Sunday, February 14, 2010
well guys I can't explain it. This week has been tough, I used all my ww points and then some, it was my pms week and I step on the scales this morning with the "ok, this is not going to be good" attitude and guess what? I'm down a half pound. . The only thing i can figure is that i kept up with my exercise, and my water and got in veggies and fruits. I have to give credit to the exercise. So if you are having a moment or two like me this past week, just like spark says just pick ;up where you left off and you will still come out a winner.
So this is my valentines gift to me. This is my new week with new goals. I even took spark up on one of its articles and got me some little gold stars. I plan on using them in my journal to show me my progress for this week. I will continue this little "game" until i'm where i need to be. Sort of a reward on a daily basis kinda thing.
Do you reward yourself? If so, how? I sometimes feel a little goes a long way. We need to feel good about ourselves or this little journey and lifestyle change just won't work. I was feeling sorry for myself this past week. But a few spark friends picked me up and sent me back on my way. I really was at the i want to quit stage, i say i was, but i couldn't. As my getting up and exercising daily showed. I'm in this for the long haul. Up or down, it is how i handle the setbacks that will get me where i'm going.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
As I awake this morning all I see for miles and miles is white. Now some of you may say so, we see that all the time in winter. but guys i live in Greenville, alabama. This is my third snow in 14 years. And i should be saying oh what beauty, I'm from vermont, i don't like snow. i'm thinking i didn't go far enough south. lol.
now don't get me wrong, it is bright, white, and really is a site to behold. oh wait that was yesterday, today it should be gone. But alas it is still here all four inches of the stuff. You see we are not equiped to handle this mess. we don't have salt trucks, plows, or snow shoes. we have parkas, thin gloves, a broom to clear the car off with. and my husband used a dirt shovel to clear a path on the porch. they are asking that we don't go out on the roads for a bit today until the thaw.
I'm hoping today that i can get out for a walk in this beauty. the weather right now isn't too cold and i have some groceries to get and then it is me time. so maybe a walk with the dogs would be great. They are not liking this much either. so i may have to coax them out. oh well.
i'm off to a good start on my spark this morning and tomorrow starts my new week. i'm ready to give it heck and have a much better week. i want to wish all a very wonderful day. michelle.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Well today is my new day....no more giving in or up. I have to sit down and come up with a new plan. Now I know this week is probably a bust on the scales, but such is life. There is next week and my big comeback. Well maybe not a comeback but a show for sure.
You know life sometimes gets in the way and I most of all need to come up with new ways of making it work. I do ww and for me the points system is so much easier to handle. Even though this week I may have eaten over my calories, I have to point out my good parts to me also....I ate breakfast daily, i still got in my exercise daily, i drank my water and i ate my fruits and veggies. So even though I had snacks that i shouldn't of and I had whole moments of dispare, i'm not going to let this one week in a whole year of weeks define me.
I will define myself and as such it is up to me to make this work. This isn't a test, this isn't a contest, this is a journey. And with that comes hills, curves, and flat surfaces. I'm just on a hill with a curve at the bottom thats all. This is a new day with new challenges, I feel like for the first time in many days i'm ready for those challenges.
So to all my spark friends and visitors to my recent blogs: thank you all for giving me the push and the respect i needed. you didn't kick me you lifted me up and for that i'm eternally greatful. that is one reason why i love spark and all the friends and teams i have made, and earned. god bless you all. michelle.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.'
It is funny after yesterdays blog this was in my email this morning. I feel like the lord is trying to tell me something. Do i believe? you bettcha!!!
this is a new day and a new beginning. i'm going to give it heck and then some. i may not reach all my goals today, but heck i have a lifetime. see ya at the finish line.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I just finished reading my blog from Sunday and i'm sorry to say I lied not only to you all but to myself. I said this was a new week and I was going to do better....well so far I've had one good day, sunday, now it is wednesday and i'm wondering if today is the day I turn myself around. I strayed from my plan, not enough to hurt, just enough to make my question why i'm even bothering with all this.
Has anyone ever just wanted to eat what they want without the guilt that goes along with it. I mean darn if i eat chocolate i'm calculating the points (ww) factor into it, if i don't have a veggie with a meal i'm feeling like i'm forgetting something. water? that is something else all together, i count each drink. Sometimes don't you just want to have that drink because your thirsty not because you have to get in eight or ten glasses?
you see this week is not good for me on many levels, first and foremost pms, and with the the feelings, then there is the weight challenge on one of my teams, i worry each week if i'm still in it to win it or am i down to the next level of still losing. such pressure sometimes. yes, i'm still in it to win it, but i need to win this for me, not a spark goodie. but the satifaction i get from know i did all that i could do to help me.
the weather here is cold, and i don't do cold. that is bringing on the winter blues. i watched the biggest loser (my favorite show) and i cried. my husband says i won't be allowed to watch if that is how it makes me feel. it wasn't the show, it was watching them do what needed to be done and losing. losing the barriers that put them there, losing the weight, the stigma. It all works together.
we always have good blogs, blogs of wonder, blogs of humor, blogs of triumphs, well today is my blog of pity. i don't want your pity, i just want to know i'm not alone in this. i know we all are here for the same things, but are we all feeling these feelings at different points? are we all having weeks, not days, weeks, when we want to just say the heck with this? if you say no, you may be lying to yourself. lets' face it sports fans, each day is a struggle of some kind. i just want to know that this struggle is going to make me the person i so want to become.
It seems i get this far, no wait, i've never been this close before, and i want to quit. what is that all about? the hard part is over, now it is the sliding into home part i want. I want the glory, i want the moment of fame.
I won't quit this battle. If i end up in the "i'm still in it" part of my challenge so what. there are a lot of us there, if i end up in the " still in it to win it" woohoo. I can't let this define me. I can't let the scales rule me (yeah right that one is tough). i have to be in this for me and me alone. i have the tools to make it or break it and at this point not making it would make me feel worse then the im trying stage.
so when you read this blog, know that i'm still trying. i'm struggling daily with issues we all face, but i would like to know i'm not alone. i know this is a meal at a time, day at a time, journey. but sometimes guys the road is long and very curved up ahead.
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