fingers for tomorrow and my date with the scales. emoticon

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TREESA57 2/28/2010 7:03AM

I had a ww soup day yesterday and gained a pound this morning. Ugh! I guess my treadmill is going to get a good work out today. The cabbage must be fermenting in my tummy, I must run to get it moving.I sure hope it waits until I am done! Have a good day and good luck on your scales.

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IUHRYTR 2/27/2010 9:00PM

    "Now I can get back to running and bypass last summers distance." Love your determination and will-do attitude. With that kind of thinking you are already a success and continue progressing toward your goal. Keep up the good effort. -- Lou

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MAMAPAT3 2/27/2010 8:51PM

    Yes, day before weigh-in. Had a splurge day yesterday; and just plain ate too much today. Ate til I felt too full. Haven't done that in over 2 months. Good luck!

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New me update

Thursday, February 25, 2010

I did it, I set my goal, drew up a plan and posted it where I can see it daily. I did fine yesterday and today i'm off to a great start. Getting in 30 min. of cardio is a big help. We shall see after this weigh in. I drew up a plan for the day and followed though with food, exercise and such. It is an awesome feeling to make it work. Now on to day 2, one day at a time.

So if you need to begin again, sit down and come up with plan you can follow and then just do it. I'm off to finish my exercise and then get ready for work. we are going to get there from here, I know I am.

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IUHRYTR 2/25/2010 4:54PM

    emoticon One positive day at a time. -- Lou

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THE_JULES1 2/25/2010 11:41AM

    You are off on a streak! Yay!

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KELLIGIRL523 2/25/2010 8:46AM

    You are absolutely right! A GOAL, without a PLAN, is simply a wish. You're on the right track! Good luck.

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The new me plan

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Ok, enough. I'm so close to goal but I have to kick it up a notch. I'm exercising but i let the cold define my day. Yeah the nordic (elliptical) is great, and the bike is ok(not my favorite piece of equipment), but i need fresh air. I need to run. To be honest with myself i'm not even getting 20 minutes in lately. Some days yes but too often not. I strength train, but when i took measurements yesterday i wasn't down in the waist or bust or arms. That tells me i'm doing fine with the lower part of my body but i need to revamp my upper and core.

I'm getting in my water intake, and my fruits and veggies. The little gold stars i give for that daily are adding up. It is my calories (ww points for me) that aren't going where i want. I'm using way too many free points daily and at the end of the week i'm left with none. Not good. My nighttime snacks are down this week but that is still a constant struggle for me.

So i'm blogging this new plan for me and to hold me accountable. I have a goal in mind, I have a new me waiting. Well the new me is already here. I do notice the changes in me but I want to reach for the first time in my life a goal. I don't want to dream about it, i don't want to wish it, I want to meet and surpass it.

I'm going to sit down, come up with a plan of action, and do my darndest to reach all my goals. This weight I have been carrying around being the first of them. Yes I don't have much left, less than 10 pounds, but I did start out rather large, obese by the standards set in the trackers, and i'm only 5' 1". Not pretty, and not a happy person. When i look at my loss and weight I see low numbers and I have to sometimes kick myself and let me know that the numbers don't matter one bit. I had to struggle with this journey the same as any one of the others even though I only had to lose fifty pounds and they may have more. The journey is not different and I need to give me credit for the work that i have done. So today i'm giving me credit emoticon and i'm going to get to my goal. No matter if it takes me another year, of which i hope not, or it takes me six months. I'm going ot take this off and then i'm going to keep it off. I sure don't want any of it back.

So I hope with my next blog I can give an update with the new plan, new ideas and the new me coming to be. The mind is a terrible place sometimes. I have issues as do so many of us, I mean we got here for the wrong reasons but we stay for the right ones. I'm working on my issues and I have overcome a few, I'm stronger in mind as well as in body. As a person with depression I can only hope that one day i can give up the meds for good. But on a great note i have cut back to half. emoticon. I guess where i'm going with this blog is all over the page, but i had a few things i wanted to clear off my mind so i can begin fresh.

I guess what i want to say in closing is no matter what we see on the outside, inside lurks an awesome person waiting to be heard or seen. I am going to get there from here. This journey and the friends i have made along the way have been the best thing to happen to me. I mean after all I have stayed with this for over a year now. God bless you all and have a very spark day. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 2/24/2010 4:01PM

    Probably the best motivator we have is to look how far we have come without lessening our focus on where we are heading. I love your positive attitude and "can do" spirit. Hang in there. You'll make it. -- Lou

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THE_JULES1 2/24/2010 12:20PM

    It is easy to get into an exercise rut! I get there from time to time.
I believe you are going to get there!
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GRAMSIECAKES2 2/24/2010 8:45AM

    I loved your post and all of your information too. I know I have to start over again too. As you, I like to be outdoors too. It has been so snowy here that I too have been using my stationary bike and elliptical instead...Good luck on your journey....

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